✤ Sketchbook doodles! Realtime sketch session to keep you company // ballpoint pen 

hahahah, thank you, it's good to know. I'm very self-conscious when talking about problems/issues in videos because I know there are people that I can easily disturb if I actually fully relaxed and spoke from the heart lmao. My style of speech leans pretty hyperbolic sometimes, I'm very glad you found it funny :PP

Thank you x'D addiction is real lmaoo

I don't know how you managed to do this, but it's amazing to know! Good for you. I hope to be able to ditch my phone for the most part as much as I can going forward ;u; The laptop is more than enough. And thank you!! Great to know you found inspiration in my video x)

Yes! I actually do read a fair amount, which helps a LOT. It really is just about the only activity these days that requires undivided attention, and thank god that reading a while has a really nice and soothing effect on my mental state. Sometimes depending on the content it can be hard to focus yeah, I do often find my mind just starting to wander and I have to reread sentences and paragraphs over and over again... but it is 100% the best detox from all the short-form nonsense. For me, another issue is that I actually have an addiction to long-form audio content as well. I've unwittingly trained my brain to expect a podcast or some sort of long-form conversation or narration video in the BG while doing just about everything (drawing, cooking, cleaning, etc), that now I have this incessant need to always be doing 2 things at once. It's been increasingly difficult to do tasks that actually require my full attention, and unfortunately I tend to avoid them because of this =_______= Just fighting a million different battles here lmao. On the one hand, I'm lucky I can listen to interesting things in the BG most of the time, but unfortunately for the 30% of things I need to do that require full attention the struggle has become crazy. Hopefully I'll be able to fix this with time too, I find that putting on the sounds of a thunderstorm helps a ton.

Thank you haha

Thank you!! ;u;

Thank you!!

Happy to know this :)))

Thank you!!

totally agree... I think the fact that most people are on their phones a lot of the time just sets up an unrealistic expectation to get their attention at any moment. For me personally it has done way more damage than just distraction... it made me more prone to anxiety when a close family member is away and I don't know where they are or they're safe. Makes me really baffled to think about how people used to deal with this back in the day when a family member can be gone on a voyage or something and you literally just have no way of knowing what's going on with them, and somehow just continue to live without being eaten alive by anxiety. The ability to keep tabs on people has really deteriorated my mental strength to just have faith that people are ok. (it's not as dramatic as I make it sound lol, but once in a while it can get pretty bad tbh). Gotta train my mind to just deal with uncertainty and not let it consume my faculties.

omg this x_x having to become a videographer is so unwanted lol. I just want to draw my pictures hahaha. Thank you for the tip about the raskog!!! I never thought to use one of those, I actually used to have one, no idea what happened to be but I should acquire another for this purpose. I always get so annoyed at having to detach and attach the mount to different desks, it makes so much more sense to attach to something sturdy on wheels.

Thank you!! it is true at least we're all in this together x'D I do think it's possible to steer back from a lot of these habits, I've managed to do it in the past and I'm sure I can do it again. It just blows how they creep up on you gradually if you're not careful -_- at least that's the case for me anyway. And yes! I typically don't get very sick, and even if I do it never feels that bad. This time for some reason really just got me down hard... I do feel like I'm on the mend, it's just excruciatingly slow. Hope we all manage to form better habits haha ;u;

@@CosmicSpectrumArt I'm so sorry and ashamed, my previous comment was full of mistakes XD I also think that I'm able to steer back from these harmful habits, I guess I'm mostly disappointed in myself because I KNOW that I don't have enough self-control and my only way through is deleting the apps. It kind of sucks to feel so vulnerable ;_; Hope the mending process gets a little bit quicker for you! Get well soon and cheers to better habits! ^-^

LOLLL omg nooo it got us both gahaha. We can escape!! I have deleted the app for the 10th time last week lmaoo, hopefully I have the strength to resist the urge to reinstall when it inevitably comes up again pfft And thank you

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nice xD Hope you had a nice sketchbook session

lmao! I seriously wish there was some sort of function to just permablock an app, or put some sort of barrier at least -_-

Thank you x'D Glad to know my videos are good company!! And yess that makes sense, I think tetris does scratch that mild OCT tendency I have hahah. Hopefully we all manage to kick these horrible modern habits x'D

I hope you transition back to how it was before! I know i've managed to do it before for sure, just takes some time. The phone is a sort of numbing agent for sure. We got this. I hope you're doing okay, and whatever it is that's going on resolves itself!

@@CosmicSpectrumArt Thank you so much! That reply genuinely made today so much better! A lot of sorrow and heartache but I have faith everything will work out for good!

hahahah. Honestly the amount of times I deleted and reinstalled it last week is just shameful.

oh man x_x maybe the phone usage is responsible for my occasional wrist aches hahah. Glad you were able to ditch it!

lmao that's righttt!! Man, that was a hurdle. If I can ditch league, i should be able to ditch tetris hahahaha