timestamps bc i can 0:00 - You suck x Not allowed (remix) 3:07 - Jealous by Eyedress 5:07 - Dark red by Steve Lacy 7:51 - Blue hair by TV Girl 11:25 - Waste by Kxllswxtch 12:51 - Young by Vacations 16:00 - Shootout by Izzamuzzic 19:14 - Comfort chain by Instupendo 21:54 - Brian is the most beautiful by Memo boy 24:50 - Christmas kids by Roar
@@weloverandomcrap4885 8 is a crazy age to be depressed… like I’m kind of a dumbass but how does that even happen coz I can’t remember shit that happened or I did when I was 8 yrs
At 6th grade, I began to have a massive hit in my mental health, but then, in 7th grade, my best friend realized I had not only depression but anxiety disorder as well. Now, at 13, I finally feel alive but also dead inside. Like I'm conflicted between two sides, but I don't know which side I'm on. FUCK I DONT EVEN KNOW IF IM JUST STRAIGHT,GAY, PAN, OR WHATEVER. IM JUST CONFUSED AVOUT EVERYTHING. EVEN HOW I SHOULD ACT. I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO VENT OR LIVE RIGHT. WHAT THE FUCK. AND NOW SCHOOL!???? LIFE IS JUST SHIT
It's not your fault Your not a problem You are perfect You aren't fat You aren't skinny You aren't the problem You aren't a bad person You are wonderful You aren't a crybaby Your don't deserve them You love yourself You are clean You are kind Your are the person that everyone wants Your skin isn't a paper... don't cut it Your face isn't a mask... don't hide it Your heart isn't a door... don't lock it Your size isn't a book... don't judge it Your life isn't a movie... don't end it Your neck isn't a rope... don't hang it Your body isn't for sale... don't sell it Your brain isn't a stone... don't crush it Your life is an inspiration...be proud of it Love yourself.. you are perfect no matter what you do. The past of you suffering will end Your suffering will end Don't c^t your body your hair Don't kill your self yet. If you have a pet it will make your problem go away They get mad at you for being soo perfect They blame you because you are so pretty/handsome/stunning You are brighting the world.. you are a true star Keep going.. it will past. We love you don't stop being kind to everyone The kindness will speard and the kidness will also pay you back. They love you they just don't wanna show the loveness for you You are so perfect that everyone gets mad and jealous Give everyone a second chance not too many tho your eyes is perfect your nose is perfect your height is perfect your skin is perfect your mouth is perfect your hair is perfect your face is perfect your body is perfect your hands is perfect your fingers is perfect your teeth is perfect your waist is perfect Your torso is perfect your legs are perfect your thighs are perfect your tounge and everything is perfect YOU are perfect love your body and everything You are so greatful for what you have. Ignore the bad people you dont want them to get attached to you And leave your fake friends You deserve better. Don't give up Cheer up aswell Pretty/handsome/stunning person. We are proud to see you alive. We are so proud We love your smile We love your laugh We love your personality So don't give up We love you. We love you so much Don't end it too fast. Don't commit Don't get controled Don't make them control you like a puppet Do your own way Do everthing you like Ignore the rude people Ignore the hate Ignore getting yelled There's people by your side and always be. We love you no matter what you do to yourself. They don't know what your been through They ain't been in your shoes Don't belive them they are liars Love youself. We are proud of you existing here We love you so much.. NEVER GIVE UP You're precious You made it this far. And it's so amazing that you are still here
@@AlnyxIzzNotOkay hey, there no failing, your ok, your safre, its alright and you know what? even if you made it 4 minutes or a week im still proud of you for that! ok? good job! give yourself a pat on the back you deserve it! im so proud of you, i love you have a good day ok?
0:00 - You suck x Not allowed (remix) 3:07 - Jealous by Eyedress 5:07 - Dark red by Steve Lacy 7:51 - Blue hair by TV Girl 11:25 - Waste by Kxllswxtch 12:51 - Young by Vacations 16:00 - Shootout by Izzamuzzic 19:14 - Comfort chain by Instupendo 21:54 - Brian is the most beautiful by Memo boy 24:50 - Christmas kids by Roar
I’m proud of you for waking up. I’m proud of you for brushing your hair. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for breathing. I’m proud of you for making your bed. I’m proud of you for eating. I’m proud of you for TRYING to eat. I’m proud of you for drinking water. I’m proud of you for being here. I’m proud of you for being you. I’m proud of you for smiling. I’m proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for sitting down. I’m proud of you for defending yourself. I’m proud of you for believing in yourself. I’m proud of you for simply trying. I’m proud of you for being alive IM LATE BUT HAVE A LOVELY DAY!! REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND STAY STRONG NO MATTER WHAT
i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel okay i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when your crying i love you when you feel tired i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do. i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
thats what my counselor said to me when i told her my thoughts that i wanna die she just said its just a thought that comes and go your fine i was okay- and i left feeling more shit
it was a rainy day, cold and wet. you look out your window, tears forming in your eyes. your life has sucked recently, but at least you have music. music, the worlds only universal language. something to be there when noone else is, something to bring you up, or facilitate sad feelings. something that always has been, and always will be. as you watch the rain hit the frosted window, your thoughts darken. you spot two raindrops going down in a line, you are reminded of being a kid, watching the raindrops 'race'. you watch the droplets of water as they dance and race across the windows frosted glass. you can feel the coldness of outside through the window, but you feel a sense of calm belongingness, because you have music.
I'm sick of studying. I'm sick of being at school. I'm sick of having have to hang out with "friends" at school. I'm sick of this weight in my heart. I'm sick of having have to stay up late to finish my homework. I'm sick of this feeling. I hate my life, I hate myself. I hate how I treat my actual friend. I hate how I give up on people easily. I hate how I wish to be in another world. I hate feeling lonely. I hate how I push people I care about away. I hate faking a smile. I hate how I have to act like I'm okay. I hate how those traumas come back. I hate my parents. I wish I could remove this feeling. I wish I could feel alive and happy again. I wish I could be in a world without lies, hate, sadness, loneliness, family issues. I wish there was a world full of nothing. I wish I could escape. I really do. (I'm sorry, I think I held onto these feelings for too long I just had to vent once a while ig)
There's nothing wrong with your eyes. There's nothing wrong with your nose There's nothing wrong with your height There's nothing wrong with your skin There's nothing wrong with your mouth There's nothing wrong with your hair There's nothing wrong with your face There's nothing wrong with your body There's nothing wrong with your hands There's nothing wrong with your fingers There's nothing wrong with your teeth There's nothing wrong with YOU you are perfect. I am so proud of you:) You made it this far. You are amazing:) Don't give up. NEVER GIVE UP you're pretty You're precious Don't need to be insecure abt your face. You are so beautiful
100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your Favorite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone like you. 75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships. 76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person. 77. Joy and happiness in the little things. 78. The power to inspire others. 79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression. 80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life. 81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet. 82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family. 83. Learn new things and develop new skills. 84. Create a legacy that will outlive you. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Cuddles 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it.
im so close to giving up. why do people get you attached and leave. i wanted him and he acted like he wanted me. he was the only thing keeping me going. i hate this fucking generation.
"Your skin isn't paper, don't cut it. Your neck isn't a coat, don't hang it. Your body isn't a book, don't judge it. Your life isn't a movie, don't end it. Your heart isn't a door, don't lock it. Remember to always love yourself no matter what you come against. Your always enough." There's nothing wrong with your eyes. There's nothing wrong with your nose There's nothing wrong with your height There's nothing wrong with your skin There's nothing wrong with your mouth There's nothing wrong with your hair There's nothing wrong with your face There's nothing wrong with your body There's nothing wrong with your hands There's nothing wrong with your fingers There's nothing wrong with your teeth There's nothing wrong with YOU you are perfect. I am so proud of you:) You made it to this far. You are amazing:) Don't give up. NEVER GIVE UP you're pretty You're precious Don't need to be insecure abt your face. You are so beautiful
whoever is reading this and everyone else in the world, theres nothing wrong with your skin, theres nothing wrong with your hair, nothing wrong with your face, nothing wrong with your style, nothing wrong with your music taste, bothing wrong with your weight, nothing wrong with your legs, nothing wrong with your wrinkles, nothing wrong with your eyes, nothing wrong with your hobbies, nothing wrong with your interests, nothing wrong with your talents, theres absolutely not a single reason you arent perfect. everything is okay and if it doesnt seem like it is now, it will get better. thank you for existing and being company in general. thank you for being so unique. thank you for everything you have ever done. thank you for still breathing with me today. you are not weird, you are just yourself. and that is someone that needs to exist more often. we only live once. love yourself for who you are. have a great rest of your day and life. may everyone be blessed and have an enjoyed afterlife.
I tell myself not to cry to these playlist forgetting I can't cry anymore I have no tears left or any feelings left to cry out I'm just a number cold empty she'll of who I was before (3rd grade) it really shows how messed up the school system is if it can empty someone like it has me (I'm going into 8th grade)
its always just emptiness. you could have everything, but all you feel is numbness, depressed, or angry, somethings missing, why does everyone else seem so content? did you do something wrong? Maybe your just not doing it wrong, no matter what you do, your just left there feeling dumbfounded, wanting to give up, it’s not even suicide, just.. hopelessness.
I don’t know if your religious but God is what your missing I know because I used to feel the same way along with all my friends and when I found God and became consistent I felt happy also most people fake being content or lie not trying to push religion
To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when your crying i love you when you feel tired i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :) (this is for anyone who needs it like i do a lot of the time and i hope it helped)
For everyone who's going through a hard time i promise everything will get better, Ive went through bad times recently (lost my bestfriend from suicide) but i believed in myself and got back up, as a stranger on the internet and not knowing what any of you guys are going through. All i hope is that everything gets better for you soon, and know that you have a reason for being here.
I had a friend named Selena, her and I used to be best friends. Last year she got cancer, she and I sent letters because she couldnt have her cellphone with her. When i sent my letter and didnt get one back, i kept sending more and more. Until I went over to her parents house. The mother opened the door and told me that she had passed away for a while now. I didnt want to move on with my life for a long time, and i couldnt tell my family or anyone about it. A month later i finished my math exam and out of a sudden she came to mind after the exam, i tried to hold my tears so hard but i couldnt. I couldnt even tell them the full truth do i just said that a friend of mine developed cancer. I cant do this anymore. I dont want to, i dont knoe how to move on. I dont plan on continuing to live after the age of 30. If it werent for my familys sake I wouldnt be here right now.
i thought they wouldn't hurt. i thought the scissors were dull enough to not show. my mom yelled at me for them and now i feel like a total burden. she doesn't get it.
if you are reading this and feeling like absolute shit just know im proud of you, idgaf if your parents aren’t proud, your friends aren’t proud, i dont even care if your not proud of yourself, im honestly so proud of the people that have felt like shit, been through so much, had their heartbroken and so much more, those people aren’t congratulated but im gonna do it cause every single one of you are amazing
To the person who read this, It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when you don’t feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is red, and I hope the next time you see the color red you will think about my words. If someone left you than don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart than I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general than I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic.Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer,I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you a song as your friend. “Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) have a good day and great years. I love you so much and am so proud of you, I hope you will remember my words-lava zoid, the stranger that cares more about you than anything :)
there's only one exception and that is someone who treats you amazing but then when that person leaves your life it worse, but what's worse is watching that person slowly leave your life and you just waiting and whishing that you could go back how you used to be with them but it never happens and gets worse and worse everyday.
I can’t even hear the playlist,all I can hear is argueing and screaming and shouting from downstairs.I told myself it would stop long ago,but now we probably need to flee the house and start a new life.
i wake up at 4 am every single day to get ready for a boy that i like to ghost me. my grades are falling, my relationship with my dad is falling apart, i lost all my friends including my first boy friend that left me for another girl, my friend is happy bc the boy she likes talked to her bc i cried and told him that i want to kms, i gained a lot of weight, im ugly. the only thing i had before was my beauty now i have nothing exept my loving mom and sisters i m grateful for what i have
Im so sorry thats happening to you, but your not ugly! God made no one ugly ok? And we have our own beautiful, i hope your relationship with your dad is going well and you have a better life.. and dont kys!! Its not worthit. We need you here, and i want and care about you. Please take care ok?
I hate living but I'm scared of dying, I hate seeing my family get healthier than me but I'm so happy for them, I hate love but I want it more than anything, I hate the why they look at me but I crave attention, I hate myself but I love the way I look, I hate how they don't always agree with me but I respect them having their own opinion, I hate the world but I love everyone on it. what the hell is wrong with me?
To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love you even if you have insecurities i love your accomplishments i love you even if you have failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on you even on sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you act i love you even if you cry i love you when you're kind i love you even if you you're mean i love you even if you're alone i love you even if you can't feel i love you even if you feel too much i love you even if you can't take life anymore i love you even if you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you even if you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you even if you don't believe in yourself i love you even if you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you even if you have problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you even if you're in pain i love you even if you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love you even if you have wounds i love you even if you have scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you even if you lie i love you even if you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you even if you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you even if you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you even if you have headache i love you even if you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you're mature i love you even if you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you even if life isn't bright i love you when you're responsible i love you even if you're irresponsible i love you even if you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love even if your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :) (Not mine but please spread it around, everyone deserves even just a little bit of love.)
Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is. Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words :) Until tomorrow, my friend :)
how does this only have 6 likes and no replies i love you, thank you for all you said, most of the time the people helping the others are the ones that need the hepl most, so even though you gave me self worth i would like to ask how you are
i was good for a long time.. well 4 months. i’m also 4.5 months clean. i’m getting rlly tired and im insecure. everything was going good until it just flipped. it’s summer!!! i’m supposed to be happy. idk wut to do..i js wanna be happy.
Oh! Hey kiddo, you found me. Rough day? I’m sorry kid. I can’t imagine how that feels for that one of a kind soul you got there. I know it feels like every day’s the same problem and you can’t help but feel terrible for letting everyone down… but keep that head for me kid. Tomorrow’s gonna get better and promise you, I’ll be there in your heart with you to keep you going to another good day! Push on kiddo, you got a stranger rooting for you!
16 Thatz how many timez i forgave him. 16 Thatz how many timez hez done it. "I wont do it again" iz a lie, and i knew it. But im the 'girl' who alwayz forgivez him. Itz my 'job' to forgive him.
I tried so hard to fit into friend groups that never wanted to include me. Im a burden to my family. I dont have anything im good at, i struggle to predict my future.
My parents are leaving for 2 weeks, in that time i wont be able to see any of my friends or my dog. My sister is really upset but i just dont care. sometimes i feel like its a moody teen thing. but i rememeber that i always feel like this. i stop myself from feeling things when the emotion gets to strong because im supposed the be the strong older sister that is tough and is there for my younger sister. maybe things would be different if i had someone to talk to. counsellors and therapists dont work. i dont want to feel like im being analysed i just want to be able to be vulnerable in front of someone.
fr I can barely cry anymore and if I do, I don't make a sound and all I can do is let the water flow out I don't feel much anymore just anger and regret.
I dont know what im feeling im not happy im not sad i just want to get over with my day, and be alone because i know if i overshare to much they always tell everyone. Just know god helps trust me, and life sucks sometimes but music can sometimes heal you too!
ik you probably will not see this ever, you would never listen to this kind of music, you wouldnt find me nameless... but i just wanted to say that i think i still love you. and i am so sorry for not being ready for a relationship, i wish i never told you that, i wish we never broke up. but the space between us is physically hurting me. i need you to function. i crave your touch. i love you and i dont know how to tell you that. you are my ex, who is not hates me only thinks of me as his ex, or maybe if im lucky, his friend. but ik you wont ever like me back anymore, and it is all my fault. you were the first and last one to love me. and now idk what i will do without you. i love you so much. just give me another chance.
Honestly thank you i am shutting my emotions off i have been hurt to many times can barely trust anyone i have been s/a and i don’t know what else to say…have a good day. -unkown
Hey! Want to know what I like about you? If you don't then keep looking through the comments! But if you do, I'll tell you! Ok let me get a good look at you...... OMG your so beautiful!! Ok let me list all of your absolutely INCREDIBLE features! 1- Your eyes! Have you seen them?? 2- Your style! It's one of my favorites :) 3- Your smile! I know you might not like it, a lot of people don't. But please do it at least a little. :) 4- Your nose! I don't know how you could not like it! Noses are all ways pretty no matter what! Even yours, ok? 5- Your stomach! It looks absolutely perfect to me! Please don't do anything harmful to change it.. 5- Your neck! Your neck looks absolutely normal! If you're insecure about it, please don't be. To me, it looks as normal as it could be!!! 6- Your arms! Some people cut their arms on purpose! You know that's not good, right..? It's not cool when you do it... It's really harmful.. 7- Your wrists! A lot of people cut their wrists, and it's not good. It leaves scars and it's not nice to your skin!! Once again, it's really harmful, man! Please don't cut them or be ashamed of them! 8- Your hands! I really like the texture of your hands! They feel really good if you rub them! Go ahead, try rubbing them! They also look really cool, and I like their shape! 9- Your nails! I really love them! Please don't bite on them!! A TON of people do, including me! I think almost everyone has done it once! It can become a habit for tons of people. Sometimes I bite them and they go down too low. It really hurts. It doesn't make you seem cool or anything! Please just try your best to not bite them for a full day, or if you REALLY want a challenge- a week or a month! It really can seem hard, but i know deep down you can! 10- Your birth marks! I can't fully see if you have one, but if you don't, it's my bad and you can just skip this! But I can faintly see one and let me say, it looks amazing! 11- your legs! I actually love them! I don't think they look abnormal or anything! Some people think their legs are fat. "Fat" is not a nice word for anyone to say about themselves or to other people. If you think they're fat, just know that other people might even like them more then their legs! (Just so you know it's not good to like other people more than yourself..) 12- Your voice! Hey say something so I can clarify, pretty please! OMG YES I love it! I'm feeling really tired rn so I can name all of the rest later, but just so you know, everything I said is true! Take it from someone who is probably younger than you (11) I really don't like it when you do bad stuff or say mean things to your body! It's allways best to try to keep at least a tiny bit positive, ok..? Your body does a lot for you, it might not be the best, but it tries, mk? So please appreciatte it you goober!! :)
I appreciate this comment very much.. Thank you for this. And I challenge you to a contest! I bet I can not bite my nails off longer than you >:D Do you accept? 😌
All I had was my sweet baby bunny. I’ve lost too many people, and he was one of the only things keeping me from dying. He’s gone now, he was only a baby too. I miss you Leonardo I hope you are doing amazing right now baby boy. All rabbits go to heaven.
im so sorry. not trying to vent, but i know how you feel. my bunny died after 5+ years with her in august, and she was my bestfriend. (8/13) im so sorry for your loss
i like being in school since it means i dont have to be at home....when im there i always say i wanna go home but not the home im in right now...i wanna go to the home that it was not one it is right now idk if that makes sense but i dont know how to explain it..
He led me on. He acted nice and flirty. We were gonna go to the movies together. I liked him. So so so so much. I asked him what his perfect day would be. He said spending it with his girlfriend. He never liked me. The pain I feel when I cry is weird... It's a sore bruise kind of feeling... I hate myself and want to cry forever. I thought maybe he was different. Maybe just maybe, I would have someone to sped Christmas with... No I don't -anti
i try my best to put up a smile and laugh around people but i get judged for every, single,thing i do. The things i like, my expression, me being too loud . Everything i do is considered bad. I get pressured by my parents to do better and better in school i used to have around 90% and now that i'm getting around 80% i'm considered a disgrace, i'm not a robot i'm still human. Also with puberty i changed a bit i didn't really like touching or socializing i became more detached wich i still am because i simply don't enjoy it but my parents don't understand. They say i'm heartless for not wanting to spend time with family. I'm sick and tired of putting up a smile 24/7 and not getting respected by my family. Everything i do is considered wrong and disgraceful. And when i decide to open up i get laughed at they don't take it seriously. So when someone else is getting hurt i don't really know what to do and i find it weird and uncomfortable to watch someone crying or experience emotional pain . And when the people around take note of it i'm considered mean and apathetic. My looks also get judged a lot with my family. Wich made me just think i'm not good enough. A disgrace. A failure. Worthless. To the point where i feel literal nauseating sickness when i look at myself in the mirror. I honestly just feel much better when i'm not around family or at home, and when i'm home i search distraction or comfort on the internet i feel home with my friends and they actually listen to me. They surely do compliment me but i'm at that point where i think it's all blunt lies, i don't believe them anymore. I just think it's because they want to make me feel better. i'm mostly closed off and mostly keep to myself. I feel like i have to solve my own problems. So i don't drag anyone into my mess. I just need a break sometimes i'm still just a kid
it's been getting more and more my heart feels so heavy it is getting more and more progressively, i have been telling myself tomorrow's your day but....i don't know i have lost my smile my happiness my Fellings i have no sympathy now it feels like a simulation i feel nothing i am controlling myself not to end it.............. i don't know now i don't even feel anything when i see my crush i don't even feel anything.......i don't feel anything now its like my hearts has become stone cold, i don't feel mercy, sympathy, love, hate, its all numb, even songs are not helping me anymore, i was the kid with the kindest, happiest, brightest smile in the world, now i am forcing myself to smile just so i don't ruin others smile with my ice cold ugly face, i just am hoping it would get any better, i never get to hangout with my friends, i just rot in my room, i only hope no one gets to live this life like me, it is said that crying can be helpful in reliving our sadness, but i don't get a single tear and feel numb and sadness, i feel like dying, suicidal thoughts have taken over my mind, i have become the so called "emo" kid, i have shut off my emotions and now i don't know how to get my emotions back...... it all fells so cold, normal, i don't want to pretend anymore that i am happy kid there's this mask i wear everyday which shows the world that i am fun , a class clown but deep inside i just want to feel life like any happy person would, even words can't describe my pain, i cant fulfill my parents expectations i am weak ,i am a slow learner, i am the weird kid in class, i don't have any friends, i never get to hangout i don't have any confidence, self-respect, i feel so inferior, everyone's better than me, i am worthless, i am ugly, the loneliness cameback, worse than i lastly remember.... everydays been a bad day, my heart is getting progressively heavier......... i only hope that no one gets to live life like me.........
is it bad that i envy the people who dont feel anything anymore? its like im wired to feel emotions all the time and i guess its fine when im happy but lately my hopes keep getting crushed and crushed and crushed and all i do is hate and cry and i have this constant feeling of wanting to scream but i cant because people will think im crazy. so i wish i felt numb because i feel like im losing a constant battle in my head and its SO. DRAINING.
It's not bad but the reason why people feel numb is because they felt too much it overloaded and made them numb or they repressed their emotions and became numb as a coping mechanism
Why cant I be happy around my family? Why do friends know me better than them? Why am I so awkward talking to people? Why am I a let down? I ask those thing to myself so much despite knowing my family loves me and yet I can't show that gratitude, I mean, they did everything they could, and yet the friends I made, the people that I joke around with and be a dick towards at times (lovingly mind you) feel more like family, maybe its because we understand each other better? Or maybe its because I can't speak to my family, I always feel choked up doing so, and it didn't help with my biological mother locking me behind the house, I couldn't meet up with friends, couldn't have sleepovers, couldn't even have them round for like a hour or two, it got to a point where I don't want to leave my house anymore, I couch surfing during my GCSEs so that definitely had an effect on me, I'm even in college now with a mother that let's me do the stuff I couldn't before, and yet I don't do them, Why did it have to happen to me of all people?
Hi love, i dont know if your going to see this or not. But i went through the same thing. I really hope your still here, this world might look cruel sometimes and it can be, but it really is beautiful once you find the right people. I know im just some stranger on the internet, but i am here for you and we can talk if you want to.
I have a story i made up. Me and the little boy walk through the little forest to the little cottage. He looks up at me and says "why do you never smile?" I look down at him and shrug then look back ahead of me. "Ive know you for 3 years and ive never seen your smiling face. Only in old pictures..." I sigh then look down at his pleading eyes. "Sometimes, smiling hurts..." He looks confused. "Hurts?" "Yes." I say back to the little boy "Actually..." he says looking down at his feet. "Ive seen you smile. But...your eyes become teary. Why?" "Well" i say to him. "Sometimes, youve got to smile through the pain. That tricks my brain into thinking im happy when im not." He holds my hand and squeezes it "smile? When your sad?" "Yes" i reply. I itch my arm and lift my dress sleeve "Why are your arms cut? Did you do that?" I nod slowly. He holds my hand tighter. "Why...?" "Why not." I say He looks back at his shoes "Are you happy now?" He asks I stop walking. He stops next to me. "Happy...now...?" I mumble to myself "Yes" i say. His bright blue eyes light up. "Really? I make you happy?" "Very" i softly smile at him. We arrive at the little cottage house and walk inside with his tiny hand in mine. I really hope you enjoyed this story ❤ it is not based off a true story btw
I remember at first I was just a crybaby and cried over everything i did. Look at me now, people who made fun of me now always ask me why I look "emotionless". I wonder why. My parents ask why I fainted in class, i wonder why. Doctors asked why is my heart beating so slowly,I wonder why..
@@catsintinyhats952 theyre not being attention seeking or anything, there just saying how they feel and trying to find a place where someone listens or cares if you think theyre being attention seeking YOU need to take your ass somewheres else.
I cried so much that I can’t anymore. I literally can’t. I have tried my hardest. I want to cry. But there’s nothing left. I’m just a dead, empty shell of a person. I either used up all of my emotions or turned them off, and if so, how do I turn them back on? I want to experience the highs and the lows again. I want to be human again. Please?
i dont wanna die, but i dont wanna stay here either. i just wanna leave this country and leave everything behind. i wanna adopt a dog and go to a countryside and plant a vegetable garden and a flower field and ill sell the flowers and ill make my own bread. ill adopt a bulldog and raise her alone. i js wanna be alone man. its all too much for me, just too much and sometimes I really wish my attempt worked cos goddamnit, life fucked me up too much for me to continue living like nothing ever happened.
It’s been a while. I’m pretty tired of taking care of those around me. As well as trying my hardest to please each of my separated parents. But that’s okay. It will be okay soon.
Tw: vent, I hate my whole fucking life, trying to be entertaining and nice to people at school (mainly in my class) is hard and especially since they all think I'm annoying, they used to laugh and joke around with me all the time now they act like their friends with me and glare at me mainly acting bored. It's hard trying to get the boy you want when he's always hanging out with other girls and making it look like he likes them, it hurts, im sure the reason why no one likes me is because im so ugly, my acne sucks, everyone says im pretty but i think their lying.. Life sucks at home with my mom having suicidal thoughts from fighting with my step-dad, im always crying to myself, at this point i cant help it, shes controlling and strict but when i lived with my great grandparents (mom's side of the fam) they'd criticize me and tell me i could do better in school, they'd say how good my older cousin is right in front of me during holidays or they'd tell me that i wouldn't end up as succesful as her. My dad neglected me as a baby and cheated on my mom, when i was 7 he tried killing himself in front of me, my grandpa (dad's side on the fam) tried kidnapping me when i was 3, my grandmother (mom's side of the fam) died when my mother was 6 months old from drug overdose.. My mother lied to my grandparents and said she would take me for a small drive but came over and grabbed all of my stuff and took me forever, my aunt (dad's side) tried getting custody of me beause she had 4 children and they were all boys, she wanted a daughter.. my other aunt (mom's side) is schizophrenic, shes more messed up because she takes pills to boost it, she wants to see things. When i was 1-2 my mother was neglecting me and almost let me drown in a river because she wasnt paying attention to me. When i was in pre-school i lived at an apartment complex and i had 4 best friends there that i would hang out with everyday, (skipping to 4 years later) in second grade my mother moved us out of the complex to make us live somewhere else, another 2 years go by and one of my best friends start going to my school, hes was in my 4th grade class, i thought terms were good between us but he started being a bitch to me and it broke my heart.. Sorry for the long vent (btw im in 5th grade so i am kinda young to have this trauma) I hope this shows people that i stress with them too, life is hard, most of us were born in this shitty generation and i feel bad, im in therapy but it sucks and for some reason random strangers comfort me than my own family do, i would recommend using comment sections than going to therapy, i hope this helps!
(⚠Tw Vent⚠) What is even the point of me having friends when to me they look like just a piece of entertainment for me to pick out, and once I'm bored, I just leave them. I hate myself for making things feel this way. It's like wanting everything to be about me, me, me, and if it isn't, I don't care and I never will. I hate feeling way too self-absorbed but then I feel like this at the same time. Its like; I'll be having fun but once I'm done, and the person I was having fun with is still talking to me, I have the urge to slap them and tell them to piss off because they're annoying the shit out of me for no reason at all! I mean THEY DIDN'T DO ANYTHING AT ALL TO DESERVE THAT!!! But I still want too.... No, I have to.... and it's a PAIN! Does anyone feel the same? Or am I just a self-absorbed bitch?
i agree w the title. i usually am numb. usually only strangers on the internet make me cry, usually bc of their comments on vids like these. but, if someone i love/am friends w/ know/ ect is being rude, i feel.. numb. i dont get it. maybe i cried too much for them? 😭
Ik it’s not a good thing but today some kid came up and asked me what are all those scars on you arms and I just said it was from a war that I had to beat on my own
he confessed, the next thing i know is that he likes my best friend and just said that because he didn’t know what to say when i told him who’s ur crush. i hate everyone so fucking much.
Thank you for this, when I stumbled across it i couldn't help but smile. I wish you the best of luck, and for you good health. Sincerely, the random stranger on the internet
i don’t wanna live but i don’t wanna die. i’m scared of the unknown but all of this seems so confusing. like, how am i here right now typing this? i’ve had derealization for a year. it won’t go away. i don’t understand. i don’t feel real. i feel like i’m in 3rd person. it doesn’t make sense. am i in the right body? how come im the mental child in the family? i have such a perfect life. i’m ruining it by just sitting in my room doing nothing. i wish i could go out and see the world. we live in a planet that’s wonderful. but few of the population gets to see it. i’m scared. i don’t wanna die. what if it’s just a void? filled with nothing? or what if i go to heaven? and nothing feels right? what if im reincarnated with no memory of it? i’m so confused. god i’m scared. but i don’t wanna live like this. it’s too much. i don’t know what to do. i don’t want help. i don’t wanna have labels put on me. no. i just wanna feel okay. without any help. but it’s impossible. i don’t know what to do anymore. i just wanna sleep. and live in a dream world. i don’t know.
