🌟 Lessons I learned the hard way • Reflect on my past self, New loves + 2022 Goals | JANUARY NOTES 🌟 

omg what you said about appreciating craftsmanship in others’ art after doing it firsthand yourself is so true!!!! i had the same exact experience after taking a ceramics class two years ago. now when i see bowls at art fairs i know exactly how much care and labor was poured into it to bring it into existence and it makes me so much more willing to accommodate the price.

I’ve been a long time viewer and I really love this kind of really honest videos, it feel is really nice to see someone going through the same stuff I’m dealing with. I hope you content stays like this because lately every time I watch one of your videos I feel almost empowered to out the work in my mental health and my physical health. Thank ou for being so open and honest! I send you a hug Annabellle!

I liked the part where you said you don’t have plants, but you’re watering a very important plant * points to oneself *. :,) just, yes. 🌱☺️ as far as what i’m open to: learning when and how to say no, as a way to look out for myself. It’s been really hard so far. The fear comes from how other people would react to me setting boundaries, or if i say no to a particular project, that i would have turned down an opportunity (or just fear of failing). But more and more i’m realizing how empowering it can be to simplify things in your life.

you would love Taiwan! It has such amazing design and good food~

i didn't think i would relate to your words as much as i did... was kinda like a wake-up-call for me to get out of this whole procrastinating, sleeping til around 2 pm, not wanting to get up, binge eating, binge watching useless stuff until round 4 am... It is so hard to get back on track and find a way to motivate oneself. but i always tell myself it's one step at a time. just getting out of bed, standing up and drinking a cup of water is already huge. much love to all of the people struggling or going thru stuff right now 💌 we got this!

I am open to failure. For years this has been my biggest fear due to things that I experienced in childhood. This led me to being scared of starting, because I knew that I’d have to fail at some point and that thought terrified me. I’m learning to embrace it now. I’m gentle and kind to myself when I inevitably make mistakes. And it has helped me grow so much just in the last month. I am excited to see just how much I can grow with this new mindset. Hope you’re doing well, Annabelle!

I found your account in 2016 through your accepted to RISD and Parsons video. Back then I was a freshman in high school and I loved and was passionate about doing art and wanted to apply to an art school. But I never did because I didn’t think I was good enough, so I applied to an in-state college. Now I’m halfway through my sophomore year and I just applied to the art department at my college. I’m going to teach elementary art with minor in art history, and following you these years has helped me come to that realization that I do want to pursue art. Coming back to your channel is a source of comfort. The thought that you put into every video is motivational and beautiful, thank you for being such a big part of my life

I am open to being uncomfortable with my core wounds. I like to challenge myself to do things that make me uncomfortable, like initiating a conversation with a stranger in a gathering and being queer in a space that is ignorant of inclusiveness. I want to be okay with the discomfort and anxiety that raises when my core wound is telling me I’m unloveable and not good enough.

I am open to just being present, showing up where I need to be, and doing more for the people who cares for me.

I love your honesty and transparency. These real life videos are so inspiring and make you feel less alone in the world. Thanks ☺️💜

i've followed you for many years and it's so fun because we come to the exact same realizations at the same time. you can really see how you're growing into yourself. and i'm excited what you'll make of your new place^^

Annabelle always serving us wholesome realness. Such a friend.

Something that helps with digestion is lemon balm tea and Marshmallow root tea. You can find them all online or locally. You take one tablespoon of the tea and steep it in one cup of hot water. If you start taking it day you’ll start seeing a huge change.

Catching up with your vids, been watching since RISD days and it’s been lovely to watch your journey, and honestly some of the subjects you talk about mirror what I’m going through and it sometimes feels like listening to a friend or older sister for some guidance, so thank you so much for opening yourself to us, much love 💖

We also are more likely to have nightmares if we have a poor sleep cycle. I also get pretty bad nightmares but I find they go away when I have gotten into a good routine, and go to bed at a good time. :))

This year I am open to getting out of my comfort zone, especially when it comes to social situations. It is only April but I already feel so much happier with myself; I've truly realised that it's really just listening, and not being so self-conscious. I have learned to not be so inside myself when in the company of others, and accepting myself just the way I am. ♥︎ That in itself has made me a more confident and friendly person; I have learned to look outwards.

this was the exact conversation I needed to have at the moment, this was incredible timing with very important things I needed to hear and reflect on. I've been following you for a while, and it's always been nice to hear your thoughts, but this time it felt personal on a deep level. Thank you, and I wish you great things for 2022

Annabelle, i’ve missed you and i love you. I am sending you love. Not that you disappeared or something i just hadn’t watched anything your since 2019. I am happy we saw each other again. Thank you for sharing your energy with me and all of the others :) You rock!

Please take time for yourself!! I totally understand the feeling of wanting to continue pushing and forcing productivity, and wanting to do your best even when no one’s making you. I’m trying my hardest too to navigate my time to rest, possibly after I finish Architecture school ahaha 🤣 Much love to you Annabelle ✨❤️

Annabelle, I subscribed to you back in 2016/2017. After a couple of years, I unsubscribed (for reasons I don't even remember and aren't important), but in the latter half of 2021, I stumbled across your videos again and felt like I reconnected with you. I've been loving watching you over the past few months, and I think the journey you're going through is a journey parallel to mine and to many others. I love hearing you speak about your struggles and joys, and I really appreciate your openness and honesty! For me, I am open to: living in the present, trying new things, and learning to embrace the chaos and uncertainty in my life. Again, thank you for what you do. Happy year of the TIGER! I'm also a tiger baby, didn't realize we were born in the same year! (I graduated college a year after you) Let's embrace our inner tigers!

I LOVE that you call yourself baby. being kind and parental to yourself is so lovely and something i want to try because i can be so hard on myself and nasty. I'm going to put this into practice - thanks for the inspo. been watching your channel for a while - so glad you're still here making vids while so many of my other fav youtubers have left..

Seeing you hold Prairie with that adorable was could have made me cry😭it was so precious. I’m glad you’ve had Bambi be very affectionate since the beginning (because it’s still so nice having a super lovey cat), but it’s nice now that they both like a little lovin 🥺🥺😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️

ms. ma’am, as much as i love and enjoy december daily vlogs i would enjoy a december weekly even knowing you didn’t sacrifice your health or wellbeing

I am open to intentionally stepping outside of my comfort zone. I am open to involvement and putting in effort. I am open to possible embarrassment and nervousness when I put myself out there. I am open to what the universe wants to teach me

january was such a rough year because of all the thinking, the blank slate feeling I was also in... the pandemic has finally taken a toll so seeing this video fo reflection and growth and being comfortable in that state really gave me so much inspiration to embrace it as well. thank you so much for sharing

2:30 I love that all humans change their voices when talking to animals

I first found your channel through your dorm move in vlog (as I was going to college and wanted to get excited). You've taught me a lot about taking a moment to appreciate the small things in life. I'm getting my doctorate in pharmacy right now, so I'm pretty busy. Thanks for reminding me to chill out for a moment. Best wishes at your new home!!

6 minutes in & i could totally relate on the sleep schedule n using entertainment to numb myself n avoid work, waiting for night time to come so I get to sleep. i also been only watching purple palace (other than u), I find ur guys content to .make me feel so grounded

dear Annabelle, I have been watching your videos for a long time now. I am very happy you are coming into your identity, as I have been feeling similarly in the past months. I have been also having similar experiences in the sense of making good habits and disrupting them by overworking... distracting yourself from responsibilities and personal goals by consuming media... It made me feel seen. Your adventures into new hobbies is very inspiring to me as well, especially recently as I want to create more. Thank you for making these videos and being you!

I love the calling yourself baby thing. When i heard you say it it just echoed in my heart

I rarely ever comment on videos but this year I´m trying to be more active in supporting the artists and content creators that I love and this type of videos really inspire me to reflect and it feels like I´m in a journey with you and everyone else which is really comforting. Thank you for sharing little snippets of your life with us! it´s lovely seeing you grow into the person you want to be. As for what I´m open to this year... I´m open to share my art and learn to accept that even if most people might not like it, I do and that´s all that should matter. 💓

now...i am open to moving forward, learning more, loving myself, and being free.

Omg, first time I'm soooo early!! 😍 Thank you for sharing your time and your reflections with us. Went through the same identity crisis after I graduated college. Now I think it's a process that we all go through some time in our lives, and it's a good thing in many aspects and it helps us grow ❤️ I am open to... Learning to love life and the process of growing 💗

I gasped when you said you got into ceramics. So happy for you. I remember how sad you were when you couldnt get in the class during college.

Hi, Annabelle! I was wondering if you had a GoodReads! You always have most of my favorite books, but there are a few I don't recognize. Happy new year!

i am open to taking care of myself, and treating myself as a priority. there’s a way that i can take care of others but also still take time for myself and make my own boundaries.

your reflection videos really reinforce so many habits that I need to start listening to/act on instead of just telling myself! I am finally open to accepting new changes and taking breaks whenever necessary, I never want to be in my 30s asking myself why I didn't do x,y and z in my 20s. Or simply feeling exhausted constantly because I didn't give my mind or body the chance to rest and heal. I remember when I was a student I was also working part time and didn't know how I managed to get everything done in such a short amount of time, which also took away from making new friends, turning down fun events, and getting chances to explore parts of myself by putting myself in a social setting. Thanks for sharing your vulnerability and positivity with us Annabelle ✨ also happy lunar new year!!! 🐯

I am open to experience life through action and not just through thoughts. 💗

I am open to accepting myself. I am open to letting my true self to be expressed even though it might make me uncomfortable at first. I am open to stopping this self sabotage and rejection and freeing myself from doubts and fear. It’s hard, but I can do this. We can do this! Thank you so much for this, Annabelle. I’ve been watching you from high school (I’m 21 now), and I feel like I’m growing with you. I really appreciate you sharing this with us, because I know how much courage it takes to be this honest with your audience and most importantly yourself. I am going through the process of “accepting myself”, and your videos are really helping me along the way. I hope you have a great year! Whatever you do, I’m rooting for you!

Im reparenting myself as well and it’s so soothing to comfort myself from the perspective of being my own mom. I feel like I can feel the love and I have so much trust and closeness because it is actually myself! It’s like i fully understand my own suffering and also know exactly how to soothe myself.

Thank you Anabelle for this video!! It really made me reflect on myself and how I treat myself as well and reminded me to be kinder to myself once again~ It's such a comfort to watch someone like you~

Thank you for this video! I've been reflecting on the past year as well, and I love seeing my favorite creators share their life lessons + insights. Keep growing and thriving, Annabelle! Luv your work 💕

I am open to change. I love having a schedule and getting used to what I know already… and changes def throw me off. I want to learn how to navigate change to my benefit :) I love everything you said here, wishing you the best this 2022 with your goals and continuing to continuously love yourself. ❤️ P.S, as much as I love the frequency of December dailies, I hope you find a good balance with your schedule and creating them!

It was really nice to hear you talk about the importance of resting. I struggle as well with getting actual rest without doing something to “redeem” myself from needing to rest and this way I always end up not doing what I originally wanted to do with the same energy and intention. I think this is what I’m open to this year: understanding that we all need to rest and this doesn’t make me lazy or incapable. It’s a long process, but I already took the first steps 🌸

Thank You for openness on mental health. You provide a lot of positive information regarding taking time to care for yourself and to be open to learning and growing. Resting is vital and I am glad that you are taking time to work on how to rest and being kind to yourself. Happy Lunar New Yr. Love to the kitties.

thank you for the sweet hangout, it's always a pleasure. my biggest congratulations to Lilith!! so happy to hear it. i am open... to love in all it's shapes and forms! ❤

I just got so excited! Missed you so much

Loved this honest video and the length! Please make more videos long like this one! Wishing you the best energy for your upcoming exciting move and lots of fun in ceramics!!!

your words really made me reflect on the way i treat myself, thank you so much ❤️ i'm so glad you got into ceramics, this is something i'd love to learn and start doing :) the new apartment is so PRETTY, can't wait to see this new place in the next videos

This was such a heartwarming video to watch :'))) I've been watching you for so many years and to see you now as you are is incredibly joyous. You're glowing, and I know things are and will be tough, and they will go wrong, but thy will also go right. I've been obsessed with Encanto lately and I needed to share that your energy screams Julietta! I don't know if you've seen the movie, but you'll understand when you do hehehe! As for your prompt- I am open to unknowing myself and unlearning ideas about my life and myself that I view as truths. There is a book called 'Maybe you should talk to someone' and it has this quote: “But part of getting to know yourself is to unknow yourself-to let go of the limiting stories you’ve told yourself about who you are so that you aren’t trapped by them, so you can live your life and not the story you’ve been telling yourself about your life.” and I really want to practice that this year. One thing I realised recently is how for my entire life, I have "identified" as lazy, because I was told I was and believed it. I never questioned it until university where a friend suggested I might have ADHD and, turns out she was right. Now I'm learning why things are how they are for me, and unlearning 'lazy' :-) I wish you a Happy Lunar New Year and the best of rest! Lots of love ❤️

5:30 oof that really hit me to my core. talking about all the things you want to do being overwhelming is what my issue has been for years and i'm only now realising it. I would say that I am open to change or/and new experiences. Change has been something i realised i've been subconsciously fighting but i'm trying to remind myself that it's apart of everyday life and can be really good. And i get so scared to try new things because i'm super afraid of failure which is something else i'm working on this year, moving forward. Lovely video as always ♥

Omg I was thereeee when you were sad about ceramics and I was thinking the sameeee thing like “yeaaa I would cry too” 😂😂😂😂

I am open to live for myself, try and fail, and succeed as well!

i loved this video so much. thank you for being vulnerable and sharing with us the lessons that you've learned. this year, i am finally open to going to therapy.

i am open to accepting what's to come in the future, knowing that i will get through it whatever happens, and carving my own path! trying out things i want to do and seeing what sticks

i love that you spoke on resting and slowing down. it’s something that i’ve been thinking a lot about because i am someone who isn’t always go go go, and i just feel guilty when i am taking my time and relaxing. i’m trying to learn that it’s ok and that i’m choosing a healthier lifestyle. i loved this video format and i love listening to your reflections and watching you grow! much love

the way you've spoken about unknown being not so bad at all softly 🌟🌟

It’s so good to hear you say this Annabelle, I am so proud and happy for you! For me, I am open to accepting myself as the powerful creative and imaginative woman I am and loving me in all of that and in all that I am. Stepping into my power as me. Thank you for sharing! A lot of love!

It fills my heart with joy to see you learning to take care of yourself. I've watched your videos ever since you started your journey at RISD, which I really related to back then because we're the same age and were going to college at the same time. And now that I've also slowly been realizing the ways I need to take care of myself and want to grow, I see that reflected in your videos too. I'm here with you cheering you on through this journey of healing and hurting, stumbling and recovering, awkwardly yet so gracefully experiencing life for what it is and has to offer 💚

the plant of self love 🌱 i love this little thing you said

I love that you enjoy Purple Palace too! She is also one of my favourite youtubers. And speaking of when you've gone without rest for so long that you get so exhausted that you can barely get to the bathroom, be really careful not to get to that state because that state can stick with you for a really long time and potentially turn into me/cfs. I'm yet to be diagnosed officially (I have told my doctor about this) but I have lots of symtoms that point to me/cfs and it's taken me two years to start feeling like myself again and I still find it hard to do very simple things like going food shopping even though a shop is very close to my house. So please be careful with yourself.

you inspire me so much annabelle-- to be honest I often think of how grateful I am that you and your channel exist, because I feel so comforted by the way you articulate your thoughts and feelings...i just feel like I relate to you so much its crazy! much love from California!

i used to do a bunch of jiu jitsu! its so much fun and makes u think a lot while grappling, love it and miss it

I’ve been watching you since college (like 2017), and I feel like I’ve truly grown alongside you! It’s beautiful to see how much you’re learning and navigating and dreaming of - it gives me the opportunity to self reflect on how far I’ve come too, and how much what I used to value and worry about, even a year ago, has shifted so much. Thank you for sharing your life with us! ❤️

I am open to CHANGE + starting all my new ideas!!!!!!!!

i completely relate to being hesitant to share art to everyone- definitely intimidating, especially to someone like me who’s very introverted and often keeps to themselves haha. i think it’s a beautiful thing though, that we all get to share something uniquely us to the bigger collective that inspires and touches others, and i thank you so much for being that person to my world. sending lots of love and well wishes to you this year Annabelle! 💐💫

I am open to embracing fear as a natural company in life instead of my enemy

ty for another relaxing vid annabelle

Annabelle, you should look into ekphrastic poetry! It's poetry written about or in response to a piece of visual art (music would work too). It could be an easy entry point into poetry through something you're already very knowledgeable and passionate about. Sending love from Boston! 💌

I definitely agree with seeing rest as a necessity instead of a luxury! Slowing down has been a bit hard for me too, and this year I would like to work on taking the time to take care of myself more!! Sending you good vibes for your next move! ❤

So happy to see a new video from you - I always look forward to your insights and revelations :) hope this new year is filled with rest and healing!

i feel the exact same way about SATC 💀 i wish it was less problematic but the fashion + nostalgia is why i like it so much. And just like that…very cringe but i have to keep watching lol

Hi Annabelle! I love how honest and open you were with this video. Some of the things you are going through/said you went through (working nonstop, no social life, being stressed from a young age, etc) really made me feel seen. It's nice to know that I'm not the only one feeling this way. As for what I'm open to - I'm open to change. I have a lot of big life changes happening this year that i am terrified for but I also hope to see some personal changes and growth with myself. I am going to trust the process and see where life takes me! Thanks for sharing, Annabelle, and as always, take care. - yancy

First of all that dress OMG!!!! Next, I want to say that I have been watching you for many years, can't even count how many but I can really see how much you have grown and it's wonderful! I have to say I am horrible at self-love and you are really inspiring me to look more into what my inner child needs, what I need really!! Thank you Annabelle for being there for all of us! (OMG I am the same I always feel everything is my fault! Even in art, I am horrible at needing everything to be perfect! Which takes hours and sometimes I don't even get to sell my designs because I am so bad to myself and all the things I tell myself. I want to work on that too!)

I was the same as you: all go go go. But I got so run down that being ill was the norm for me. I developed chronic fatigue at one point. When you said you now treat rest as a right, that really resonated. Over the years I've come to realise that, despite what others might think, prioritising wellness is the opposite of weakness.

I also get those restless stressed-out dreams! Glad to see you making so many beneficial, sustainable changes for yourself ❤️

So happy for Lilith! love how much you're prioritizing yourself Annabelle

omg i remember that vlog where there was a mix up and you couldnt join the risd ceramics class 😥 im so glad you finally get to fulfill that desire!! 💗

I am open to the people and experiences that are here to teach me lessons. Thank you for sharing with us so much it is really helpful to me in a way going through the same kind of growth. 🌸🌷✨ keep on glowing and growing

Omg I love Purple Palace ❤️

Your shirt gives me the unicorn tapestry vibes 🥰

I love your videos very much! In 2018, I finished higgh school and 2019 went to cram school. In january of 2020 I got into university (here in Brazil the scholar year starts at february-march). But in march the pandemic started. I was so afraid but I also realized for the first time in life I didnt have colds week after week neither these intense fevers I would get after every final. So I learned that my body had been dealing with so much stress that in the first break I took after the school I would not feel sick. 2021 I had to grow so much but not in a fearless, healthy or planned way... So in 2022 I hope to really rest and keep my new health :)

i am open to letting people in, meeting new people and living the moment.

Take care always! Whenever there's no new video I just rewatch your old videos and it is still a treat 💗 but yeah rewatching old videos is such a contrast to how you were always sick back then and overworking and I'm so happy for the changes you are making. Always wishing the best

Thank you for this. I tend to fear the unknown, and needed this positivity to help ease some of my anxiety with some of my upcoming life changes. ♡

I am open to making a healthier lifestyle for myself to take care of my body and mind during my very last semester of art school! And to be more in the moment in my relationships with family, friends, and loved ones!❤💗

I kept this video so i could watched it at the proper time, but i didn´t expected this video to speak so much to me. Right now i´m almost done with a 2 year degree of being a sound engeneer which is not bad, but is not what i expected it to be. And the thing is that if it wasn´t because of the time, effort and money i have already put in, i would drop it right now. On other hand i feel like i´m not the kind of person who drops things and just give up because it´s hard and there´s also the reaction of my family if i tell them this. If i could go back i would definitly choose another path. It´s so hard to be young nowadays because you are supposed to figure out your future right away, pic a path to later start a job on that and if you don´t achieve that, then you are a loser, a lazy and you don´t have any future. What about our dreams and desires? Anyways, what i´m trying to say here is that thank you for being open and honest with us, i´ve been following you for a while now and i was asking myself the same question as you (how could you always wake up at 5 or so, when i would watch that, i would feel so unproductive and i would feel like i´m loosing my time). There is a trend right now called my girl, same vibes, you wake up early so you can be productive and bla bla bla, but it doesn´t portray a reality of most people (talking about myself here) and it makes me feel so bad at myself when i see peole acomplishing things on their daily. You were glowing while talking about your cats, the plant comment was so fun, i´m excited to see the moving vlogs, please don´t overwork for us. If we have to wait, we will and take care of you. Lots of love and hugs.

I am open to possibilities ❤️

Omg your new apartment looks so niceeee

one of the best first vids to a new yr ive ever watched! love seeing u so honest and setting goals more focused on self care!

I feel very connected to what you talk about in this bideo and your general attitude right now. That's nice :). I am open to let go of things that do not really click with me, i am open to put myself through the resistance discomfort there is between who i am and who i want to be, i am open to new unthought of paths, i am open to being open and going through life with confidence and self love.

I am open to starting all the new ideas I have been holding myself back from. I am open to living in the moment and treating myself good and to build healthy routines in my life.

One affirmation that has been with me these last months while I have been growing a lot is "Wellness is my birthright". I thought maybe that would resonate with you as well right now

I've also always had really vivid and often violent dreams. I've never tried looking into why I get them but if you ever do any personal research that you trust I'd love to hear a broad version of it. (of course I don't expect you to analyze your own dreams on video as that would involve sharing your own personal details on past events and triggers). Regardless, you're not alone!

I am open to accept myself as an artist... Finally

Happy New Year! Hope you could feel happier and more comfortable about yourself like you said in the video. You have given me much inspiration since 2017 I discovered your channel. Seeing your changes also gives me courage to re-think about my own life and what I truly want. All in all, it is always a huge pleasure to watch your new videos, much love for you! xxx ✨

Thank you so so much for this Annabelle. I am so happy hearing you say you speak to yourself like a baby. I have been watching you since your RISD portfolio video and have grown with you!!! I love your videos and love seeing you grow and rest. 💖 Please take it slow and rest. PS. No video from you could ever be too long.

I have been following you since quite a long time now :). I just came to say that you look more beautiful and lovely esp with black hair :)

you look amazing with dark hair