🧠Self Deprecating ~ Original Demo 

Got tired of filming in my bedroom. Here’s a new bop :) sry it’s quiet I did it all with my phone :/
I wasn’t made for the surface
But I drown when I try to find my way
Maybe being out of place is my purpose
Contradicting paradox, written in my name
These arms don’t know what they’re doing
I get angry when I feel them there
These threads don’t cling the way they should be.
Paranoid of being a paranoiac; feels like I’m losing hair
Chorus//
They can’t see
What I think is so funny
Deep down I find me annoying
Silently
I’m feeling so lonely
It’s suffocating to not know how to stop being ..
Self deprecating
I speak fluently in instant regret
Head in lap, the voice tells me I’m dumb
Stuffed inside a box for social rejects
But I look around the place; realize, I’m
the only one
Sometimes I blurt out something random
Other times I’m frozen in my sweat
The brain and heart should work in tandem
They look at me all sad, when I laugh wishing I were dead
[chorus]
Someday I’ll learn
Someday I’ll learn
Someday I’ll learn
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