Sorry for 1) wiping my nose the entire time, 2) ending abruptly, and 3) leaving the thumbnail as it was - but I thought it was hilarious and I couldn’t help myself. It is what it is 🤷♀️
I feel the same as Jason Gauden and I don't think you have to be crying all the time. Be the light as what you are. But that doesn't mean you should not cry either. Talk to us what on your mind and show us what you are doing. Get Matt or Lee show you how how to edit the video. Love you
❤️ It's real, it's from the heart, and really it's helpful in many ways. That's a beautiful thing. As a 35yr old male I'd have watched a 20minute "ramble" about your feelings too, so have no worries about that) Now is the time for it. Do it whenever you want or need to. P.S. how your humor glints through is so heartwarming 😅it's a good muscle to keep strong. God bless. Praying for you and the little humans.
Listen, regardless of why people came to this channel, they are staying for you, and if you want to talk for 20 minutes about your feelings we are here to support that !!
Yep. 30 year old male here. I also will listen. The take from it for me is. We will all at some point go through death of a loved one. In some form and we will all have to face it and deal with it in one way or another. Right now, i haven't been through it luckily. But my time will come and when it does. I will be more prepared and stronger from watching these and learning to cope with it in the best way i can. Like a lot of people have said. We came for Mark but now we're going to stay for you. Baby steps, but you'll pick it up! You can, like most people learn on the job. And we're all here to watch you grow. As a family and a RU-vidr. X
I just found your (his) channel years after the fact. I'm just happy that good people can be remembered forever now that we have internet. I wish I could've recorded my grandparents to watch later. Everyone should record & save as many loved ones videos as much as possible. God bless.
Jaci, don't be sorry for anything, ignore people who judge you. We're tens of thousands here to support you. Mark's RU-vid channel is a family, and whatever you do or say we're just here to support you and send you positive vibes. I was raised as a catholic but am not as into it as you are, but heck Jaci, I've prayed for Mark and now I pray for you and the kiddos. GOD BLESS YOU JACI, and THANK YOU !!!!! ✝️ 🙏 🙌 ❤️
2 years later and I’m rewatching all of yours and his videos. I just hope you know that we are also on your team! I would be willing to bet more than I have, that us 80something% men would gladly, with pride, and compassion watch your 20 minute plus videos. If you ever decided to grace us with your thoughts, you would have my/our full attention. RIP Mark. We all miss you in our own ways, but I know we can’t ever miss you the way your wife and kids do. I know you’re looking down on them and I truly believe that you aren’t missing there successes, just from a different elevation.
Regardless of the statistics of Mark's audience, those who remain are here to support you and your family. If you need to ramble for 20 minutes, you ramble for 20 minutes. (Signed, someone who is not in that 83%)
I’m a 63 year old woman who always enjoyed Mark and his silliness and love of the family! You go ahead and just deal with this loss anyway you feel like! Grief is as individual as people are! You hang in there! Gentle hugs
I am glad to see your nice, normal, considerate comments. I noticed you all mentioned age/gender. I mentioned my age and gender when commenting on this video, and was harassed. Also, vile language was used toward me because I have an Astros logo. It is so sad to be treated so hateful (and it was not really even about my comment...it was about me!) So, thanks ladies for being kind. It made me feel a lot better.
A bit over two years now. I don’t know what made me come back to you and marks videos, I guess I was just thinking about mark and sort of hoping for another long term update. I lost my Dad December 8 2021. It shattered my whole world and I still struggle with that loss. I hope you and the kids are doing well or as well as you can and may the Lords loving light shine on you and your family and all those who loved Mark. Merry Christmas and God bless.
@@TheGooseIsLoose9000 lost my 70 year old dad Nov 7th 2020, What a crappy coincidence and day for both of us. Today is his birthday. Stay strong brother the torch has been passed, God Bless. And same to the original poster Sorry for your loss too
I still come back here every once in a while. You have forever left a stamp on my heart. I hope that someday I will get to hear that your family is doing okay. Just a reminder that you meant something special to so many people and you have left such a great impact on this world. I miss you.
Since me being one of the 20-25 year old males I suppose you deserve to hear that I’m sure all of us wouldn’t mind listening to you talk about mark or anything to do with your life for any amount of time, your husband was everything everyone of us should strive to be like, and I atleast owe it to him to listen to a 20 min video. Maybe he wasn’t perfect but he looked like he was that’s for damn sure. And he deserves every bit of recognition the man receives.
The entire Carriker family, in my opinion, is something to strive for. They all do a great job of making it look good on camera, so there must be some truth to it.
Jaci, I know in your eyes this was “Mark’s thing”, but who knows what God has planned. When I see you on here I see grace and strength. So thank you for doing these videos even though they’re hard. We are a needy bunch of folk, lol. We just need to know you’re doing as good as you can be. I’m praying for you and your littles every day! God bless you all 🥰🙏❤️
Thinking of you on this Father's day so dropped by to show some love..gone but never forgotten..your strength sticks with me at random times of the day just following this journey..god bless
You cope the way you cope. I lost my wife when she was 37 and I was 33. After 6 months people were telling me to move on with my life. You heal at your pace nobody else’s. Stay strong.
It took me 5 years straight of grieving to get up and even try to move on... I literally could not and would not function when my husband passed in 2008 at the age of 46..💔😢 I had 3 young children still and I was paralyzed with grief for 5 straight years... I had NO CHOICE but to grieve IN MY OWN TIME..🙏🏻😢💔
Those 83% of men that watched this channel had a great deal of respect and admiration for Mark and his dedication to his family. It wasn't cancer that attracted us to this channel, it was Mark. And because we care about Mark, we care about you and the kids. There is no Mark (as we know him) without you guys.
Vent your feelings, we are here to listen. It's never easy to lose someone close and having a sound board is invaluable. No one here will judge and if they do they shouldn't be here.
Well, totally new to his journey, stumbled on the channel, and bloody hell that guy suffered! That was brutal, totally brutal. Dam cancer is a cruel disease. I hope Jackie has moved on, which is kind of indicated by the lack of updates for the last three years. You have to, for the sake of the kids you just have to, and I'm sure they both talked about this a lot during that final year. You have to continue your life and get to a happy place again, otherwise what's the point? This channel is his legacy, his memory, his humour and his bravery. It will always be something his children can tap into and be inspired by, as well as being an archive of what a strong and amazing Dad they had.
I’ve been wondering how you and the children were doing and all of y’all have been in my prayers. You are a pillar of strength and I’m positive that Mark is very proud of you. Young lady, you grieve when you need to because losing the love of your life is so hard. I pray that your days are filled with peace and comfort knowing that Mark is in Heaven watching over his family. God bless y’all!
You’re doing a great job, taking over the videos. Everyone here loves to hear from you you can go on for 20 minutes any time. I can’t really imagine your pain. You went from living with a wild and crazy guy who made you laugh, to silence. There’s no good way to handle this. Pray, cry, talk to him, do whatever helps you get through each day. Lots of love and prayers for you out here.
You’re someone who I can actually learn from during a time when the whole world is in crisis. What you are sharing helps to remind me that going numb is not going to work - keep feeling and growing.
If you sit down and record a video and it's just you ranting or talking about your feelings for 20 minutes. Upload it. We know it's a tremendously hard time for you and your family. You more then the rest. It's ok to vent. And we're all here. We'll listen. We'll try to give you as much positive energy as possible, and well try to answer the questions that you have. Please don't feel like you need to upload videos just for us. The videos that you choose to upload are more for you than they are us. Just remember we're here to support you. Not the other way around.
There is no one way to grieve. It’s ok to scream, cry, laugh or what ever makes you feel better. I can see why Mark fell in love with you. You have a beautiful heart ❤️ ❤️❤️❤️❤️ Please feel free to ramble for two hrs if need be. We are here for you and will listen, support and send our love.
Yes! Just what I was thinking! You have the right to grieve your huge loss. You don't need to apologize for anything. There are many of us that are grieving too. Not just for Mark, but for our own losses. It feels a little better to share the load. I'm grieving the loss of my Dad 1 year ago today. Also from cancer. It's horrible to see them suffer and not be able to do anything about it. You don't need to put on a happy face for this channel. You do what you need to.
@@AnitaBetterScreenname And, I my 38 year old son from January. Watching Mark's last days caused more weeping, but I do feel they were cathartic. Bless this sweet girl's heart.
found this channel today...thought he was very alive, now i see all that has transpired. I feel like I have have lost something. But i did learn. I learned how to DEAL with grace. What a great guy, liked planes, guns, good beer, great looking women, his kids, humor, creating with his hands. Kindred souls we were and never knew him. 😕
I lost my husband of 30 yrs a year and a half ago. He is with me every day. I'm telling you this so you know - Mark is with you every step of the way. When you feel his presence - he is there. Watch for signs ...
Lori Morgan it’s not the same as a human, but I lost my little dog about 6 months ago. Sometimes I feel like she’s still here with me. Like sometimes she’s still laying next to me with my other dog.
@@LegendYT1 why isn't a dog the same as a human?That life touched you in a special way and If u loved that dog then you have the right to morn that animal as much as a human!My dog is my best friend and besides my mother will be the worst death I will ever have to go thru!Good luck!!
@@LegendYT1 Family is family. Love is love. I just lost my best friend my Cat Missy, three weeks ago. I'm devastated. This channel has helped me feel less alone in my grief. I feel her around me too. Not ready to let her leave my side just yet. Really hope you're are doing okay. Big hugs. Your dog knows you still need her. She'll stay with you until you're strong enough. 💛
Andrew Will I’m sorry about your dog. She did touch me in a special way. It was very difficult for me to have acceptance but my mom still hasn’t. She’s still very devastated. She’s not like heartbroken and cooped up in a corner but she just starts talking about our dog sometimes. Just know this, your dog is waiting for you and my dog is waiting for me and the Golden Gates! ❤️
“Homemade Everything” is about all of you and your beautiful family. We love Mark and we love you and the munchkins too. We are here to listen and support you and it’s not because of obligation. It’s because we care. In just a short time you have helped me with my own similar experiences and I’m not feeling so bad about certain subjects that I have been battling with myself. Thank you so much.💐
Its almost midnight, in a little Wisconsin town. And I found myself wondering about you and of Mark. And of the children, and how you are doing. So i checked in. I hope the pain is not overbearing, and may you find some peace, each and every day, if only for a moment. God bless. And may you walk just a little closer to him on his journey. Now it's - Homemade "help" (everything)
I'm one of the minority, a woman. Haha so I would have liked the 20 minute talk. I appreciate your real raw emotions. Thank you and will be happy with anything you give us. 💕💕💕💕
25 year old male, 20-40 what ever amount of time if you want to talk about your feelings we are here. I’m new to the channel as I just found out about mark from Tavarishs channel. I am sorry for what you have gone through and it’s amazing that you keep working through everything. You are amazing and mark will be missed.
@@rubencentro4974 I guess the 25 y male is a reference to the audience she mentions the channel has and the 20-40 min iis because she said something about ppl not interested in watching her talking about her feelings....he wrote "WE"" are here for you" ....dirty mind 😉
My wife passed away 2 days after this was posted. I am so sorry for your loss. I know your pain and I am praying for you and that God would give you peace. For me, it has helped being in facebook support groups. It is a good avenue to vent and talk about your feelings when you are having a rough day. The one I go to most is hope after loss for widows and widowers.
I hope you continue to check in. I am one of the female members of “Marks audience” and most of what I enjoyed was videos about you and the kids. So please don’t stop. You’re amazing. Thank you for sharing. God bless you.
My husband passed away suddenly 4.5 years ago. Talking about him helped and still helps me. Our daughter found him in the morning that day, she was 4, and I still can’t undo that memory for her. So, talk, as long as you want to, I will watch it all. I’m sure most others would too. Watch the cat for craziness, they feel the presence of our loved ones that have passed. Hugs and prayers to you and the kids.
It's interesting you say that about the cat...because you can see the cat jump down and chase something at around 385s ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-DaxyigpQECM.html
Thank you for continuing to reach out! I wasn't introduced to your family until Matt started his "Abandoned Mansion" series. It was through him that I learned about Mark. As someone currently going through my own cancer battle, I was so touched by his faith and his attitude about life. He just kept pressing on and didn't let it keep him from living life. He was an inspiration to this 40 year old, now one-legged, Christian, woman. I will continue to keep you and your children in my prayers.
I'm sorry, I just came across this from the clip on Off the Ranch and him wanting to hit 100k subscribers. I am sorry that he is gone and for the pain you are feeling. I can only offer my words of encouragement and faith with the hope that somehow they will help. Families can be eternal and are central to Gods plan for our salvation and eternal joy. Keep your love and your faith and God will be with you and help you heal and overcome even this. This is part of the atonement, so that he could know how to comfort you even with the heartache and loss you're living through. God Bless you and your family.
Don't ever feel you can't express yourself, most of us want to know, you're ok, we never met him, but we had love for him.. Don't feel bad if you feel sad, it's part of getting through this. Thanks for sharing, we got you in prayer and we got you here, it's just nice to see you. God bless you
WE have seen Mark's side of his struggle. We would love to now go on your journey and see the things you go through and maybe it helps you by letting it out and talking to us. God Bless.
Hey Jackie, Homemade Everything has 238,000 subscribers. Mark would be proud. Keep the channel and his memory alive. We’re all here to listen to you as your RU-vid family. God bless you and stay safe.
Jaci , I lost my husband 4 years ago. There are no rules in the grieving process, reading the 5 stages of grief was helpful for me. You are in my prayers ❤️
Please know that while many of us came here for Mark’s journey, we have stayed because Mark’s journey lives on through you and the kids. You don’t have to answer to any of us, share the content you want to share that is the beauty of a VLog if people don’t like it they can leave. Please don’t feel like you need to cater to a demographic, we are here to see what you want to share with the world. Please be yourself and if you want to go on a 20 min tangent we all understand. You have every right to grieve and anyone that tells you otherwise is a fool. Please stay strong and this community is here for you.
As one of those "men" in the 83%, we'll listen to you talk about anything you feel like talking about. We are here for you as you and Mark have been here for us.
Hello from Georgia!👋🏼 It is December 7, 2023 and I just found your channel. I’ve been watching a lot of the videos, and hope that you might give all of your followers an update about what has happened in the past 3 years. I’m sure that everyone would love to know how your life is going, and how you and the kids are. I will continue watching all of the videos from the beginning of the channel, and want to wish you a very happy and healthy life! Take good care of yourself and those precious children! Sending you love and strength from Georgia!🙋♀️💕
I'm a woman in my fifties and I've never been blessed with children, but I would've loved to have had a daughter like you. You are really amazing! Go on, dear, you're doing great! 👍
The Carriker's on RU-vid are the embodiment of life being lived; something a lot of us never really see the opportunity to do. From Pew-Pews, saving animals, rebuilding and building things, facing the loss of oneself and those you love. Dr. Lee is a dad that those lacking a father figure can look up to, and Drewski…… well, teaches how to be your best online sniper. This channel could continue as a blueprint for people recovering from loss, if she feels called to do so. If she chooses to let it be, and this is the last video posted, that's fine too. I appreciated Mark, and I appreciate Jacqueline for sharing what she has. Peace and happiness to you ma'am.
I'm a man between 25 and 35, and contrary to societal belief, I have feelings too. This channel is yours, not mine. I'm here for you, not for stereotypes. Say what you want, upload what you want. If it takes 20 minutes, it takes 20 minutes. Lord knows we've all got time for each other right now. Much love. 💗😊
As a 23 year old man I also 100% agree! This is hard stuff and sometimes being real there isn’t a short way to say what needs to be said. Feelings are so important and letting them out is therapeutic, we’re all here to listen😊
Honey, I'd still listen to you even if it was 30 minutes long. Thank you for making a video and sharing your heart and feelings with us. You and your family are in my prayers.❤❤
Why not go and collaborate on a youtube vid with Matt and Mere? Get Matt to edit it, something like abandoned mansion etc and let your small humans freerange with Matt n Meres kids. You gotta get out and surround yourself with Family and wine. Celebrate the good things with Mark, his understanding of whats left behind will be broader than ours and to bring joy back into your lives would make is much better.
Its nice to see people are still here. However, Mark's dad did put up a update on his channel about the family. The channel is Out on the Ranch (with Dr. Lee) and he said its been hard losing Mark but the family is doing well and the kids are older. That's just a short summary, but everyone should go watch his update. Merry Christmas and good health and blessing to all.
Living is the hardest thing we do in life. Life isn't always the way we planned (I believe you understand this). We never met, but I believe the viewers of this channel genuinely care about you & your kids. We don't know the background of everything you & Mark went through. You & your family is loved. Prayers are said for by me and I hope others. I think you should collaborate with other family members for a future video & do what you think is best. You are appreciated.
No apologies! You are doing your best & have continued to try to share what you can & I know everyone appreciates just seeing you and also kids & that everyone is ok in the places that they are right now.... Thank you for being a warrior & sharing what you can.
I think Steve Irwin's wife had a good perspective. She said my children have seen me cry, but they haven't seen me weep. Btw, he absolutely knows who you are. He absolutely sees your kids. He still absolutely loves you. Its hard to say but God is good, all the time. You will see him again.
i hope you do understand that this is one of rarest and most valuable videos on youtube in general. a true human subject, a human problem, a human solution.... please dont stop. talk, scream, vent, just know there are thousands of people having a similar experience and all of us sooner or later loose our loved ones... please dont stop, for us!
I think most of us feel like distant family. This is the only channel I've ever watched that has brought tears to my eyes. Even with Mark gone we still like to know how you 3 are doing. Dont try to fit the mold he set for this channel, it has already changed completely from when it started. It will hopefully begin to take on it's new character as you use it.
In one minute look at all the comments Jaci - we are all here for you to listen as long as you want. We care about you & your 2 adorable babies. I’ve never cried so much for someone I’ve never met. He was soooo special. “And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be anymore pain, for the former things are passed away. REVELATION 21:4. ✝️
I can't believe how fast time passes. Was thinking about this channel and hope you and the kids are doing good in these crazy times? Definitely miss his videos and glad you have his channel to talk through your journey with us.
I am a 60 year old lady. I loved hearing Mark “ramble” about whatever came to his mind, therefore, whatever you have to say is just as important. I enjoy hearing what you have to say about yourself, and also what you want to share about Mark. It DOES help me, as I am grieving the loss of him...a man I have never met, but a man who I felt I knew. He obviously loved you and the children SO MUCH. It was very endearing to see it every time he talked about you all. As for anything negative that people have to say, hopefully you can overlook their insensitivity. You are a very special person, so please take care of yourself as much as you can. You have 2 amazing little humans who are very blessed to have you for their Mommy. Prayers for strength and peace for you all. 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
NiNeRs fo life Is your comment good, kind or necessary?? I am sure this family and others here would dislike your bullying comment..and...it is Houston Astros!!
Someone needed to hear this. Lost my mom to cancer. She stayed strong in her faith till the end and it helped my brothers and I tremendously. Knowing where they are and knowing they arent suffering brings peace. Stay strong Jaci, even if these vids help one person find peace or encouragement, they are worth doing.
I lost my mother almost 2 years ago and even though I never grew up (I turned 18 a few days ago) in a religious family, I still know deep down in my heart she is aware and watches over me all the time
All you can do is take one day at a time, my Mother died 28th December 2018 and like you I know she’s in Heaven watching over our family. You are a good person and as it is still raw, you are going to have peaks and troughs of emotion and there is nothing to apologise for. God bless
“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.” “Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.” -Dr. Seuss
Was talking with a customer yesterday, over the phone. At the end of the convo, he said bye-eeee just like Mark did. Startled me, it sounded just like Mark. Hope you and kids are doing well. We think of you often. 💕
The two of you are still a perfect pair! We still love YOU very much! Nothing can take away the testimony he provided for his faith and his love of his family! You are beautiful and I can’t wait to see how gorgeous the kids grow up ... looking like the two of you! How could they go wrong? 💁🏻💕☀️☀️
I'm so sorry for your loss, I don't have the words to show you how strong and courageous you are for sharing this! Thank you for being kind enough to pull through your pain and continue to update everyone. As comforting as it is to know he's no longer in pain, I know it is still difficult to handle loss. I hope it helps to know, you and your family are in the hearts and prayers of so many people!!
Well a person can't be sad and crying all the time when they have precious little children who depend on them. I think most people understand you now have a gigantic hole in your life and in your heart but despite that you have to continue on. I'm really glad you made this video. I've been thinking about Mark today, and about you and the kiddies. Take care. xo
