www.bipolarORwakingUP.com Finally, an answer to the question of the difference between mental disorders, like bipolar disorder, and spiritual awakenings.
During my physcosis I remember it lasted almost 2 weeks . It was such an awakening and during this time I had so much energy hardly slept or hardly ate . I had a very Spiritual moment during this time where I was able to forgive my abuser from childhood without anyone being present . Not only did I forgave him but in that moment I also prayed for him . I was finally able to let go of the pain after more than 20yrs of carrying hate . I thought I was gonna die but instead I feel reborn .
the sad thing is that nobody wants to hear the stories or any of the lessons learned during this time. we are looked at as lepers rather than having something special to share.
I was just diagnosed officially with Bipolar disorder. 2 years ago I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. what I want to know is why is it then that I feel some type of spiritual crisis? I cannot explain or describe my feelings and when the doctor asked me what my understanding of life Is, I just said I want inner peace. he told me the only way I can attain this is through taking mood stabilizers. This is when I mentioned "well what about the people who get 'terminal' cancer and are able to heal themselves completely without any medication" he responds by saying that's because they have faith. And so I say "THAT is what I want". he says "you are looking for a needle in a haystack that you may never find". I just know deep inside that these illnesses are a compass to lead us to the life we are meant to live. But it's so difficult to express the feelings that come with it. they are uncategorized
He is somewhat right. It is very hard to find nirvana, unless you have a deep desire and also awaken your intuition which will send people into your life in serendipitous ways to help you achieve inner peace. Mood stabilizers can be quite dangerous - blood clots, for one. they don't tell you that - and antioxidants such as aronia have helped me. Try the antioxidant route and keep searching. Check out this chart - www.heartsongctr.com/class101/series1/chakraframe.htm an oldie but a goodie. It seems we have excess energy in some parts of our brains or bodies for some reason.
You gonna listen to a doc with no personal experience of your condition, dictate your future through the use of pharmaceutical pills to numb your “problems”. Fuck em my parents are those people and it makes it worse.
And they need no categories It’s a test of your soul Do you need guidance from others That de man has no soul… No faith… Now you have what he doesn’t An opportunity. Follow your guidance Nobody can tell you Only you decide.
many are called, few are chosen.....those of us, or many of us who have been traumatized through the world's social injustices, and/or suffered great losses of loved ones, begin to ask for knowledge, wisdom, and understanding.....yet through all trauma, we remain in love, and compassion.....and the true journey begins......trust the universe, observe, study...and know WE ARE LOVED on many realms, and dimensions...... 1
I had my spiritual awakening this week and it was the most beautiful feeling I've ever felt in my life. My soul showed me the real world. It's never going to be the same for me again. You cannot go back. There's only one person in my life who's on the same level of consciousness so it's a harder adjustment without someone to talk to. But I'm so excited to learn new things.
I realise that it’s a long time since you posted your message, but I’ve just found it, and totally appreciate what you say. Life after (what I believe to be a profound spiritual experience, and not psychosis as the doctors would have me believe) is certainly not the same. My priorities are so very different, and the world as I knew it is difficult to accept. I’m very fortunate to have a couple of dear friends who ‘get’ where I am, so we can talk together. It’s as if I’m now on a different plane of existence. The joy and ‘knowing’ has receded, but I know that I was given an insight of something very profound for a reason. I send you best wishes.
the best way i could describe my manic episode was encountering the natural world as it was for the first time since childhood and being in total alignment with it such that all fear was gone and the power and beauty of universal oneeness could be experienced firsthand, i have never felt more alive than during my episode, but unfortunately it comes at a cost where you brush shoulders against the man made world that isn’t prepared to accept it, that’s where the treatment for bipolar disorder had to come in, i couldn’t afford universal wholeness, i had to let it go in order to become safe within myself and the world around be, but i’ll never forget it, it changed my life for the better
I appreciate your dissection and analysis on this topic. My mission is to raise awareness for the rest of my days and this Video affirms my suspicions about so called mental illnesses and how they are I fact human awakening markers or signs that only with cultural stigma and the associated of a problem to them are they harmful. Ancient lost wisdom has flowed through your work. Perhaps these “illnesses” that Plague our world will come to be interpreted as signs towards enlightenment just in different levels. It’s with acceptance and non judgment that we can truest be aware of our true propose. Thanks
Sean, you are a genius, your videos are so awesome and clear, how can ANYONE hate you for all these effords you are making with your gorgeous videos. I have to say, i had ALL these experiences, and now i seem to ease-down, finally, after allmost 20 years of suffering, mixed with periods of intense bliss and enjoyment, being 'bipolar' is a gift in a curse and a curse within a gift, it's all ONE, Ying and Yang, and we are experiencing the complete spectrum of spiritual conciousness. Love, Zohra
the ancient Greeks used to consider bipolar disorder as a divine gift from the gods! A divine gift! Wow! That’s WAY different than how we are looked at today. How fascinating. “Mania” and “melancholia” were among the first two diseases ever categorized. Even Socrates and Plato understood that mania was a divine state with various characteristics such as “erotic inspiration” sent from the god of love or “proteptic inspiration” derived from the Muses. They even go on to say that the god Apollo is the source of this divine inspiration!
Wow. I deeply thank and respect the thoroughness, creativity and intelligence you put into understanding the issue and making the video. I have been diagnosed as bipolar but have always perceived it as a spiritual transition. I had also worked in a mental hospital where I worked with adolescents straddling mutliple worlds. This helps me understand all of our journeys better. Thank you so very much, Sean.
If you want to help me, help yourself! Make sure you give lots of time for your own process of healing/awakening! Be patient with yourself, show some of my videos to friends and family that you feel comfortable sharing this information with. It could help with your support! Good Luck!
I love your complete analysis of these difficult,scary transformative, transitions! Our daughter at University just had a full blown Kundalini Awakening! At first we were anxious and fearful. Maybe a severe chronic mental disorder? or a profound cosmic transformation? If I hadn't had a Spiritual Awakening but slower clearing(over 30 yrs) and had done some research on Kundalini. I probably wouldn't have calmed down and rode the wave with her! This hit our daughter hard and created a fear bomb that rippled through her University Friends. None of them understood and shunned her like a witch. But others came around. In any event.. She had temporary psychosis was unrelatable . Our hearts go out to families that are affected by heavy dark transitions in this reality. We knew intuitively to help ground her and accept what was happening... Both scary and cool. She now has very highly tuned perceptions, clairvoyant and very strong from within. WE ALL ARE UGRADING... THE SHIFT HAS BEGUN! ❤️✌🏼
This video series, and the work you put into reaserch but also presentation, is priceless! The singular most accurate analisys and theory that i have stumbled upon, and having been diagnosed bipolar myself, i’m dedicated to learning about it. Thank you, very much! Namaste 🙏
Hearing a mans voice whisper in my ear my name.... To the point I awoke. Seeing a man standing in my hall way... Seeing a young girl with a pink blanket rush past me and vanished... Constant emotion ups highs... Vibrations are outta this world... I hear frequencies sometimes... Vivid dreams.. Outta body dreams... I had a nap one afternoon and had a outta body experience where I saw myself being dragged by my leg out of my bed... Always have flying dreams... I have premonitions... Not big ones but small ones... I don't watch tv.. Or read newspapers.. Magazines... I do not own a lap top or computer... But I do have a mobile and even being on my phone for to long bugs my head........ I stay away from technology as much as possible..... I don't like being around people because I pick up and sense everyone's problems so i stay indoors and seclude myself................. And because all of this is happening iv been diagnosed with Bipolar\mood disorder
Monalisa Bee, you just described so much of myself! Have you also had these experiences since early childhood? (I have been living these experiences for as long as I can remember, about 3 1/2 years old.
Hoke network same! I even have a picture of a me standing next to a tree with and aboriginal ghost beside me... and spiritual experiences/seeing things with multiple witnesses. For me I’m sticking to meds because I cannot operate in this reality without them... it’s like I know things other people don’t know and I can’t understand how they can’t see!
I can't thank you enough. You are freaking awesome dude! Thanks to you, I have a clear understanding of what I went through and can explain the same to my counselor. Maybe I won't have to go to the shrink now? Therapy's fine, but it's the meds that I feel uncomfortable about. Don't wanna become a zombie, right? P.S. I am certain that I had a spiritual emergence. After all, I am much more aware and spiritually awakened now.
Damn, this makes perfect sense. im upper right hand corner WTF! This is a hard pill to swallow. Thank you for doing the work. So how are you doing now?
That is great research and an on point theory that I agree with. I think your on to something profound. It absolutely hits home for me. Awesome video 💞
Sean, thank you so much for the work you've put into this. It is brilliant! It follows that the more one were to actually put in the work of honestly confronting, feeling and coming to terms with their life traumas, the more positive the experience can be. It makes so much sense. Love ya, bro. Please keep up the good work. :)
Robert Nobilia You're welcome }}Robert! You should also check out my videos about Moni's healing process with me. I think you will find them very interetsting.
I have been diagnosed as schizophrenic as well as bipolar manic in my life time...and I have always been a Christian and a writer as well as a gifted singer. And people have always seemed to run from it...and I know the difference between a spiritual experience and a manic episode because I have experienced it.
wow... the EXACT same thing happened to me... I truly started to connect with my spiritual self pretty much at the same time as I got sick.. I am so thankful for that since it (and my music) has kept me going, even through my most heavy depressions. Loved this! Thank you :))
I think we will evolve to the point that any mental health professional would be required to have experience by themselves the profound and deep process of awakening, healing, pain and anxiety that comes from the falling of the small ego mask. True help comes from people that have had this kind of experiences. Many psychiatrists nowadays are sleeping, they are unconscious people with a degree helping other sleepers in the need of profound understanding of their process.
mine feels like spiritual awakening, i’m being treated for bipolar but i’m kind of pissed that i put it on hold in favor of being treated, my only self destructive behavior was exposing myself too much on social media during the awakening
I have had the spiritual experiences...Many.... but you mention this to any doc.. and they whack you on pills. this is the way it is....Its bloody sad but its true.
Sean Blackwell, you have saved my life the first second i ever saw your very first video, many years ago. The same way Neale Donald Walsh first book of "Conversations With God" saved me within the first lines! You are so talented at explaining all of our extreme bipolarity in such a profound and with such natural easy flow. You illustrate all of your videos with amazing images! My soul wishes to encourage you to feel very happy and content if not proud of your hard craft!! it has paid off millions and will keep on paying off trillions for new generations to come. You have my eternal gratitude for supporting me, gently, firmly, wisely, to assume my Kundalini syndrome. With patience, wisdom and free will, i am feeling more and more in tune with whom I AM truly, deeply and lovingly, for the benefit of all of that is in this wonderful Universe and beyond! Namaste Sean! Your mission is right on track!! :o) xxx
Thanks you for researching and making this video. Ive been living in an abyss like depression (though really creative) since my psychosis in university where I felt like I achieved enlightenment out of nowhere and had complete control over time and space, feeling in tune to everything. Ive experienced pretty much everything on the scale though Im not diagnosed - my family and friends are very worried about me and I am glad I can show them this video to explain my experiences much easier.
Very well put! I´d only add that we do need to show compassion for people who, despite their best efforts, find the experiences too difficult and overwhelming to deal with, even with great support around them. For these people, meds may be the best option.
This video feels like I’m listening to the story of my life. I started to write a book about exactly this without saying this exactly, this clearly. Wow. Just wow. I am speechless. Speechless. Like someone read my mind. I feel like this video was made for me.
Actually, there is no biological evidence of mental 'illness'. As a result, psychiatrists here in Brazil no longer refer to schizophrenia or bipolar disorder as 'mental illnesses' or diseases as they have no proof of such. They are only refered to as disorders, and it is fully accepted that no such tests for these disorders exist.
You made me understand the very true nature of the spiritual awakening I lived last weekend. Thank you, Shawn Blackwell. I now understand how I'm healing.
Thank You men! I thought i was the only one, but i see now this is common. I wont lie to you, Im still fighting with it, but I arrive somehow to the same conclusion, is tolerance what defines whats bipolar and whats Spiritual Awakening!
Thank you so much , this is really helpful . i v been trying to deal with what u called "spirtual emergency" for 1 month now , with 1 suicide attempt so far lol ts not easy at all for me with all that depression... Too bad i have no supporters to go through this healing process with me , not even anyone around has a single idea about what im facing , i sound like a weirdo or a crazy for them when i try to speak things from my own perspective or knowledge.. Thank you for doing all this job to provide this help while there is no support or a "a voice" for people like us , i wish a good luck and unconditional love for everyone going through this , you all are geniuses NOT CRAZY,but we just dont have a chance in such a fucked up world ruled by a bunch of assholes
Thank you so much for what you have done for me personally, I am very grateful. I have been fighting half of my life for what you have said in this video.
interestingly what happened to me was a mind reset. I was always quite enlightened but indoctrinated by society (still am to a certain extent) it is a battle for sure because I may fall back to the ways of the world TV etc but I do not want to go back to that ! multiple perspectives are the way to go for sure but the right ones, there are many truths and my personal truth is important to me.
I just had, what I was told by nurses, a manic episode of bipolar. At the beginning, it felt very much like what you described as spiritual emergency. However, I was unable to sleep for 3 days, so I went to see the doctors. They saw my symptoms and had a very serious and fearful attitude towards it; they immediately put me in a psychiatric ward. At that point, my spiritual experience took a sudden dive into the borderline schizophrenic spectrum you described. I wish doctors had a more open mind.
Thanks for these upploads..i have had an spiritual emergency and i still think it's goin on...it have healed almost all fear and missperceptions by having this knowledge...it was very scary in moments(3days or so in many episodes) but information like this in the background of these experiences made it much easier..
I had a magical experience in about 1990, in touch with higher forces, it wos a feeling of "knowing" god, goddess exists.......I wos engulfed with these feelings, it lasted for many months!!!......then I had a breakdown....or I wos shut down one way or the other.......and now I'm in darkness!!....trying to find my way back to that magical place!!!!
Exactly. That´s why I'm not entirely anti-psychiatry. At this point in time, medications are completely necessary for people at the 'darker' end of the spectrum, and if you had watched the entire video, you would have understood that.
I tend to agree. Trauma may very well be the cause of negative psychosis such as paranoia and other delusions. I think this is my experience. Maybe, the negative psychosis episode is as you say a process to get rid of the past trauma which in my case was an intense feeling of abandonment and lack of trust.
Thank you, What validate your point of view further is that in my case the cause of my bipolar mania symptoms is the use of accelerated meditation tools like Holosync. And after studying Ken Wilber's levels of development, I now think that psychotic mania might be a fixation on the first fulcrum.(immature emotionnel self expression of that level)
Your spot on. They are a spectrum. I'm highly aware of myself. I get depression to bipolar to schizophrenia then I have to ground myself More!! Can take days and I have to keep people away when I'm like this. Stress triggers it and I'll never go in a hospital! I find trying to balance my chakras is the best method. Root chakra being the most important. I've been diagnosed with CPTSD and bipolar. I'll stop there Thanks 😆 I see the link with consciousness one of my symptoms is Disassociation. The more I dissociate the less conscious I become. I'm learning to deal with it. There isn't enough knowledge out there right now.
Spot on! Around 22 minutes. Brilliant! I wonder if any are left-handed also, and whether do they have an astrological pattern. Recommend the Teachings of Abraham to all to help understand yourself better. Hope this reaches you.
@bipolarorwakingup No Sean, Thanks YOU, for taking the time to make these videos. IT gives a lot of piece of mind, knowing there are people outthere, having the same kind of experience you are going through. And that you are not alone in your process. I write a lot about my situation also on my blog, unfortunately it's in dutch :) I am absolutely sure it is a spiritual awakening, because right now we are going through the process of 'ascension'. Have you ever heard of it?
@DrAsIs143 I know a number of people who have recovered entirely and live free of medication - completely normal and healthy lives. (mind you, they fit the 'upper right' of my model). In fact, for me, my hospitalization of 15 years ago represented a genuine breakthrough. That is why I do this work. "Science" has turned a blind eye to the spiritual aspects of 'acute-psychosis' for far too long. People are not given an opportunity to heal because psychiatry denies what is staring them in the face.
thank you! i have had many psycosis! have Always Been on drugs then to. so i first get adhd before then bipoler and then shizoaffective. but bor i heal and starr to know myself. so peps there is so much hope! ❤
ive had a spiritual awakening this week just from your videos i was fearful of believing in my spirituality as i didnt understand my experience i was made to feel unnatural
As the video suggests, there is a way out for many...maybe not for everyone - just yet anyways. The first step is to watch all of my videso 1- 23 plus some others. They will help get you in the right frame of mind!
I was a skeptical atheist not anymore, I am bipolar, bipolarity is real...I went thru a spiritual awakening also really real, I consider my self spiritual overall with still lil traits of atheist just cause when you go thru a spiritual awakening you understand all the beliefs systems and fake paradigms...
During my psicosis I remember walking for 4 days into this dark valley and I asked God if I was going to stay there forever? He didn't answer. So, I told Him "It's okay I will still praise your name forever" I asked Him at least for a rubik cube family fotos and a fan. It was dark and I was floating. After seeing unbelievable evil/good entities and going through two of my own life legal trial He pulled me out to the light. It was painful but, today I feel more peaceful and uplifting than ever.
Sean, I've had another episode of psychosis this summer, and am clearly at the more "euphoric spiritual manic" end of the spectrum, with "mixed" behaviours that seem clearly "regressive" and emotionally-responsive ways of dealing with trauma - both within my own lifetime & past family jazz. My direct question to you -- and I've been really appreciating your videos, by the way -- a huge thanks: Let's say the episode has been interrupted due to "hospitalization", how would you go about going *back* into the traumas I was experiencing prior to hospitalization, to heal them safely? I believe you are running or developing a treatment model? How do you invite expression (?) of the traumatic circumstances so these can be liberated and healed? Thank you very much, Deep blessings,
I kept saying i was having a spiritual experience but no one believed me.. I am on meds now but would love to be off it it's not as much as i once was on so i am grateful.. I believed i was Egyptian Maat, Bob Marley n Salassie (a trinity)... I once told my parents i would kill them but never taught of suicide.. I smoked marijuana n the doc said it drug induced psychosis.. Now i am off weed n on meds however thanks for these videos i have been in yr profile all day.... O yeah i was sexually abused as a child too n when my bf cheated n got a girl pregnant this episode started with me n i started talking to myself n talking all my hidden secrets like being abused etc .. it lasted for months from 2014, 15 n 16... I went to rehab n started using tablets n i drifted back to reality in about 2 months but now i am worried about missing out on the spiritual wonders by using these tablets. Once again thanks for doing all this research n posting about it. Love always Gem
GREAT video...Do you think a spiritual awakening can be put in a period of an 'episode'? Is there a time and space for this...? Very , very well done Sir X. Anyone if you feel to know more from the spiritual explanation look for : Kundalini Awakening. Love-Light to you all X
hi sean bought your diary last year,very good t get some perspective on the mess that is mental illness.iv had 2 experiences of psychosis and was labelled the first time it happened.i knew unfortunately not like most people that what happened was more important and magical than anything i thought was possible.what a fuckn mystical surreal few weeks that is like the zenith of life.its scary but one thing i think your missing is,good soul or bad.the light illuminates the shadow and shows the self
As someone recently diagnosed I found your videos interesting. I think it correct to question your question as it could be both. Clinically Bipolar and a spiritual awakening is possible. As you mention it is possible to emerge from the episode as I did at a higher level of conscious awareness. Having been previously agnostic before my awakening one can imagine my surprise when this all occured. I see the world now from what some call an ascended state. Glad to know someone is considering these possibilities, well done.
Tim Flagler I think "previously" agnostic people have a great opportunity to heal, as they had, previously taken the time to arrive at the "logical" conclusion that they are agnostic. I was one myself. It reflects a high level of psychological development. However, people do get stuck sometimes. That's why I'm here! ;-)
Sure...good question! The Circled areas are when I would expect most people to fall with regard to trauma and level of consciousness/development. However, there are exceptions. Some highly traumatized people of exceptional ability may be able to pass through to higher levels. I would expect that, for most, a fair amount of healing took place along that path, but maybe not.
Can trauma be caused by acumulated experiences? I have tried to go back through my inner fears during my phsychoanalysis therapy but I could not identify which was the one that scared me the most, so I do not feel free yet...
If you still obsess over past trauma, more details need to be uncovered. A good psych will ask you first to relive it out loud. As you gloss over details, he/she should ask for those details, and note any emotions exhibited when you do. Then you tell the story again as though you are watching someone else. The goal is for you to see the event as something that happened to a child, someone you no longer are, allowing you to shed the traumatic feelings associated with it.
I am a christian, but i believe that there is a difference between spiritual awakening and having a disorder. I have also been diagnosed with it. You can tell the difference when it is God or the devil, and when it is just your own mind or disorder taunting you. We have to remember that we are in the flesh, which makes us imperfect. God allows us all to have something to struggle with so that we are able to have compassion on one another. If we were completely perfect, we would not have empathy.
@MrDanielBowman74 With an intergral (or "power of now" as I call it) perspective on ego development, you will understand how 'curbing' the child ego and awakening the spirit are the same thing. Most people with BD are past that stage however. Their challenge is not to transcend the child-like, selfish, impulsive ego you refer to. These people are usually emotionaly repressed to some degree. Their tast is to transcend the modern, rational, adult ego.
I'm a skitzo & the penguins say what a great imformative topic on psychosis. Also the original complete science on consiousness is the Sanskrit Vedanta sutra or it's commentary Srimad Bhagavatam, the cream of the Vedas. Known as Krishna[Christ in english] consiousness, in which we link our consiousness direct to God in a loving relationship. We are a spiritual being NOW so living like one heals our consiousness. Our 'material' desires[lust] cause our sufferings, it's incompatable to the soul.
