3 Month Update. 

great job Allie .I can not wait to see what you look like in a year. Wasn't the sun nice today . Even my chickens liked it . They laid two eggs today . They have not done that since last fall. There getting older and do not lay as well as they did when they were younger. My big thing is I can put my own socks on and trim my own toenails .Yippee . Sorry about your depression issues I suffer with that too. Some times find it hard to get out of my own way . Know I should call a friend but don't want to be a burden to others . So instead I sit a stew in my own juices .

I think it is good that you have stood up for yourself regarding medications. Depression is a sneaky dog and it is good that you can recognize yourself going through it. I find routine is a big help - even if you do not feel like eating have that pep talk with yourself. Indeed the relationship with food has to change... it isn't that reliable friend that it has made you feel like it is. I'm with you and understand. Stay strong and keep looking out to the next thing. Be good to you...

I feel you on the grief. I haven't even started my preop diet yet and I just feel like I am going to cry all the time, and I feel like I am grieving food already. That scares me. Ugh- my last video was really random too, so I get the scattered feeling. Still love the nerd side.

You live in washington? That actually makes me feel so happy to know there is someone else in washington going through this!! :) It looks good, I can see the difference on you already, congratulations girl!!! I can see that depression though hun, I truly want you to know though... Keep your chin up and don't feel bad about making "sad" youtube videos. Your awesome and keep up the good work. If i lived closer I would say lets go have some coffee and just chill :) Sometimes just going out with someone and having a ear to listen to really helps.

Never give up, and be confident in what you do. There may be tough times, but the difficulties which you face will make you more determined to achieve your objectives and to win against all odds.

hang in there Allie, I know exactly how you feel, I love food too, it's so hard to stop wanting to eat junk food for me, I miss it so much. but you can do it , I believe in you. you got this. Take one day at a time.

the more I find out about you the more I realize we're so much alike. I told you last time we were similar and stats and had very close article dates and now ... I find out you're a nurse too just like me.