4 & 1/2 months post TMS - Feeling better than ever. 

I’m so so happy for you! I never went back into severe depression but in the last 3 years got a little depressed and had TMS two more times. Right now it’s been like, a year and a half since I last had it and I’m all good. Again, so happy for you 🥹

@@HookerTheWriter that’s awesome. I’m about to go through it a 2nd time. Maintenance plan they call it. I think I need it… also had a SGB. But I didn’t feel any difference with that.

How did it work out? I've had ear ringing for 4 years straight that TMS caused.

May Someday thank you for sharing! From what I understand, rtms works equally as well as dtms, so I hope you’re not too disappointed about getting rtms. The statistics are comforting. It’s probably going to work! I’m excited for you! Come back later and let me know how it’s going.

Sorry I didn't reply to this sooner. My anxiety was like, a 9 I guess. I was certain that our country was going to have a civil war, I was constantly worried that some crazy impulse in me would take hold and I would crash my car on purpose or something like that. I was in agony. And now, I'm fine! I don't worry about unreasonable things and if I do have a worry, I can handle it. I'm happy to go out and be with people. I don't have a full time job, but I could handle one.

You don't even have to believe it's going to work for it to work! Isn't that nice? It works gradually so hang in there. Good luck!

@@HookerTheWriter thank you for that.

I *really* started to feel different after about 30 sessions, I'd say. It's so gradual, though, it's hard to say. I was marveling the other day about what a difference it has made. Before TMS, I had this nagging thought that whenever i was looking for something in my house, I was actually in someone else's house and they were about to catch me looking through their stuff. Total nonsense anxiety, but this thought was so persistent. Now- gone! I'm so happy for you! You're about to feel a whole lot better! :)

Can you give me news about your tms traitement. Thanks

Update?

@@james575730 No updates, they died off looks like just like Windows should have 25 years ago.

I did neurostar and it worked in combination with drugs. I think the TMS worked wonders, but the lexapro I still take is important too.

@@HookerTheWriter Thank you Kristin, I am hoping I get better from my depression and OCD, anyways I wish you the best.

@@HookerTheWriter Kristin -- Looks like you're now about a year out from starting treatments, and, from your recent comment today, it appears you're still feeling really well, though with significant meds support. That's so great. I watched all of your reports; I feel about like you looked in your first video, but it was so amazing and awesome to see your progressively brightening eyes and sweet, beautiful smile, in the latter videos; I hope I brighten up like that again after my rTMS course. I've just finished my 10th treament (all theta-burst until today, my first conventional rTMS session, also with a short, right-side, low-intensity calming treatment). No observable positive results yet, and actually I had a really bad dip in mood (down to real hopelessness, even worse than before treatment), over the last couple days, ie Wed and Thu; feel more like recent normal today. Only antidepressant I'm taking is lamictal, but also couple other mood meds, for anxiety and brain fog. My BCBS-approved rTMS course is only 30 treatments presently, though I hear most folks get 36 or even 40+, so I plan to argue that point with BCBS. Here's my question (beyond sending a huge virtual hug to you, for how well you have looked and sounded recently): Do you have any sense about your long-term future rTMS treatment needs, to stay feeling so well, eg do you and your doc anticipate a time of needing a booster because your remission is trailing off? And, as a corollary question, are you trying to be meds-free and stay well, down the road? For background, I never had even a hint of any depression or anxiety until my mid-40s, when I finally had beaten the crap out of myself, through combined extreme work stress, poor self-care (eg quit my beloved trail-running because too busy, had undiagnosed/ untreated severe sleep apnea, etc), and, worst of all, progressively less love/ increasing isolation in my marriage, so had never had any mood meds experience. But anyway, no daily depression med I've ever tried (about 8+ of them) has EVER worked for me AT ALL (only a series of 3 ketamine infusions, which were fantastically helpful for a year+, when the effect gradually trailed off), the daily meds' side-effects are awful, and I believe my body and mind should be able to recover natural stasis and balance without any meds -- so my goal is to be well again, ie high-functioning and strong and upbeat in life, and also meds-free. That's why I wondered if meds-free is a target for you, as well as what your long view is of your requiring future rTMS to stay well. An observation from my ketamine experience: don't wait too long for that booster or whatever; I let myself get really bad off before trying rTMS now, hoping I could just rally, but life circumstances got the best of me. Best -- Todd

GCentrone no! 😂 around the 6 month mark, I got depressed again. I’m in my 7th week of a new round of treatment and am making another before and after video about the experience. I’m slowly getting better again.

I don't know what the name of the spot is, but they find it relative to a part of your brain that connects with your right thumb. They send magnetic pulses to your brain until they find the spot that causes your thumb to twitch, then they go from there. Alternately, they might take measurements of your head to find the right place. That's all I know.

Yes. I don't know how to get a private message to you on youtube, but you or your wife could send me a message on instagram @hookerthewriter . Does that work?

Update?

@@james575730 ACTUALLY.... TMS was a waste of time and $$ for me. Just didn't work in my situation. I did 30 treatments and no changes except my jaw started hurting and had ear pain. Took about 2-3 months after the sessions were over for the jaw and ear got better. Everyone is different

@@BarbaraJ1111 thanks for getting back to me, what were you treating with tms? have you tried anything else like ketamine?

Yes, it helped with this for me. I have repetitive negative thoughts. I need both TMS and medication for it though.

Ramiro Valdes I’m so sorry! I’m glad it’s working though. I have Providence insurance.

@@HookerTheWriter Thanks, I never heard of it, my other previous insurance FloridaBlue also denied me. I don't know if Providence is available here in Florida but I will look for it in the marketplace this next enrollment period. Hope all is well and thanks for answering.

The Invincible Hand you can treat it with a class of drugs called “antipsychotics” - its an off-label use. I tried one and it worked immediately but made me hungry all the time so I stopped taking it. You could also look up some guided meditations on RU-vid for letting go of thoughts. I find those helpful when I’m obsessing over something. Also, hypnotherapy.