- building on the discussions in previous videos, I question if leaving the "online world" for normal life is even worth the effort - my experience with my ex gf and my attempts to be a normie chill bro with her, led to disaster so...
Im really glad I never got into 4chan. Its hard enough to talk to the normal non internet people. Calling someone damage for being abused is something to reconsider. yes it is damaging but we are people and are not like damaged forever and we certainly shouldnt identify as damaged.. The people that do it shoud be the ones called damaged.
I think I can relate to your issues very well, though for me it translates into selfhate instead of being an asshole to others. I can't relate to "normal" people either. This caused me to get into friendships and romantic relationships with people who aren't healthy to be around. They aren't healthy for me, but they are exciting. And I can relate to them. Drug addicts, abused people, people with mental disorders, etc. And not even in a "hey, I can fix them" way but simply because they are relatable and also entertaining to me. Just wording it like that makes me feel like an asshole already. The opposite (ruining friendships because I'm like this) also happened sadly. I'm also constantly bored unless I find the one new super exciting, dopamine releasing thing that catches my interest for a while until it just stops to do that. Every hobby I find for myself I eventually lose. From 100 to 0. Sometimes after investing tons of money and time into it. That happens over and over again. So I try to escape into social life. Both online and offline. Online I find more people who I can relate to, sadly they often just live way too far away to build up a friendship where I can start hanging out with them and stuff. Offline I obviously don't have that problem, but finding a person who I can connect to is incredibly rare. Funny thing is that half a decade of therapy hasn't fixed this and it got even worse recently
