5 Steps to Release from Illusion of Separation 

Last month (after 15 years of relentless seeking) I had the aha awakening moment and since I’ve been experiencing everything Angelo describes in his videos..Looking back, it’s incredible how silly my fictional separate self made life to seem so difficult , when in reality it’s simple, direct and complete 😊

I had the first real conversation about this stuff with my mom the other day. I had to explain to her why I had been distant. It was not easy. She said she had never experienced a sense of flow, like ever. Everything was out of duty and responsibility. Never danced, never just floated... I tried to explain how it's like another layer to what we would "normally" see with our eyes, how it's tied to love. THEN, I said it's a lot like those weird 3d pictures that you have to shift your eyes to see. Wholly Jeebus, she was good at those! She finally could begin to hear me. So so cool. We're talking old school country, republican, christian. It has always been hard for me to talk to and connect with her. Now that she's getting up in years, we're planning a family cross county migration process, so that we can all take care of her and each other. Only love got us this far. Love really does conquer all. ❤

You’re describing me so perfectly right now. I’ve woken up from the first matrix, and I’ve been stuck in the second matrix :). after my initial awakening, my behavior toward others got worse. I became a jerk, and I was watching myself do it in real time. it’s been a very humbling subject of inquiry. Though I was asleep, I did have some well formed mechanisms for treating people nicely. But it was based on avoidance of my own feelings. upon awakening so much of that just disappeared from who I was. It just immediately evaporated.

I have listened to this video probably a minimum of 5x since you posted it and idk why I hear more and more every time I listen. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Another beautiful talk. “Allow the mountains and rivers to replace you.” 🙏

When I look at you and listen to what you are saying, it gives me hope, but it also fully engages my mind and my ego is as strong as ever. When I look at your dog, how it licks its paw, I just smile. I think I forget about myself in the latter. I want to surround myself with animals...There is so much emotional work I need to continue doing to unpack my relational issues with people. But with animals, very often it's simply "what's not to love?" Maybe it's the best way for me to approach spirituality - there is no "achievement" there.

In my opinion this was one of your best videos. You have the most chill dog ever. lol Thanks for consistently dropping good content.

this year has been life changing and also a deep feeling of spiritual progression has begun in me. but after watching this video I feel more lost than ever. for one I have no idea if I have had an awakening, it almost feels as if I'm peeling off layers in order to realise that I *have* had an awakening, but I can't be sure. I've definitely had a fundamental shift in my thinking (or being) this year, and nothing feels the same. I am at a stage where I go into the non-doing, peaceful, no-mind (whatever you want to call it) state during meditation and several times throughout the day and then when I operate from my mind structure its as if everything is crumbling; I take it out on others, I see the worst in people and all of this without knowing if I'm even at the stage of having an awakening.. then whats the point? I may as well go back to living in the mind, as the suffering before (even though unconscious) was easier than this. everything being brought to the surface is only wreaking havoc on my life and relationships. the emotional work needed seems like a total minefield - how can you ever know you're operating from the heart or from a deluded ego, especially if the ego is able to concoct the feeling of being in the heart so easily?

Completely understood what he meant talking about people hiding behind spirituality, I once knew this girl who spoke so much about mediation, calmness, letting everything just be, but incredibly she was one of the most argumentative people I had ever met, within 10 minutes of speaking to anyone she could be in an argument with them, it was absolutely fascinating, I never understood that girl.

@SimplyAlwaysAwake when you talked of Shame. The song "Chain of Fools" 😅 🎶 SHAME SHAME SHAME... SHAME OF FOOLS 😂🎶

02:47 Ramdas calls this somebody training. When we're training ourselves to try to be as somebuddy. I remember when I started awakening. I had to go through all the limited beliefs. I learned when I was a child 99.9% of those beliefs were just BS. It took years For Me Too! Build my own beliefs. And get rid of all of the negative programming that I was programmed with as a child. A young all the way up until I What's 35 years old when I decided to go on my own path. And not follow the quote status quo. The problem that I face now is Who do I go to when I need? Who do I go to when I feel terrible about myself? Who do I look up to when I feel like the world is just coming down on me? It's been 11 years now that I've been on this path of awakening and I know that this is a lifetime commitment that I could never go back even if I. Wanted to I would never want to go back in the 1st place. My question is what Do I do as a Buddha sofa trying to wake up the world? Who do I go to when I feel lost? Who do I go to when I feel like I'm just gonna fall off the path?

Almost everything I look at has a story attached to it. No language, just memories which appear as images and feelings. And then that brings a flush of self consciousness to the body. Maybe this is what happens as you get old.

Holy moly, the part at 43:48 was really good. Really cool way of explaining how the subject-object belief/conceptualization arises.

45:30 Yes. All relationships seem equally important in the NOW during interactions. I then move on after the interaction- whether a person, flower, etc. w/o any residual ruminating or problem- making out of how “they” relate to a “me“ or can help or hurt “me”. A lot of manipulative thought/behavior is just dropping away as pointless, painful and delusional. Felt like a weird relief-thx for clarifying!🙏

this morning out walking doggo, lines of William Blake came to mind: “If the doors of perception were cleansed every thing would appear to man as it is, Infinite. For man has closed himself up, till he sees all things thro' narrow chinks of his cavern.” ― William Blake, The Marriage of Heaven and Hell: In Full Color, ( from Goodreads) could only be In Full Color !

This last bit about subject object and how the mind creates this relation all the time on top of the sense field really struck me as you were speaking. I only get tiny glimpses into this, when a space or street suddenly looks like the steepest mountain instead of straight forward path or when the sensory input is moving away from this fully integrated 3D Movie thing that is always going on and splits into seperate input streams. But normally these are just tiny moments or maybe half a day where this happens and then it disappears. I sometimes try to actively relax into not knowing anything about what I see, to "get" there, but it doesn't help. It's as if it can only happen by grace. I know ultimately there is no doing anyway, but it can be so frustrating, knowing this is how it is, how reality looks like, peeking through the curtain backstage, but then having to go back and watch the whole play from the typical same old perspective... Maybe it's just a phase and it will losen, but sometimes I get a bit frustrated. And I am not even sure that's true, because that's a thought, too. All mind boggling :DD

I feel like your dog gets it 😂😜

00:36:03 - 00:41:06 These talks are brilliant, Angelo! So helpful to listen to! 😀🙏🏻✨

I love when the pups make an appearance in the videos!

Good god i’m so glad I found you. Just listening gives me a break from the 44 years of suicidality and shame that I carry around every every day. At least someone gets it. Makes me feel less alone, even though there’s only one of us here. Psychedelics have been instrumental in alleviating me of some traumas that were so deeply walled behind the ego structure That psychedelics were the only thing that could break through to them. They actually did the work for me on a couple of occasions. Meh. Death is a heavenly messenger said the Buddha. I have agreed with that since I was nine years years old before I had even heard of Buddha 😂😂

You are so amazing teacher , pointing what is...Thank you Angelo

I'm enjoying these I hope they keep coming ❤️

Thank you so much for the content Angelo 🙏

I exercise in the now with imagine the air is filled with material things and the material things are changed to air. This helps resolving the illusion from separation ( subject - object) it gives also a better awareness of the valium / quality/ love in the air 💙

0:00 …”just as the ocean has one flavor - that of salt - the Dhamma-Vinaya has one flavor: that of release...” 1:31 release from the illusion that this world of thought is real 10:12 release of the belief that you have to figure all this out 14:31 release of heaviness 19:14 release from resistance (reactivity and emotional suppression) 33:53 release of perceptual filters separating self from other Inquiries 44:45 how long can you keep your attention out there? 49:25 can you find a boundary between subject and object or anything that feels like a here or there?

this video was very helpful at least in explaining exactly where i am right now and how my mind twisted itself in a pretzel. it’s exactly how you said; awareness as subjectivity, a sense of deep ease, and yet something beyond me pushing me further. i don’t have a sangha or a teacher, and so it’s been confusing (although very pleasant as well) to navigate the recent shifts in my experience. it’s true that the fetters before this one can fall through with the help of concepts, but now with this one, that won’t cut it. and i could feel that but i didn’t know which step to take afterwards. thank you for your guidance and for speaking with such clarity 🙏

it helps me to close one eye when seeing. Thanks Angelo 🙏❤️

Great chair. 😊

Kimora’s t-shirt! 😍 One of the best talks I’ve heard 🙌🏻

Thank you! This is great!

broad and detailed, many thanks...now and again I feel like I need to return to this sharing to open up, and see, expose, the mental conclusions I make, have made... thanks so much, sheesh, in a sense a vast mountain to climb, so what, the air is fresh...🐌❤

Brilliant teachings! Thank you for these sharings Angelo! 💕

Love it! The way I describe it is, it can seem like you are no longer the most important thing in the room, or environment. Hard to explain, but everything is kind of like....the same, but that sameness is moving and dancing as different forms. Or like, everywhere I go I can only find being, its all just being, even the thoughts and contractions etc etc. Its just sounds and sensations ans sightns and thougths and emotions, but they are all the same dance of being?? Im curious as to wether or not it deepens significantly from that? Some people describe it like literally being over there and here at the same time, I dont know how vision would even be possible in that case lol

I have trouble with understanding some of your terms but i do find great value in your teachings ❤😊

:44 so clearly “demonstrated”. All we can do is demonstrate this flavor ❤️🙏as we release

When you say "just look," does it matter if my eyes are scanning or fixed? Now that I've started paying attention, I'm astounded at just how narrow the focal point is. Literally everything other than that center point is a blur. Seems the eyes have to scan the visual field to compose the picture for the mind to run away with.

That was really helpful. Thank you. 🙏

IT WAS OVER ONCE THE MIND TRIED TO PROCESS

Life is a rollercoaster ya just gotta ride it. A smaller onion woulda been quicker.😣🙏

Awesome can you upload these new talks to the podcast platform? I love to listen when I'm walking or outside in general. Thanks :)

SOME HAVE ACCIDENTAL GLIMPSES SUCH AS MY OWN [NOT THE SELF] EXPERIENCE OF MERGING WITH ROSES

Thank you 🙏🏾

Thanks!

Love love love!

This may be a stupid question, but I had a double mastectomy due to cancer. Could the loss of my breasts have damaged my meridians/energy flow? I feel blockage around my heart for the past few months without release. Any advice?

How do you know there's more than one thing in front of you. I think you broke my brain.🎉

Did I understand it correctly that it makes sense to first "work" on the realisation and do the emotion work afterwards? Or does it make more sense to do both things parallel? Love you videos, thank you :)

I am submitting my ego to you. By email. Maybe can use it for your roses, like manure? Hope this works because powerful teaching and I need a teacher ❤

Can someone help me understand how I'm wrong here? I'm feeling right now that a sense of self *is* consciousness, but thats not what I've heard from teachers of awakening. I can intellectualize these concepts, but i still feel I'm caught in this egoic state

JL note to self to see notes in transcript.

I’m a little nervous about suddenly having a “flat visual field” (45:00), lol! If that happens, will I be able to drive, ski, and hang glide with 100% of the safety that I can now?

Why is there no receiver or propagator?

Thanx for this Angelo. I have never meditated or been on a spiritual path however there had been a few experiences as a young child and adult. I was then somehow led to non duality never heard of it. I seem to resonate a lot with Jim Newman Lisa Cairns Tony Parsons. The radical is different from some that teach this? Is there a teacher you can recommend? I would love for you or Lisa to be able to work with me but I don’t know 🤷🏼‍♀️ much about it or which way to go. There is such a pull a force that keeps driving me to listen and to read. It’s being felt that nothing is real but not seen. There has been frustration confusion because radical says there isn’t any awareness consciousness etc?? Very confusing. Then I seem to just sit back and try to let go and what will be will be … to trust it. Idk. Does Lisa teach one on one anymore or do you? Thanx..✨

Yes but that little loving god dog? ❤🥰

Can kensho happen slowly?…or is it always sudden?

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I don't get it. So many of these awakened people talk about - there is no doer - and then wind up prescribing doing this or that and working on your emotions and so on. WTF. I wish there was someone out there that was not self-contradicting when speaking of nonduality. I get that language by nature is dual and it can only point to nonduality but the contradictions evident in some of these speakers are just too great to ignore sometimes.

I want do be your dog

There is no one writing this comment Perception is perceiving 🧠 Comprehension is understanding 🤔 I am not here 🧘‍♂️ there is only the light of consciousness - no *actual* _self_ doing anything ⬛️◼️◾️▪️ 🕉 Boom Shankar! 🙏

I’m suggesting teachers are not being asked the questions that’s really burning below the surface of correctness.

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