I have been bullied my whole life. It never even occurred to me how devastating it’s been. Also that I could recover & restore my self-esteem. Recently diagnosed at 60 with ADHD & Autism. Feel a deep sadness of what might have been. What I might have achieved & succeeded at during the course of my life if I had been more aware of what I was dealing with. It’s gone beyond anger & frustration.
If you can, approach that thinking with caution. Without any understanding of ADHD* led me to begin almost obsessively to ruminate on that thought, and often “silently” if that makes sense. That process has rewired my brain to be extremely self-critical and self-reprimanding. FWIW! (Maybe “there be dragons” more succinct?) * (diagnosed late 30s and ~15y on meds but *no* education about it)
