7 Years on Testosterone | FTM Transition

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March 14th marked seven years on T for me. At this phase, most of the updates to report are more mental and emotional so please join me in my garden and my "photo studio" as I reflect on how I'm feeling about my body and masculinity these days as well as having patience and realistic expectations from medical transition.
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👋 I'm Jackson Bird and I make (hopefully) funny, (sometimes) educational videos for LGBTQ+ nerds like me - and the people in our lives that want to understand us better.
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@BusinessCasualLabCoat 2 года назад

I remember seeing a post about a trans guy talking with his dad about feeling insecure because his facial hair hadn't filled in much, and his dad said, "That's because you're 23, wait until you're 40."

@SylviaRustyFae 2 года назад

It truly can take forever to grow in... Which was a blessin for me tho, esp combined with my bein XXY, as my beard hair nvr rly filled in on my face before i started HRT... and i honestly love havin a mane of red beard hair encirclin my prty and feminised face :3 Its a unique look and one that truly befits me and makes me feel more otherkin on my high kingender days.

@theoptimisticmetalhead7787 2 года назад

I'm cis, but I feel like I find myself following more and more trans men. And I've been trying to figure out why and I think it's (generally, not to paint with too broad a brush or anything) because y'all are some of the best examples of non-toxic masculinity out there. Anyway, thanks for putting yourself out there Jackson, I've learned a lot from you.

@katharineshade9550 2 года назад

That’s a really interesting perspective. I’m always curious about how people deconstruct their identity in terms of society’s gender assumptions. How much of that is superficial gendered cultural norms and how much reflects, as with Jackson, being intrinsically male? Eg are you drawn to dressing a certain way because that’s how people dress in our culture? How different would it be in a culture where it’s very different? What drives the choices that are made which have changed along with the transition?

@clarkkentsuperman5911 2 года назад

Toxic masculinity 🤣😂🤣😂 When a guy says eat me,or bite me ,he is not being literal... Don't bite men and no matter how toxic they might be,you should be fine... You don't actually eat a Loli pop, you suck on it,so stuff like that should be fine...

@LoungingPotato 2 года назад

@@clarkkentsuperman5911 Bro, what the fuck are you on about?

@fragolegirl2002 2 года назад

Jackson is a very amazing guy. He’s good and kind. I really like him

@theoptimisticmetalhead7787 2 года назад

@@fragolegirl2002 Yeah same, I've been subbed for a bit now and his videos are always a good watch. Plus he's from DFW, which is where I'm from. So that's neat, lol.

@Oracle_Ocelot 2 года назад

Holy crap, did I need to watch this right now. I just booked my first HRT appointment, and the emotions are COMPLEX

@evancalder8838 2 года назад

I was scared af, excited as hell, and just a general ball of nerves for my first HRT appt. I got the testosterone cream (I didn't feel comfortable starting out with injections) and the first application i slapped it on really quick and had to sit on my hands to keep from washing it off i was so nervous 😂 I'm almost six months in now, and i count starting T as probably the best decision of my life to date. The changes aren't happening super fast for me, but just having those "right" hormones in my body makes me feel more like myself than i have in many years (I'm in my early 30's). I know starting is hard. It's complex, and emotionally messy. I'm gonna pass on what my trans momma told me: enjoy the process, because you only get to do it the first time once 😉

@unclearatypicality 2 года назад

Hey, Jackson. Your 5-year timeline was instrumental in cracking my egg and I'm just about ready to come out and begin socially and medically transitioning, and this video is gold. You have been and will continue to be a major inspiration to me. Thank you for this video and I hope your journey continues to reward you.

@Billiesavocados 2 года назад

good luck coming out. i am not quite there but i wish u the best of luck

@seven1589 2 года назад

This was likewise for me. I’m glad to see someone else met with a tough yet amazing realization/acknowledgement from the same video. If you’d ever like to share our experiences as we go on, I can give you my email and we can become pen pals. :)

@Jamesandthehooligans 2 года назад

@@seven1589 would you be willing to email me too? No worries if not I’d just like to chat with some like minded people 🤓

@Jamesandthehooligans 2 года назад

I sent my Mum the link to Jackson’s 5 years video and it really helped her to understand a little bit more although she kinda already knew years ago! 🤓

@enzobevilacqua6328 2 года назад

🤮🤮🤮

@micahroberts8383 2 года назад

I've been working with some teen trans guys and I find myself being a bit of a dad, too. I guess this is what it is to be a trans person in our 30s... Kinda diggin' it! Also, Jackson, you have to connect with a museum or something, because your dedication to documentation is going to be really useful to someone a century from now when they are writing about the early Gender Deconstruction period. I'm just guessing at what they might call this time period one day... Transgender Revolution of the early 21st century? Whatever. Just tell the Smithsonian you've got some data for them in your will or something and I thank you in advance, because I am the worst at documenting my life and I want someone to know about us and what it was like.

@vinkavaldivia8306 2 года назад

I totally agree with this. Of all the videos and info I've seen, yours seems to be the most informative and educational. And it does document so much with so much honesty as well.

@sylvanwho176 2 года назад

I totally agree!!

@micahroberts8383 2 года назад

Oh, hey! I've got an update on queer (and sometimes trans) history stuff, if anyone is into that. There's this awesome podcast, from Australia, called, "Queer as Fact," about queer and trans world history. It's fantastic!

@Mel-wn9gb 2 года назад

Feminists deconstructed 'gender' hundreds of years ago. You guys are putting it all back in place. That's not revolution. It's the opposite.

@jleahy 2 года назад

honestly, the changing of targeted ads is so fucking funny. The gender euphoria of passing enough to fool the robots is goals.

@LKorosec 2 года назад

I am about a week on T and I'm constantly getting *insert afab lower body part* cream ads lmao

@cam4894 2 года назад

Thank you for being so open! Good luck! I'm not trans, but I definitely feel like once we unlearn the societal crap we think we want in our lives and are able to learn what we actually want out of life, life opens up and true happiness is attainable. Once I stopped fighting becoming my dad and once I started wearing my joy on my sleeve and accepted and embraced being asexual I've been living my best life! 😁

@arijeanz 2 года назад

this is lovely to hear! thank you for sharing

@SylviaRustyFae 2 года назад

My aceness was the first step on a long and windin journey, but it rly did lay down the foundational beliefs, esp thanks to the online communities i joined, that allowed me to, once aware of nonbinary existence, become my truer self and keep bein even truer to myself. Im even open about my kinks and kink adjacent stuff now which wudve shocked my baby ace self for many reasons but mostly cuz it was truly my grtest shame... But it was also the only way i cud feel like my gender self instd of the gender forced on me. So its all rather intertwined for me but turns out thats a good thing as it made it much easier to open up about it all; as each time i opened up more there was a little bit more about some other part of me that was there for others in the know to see. Thus i attracted other NDs and other similarly kinky folks and other polyamorous folks. They saw the hints and helped me to open up about more of me and they celebrated my existence and celebrated me gettin to experience myself freely. Nearly none were exactly the same as me either; in every case some were always allies, often most were allies who were aware cuz of tangential reasons. Thats the best part of the journey, seein the vastly growin number of allies that often outnumber those of us in communities... Tho the allies dont outvoice us, they lift up our voices for all to hear.

@Tina85ok Год назад

Amazing video! 😊 I’m a trans girl…When I started Estrogen hormone therapy in 2017. I remember all the changes in my body…I felt reborn!!! My breasts started developing, my skin softened, hips widened and I grew my hair out. And I just had (post-op) bottom surgery last year. Both my parents and friends support me since I transitioned 5 years ago. I love the authentic me 😊

@beetlejuicesgraveyardrevue 2 года назад

I’ve been out and on T for a little over a year now and the confidence boost is unreal. I have always been kind of a meek, quiet, people pleaser but now I feel strong enough mentally and emotionally to stand up for myself and my needs when I need to. It’s an amazing thing!

@frenchfriar 2 года назад

As a cis gay man, I'd like to remind you trans guys out there: it takes cis guys between 10 to 13 years to fully see all the effects of puberty take hold too. Puberty may start at 12-13, and might be mostly finished in 5 years, but you won't get your full shoulder breadth until 25, and lots of guys don't have much more than whispy peach fuzz until their early twenties, and chest hair takes forever. So if it takes us cis guys so long, don't get discouraged if your results don't happen overnight. We get butt hair before chest hair too. And by the time you hit 40, you'll start wondering why you ever asked for body hair. Ear and nose hair and bushy eyebrows start getting real, and are terribly annoying. You guys are valid, just as you are. I guarantee there are some cis male teens wishing they could look as masculine as you guys do.

@DillonExner 2 года назад

Me, a cis, 29-year-old man, who’s had the same level of facial hair since his teens and same voice since, like, birth: 😐

@greyson713 2 года назад

I have my first appointment with a gender therapist on my birthday next month ! If all goes well I’ll be able to start T at the end of this year and i’m so fucking excited !! Thank you so much for sharing parts of your journey; your videos have helped me so so much in figuring out who I am and always remind me that even though its hard transitioning is possible and I’m not alone in this.

@missnaomi613 2 года назад

Happy almost-birthday, and good luck on your journey!

@joannamarley1376 10 месяцев назад

Hii ? What happened? Are u on hormone now

@joannamarley1376 10 месяцев назад

I'm going to a gender therapist too !! Next week !

@AlthenaLuna 2 года назад

I've been on T since July 2016. My speaking voice ended up landing in a place other folks have called androgynous, which is what I wanted - my original main purpose with T was to banish my "squeaky girl voice". I was surprised by how low my *singing* voice got, not in a bad way, just in a "I did NOT expect that based on my speaking register" way. Back when it was in any degree of 'shape' as a chorus kid in high school, I was a 2nd soprano. I'm now squarely a baritone...and have NO idea how to make this new instrument work. It does NOT respond to the remnants of muscle memory for how singing used to work. My facial hair I knew going in - thanks to both poor genetics in that regard AND previous total-body irradiation that fried my hair follicles everywhere - was going to be...dodgy at best, and it does remain comedically patchy. Masks for pandemic + an absence of fucks to give means I don't really bother with it beyond the eyeballing it in the mirror sometimes to commend it for still being weird. As for targeted ads, I haven't had to deal with them...probably because I avoid, mostly by blocking, them where and whenever possible.

@jackisnotabird 2 года назад

Muscle memory with singing is so real! I still haven't figured out how to sing again (I haven't put any effort into it), but often a song comes on that I was used to singing pre-T and my vocal chords try to do what they used to for that song and it's a disaster, haha.

@micahroberts8383 2 года назад

@jackson There are lots of RU-vid videos that can help with voice placement for singing; it's taken me awhile, but I'm finally starting to find all my notes again (also a baritone, but have like 4 octaves with falsetto, which is insane!). Basically, slides and/or scales are the way to go! Practicing that every day will make a huge difference. I also like Jeff Rolka's vocal warm-ups. 😊

@greatvalueblaine6681 2 года назад

Thank you so much for making these videos Jackson. I’ve been feeling pretty dysphoric recently about my voice after a year on T, but it’s so nice to be reminded that everyone’s transition timeline is different. I remember rewatching your 5 years on T video last fall, when I was 6 months on T. Now just over half a year later, I’m four weeks post top surgery! Which still kinda shocks me as I got it two weeks after my insurance approved it! Anyway, thank you for being you, and for using your platform to help people like me. 😊❤️

@Tandarok 2 года назад

Yeah, I'm a trans woman and I get SO MANY ads for period pants. I mean, nice that the algorithm knows, I'm a woman, but I really have no use for period products 🤷‍♀ And thank you for sharing your journey. I feel like we mostly only get to see the struggle and the first few years, but it just makes me so happy to see trans people just getting older and enjoying their lifes.

@jackisnotabird 2 года назад

The number of erectile dysfunction ads I get...

@domakkeiss2271 2 года назад

A Budweiser ad came on during the middle of your video, @Jackson ! 😄

@1st1anarkissed 2 года назад

I'm finally getting the interesting ads for tools and machinery. Not that I can ever afford a CAT dozer but I love to watch them work.

@Mel-wn9gb 2 года назад

@@1st1anarkissed You don't need to transition to get ads for tools and machinery. You just need to be interested in them, whether you're a man or a woman.

@normanshadow1 Год назад

What the hell are period pants?

@Littlegily 2 года назад

thank you so much for this video! i started t and so far haven’t seen or felt any difference and have been frustrated with seeing posts by other people who started around the same time as me already experiencing changes (tho i am happy for them!!). this was a good reminder to remember there’s lots of others like me that just don’t post it

@carolynedwards2290 2 года назад

Delighted that you’ve reached this happy state. I have enjoyed watching your transition into a lovely young man.

@Daan_Spieard 2 года назад

"Try to enjoy the ride" Well said 🙏

@frameshifty 2 года назад

Since coming out, I get ads for men's black sheer shirts, gender neutral jewelery, and men's underwear that make your package look impressive, and I don't hate it.

@ryanvale6066 2 года назад

Wonderful video as always! I started T 5 months ago and it's been wild to see some of the changes that have taken place and to realise the ones that I didn't notice at the time. I saw my sister for the first time in ages after 4 months on T and she just stared at me for a minute and said "your body looks different". I didn't notice before then that my shoulders had gotten broader and my face had changed shape. Sometimes an outside perspective helps

@blaue_blue 2 года назад

Please make a video on the slumps. I am 8 months on T and dysphoria has spiked and it's that strange in-between period and my depression has become a lot worse, where it had been non-existent the prior months of transition. Thank you so much for this video - needed this. You are wonderful with your words and I am so proud of you.

@jackisnotabird 2 года назад

Just keep reminding yourself it's temporary, totally normal, and happens to most people. That's what helped me, anyways. I definitely plan on making a video about the slumps at some point. I've been drafting parts of it for years. Just want to get it right. Thanks for watching and your kind words. I'm rooting for you.

@juliuspearson9390 2 года назад

i went through that phase too around 6-8 months, it gets better xx

@blaue_blue 2 года назад

@@juliuspearson9390 Thank you, Julius. I think it's because I feel like the changes have slowed/are not happening fast enough, but I've read that's common from 6-12 months in. Definitely waiting for the better!

@blaue_blue 2 года назад

@@jackisnotabird Thank you, Jackson. I really appreciate that. I don't have any trans friends IRL so I haven't ever really seen anyone like me in person. It gets tough that way. (I have some online, however!) I am positive you'll get it right - your content is very thorough and detailed and I really appreciate that. I like that you take the time to really articulate what was happening when and exactly how you were feeling with transparency.

@juleronitz5100 2 года назад

As a person who is now deciding if they want to do a mastectomy, I already feel so much surer in being non-binary and much more settled in my identity. Listening to you getting this kind of routine and being able to prioritze other issues - it gives me a lot of hope and joy to experience the next years. Sometimes, going through hard decisions and phases and hurtful, sometimes violent experiences, people just want to have a boring life.

@arijeanz 2 года назад

this last year, while i still don't bind and haven't come out properly, i feel like i made a lot of advancements with my presentation. I've become a lot more comfortable with not being digestible to people, and no longer feel the need to justify or explain my queerness and gender to other people. I've developed a few new insecurities, but i know they're temporary, and overall I'm happier with the way i present. I've put my foot down when it comes to presenting more authentically at family functions, and surprise! my family didn't tear itself apart. it's such a lovely feeling to look at pictures of Christmas and birthdays and actually recognize myself and feel happy about the picture. I've found colognes and clothing that i like, and I think i look nicer and more confident. i really pushed myself to become more social, and it makes me so happy that my friends recognized it and support me. i still am terrified of romantic love, but I've come to accept that i need to work on myself first instead of numbing reality with pointless crushes and relationships only based on physicality. i also introduced myself with my chosen name and was open about being queer with several new people i met, and it felt great. im not where i want to be, and in some aspects my mental health has declined a lot, but progress was made and i feel better about my queerness

@annbrookens945 2 года назад

Jackson, your openness and sharing are comforting and inspiring to your subscribers. I'm happy that you are content with yourself rather than angsting over perceived imperfections. You provide a more normal role model than those Instagram guys!

@beariclymenus3565 2 года назад

Hi Jackson, I have desisted from being trans but your videos and experience was something I could really relate to and I thank you for making such good videos that are thoughtful and reflective I really love your videos still and I think they're extremely important to everybody, not just trans people. Your story is amazing and don't stop telling it. Thank you so much for providing solace for me when I identified as trans and for many other trans individuals. I do wish though that detrans people were included within the lgbt community though, or talked about more in a respectful and helpful way

@Poppamunz 2 года назад

I completely agree tbh. There needs to be more space and acceptance (and less weaponization) for people who do detransition. We cannot embrace the complexity of gender without also embracing the unique paths people can have with it.

@beariclymenus3565 2 года назад

@@Poppamunz right! Gender is so complex and people each experience it differently or not at all, and some people feel different a couple years later

@normanshadow1 Год назад

Detrans and desisters are a hugely important area to study and feel compassion for

@sylvanwho176 2 года назад

You are a pure soul, Jackson! Thank you for making this video--it was sweet and soothing and inspirational. And I love seeing all your plants!

@thelogicallunatic6004 2 года назад

Well put!! Every time I thought about something else to accompany your thoughts, you then brought that up as well. Nothing but love for you buddy! Thanks for being here!

@TheGrinbery 2 года назад

Thankfully I no longer get targetted ads after clearing the ads because they started showing me baby formula and beer and I need neither since I'm not a parent nor do i drink

@elianwolfert3879 2 года назад

Learning to love your body as it is post medical transition can be such a struggle. Like you said, cis bodies are just as different. Some don’t grow facial hair, or not until they’re much older. Some have wide hips, round faces, higher voices. And that’s ok. Take the steps you want/need and watch your body grow into who you are. 🥰

@ambsokay4029 2 года назад

I came out as a trans man December 14th 2019 and as of May 19th 2022: I've socially transitioned. Change the s3x marker on my ID (I live in Arkansas, where it's considered a safety hazard for individuals to not have their preferred gender marker.) Getting enough in savings that I might be able to start T soon💖 Know for certain that my transition plan is what I want. And started being able to actually set boundaries that don't cave for other people's convenience. (They're only around my gender and transition but that's a good starting point, right?) I started crying at the end of this video... thank you, Johnson💖

@JosephByard Год назад

I've watched your channel for years and loved watching you grow! ❤❤

@brody1216 2 года назад

I appreciate the honest update!! Have been following for so many years and have grown to find your videos to be comforting, like chatting with an old friend. Also I love all of your plants and bookshelves and cute little decorations! :)

@rowens.yarnings 2 года назад

Your videos were incredibly important to me when I was figuring myself out and I just hit 9 months on T last week. It's sort of incredible to see how much change I still get to look forward to everytime it feels to slow.

@Super.Butter.Scotch 2 года назад

I’m about to turn 18 and will soon be able to start T! Came out about 2 years ago and never looked back. You and many other transmasc influencers really helped me find out who I really am

@ArreisMorsCI 2 года назад

This video is awesome, thanks so much for sharing. I had knee replacement and I can tell you why you had the hair growth on your scars. Along the scar there is extra concentration of bloodflow for the healing process, and you know how annoying and hairy legs are! So imagine now with a scar on your leg, and increased bloodflow, and now extra hair growing there too, lol. Same for your top surgery, and with your t boosting, it also increased the hair growth. You look AMAZING!!!

@elizabethlynch6544 2 года назад

Happy 7 year anniversary.

@SIC647 2 года назад

At the start of the video, something struck me as odd, unusual. Only when you started talking about queer people embracing change, I realised it was because I was watching you, a man, reflect on your life - and doing so openly. One rarely see men do it (for this and the following comment: SOME men, not none). Because introspection and knowing yourself is considered - I don't know - feminine or weak: A culture of "Real men don't feel", and if life hurts they soldier on or become alcoholics. Or at most confide to only their wife*, and only when at the breaking point. While reflection and introspection is of course a sign of true strength and balance. I notice again and again with transmen; that they reflect without fear and share about it as a natural thing. It makes me sad for people socialised as men growing up. It makes their lives so much harder than they have to be. Cis men yes, but I also notice it in several trans women I know: The amount of reflection that they are often willing to open themselves for, when they embrace their gender, is often overwhelming to them (being transgender can be overwhelming for us all, but not having been given good tool s for reflection doesn't make it easier).

@alexsummerscrane1522 2 года назад

Thank you, for doing the video, i really needed it, and also i was missing your videos, you are a grat inspiration jackson😸

@boocrimson7720 2 года назад

The funniest thing about ads for me is I don't get any targeted ads anymore. Cause youtube is the only media I use that has them, and I have youtube premium so I don't typically get any. Therefore my "targeted ads" since graduating college are just sponsors for the people I watch. Aka a lot of Gfeul, Skillshare and VPNs and for quite a while a lot of Raid Shadow Legends XD though the last time I had a targeted ad it was for Dr. Squatch Soap so I'd say they had me pretty well pegged there. Targeted ads have lots of trouble figuring me out though cause my folks use my account for online pick up orders and I have a hyper fixation problem, and a "random curiosity" problem where I go down google rabbit holes. So one minute it was giving me playtex ads (finally got those to stop cause they made me uncomfortable) the next toys and video games, and other kids products/activities and then like Oldspice or Dr. Squatch and Manscaped etc. It literally couldn't learn as fast as my search and purchase history fishtailed before I went ad-free

@butallislost 2 года назад

It's so strange to be here again. 4 years ago I came out as trans and around that time I subscribed to your channel, and I'm back here again because I have an appointment for testosterone so I've been doing more last minute research on peoples trans timelines. Wild. Happy to be back

@Atalinay 2 года назад

The beginning gives John Green energy I like it 💙🏳‍⚧

@a.k.painter8281 2 года назад

Always such a joy to see a video from you, Jackson!

@lauravilbiks 2 года назад

Can't believe it's been 7 years! I've watched you since the early days and what a joy it's been to see you become a more comfortable you :)

@ljluckadoo 2 года назад

Very insightful and wise comments. I’m sure you helped a lot of people!

@MrCrowebobby 2 года назад

I opened this thinking it was "7 years old on testosterone" and questioning the wisdom of that.

@kerrymichelle1 Год назад

Jackson you are awesome, thank you for sharing your life, much appreciated, my teen is ready to take the step so I'm doing my homework.. Oh hi from New Zealand and we all love Taika 😊

@turdl38 2 года назад

Thank you. I needed your messages about different bodies and I'm (mostly) cisgender.

@nimikins 2 года назад

I’ve recently started getting targeted ads about hair loss and I’m already paranoid about it since I’m early on T. 🥺 I’m also getting more Carhart jackets and workout gear ads.

@bateptesicus 2 года назад

Hi man,I just randomly clicked on your video and I feel it resonates with me so much. I'm now 2 months shy from being 6 Y on T and I'm still having times of disphoria which mostly concerns my face. It took me about 3 years to not being misgendered. At that time I was frustrated, knowing that my changes will probably stop soon, like for so many guys on YT. But that is not true, I can see small but very noticable changes that are happening this year. Those subtle changes are "big" enough to change my whole face! And only now I am starting to feel comfortable enough to date or to let my friend makes photos with me and then share it on social media. I heard T changes may take from 5 to 10 years, so anyone still not happy with changes. Wait for it!

@ClipsByLaura 2 года назад

It's been seven years already?! The changes are amazing, especially the self awareness and calm confidence that has grown alongside your transness. Regarding ads: I've been getting a ton of pregnancy ads combined with ivf ads. We truly live in a wild cyber dystopia.

@djc2990 2 года назад

Jackson, you've just earned yourself another follower.

@luciusignatius007 2 года назад

This video is so gold! Especially the last two to three minutes gave me so much euphoria and hope for my present and future. Thank you so much sharing!

@jam-yh3bl 2 года назад

loved this video thank you - it's great to see the real side of transition 7 years on

@FairyLoke 2 года назад

I've had more gay man ads and "man spiritual meeting" ads :p I've been 1 year on T, my changes are going well but my confidance and the things I enjoy are all feeling uncertain. I am really in the emo teenage phase which is difficult but it is what it is. And this video gave me the hope again, thank you 🖤

@1st1anarkissed 2 года назад

I'm at the extreme end of the slow scale. Because I recently went through extensive cancer therapy, my body isn't "growing" at all. Hair follicles got nuked before they developed, some areas of my body don't even heal well, much less change form. I already was short, as a man, extra short. It's been three years. I still get "ma'amed" far too often. But on the whole, every little thing pleases me. I like the way my voice sounds when I shout. I like feeling safe about being me, because it's ok for a man to do the things I love to do. No more will someone make an issue of my pocket knife because what kind of pretty girl carries a knife? And other absurd nonsense. The other day I was called "brother" and I hadn't heard white people use that expression since literature from a hundred years ago! Men look at me. They don't give a sideways glance and away nor stare and smile lewdly, they just look, meet my gaze, and give some form of acknowledgement. A nod or a smile or even a hello. They don't shift uncomfortably if I speak to them in a lineup. It's nice. Not sure how women are, I always kind of avoided them. They tended to respond to me like an enemy. Men thought me a hazard and women thought me an enemy. Maybe it's a friendlier world out there now.

@potterson 2 года назад

Hi Jackson. I just found you. I m a CIS MAN. The is the only vid of yours (so far) that I have seen. Many thoughts are going through my head. Yet six words stand out in my head: I am so proud of you.

@wrmlm37 Год назад

Your "carrots" remind me of the sweet potatos I pulled out of a front garden last year, after a season of growing sweet potato vine:) I didn't realize it was the actual vegetable plant!

@NonBinary_Star 2 года назад

What a truly great episode ♡♡♡

@deoxiribo 2 года назад

I love hearing you be insufferably motivational. ❤️❤️

@merchantarthurn 2 года назад

it's really interesting how you feel about your hair cos im actually kinda pumped about my hairline going back (and in the long term, maybe even being a bit bald lol) the gender euphoria of having the biggest fucking forehead lmaoo still pre-T though and it looks like i've got a mix of my grandad and dad's hair and they had pretty alright coverage, so who knows

@jackisnotabird 2 года назад

This is definitely the perspective I'm trying to have!

@seir323 2 года назад

Thank you for such a comforting, thoughtful video. I needed to see something like this today. You're right about how meeting other transmasc people irl can totally widen your perspective, vs what you see or read on the internet. I also feel called out by those Progressive commercials, but I disagree with them- the one I keep getting is the movie theater one, and it's just like, if becoming like my parents means being maybe overly courteous or cautious, or whatever, I'm ok with that. XD Being 'boring' can be really exciting, in a way? Because yeah. Maybe you never thought you'd get to that point. I really like the quote you brought up, judging yourself by what seeds you plant, not what you harvest. If you're only doing things and waiting for the harvest, it's going to be frustrating. Be proud of the work you're doing now! I love it. I've been trying to do more of that lately, and it's satisfying. So thank you for giving me another idea for my mental toolbox. :)

@kianwissemann7350 2 года назад

try taking collagen supplements! it helps "keep skin young" by providing the proteins needed, including hair follicles (and nails). It keeps skin younger/thicker, nails strong, and hair strong and thick - it helps with hair damage too. It also helps muscle growth indirectly, by helping ligaments and tendons repair/strengthen after workouts, so you can push your muscles faster instead of waiting for them to heal. And, it helps your body produce testosterone, instead of fights! You can supplement it through increasing foods with it in your diet, if you're willing to dedicate to it. or you can buy supplements, both oral (pills or gummies) and topical

@kieranshae 2 года назад

Oh wow we have the same T day. it was 7 years this year for me too. I was hoping to meet you at HavenCon in Austin but sadly can't make it. Have a great time!

@wrmlm37 Год назад

Dude, make sure you cover those scars with sunscreen. Did you try Mederma on them? Also, be very careful when lifting. Don't tear any muscles like I have done, just be careful. I too have large shoulders for a woman, and I liked it, but I pulled a rotator cuff 25 years ago, and it has reminded me, from time to time, when I'm NOT careful. Then, I have to decrease use for almost 2 months! It is nice to see someone happy in their transition. I only started following this as a socio-cultural phenomenon I thought I needed education about. Best wishes. I don't know if you've had bottom, and really hope you haven't. But I'm not here to influence or judge, only to learn. But I AM a nurse, so I DO have a bias against the bottom surgeries.

@gogetyourgun1490 Год назад

I really relate to this. I'm a nonbinary person who got top surgery but no T. While I am perceived as a cis woman, at this point, I don't care. Like you, my dysphoria is as low as ever. I do see myself planning for the future & doing just boring adult life stuff. I actually feel normal with my chest flat, but have a feminine presentation. So yeah, my medical transition saved my life, & made myself more normal than ever.

@rrrosecarbinela 2 года назад

I'm going to use that William Arthur Ward quote for my motivational tonight. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and process.

@Noreen_Ni_Riain 2 года назад

BOY are we living in a cyber dystopia 😭 I had to uninstall reddit bc r/boringdystopia gave me nightmares lol

@Djapchan 2 года назад

Thank you for your vids - they always help me stay positive and I love how you often look at transitioning situations in a different way than most others do and that's very empowering for me. Yes, I am in a dysphoria slump right now despite finally being on t and your video helped. And not just a little, but lots. Thank you for this!

@maxshinske9778 Год назад

I’m trans nonbinary (AFAB, they/them) and I’ve been feeling so dysphoric lately being 1.5 years on T. I actually kinda cried from relief a little bit. I’m feeling defeated about it and the changes being so slow. But I just gotta say that your video has helped me so so much

@frankiehoward1994 2 года назад

Thank you so much for this you’re content is amazing. Thank you.

@dhiefali1833 2 года назад

It's been 7 years and you still handsome😂

@bettyreads222 2 года назад

appreciate this update and hearing your reflections! & yes our flag means deathhh, the fan art has been so fun.

@happybergner9832 2 года назад

I really like your wording; your descriptions: have you thought about writing?💕 Embracing change is a positive for me, too.

@lululemon9981 2 года назад

Wowww..I hope I transition that well

@shinyzub5120 2 года назад

You have a great voice! Thank you for being inspirational 🔥

@vickimartinez9669 2 года назад

I hope I transition that well

@newsjunkie7135 2 года назад

Lol, targeted ads are absolutely confused about my gender. I get "how to shave your ball sack safely", "we support women business owners", "this lotion will perfect your skin care routine", and "our tools get the job done". It's hilarious and I love it! I'm non-binary, so I guess this is the best I can hope for, given that ads can only be targetted towards binary genders. (Obviously, none of the above examples are inherently gendered, but you can imagine which gender each of them was targetted towards.)

@hunterthepunk 2 года назад

Happy T Anniversary!

@felix5287 2 года назад

I'm on T but nonbinary and on finasteride and it definitely feels like a tug of war sometimes. Gone off it a few times but cant stop freaking out about hair loss so been sticking with it lately just trying not to think about how its affecting other stuff... maybe ill be ready to go bald in a few years and just get my full effects of t then.. Definitely enjoying the ride though. Thanks for sharing dad

@Volkai 2 года назад

Please consider participating in no-shave November (“Movemver”, I guess?) this year - I’m curious as to if you might find the results more favorable than you seem to think based on the first half of this video. Anyways, thanks for the update! Glad you seem to be doing well.

@Lilly-Gorney 2 года назад

I think this video came at a time where I needed to hear it. I'm a trans woman and finally started HRT around 4.5 months ago... I'd wanted to transition since I was 13, but it took 8 years before I worked up the courage to do it. (albeit due to concerns about coming out to my parents I thought were valid at the time) I beat myself up a lot about that, especially because of how miserable my teenage years were as a result, and it's hard to think about while I'm going through a results slump... This video helped remind me to just be patient. Hearing other trans people find peace and joy in transitioning almost invariably brings me to tears; there's just something so great about hearing other people make it, despite everything. (Also, I think worrying about balding is something both transmascs and transfems deal with, hahaha. My hair started to thin significantly at 20... Still waiting anxiously and hoping that my hairline will recover...) Much love.

@siginotmylastname3969 2 года назад

I hope your hairline will recover too! Despite all the comparisons people make between t and e based transitions, I think e and whatever you might have alongside can do such amazing things and I hope you'll have people to celebrate with you as things change :)

@Lily-wd7dz Год назад

Meanwhile, me: had a full beard in my teens. Started transitioning at 21 MTF. The pain of laser hair removal ensues. God I wish I could just give a dude my facial hair and not have to deal with that anymore.

@ranich4332 2 года назад

Always love your videos. I’m non-binary and when I started transitioning socially my googling and social media use changed. That’s when I started getting a lot of ads for powr & play. But also started getting ads for AG equipment which were way off target for me xD

@keyboarddancers7751 Год назад

Big advantage for FtM transitions compared to MtF transitions: you retain youthful looks better into your older years. Disadvantage: early male pattern baldness and squeaky voice.

@Jasper-or7ui 2 года назад

😭 thank you for your realness

@superdrwholock 2 года назад

Feeling some parasocial pride rn! 7 years, how crazy dude

@hufflepuffwannabe 2 года назад

thank you so much for this incredible video

@leklee1 2 года назад

I’m going to Start T tomorrow. So I’m really excited. Btw My ads changed in the last months. It’s very nice anf funny xD

@koalaskrypin 2 года назад

I love how motivational you are. You always make me feel validated on my lifes journey.

@LightPink Год назад

Have you noticed shrangers treating you differently now that you pass? Like do you receive less sexual harrassment, do mechanics talk to you differently, or another difference that I, a cis man, wouldn't even be able to think of?

@nervosa68 2 года назад

You are an Inspiration to me! And I think you would still be even if I weren't trans. Thank you.

@krpbdp 2 года назад

Thanks. You are so wise.

@emclectic_k 2 года назад

Re: ads, I think I have successfully confused the algorithm about my gender. I get ads for different ages and genders. Out as non-binary about a year.

@ElleEstQueTropRoque 2 года назад

when the ad of a FTM video is about a travel bag and they say "welcome to a new era of packing"... oh if they knew.

@SylviaRustyFae 2 года назад

If ya like bakin and wanna try the dad version of bakin; try either pickling foods or brewing foods. Both of those rely on fermentation like bakin does but for differin things. Also, nothin quite hits the spot like a craft beer you brewed yourself.

@SylviaRustyFae 2 года назад

6:00 What scars tho? Theyre entirely invisible here.

@KateBGreat 2 года назад

You are an excellent plant dad.

@jayarnold4149 2 года назад

I’m gay male trying to understand all about trans I have no interest in it personally you come across very well. Keep up the encouraging work out there that are going to transition.