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After listening to this about 3847282 times over the past week, one of the most gutwrenching and painful things about it to me is how slow the beginning is, there aren't many lyrics, but then towards the end she says so much. It's like being in conversation and you're holding back, until finally you can't hold it in anymore, you break down and you say all of the things you need to say. And then she slows down again, and all she can say anymore is how alone she feels. This song is an entire experience
reading the comments of ethel's music is genuinely so funny because you'll find comments from old men talking about their past loves (grandpas4ethelcain) and then there's the teenage lesbians calling her mother like her music really unites everyone 😭
@@ystcoledwet oh I agree I love it but sometimes reading the comments feels like whiplash the way the tone changes so suddenly. it's v entertaining and I'm happy everyone is connected by her songs
Love is a curse sometimes..especially if it isn't reciprocated by the one you love..I'm blessed but there was a time in my life when things weren't so simple. I feel your pain and can relate..
♡ Lyrics: Labored breaths and bed sores Sing it to me all day long When the aching sound of silence Used to be our favorite song You and me against the world You were my man and I your girl We had nothing except each other You were my whole world Then the day came And you were up and gone I still call home that house in Nebraska Where we found each other on a dirty mattress on the second floor Where the world was empty, save you and I Where you came and I laughed, and you left and I cried Where you told me even if we died tonight, that I'd die yours These dirt roads are empty The ones we paved ourselves Your mama calls me sometimes To see if I'm doing well And I'd lie to her and say that I'm doing fine When, really, I'd kill myself to hold you one more time And it hurts to miss you, but it's worse to know That I'm the reason you won't come home But I still call home that house in Nebraska Where we found each other on a dirty mattress on the second floor (Where I needed you, and I need you still) Where the world was empty, save you and I Where you came and I laughed, and you left and I cried Where you told me even if we died tonight, that I'd die yours (So I died there under you every night, all night) You know, I still wait (I still wait) at the edge of town Praying straight to God that maybe you'll come back around I cry every day, and the bottles make it worse 'Cause you were the only one I was never scared to tell I hurt And I found photographs of our school, on the day we met I thought that you were so beautiful, it was love, I guess And you might never come back home, and I may never sleep at night But God, I just hope you're doing fine out there, I just pray that you're alright And I feel so alone, and I feel so alone out here I feel so alone, I feel so alone out here And I feel so alone without you, I'm so alone out here I feel so alone, I feel so alone I'm so alone out here without you, baby
Rightt this whole song reminds me of my first love. As a woman, I fell in love with my girl best friend but during that time I was extremely depressed and suicidal, still I lived on for her.
This song is so hauntingly vivid I can’t even call it a song. It feels like a real life moment that I’m experiencing as it unfolds. Each word and change in instrumentals hits so hard and the entire piece leaves me feeling like I just lived an entirely separate life in a matter of minutes. Wow. Just wow.
when i was in high school, there was a girl that was my best friend and who was the first time i ever fell in love with someone. i loved her so much and it was so painful because i knew she never felt the same about me. we would lay in the grass of my backyard every weekend and there was a little house that we always talked about buying and living in together once we graduated. i would dream about that house with her, imagine how it would look and just being able to see her beautiful face everyday. we started growing apart right before we graduated and she eventually moved out of state a year after and we haven’t talked since. i still love her and think about that house, the ‘what if’s and all. i hope that she’s happy and doing well in her life, but i’ll never forget about her.
My God I feel for you. I really wish you happiness and maybe a miracle. And if not a miracle, I hope that at least you'll meet in San junipero❤. Lots of Love❤❤❤
"I feel so alone out here." I think it's one of the (more difficult) things we come into life on this planet in order to experience. We're not alone, but it sure feels that way.
this song resonates with me so much. when i was 14 i met a boy at church who had just emigrated from guatemala. we became close friends and he was the first boy to treat me romantically. when i was 15 we started dating, but unfortunately when i was 16 he had to leave and go back to his home country. this song is exactly how i felt when he left. some lines are eerily similar, like his mom checking up on me and one of the lyrics being something i wrote to him in a letter. it’s hard to accept you’ll never see someone again, especially someone who you loved and was the first to love you.
@@Joe-p3z1g deep down i hope so too, but i try not to get my hopes up too much. i found out that we are going to go to college in the same state, (which is really random and weird because he has no ties to this state). the college i might go to will be about 20 min from the one he’s going to. plus his mom offered me a place to stay in guatemala and told me anytime i want to go i’ll have a “home away from home”, so i could see him then! who knows what life has in store.
"So I die there under you, every night, all night" That was felt right in the heart. Everybody has probably experienced this feeling. Such great lyrics
As if this wasn't a sad enough song to begin with, then you see where it fits into the narrative of the album and it takes on such a deeper meaning. With the hypothetical what ifs we all deal with in life and love. Never realizing your own indifference towards someone could be so devastating to them. And what if you came back years later and realized your decisions sent someone down a path that eventually led to their death. This song is so heavy on an album that is pure genius in it's construction. Ethel Cain will now and forever be my sprit animal.
@Jeremie M ppl process pain differently. And when it comes to relationships that pain can be too much to cope with sometimes. And in most cases of suicide that person may not be the best communicator or even have a support system in place. I had an ex kill herself about 10 years after we broke up. It was a very brief relationship that ended amicably plus she suffered from severe bipolar disorder. But there's always that little voice in the back of my head that thinks maybe I contributed to the downward spiral. It's not a great feeling to be left with.
I can get through most of the song without crying even though it's incredibly moving but when it hits the "and I feel so alone" it feels like a punch to the gut
I just discovered this album today and this song was like a stab to the heart. I lost my little brother to an overdose in 2020 and I have so much guilt towards myself that he didn't come to me for help during the last couple days of his life. Minus the romantic overtones, obviously, this song really captures the grief, guilt, love and loss that I feel since losing him. When I heard this part I just broke down crying: I say that I'm doing fine When, really, I'd kill myself to hold you one more time And it hurts to miss you, but it's worse to know That I'm the reason you won't come home Ethel is an amazing songwriter and artist. Wow, I know what I'll have on repeat.
Oh don't beat yourself up there would have been no way to stop him I'm so sorry for your lost You hold on to those beautiful memories That's all you can do. Stay strong you are loved 🤗
This damn song stops me in my tracks every time I hear it - just hypnotizes me when she sings, "You and me against the world, you were my man and I your girl."
im beyond amazed with how this track turned out,, the vocals, the layering, how that fucking guitar comes in at 3:25 . i love the raw vocals and stripped back feel of the beginning, before the cascade of emotions that is the end. she really fucking killed this one ♡
I'm from nowhere. Not far outside Nebraska. This visualization is like my childhood. This artist has captured something about my queer existence in the middle of nothing I haven't ever felt outside my own thoughts... Bless her.
This version of one of my favorite songs is nothing short of brilliant! Gave me chills and tears. My songwriter kid found her through Wicca and we immediately listened to everything she's got including under White Silas. The lyrics, the music, that VOICE! I'm almost 60 and she is one of my all time favorite song writers. The WORLD needs to hear Ethel Cain!
@@sabrinaf506 actually before hayden was ethel cain her stage name was White Silas & on her 2nd album "Sad Music For Sad People" she released AHIN but a diff version, u can find the OG version with the White Silas MV / Performance on YT
A House in Nebraska A song by Ethel Cain Labored breaths and bed sores Sing it to me all day long When the aching sound of silence Used to be our favorite song You and me against the world You were my man and I your girl We had nothing except each other You were my whole world Then the day came And you were up and gone I still call home that house in Nebraska Where we found each other on a dirty mattress on the second floor Where the world was empty, save you and I Where you came and I laughed, and you left and I cried Where you told me even if we died tonight, that I'd die yours These dirt roads are empty The ones we paved ourselves Your mama calls me sometimes To see if I'm doing well And I'd lie to her and say that I'm doing fine When, really, I'd kill myself to hold you one more time And it hurts to miss you, but it's worse to know That I'm the reason you won't come home But I still call home that house in Nebraska Where we found each other on a dirty mattress on the second floor (Where I needed you, and I need you still) Where the world was empty, save you and I Where you came and I laughed, and you left and I cried Where you told me even if we died tonight, that I'd die yours (So I died there under you every night, all night) You know, I still wait (I still wait) at the edge of town Praying straight to God that maybe you'll come back around I cry every day, and the bottles make it worse 'Cause you were the only one I was never scared to tell I hurt And I found photographs of our school, on the day we met I thought that you were so beautiful, it was love, I guess And you might never come back home, and I may never sleep at night But God, I just hope you're doing fine out there, I just pray that you're alright And I feel so alone, and I feel so alone out here I feel so alone, I feel so alone out here And I feel so alone without you, I'm so alone out here I feel so alone, I feel so alone I'm so alone out here without you, baby
I was introduced to music sitting at my father's feet just mesmerized by him playing guitar. I remember him saying a lot of people make music but the secret is to reach in and make people feel. You quickly became one of my very favorite artists.
listening to this song after a breakup is absolutely soul destroying but it’s just in a world of its own in terms of beauty, an absolute unadultered masterpiece
It's been a month since the guy I was going out with chose to isolate himself and end our relationship due to him not being emotionally available and it hurts me so much not been able to know anything from him, the whole "But God I just hope you're doing fine out there, I just pray that you're alright" and "I feel so alone, so alone out here" hits so close to home, I miss him a lot and I've tried to get in contact with him but with no reply and it hurts me a lot. I love this song it relates to me in a complete way
In a similar situation rn.. I miss her more than anything and I think of her every night. I hope she’ll get help, love herself, and reconnect with me some day
I don’t think I’ve ever been hit so hard by a song that’s so resonating. Like the lyrics, my boyfriend left suddenly without giving me closure. Telling me “I feel relieved when you’re gone, I hate this home, I don’t care about you anymore” after 16 months together…even though he said he loved me everyday. As a discreet trans woman, finding a partner that doesn’t treat me any different is incredibly difficult…and he was my only safe space. And now it’s gone. I’m so scared to face the world again with all the violence and rejection I’ve received. Two weeks later I very successfully bled myself out and didn’t expect to wake up, but I did. And this song was playing. Now here I am. This song feels like the only thing I have left
My brother just passed away. And "mama calls me sometimes to see if I'm doing well And I'd lie to her and say that I'm doing fine When, really, I'd kill myself to hold you one more time And it hurts to miss you, but it's worse to know"/"And you might never come back home, and I may never sleep at night But God, I just hope you're doing fine out there, I just pray that you're alright And I feel so alone, and I feel so alone out here I feel so alone, I feel so alone out here" keeps looping through my head.
I’ll always think of her. This song brings out that ache in the most comforting way. And if she doesn’t come back around during this lifetime, at least I’ll know what it was like to hold her and laugh with her. On some other parallel at least, I’m certain we spend each night looking at the stars together
This song probably pulled up deep rooted memories for me that should've probably stayed buried just a little bit longer. Amazing song. It genuinely sounds like the Nebraska sky.
Shes definitely my new favorite artist,im fetting clean from heroin/fentanyl and this has been helpful to me every emotion and goosebumps i get its something magical
I will say this with my entire chest, this is the most brilliant production I’ve ever heard on a song in my entire life. Everything about this track is an absolute masterpiece. The vocal layering, the instruments, the bitter melancholy in the lyrics. When you listen to this record, you live and breathe every single word, every single chord. I truly do not believe any sane person could produce something like this. Ethel Cain is a genius in every regard.
God that guitar solo hits me every time, what a crescendo of emotions I go through with this song. This album is one of those albums that’s just sticks with you. Thank you for sharing this with the world.
My most favorite song. This song has gotten me through so much hardship in just these past few months. Growing up in the Midwest/Southwest/South really does a number on ya doesn’t it boys?
Though I've heard it a hundred times, listening to the "Preachers Daughter" version of this beautiful song, sent me into uncontrollable sobbing. A song that both hurts, but feels good at the same time. The guitar at 6:24 near killed me. 🤍 Edit: THIS is the best song on the album and her best song yet, period.
I still love Crush, maybe for the awesome trailer park, crystal meth deep south look of it, but loved the song b4 seeing her hopping in the back of the pick up and riding round a 1 traffic light town. This is reality for our and our kids lost generation . Only we now can save ourselves and this planet. Everyone needs to look up from our phones and look more at each other and look around at what "they" have done to our homes, the supposed greatest country on Earth! Really? If this is the greatest country on Earth it's time to move! What the hell happened? Over $5 for a gallon of gas and people still won't buy a Tesla which like the cars of old that kept running so to does a Tesla, on zero gas, so the cars expensive BUT doesn't break down, u only need to buy the 1, then the money saved NOT spending over $5 a gallon on gas, just makes complete sense, if we don't need oil, gas there goes most of the reasons for our kids going off dying in wars, just another plus for the impact buying electric cars would have, the ripple effect would be unfathomable. Only we can change and save the world! Rumsfeld and Chaney have been pulling the strings behind the scenes since Nixon! They've never had to care who the President was cuz they've been running the show for decades. Wtf!?
What about Western Nights, or God Conspiracy, or Inbred, or Powerline valley, or Crying During Sex, or Gibson Girl, or Michele Pfeiffer? Shall I go on?
What an absolutely breathtakingly beautiful song this is. I can't believe I've been sleeping on you Ethel, how did it take this long to find you? At last the algorithm got it right! Going to be replaying this whole album for some time now
I wonder how many people can relate to this song, Not just a breakup but a Lover Dying young never getting to know how that fairytale may have unfolded.
The production on her music is so pristine, so...immaculate A bloody masterpiece this is....!!@!! Ethel Cain, there's no one else that can do what you do, not even close Please, carry on.....🖤
The beginning feels like stepping into a hot bathtub while you’re weak and crying your eyes while your chest is in a sharp pain. Her voice feels like it how it sounds like to be entirely vulnerable, You’re speaking out everything you want to say to them …but only to yourself.
I find myself on the road late at night in a hotel room editing some black and white photographs of an abandoned tuberculosis sanatorium I explored earlier this evening, and have to say I find this and all your music inspirational - thanks
I think sometimes of past relationships and I feel so happy I don’t get intense feelings like this song but also fell parts of it like picturing the future and having a relationship with their family
i cannot explain to you the beauty in this song. the longing in her voice and genuine pain is so strong, its beautiful. she is so beautiful. this is one of my favorite songs ever. so well done mama!!!
