A playlist for burned out gifted kids. 

Lyrics :) Are You Satisfied?: I was pulling out my hair The day I got the deal, chemically calm Was I meant to feel happy that my life Was just about to change? One life pretending to be the cat who got the cream Oh, everybody said, "Marina is a dreamer" People like to tell you what you're gonna be It's not my problem if you don't see what I see And I do not give a damn if you don't believe My problem, it's my problem That I never am happy It's my problem, it's my problem On how fast I will succeed Are you satisfied with an average life? Do I need to lie to make my way in life? High achiever, don't you see? Baby, nothing comes for free They say I'm a control freak Driven by a greed to succeed Nobody can stop me 'Cause it's my problem if I want to pack up and run away It's my business if I feel the need to smoke and drink and sway It's my problem, it's my problem if I feel the need to hide And it's my problem if I have no friends and feel I want to die Are you satisfied with an average life? Do I need to lie to make my way in life? Are you satisfied with an easy ride? Once you cross the line, will you be satisfied? Sad inside in this life, unsatisfied, prayin' Sad inside in this life, unsatisfied, waitin' Are you satisfied with an average life? Do I need to lie to make my way in life? Are you satisfied with an easy ride? Once you cross the line, will you be satisfied? Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied, are you satisfied?) Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied?) Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied, are you satisfied?) Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied?) Cry Baby: You seem to replace Your brain with your heart You take things so hard And then you fall apart You try to explain But before you can start Those cry baby tears Come out of the dark Someone's turning the handle To that faucet in your eyes They're pouring out Where everyone can see Your heart's too big for your body It's why you won't fit inside You pour it out Where everyone can see They call you cry baby, cry baby But you don't fucking care Cry baby, cry baby So you laugh through your tears Cry baby, cry baby 'Cause you don't fucking care Tears fall to the ground You just let them drown You just let them drown Cry baby, cry baby You're all on your own and You lost all your friends You told yourself that It's not you, it's them You're one of a kind And no one understands But those cry baby tears Keep coming back again Someone's turning the handle To that faucet in your eyes They're pouring out Where everyone can see Your heart's too big for your body It's why you won't fit inside You pour it out Where everyone can see They call you cry baby, cry baby But you don't fucking care Cry baby, cry baby So you laugh through your tears Cry baby, cry baby 'Cause you don't fucking care Tears fall to the ground You just let them drown Cry baby, cry baby You just let them drown Cry baby, cry baby You just let them drown I look at you and I see myself And I know you better than anyone else And I have the same faucet in my eyes So your tears are mine They call me cry baby, cry baby But I don't fucking care Cry baby, cry baby I laugh through my tears Cry baby, cry baby 'Cause I don't fucking care Tears fall to the ground I just let them drown Cry baby, cry baby I just let them drown Cry baby, cry baby You just let them drown They call you cry baby, cry baby I just let them drown Cry baby, cry baby You just let them drown Jealousy, Jealousy: I kinda wanna throw my phone across the room 'Cause all I see are girls too good to be true With paper-white teeth and perfect bodies Wish I didn't care I know their beauty's not my lack But it feels like that weight is on my back And I can't let it go Co-comparison is killing me slowly I think, I think too much 'Bout kids who don't know me I'm so sick of myself I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else My jealousy, jealousy Started following me (he-he-he, he-he) Started following me (he-he-he, he-he) And I see everyone getting all the things I want And I'm happy for them, but then again, I'm not Just cool vintage clothes and vacation photos I can't stand it, oh, God, I sound crazy Their win is not my loss I know it's true But I can't help getting caught up in it all Co-co-comparison is killing me slowly I think, I think too much 'Bout kids who don't know me I'm so sick of myself I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else My jealousy, jealousy (yeah) All your friends are so cool, you go out every night In your daddy's nice car, yeah, you're living the life Got a pretty face, a pretty boyfriend too I wanna be you so bad, and I don't even know you All I see is what I should be Happier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy All I see is what I should be I'm losing it, all I get's, jealousy, jealousy Co-comparison is killing me slowly I think, I think too much 'Bout kids who don't know me And I'm so sick of myself I'd rather be, rather be (oh, oh) Anyone, anyone else (anybody else) Jealousy, jealousy Oh, I'm so sick of myself I'd rather be, rather be (oh-oh) Anyone, anyone else Jealousy, jealousy Started following me Oh No!: Don't do love, don't do friends I'm only after success Don't need a relationship I'll never soften my grip Don't want cash, don't want card Want it fast, want it hard Don't need money, don't need fame I just want to make a change I just wanna change I just wanna change I just wanna change I just wanna change I just wanna change I know exactly what I want and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh! One track mind, one track heart If I fail, I'll fall apart Maybe it is all a test 'Cause, I feel like I'm the worst So I always act like I'm the best If you are not very careful Your possessions will possess you TV taught me how to feel Now real life has no appeal It has no appeal It has no appeal It has no appeal It has no appeal It has no appeal I know exactly what I want and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh! I know exactly what I want and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh! I'm gonna live, I'm gonna fly I'm gonna fail, I'm gonna die I'm gonna live, I'm gonna fly I'm gonna fail, gonna die, die, die, die I know exactly what I want and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh! I know exactly what I want, and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk, and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh! Da-da-dum, da-da-dum Da-da-da-da-da-da-dum Da-da-dum, da-da-dum Da-da-da-da-da-da-dum Da-da-dum, da-da-dum Da-da-da-da-da-da-dum Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh! Brutal: I want it to be, like, messy I'm so insecure, I think That I'll die before I drink And I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me, and who hates you And I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause who am I, if not exploited? And I'm so sick of 17 Where's my fucking teenage dream? If someone tells me one more time "Enjoy your youth, " I'm gonna cry And I don't stick up for myself I'm anxious and nothing can help And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more All I did was try my best This the kind of thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah) They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here (Yeah!) I feel like no one wants me And I hate the way I'm perceived I only have two real friends And lately, I'm a nervous wreck 'Cause I love people I don't like And I hate every song I write And I'm not cool and I'm not smart And I can't even parallel park All I did was try my best This the kind of thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah) They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here (Yeah! Just having a really good time) Got a broken ego, broken heart (it's brutal out here, it's brutal out here) And God, I don't even know where to start I Cant Handle Change: Hangin' out where I don't belong is nothing new to me I get tired, and I get sick, and then I lose the strength to leave I can't handle change I can't handle change Nothing I do is ever good Nothing I do is ever good enough Nothing I do is ever good Nothing I do is ever good Nothing I do is ever good enough Nothing I do is ever good Leave me alone Leave me alone Leave me alone Leave me alone I can't help but repeat myself I know it's not your fault Still lately, I begin to shake For no reason at all For no reason at all For no reason at all For no reason at all For no reason at all Francis: I don't know what to do without you I don't know where to put my hands I've been trying to lay my head down But I'm writing this at three AM I don't need the world to see That I've been the best I can be, but I don't think I could stand to be Where you don't see me On sunny days I go out walking I end up on a tree-lined street I look up at the gaps of sunlight I miss you more than anything I don't need the world to see That I've been the best I can be, but I don't think I could stand to be Where you don't see me And autumn comes when you're not yet done With the summer passing by, but I don't think I could stand to be Where you don't see me

being smart is the only way I can feel good about myself. I just want to feel happy with myself. I cant explain it.

I didn’t realize how horrible I’d gotten with being a perfectionist until I checked my grades and started crying about my 80% in one class out of 9

I never realized how scared I am of getting judged of being dumb until I cried about getting a lower score but still getting the highest in the class

I've always been the "gifted kid" of the family, and it sucks. you're being pressured to do good, the expectations are HIGH as the sky, and it just results in massive burnout and mental issues, and I think this playlist perfectly captures those feelings

i love the way marina says "and its my problem if i have no friends and feel i want to die" lmfao

No bcs I listen to most of these songs after I have a mental breakdown or after my parents scold me when I get "distracted" and not focus on my studies😭

I went to a mental hospital last year. when I get there, the next day, a doctor pulls me aside for a chat. we talked abt why I'm there. I said it's just all too much. he said "well, how come a student like you, with amazing grades, can be depressed?" and to this day, I still wonder. I believe my sadness is nothing. this playlist helped me realize I'm not the only one who's burnt out n tired. to whoever reading, it'll get better. grades don't define you. I try to tell myself this everyday, n you should too.

I am not burned out gifted kid. I am burned out trying to be gifted.

fck no this is too accurate. it’s hard being the over achiever and suddenly performing poorly. it makes you feel like you’re not good enough. and when you have siblings who are favoured to you it HURTS. why am i here ?? ive been through so much to get where i am. that’s why everyone expects me to do better and to keep improving when they don’t even know how hard it is to have this much weight on your shoulders. i wish i was normal and i didn’t have to be in any extension classes and i could enjoy my lessons without worrying abt if im doing well enough and i wish i could be with my friends enjoying myself.

I was always the gifted kid not because I wanted to but I was forced to, since I'm an only child and first born (on dad's side), I get burned out way too often. People don't realize the expectations and pressure many of these "gifted kids" are under. Please be gentle with them, thank you! I love this playlist so much, helps me focus appreciate your hard work!!

my mom never pressured me to be the best, but I felt pressured to do so nonetheless because of how good I was at stuff. I was a more than proficient reader, writer, and mathematician, so I felt I had to live up to that standard for all my life. now I'm a freshman in high school and I'm tired of feeling horrible because I programmed myself to give up on a project because it isn't perfect. everytime I see the two B's in my grade book I want to cry even though I have three A's because it feels like I should have straight A's. I hate it. I hate school, and I wish I could drop out. (sorry for the vent I've just kept this inside for a long time)

Still recovering from burnout last school year. Something no one talks about is how scary it is to ask for help when you're supposed to be "the smart kid". Even asking for clarification or going in for office hours feels like you're falling short somehow.

This is too relateable. I used to be a over-achiever, best-grades-in-class-always-winning student. And then right after 5th grade, boom. All of that is gone. Im not the over-achiever anymore. Im the failing kid, the kid whos always late to class and who is expected more from. I miss being the over-achiever, but i think im fine now. Remember. not everything has to be perfect, you are perfect in your own way. Luv yall < 3 Edit: HOLY CINNAMON GUYS i have never gotten this much likes and replies ever. i love yall so much 😭 Im glad to see everyone can relate to this suffering 😭 But its okay, and im sure we'll get through it. stay strong, keep fighting, at the end of the day, its not your grades. Its your hard work put into the task.

VENT: I'm not exactly the 'gifted kid' but this playlist made me really feel like me. See I'm not getting younger and I'm almost a teenager and idk if my dad sees that or not because every little thing I do I get yelled at. I'm also the first born of my family and that's already a lot. My dad was also the first child so I thought maybe he would get my pain but it just seems he ignores it. My mom though, she's the third child out of four. She helps me always no matter what. Like I just asked her if she could drop off my stuff(my parents are divorced) cause I didn't want my dad yelling at me because I forgot things. You know what she said. Sure honey I'll be right over. You know when I ask my dad to do that the answer is always "give me 30 min. to 1 hour I'm napping." I'm so done with life. Also on another note my mom told me she thinks I'm 'growing up to fast' without even putting context of what I've gone through in my life. My parents got divorced when I was 5. 5!!!!! I had to grow up fast or else my younger brother wouldn't have a stable life. thanks to those who listened to my vent.

Timestaps :) 0:01 - 3:17 Are u satisfaid? ~Marina and The Diamonds 3:20 - 7:17 Crybaby ~Melanie Martinez 7:21 - 10:13 Jealousy, Jealousy ~Olivia Rodrigo 10:16 - 13:14 Oh no! ~Marina and The Diamonds 13:18 - 15:38 Brutal ~Olivia Rodrigo 15:42 - 19:01 I can't handle change ~Roar 19:03 - 21:29 Francis forever ~Mitsiki I just wanted to Say... I'm proud of u

i was "gifted" when i was a younger kid- i excelled at math, my teachers said they loved to read my essays, i had a fairly extensive vocabulary, i was great at reading and absorbing information, etc. adults around me considered me to be intelligent, likely because i missed so much school, (i spent a lot of time in the hospital as a kid) yet i still managed to exceed expectations. "expectations" is a word that has always hit me hard. when someone expected something of me, even if it was something small, i would force myself to do far more than they asked of me. then middle school came around.. when i started middle school, things got really tense at home. i may have lived with my mom for my whole life, but we hardly spoke- she avoided spending time with me, and spent all her time with my older brother. eventually, my brother started failing high school, and my mom was outraged. when my brother failed to meet expectations, my mom doubled up onto me. i had already been doing my best, but that wasnt enough for her- suddenly, i was lazy for not being in an after school club, i was unsatisfactory for getting one A as opposed to all A-pluses on my 1st semester report card. i wasn't enough for her. i joined the after school play so i wouldn't be lazy. i stopped eating lunch and just stayed in the library to study. i would study all night until my eyes ached. even when i tried to go to bed, i would lay awake. my mom didn't go to either performance. my mom was outraged that i missed one extra credit assignment. my mom said that the bags under my bloodshot eyes made her look like a bad mother. we moved cites and i lost all my friends. i finally snapped. i absolutely melted under the sheer amount of pressure. i went to school every day, but i couldn't even force myself to work. i would doodle in my notebooks and forget what my notes meant. all As became all Ds, save for a B in electives. teachers hated me because they couldn't even see me as a "problem child"- i was a quiet kid with no friends who caused no problems. i may has well have rotted away in my bed. after a few years of that, i dropped out of highschool. online learning started, and i couldnt handle it. the school claimed that teachers couldn't force us to have our cameras on, but two of my teachers tried regardless. one started yelling at me in front of everyone. i was so humiliated that i left the meeting and never returned. i gave up. my mom was pissed. everyone thinks that i stopped caring, but i didnt. i am so disappointed in my self. ive wanted to end my life for years- i had a few attempts 3 years ago. i turn 18 next week. i am a failure of a himan being. the worst/best part? i, who was pressured so hard, am a dropout. my brother, who was given up on? he graduated and has a job. fuck my mom, and fuck my life. let gifted kids be gifted in peace, for the love of god.

Thanks for this playlist. I was a gifted kid and now I'm 21, can't drive due to autism and anxiety, and earn $11/hour at a job that is sometimes so exhausting that I have no energy for anything else. I was always told that I'd be super successful and could have any career I wanted and now everything is inaccessible or requires more time and energy than I have available.

To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! Not mine ✨ But feel free to copy & paste to spread the word ✨

this is so accurate. It’s so hard being the smartest in your class then dropping to low grades. Everyone expects so much. I hate it. School would be so much more enjoyable if they didn’t give so much work.

The number of tears I nearly shed listening to this, so relatable and heartbreaking to see how many people relate to this (and how many people suffer like me, they don't deserve this!) To those high-achievers listening to this, we're all here for you! Don't give up just yet

This playlist really hits hard because I’ve been in the gifted program ever since elementary. People always have high expectations of me just because I passed one silly test, I remember once I got a C+ on a test and had a full on break down because of it. Everyone has told me at least once “wow your grades are so good I wish I could be you!!” But no you really don’t wanna be me. I’m in gifted, STEM, bata, all advanced class, and get straight A’s but it really sucks.

As an honor student I remember how someone told me I was going to fail honors because my average on math was 77% and I started crying. I’m fine now but still it hurts.

To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :) Not mine originally, but we need to get this message around. please copy and paste this into comment sections of videos to people that may need it. We need more love to be passed around.

This hits hard. I was never a gifted kid. At least no one told me so. I worked so hard to get good grades, and I would always get 90s and 100s. But I always seemed to just be right below the requirements to be considered a "gifted kid". And although it was pretty frustrating at first, I still continued getting good grades, because even if I'm not a "gifted kid" I still felt the pressure of being as close to it as possible. And I got through it. I finally finished 12 years of school giving it my all, my very best. So I thought "I can take a small break right?" I still had college ahead of me, I still *have* college ahead of me. But because I thought "I finally got through the basic years of schooling. All that's left is college and then I'm done." I thought a small break wouldn't hurt. It was my mistake really. I didn't realize that carrying so much pressure and having such rigid expectations would exhaust me as much as it did. And now, I took a break, but I can't go back to how things used to be anymore. I can't put in any effort, I have no motivation to, I can't get things done, because I no longer have a sense of urgency. I don't care enough to actually get things done anymore, but I care enough to consider myself a failure and to curse myself for ever thinking I could relax. I've already gotten a taste of freedom, and apparently I just can't let it go no matter how hard I try. So that freedom turned into anxiety, that anxiety turned into a mixture of self hatred and laziness, and that mixture turned into depression. I guess since I've heard a lot of people talk about taking a break and whatnot, I thought it was worth a shot. Didn't think it would mess me up this badly.

Can't ever have a playlist like this without "Are You Satisfied?" by Marina and also in my own experience I've actually never had my parents pressure me with having high grades or achieving the 1st spot (I would say that It's me who's pressuring myself) all they wanted for me was to just be able to pass my school years. When I went to my first school year I was still a clueless little kid who only knew how to play, basically I was still stupid and didn't had that much thought about learning new stuff. All I wanted to do was play with my classmates and talk about things I had interest in. Until 1st grade came in, for the first time I was one of the people who got into the top students of the class. I felt happy and excited about that and I wanted to do better, but not for the toppest top just a part of it cause I knew well that having the first spot would be too much pressure and burden, and most importantly the feeling of losing the first spot would be too much lol. I continued doing this until now and I will say things really change when you get older, instead of just feeling proud and reassured about the things I've already achieved or done I just get this sense of regret or disappointment in myself whenever I do things wrong (be it wrong answer's in a test even though it's a high score), and there would be times when I'd get jealous of other students or classmates getting higher achievements than me to the point that I think I'm not smart enough or I'm just stupid. But as of right now I do still feel like that sometimes, but I try hard not to think about it too much since it's a really displeasingly hard to explain feelings that I actually don't show to other people aaaand that it would also make me distracted on my studies Sorry for suddenly commenting something like this, I just wanted to post this cause I know some people would relate to it too, also I'd appreciate it if no one comment's anything like "thing's will get better soon" or "everything will be fine soon" cause I know that damn well myself, If you've read all of this, Thank You

I got a 89 on a final test when i was younger while many others got 70-80 and I started crying so hard that i felt like passing out and my strict parents who usually dont care when i cry actually got concerned for once.

To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! not mine but feel free to pass it around babes

I love this playlist! It’s sadly really relatable, and I’m glad this playlist exists

Yessss, straight A student for my whole school, aka 8 years, cause my mom made me a perfectionist through emotional abuse, and then failing 2 courses in college and dropping out, cause I was the worst in my group and had hell at home, and being yelled at for dropping out 🙃

Sometimes ppl don’t realize how much pressure and expectations they have put on us

Being a "gifted child" is so overwhelming for me. I was always told I was a smart girl, so much that my parents started placing expectations on me. When ever I get anything below a 100%/full points my mom always go on about how she never had anything below that when she was my age. If I do get full points they don't even acknowledge it, they're just like "okay good." I'm so used to this that whenever I see something that isn't an A I start panicking, think what would my parents think, I think how useless I am. When I see someone ahead of me it drives me nuts, because then I start admiring them, then start to hate them. I compare myself to them, and so does my parents. I sometimes break down just because of my grades. I sometimes hyperventilate and when I believe I did horribly, I start to cry and then I start getting panic attacks. Over the years I've become a people pleaser, a teacher's pet and my friends tease me about it, but in reality it hurts. It drives me crazy and I don't want to live like this. I don't wanna live, but I don't wanna die. I just want to do my best without having consequences attached to it. I wanna go to school and feel free to make mistakes instead of feeling trapped within them. I am so miserable, and nowadays passing through my classes is one of the only things that makes me happy about myself. Makes me feel like I actually achieve something. I'm tired.

This is the playlist I listened to while I studied last year and now I still listen to it’s just too good

This is nice I was born very gifted as a kid (I was a complete copy and paste of my dad, first child) I’ve had a difficult life but this is one thing that has never changed but recently I’ve gotten slightly “dumber” (probably because of my pcs(post concussion disorder) I hope I get better soon it’s been almost 5 months since the accident I was in I do like being gifted (I’ve gotten used to burn out ) Have a lovely day people I’m glad so many others can relate

I'm a 8th grader, In my country there is an enterace exam for high school. I am the second in the class, but people expect too much from me. Teachers, Friends, Family. I am good at lessons, doing every question right, always "one of the best". But when it comes to exams, anxiety won't let me win this race. Working so hard, spending all your day to study and then. Boom. Your note was lower and lower than you expected. Not just you, for the others too. I was more happier, more energetic, more friendly, more caring before. Now that me is gone. There is only the girl who is a " burnout", always the one with head aches, and the silent among friend group. To be honest, nothing is worth living, its better to disappear. Maybe just for one day, or more, or forever.

I’m not exactly “gifted” but my mother holds an unnaturally high expectation for me. I brought it up to her once and she said something along the lines of “I don’t believe in that stuff.” Referring to burnout and being overworked. I tear up every time I think about it, those words truly crushed me.

I have a friend who constantly praises me and wishes they were me because of everything I do. Even so, sometimes I wish I had their life. One with no expectations, freedom, and parents who only check on me sometimes. I can’t believe I even have the time to write this down. I came here looking for people to relate to, but in all honesty I just want to *crack* and cry and sleep and just.. take a break.

Aspie here. Since I was young my mother forced me to be a complete over achiever, to the point where when I wasn't number one she'd sit down with me and learn until I cried or was best again. Stopped caring and burned myself out on purpose at age 14. Disappointment from my parents was immeasurable. But oh it turned way worse when I got the diagnosis at age 17. They stopped being disappointed in me and rather grew mad, because "Aspergers makes people smart" and they didn't believe me whenever I told them "I can't." I'm so fucking sick of this misrepresentation in media that makes people think that certain illnesses give you perks or that you can dump all the pressure on them because they can handle it.

This is too accurate. Watching myself being the straight A student, having classmates come to me for homework help, having the teacher trust you in helping the people who need help, always winning in academic competitions to getting F's D's C's and B's, barely getting A's anymore. Ive been trying too hard to make my parents proud as a first born, now im failing. The expectations have been growing on me and im failing myself. Im really trying, now its not just working. I feel confident after doing a test to get it back with a lower grade.

I never realized that I was so obsessed with getting good grades that I didn't care about how looked or how I acted and how depressed I was, remember to get that sleep, to eat that meal, even if it feels impossible. Everything in your life YOU can decide what to do with it! Even if you have a quiz or a big test tomorrow, SLEEP. You may not get the best grade but its better than not sleeping and getting a worse grade, school isn't forever but your body is, please take care of it.

I was an over achiever kid, always getting straight As, after online school I just burned out, coming back to school and getting a B+ I started tearing up and tried not to cry, my parents weren't even glad I got 2nd and kept asking me why my classmate got a higher level even tho it's just 2 points less (I got 94)

Thank you for making this playlist, I’m feeling burned out right now for being an over-achiever. This comforts me that others can relate too 🧸☕️✨

My grades have been fine up until lately. I’ve been turning in assignments late and missing a few. And even though it light not seem that bad. It’s hard because I feel pressured to get all A’s and AB’s ALL THE TIME. Ppl always say it’s really hard for kids who don’t get good grades but they fail to recognize the kids that are burning themselves out and are tired. Getting anything below what had been considered normal to us, Is damaging. And my teachers say seventh grade won’t be the breaking point for us, but I’m starting to debate that. Or maybe it’s the fact that I’m already broken. My teachers say, idc about your grades, I care about you learning. Yeah- but when I go home with a C or a D and my parents see it, I’m going to get shamed with disappointment, get yelled at, and get my phone( my only source of sanity left) away from me. Middle school had been the breaking point for me, and it’s only my second year.

I’ve always been what they called "a gifted kid". As a kid, I thought it was normal hearing "You should be at the top, as always." And my innocent self poured everything anything possible to live up on their expectations. But as I grew up, I never expected go feel exhaustion running on their tracks without getting anything in return. I’m still the top of our school by the recent moments. Though unlike before, I feel unmotivated and numb often. Going to school because it’s necessary, not because I enjoy it. It’s sickening. It’s sickening to be called a gifted child. I still score the highest yet not knowing how did it happen. It’s like, I don’t care anymore, how come I’m still at the high spot? Although I admit I still yearn for more. Their expectations also grew with me that my achievements felt lacking to the point where being the valedictorian doesn’t seem a big thing.

great playlist!! the song choice is great and very relatable :') I could go on and say how being a gifted kid sucks and the education system does too and yada yada, but everyone listening to this probably already holds this sentiment soooo yeah good luck, everyone! remember to take care of yourselves too!

I love this playlist and I'm just going to vent a little so yeah.. I really hat being the "gifted" or "smart" kid people around you expect you to always perfect if you bring in anything less than what you are expected to get then there's a "problem" and you need to "try harder" even though your ALWAYS trying your best it's so annoying and also I like to do art and out of my siblings I'm the only artist when it comes to drawing and stuff like that so my mom is ALWAYS talks about it and says stuff like "your a great artist and you have a gift the other kids don't have" Everytime I don't want to do things like art camp and etc ik she means well but sometimes I feel like forced to make art it's gotten to the point where sometimes I don't want to draw ever again but I still like to draw when I'm in the mood but all I have to say is being a "gifted" kid is not "fun" or "cool" and to the people who are having the same problems remember that talking breaks from something and not doing perfect Everytime is OKAY❤💖

i’m not a gifted kid or anything of the sort, but this playlist resonates with me on a personal level

See, this is exactly why I've stopped caring so much about grades when I got older. I was also called a gifted kid, I even skipped a grade and always wanted to get really good grades at school. When I entered puberty, I was still a good student and did what I had to do, but I stopped being so pressed about grades. I've accepted that just because you're intelligent and have talents, doesn't mean you have to stress yourself to do everything perfectly all the time. It's okay to slack off sometimes. It makes your life much easier AND chances are, if you are naturally gifted and intelligent, you'll still do a good job without giving 100% all the time.

As a gifted kid working on a test at home rn this helped me remind myself that I need to take to take a break sometimes

0:00-3:21 Are You Satisfied? By Marina 3:21-7:21 Cry baby By Melanie Martinez 7:21-10:16 Jealously,Jealously By Olivia Rodrigo 10:16-13:18 Oh no! By Marina 13:18-15:43 Brutal By Olivia Rodrigo 15:43-19:03 I Can’t Handle Change By Roar 19:03-21:30 Francis Forever By Mitski

To those who are still in school, please believe me that only in school will you be treated like this and only in school will best grades have a significantly meaning. In real life social connections, your ability to be confident and once again, socialize with other and work in a group will be the key. Even if you know nothing, if you can show you are a cooperative, easy-going person and are willing to learn can get you a job. Some ppl straight up lie to they children about whats important in life because they think kids are stupid and will not listen to them anyway. Think about that. It's actually good to disappoint your parents if they give you bad life advice.

POV: you were always expected of a lot and had trouble communicating your stress growing up

Being the gifted kid is stressful and powerful.

I cried so hard to this. I miss being in the honor roll every year, life was easier. i was happier when my parents gave me gifts for my achievements, i was happier when people praised me and relied on me, because i was one of the "smart kids". i miss hardly having to do anything to be a high-scorer in my class. all of those things are gone now. my motivation is near to none, my grades are getting lower every year, my mental health is getting worse, and every day that passes the more i want to just disappear off the face of the planet. I still remember vividly when I ran and cried in the bathroom stalls when I first heard I wasn't in the honor roll. i cried so hard i almost threw up, i felt so stupid for crying, and i felt so stupid for failing to have a consistent grade. I know it's my fault, but I'm so in denial of me falling short and losing motivation that i find anything to blame. I don't even know what happened to me, I just slowly stopped doing assignments, slowly lost the energy to study, slowly lost my title as a gifted kid. I cry more tears every year.

I've been going playlist to playlist making pov's so here is another one! POV: You did everything to be perfect. You just wanted everyone's approval, so you forgot about yourself and studied hard. You aced every test, you were always the teachers favourite. You didn't have time for friends, of course you had acquaintances that you would talk to at times, but that was all. Suddenly you realize that you've never really had a childhood. All this work for a simple smile from your parents. A congrats from your peers. Everyone at school hated you for being perfect, so you had no one to turn to. You were done. This wasn't worth it. So now you plan to become the teachers worse nightmare. People are going to wish they never put this pressure one you. They will regret it

I used to have the higher grades. Now, I struggle to focus at a simple homework. It's cool to be gifted, but it's kinda like a rollercoaster, you are up until you fall hard. I still can't get over it lol

thank you so much for making this playlist. I've always been one of the "smart" or "gifted" kids... I feel like theres a lot of pressure, I'm terrified to fail a test because I still want to be considered a smart kid, idk. Anyways thanks again

As a constant honor student, I've always feared failure and not being able to maintain my grades. I used to think that by the time I get an 80+ grade, everyone would secretly be disappointed, and that thought suffocated me for so long to the point that I always hated it whenever someone has a higher performance than me, to think that their better than me, is just suffocating. And the worst part is, they don't even know that all of that were poisoning you. And so I've changed for grades, bargained my precious friends, bargained simple pleasures, and foremost, I bargained my life for grades. "Yet how I still not better than everyone?" Is the question I ask myself every night. Grades were the only thing that overjoyed me, they were my friends.

i am so thankful for this play list as it makes me better. Lately i struggle with everything: my grades are fine, but i feel like it is not enough. I am not enough. When i tried to tell about it to my friends,they ignored it. " You are overreacting. You are smart " words they often say. I just want to feel whole again and not worry about anything. I am happy that im not alone in this situation. To anyone reading this, you will be fine and we will get through it at one point. Be safe and thank you

I identify with every song on this playlist. Fortunately, I still get the highest grades in school and am recognized for my participation in classes and assignments never below 100%. Unfortunately, not everything is rosy, and this also made me grow up as a massive perfectionist who is very selective even with people, very insecure because I don't know how to react socially and I don't have communication skills, so school is the place I feel safer and happier, since all I need to do is push everyone away and study. Outside of school I'm just a girl who doesn't have friends, and when I get friends, I suddenly get irritated and overwhelmed and start crying lol. I remembered the day I literally had an anxiety attack because I couldn't manage having 3 friends and now I am distant from them. I'm trying my best to change this. I've been trying to be more girly, I always see videos about how to communicate and "not be socially awkward", but none of my techniques are working because either Anna (my only friend at School, who I really find toxic) pushes them away literally or I get nervous and react weird to their comments. Honestly... It's really a pain in the ass HAHAHAHA. I do know how to communicate, but just formally with actual means, such as deals, protests, argumentations and negotiations, even teaching and presentating, yet If u ask me "how are you" I will freeze, and out of nervousness, I won't hear It and ask you to repeat, then repeat again, then again, just so I will answer a shy "ah- I'm good, thank you!~..".

ever since i was in kindergarten i've always been on top of the class. then because of family problems, i had to transfer schools. this completely changed my dynamic and i was so rattled that my usually straight As got invaded by a B. what's bad about this is that my parents don't mind. they actually encourage me to relax and lay low on my grades lest i burn out early. i'm the one pressuring myself, because i got so used to being on top that getting less than that feels so wrong.

This playlist literally just represents my life. I'm the oldest child, i was the smartest kid in my whole school at a really young age and everyone praised me and were jealous of my parents. In highschool, i got separated from the only person who actually cared abt me( we were accepted into different schools) and my parents started hitting me and abusing me because my grades weren't acceptable anymore. My mental health got worse and worse day by day and in my "friendship group" i was the joke. People used me for my brains and i was forced to do their homework. I'm a people pleaser and i can't say no even if i wanted to. I always cried myself to sleep. Covid came and my parents moved to a different country. Everyones expectations were skyhigh. I got full marks for the first year cuz it was online and it was fairly easy. But if i made one slip up, i would be compared to my cousins and friends. I hated it. I was forced to learn 2 languages i had never heard in my life. But that didnt mean they didnt have high expectations for those. My relatives and cousins said that i wouldn't need to work hard for those cuz the teacher would give me good marks for no reason. But they are wrong. I had to work hard,so so hard just to get a good grade. Everyone either overlooks my capability or thinks i can achieve more than anyone. What the actual fuck.

i love this, When "I Can’t Handle Change" played i started sobbing :,)

I love how it was all in the past, where I used to study until the clock striked 12am or 1am and thought it was normal. Heck I wasn't even in elementary back then, I was like in kindergarten. Everything begun to fall apart and change in grade 2, my grades, my personality, my mind-set, my taste in friends, my thoughts on reality. I am not a smart student anymore, I barely study and I get very low scores. I'm not happy about it ofcourse, but I am happier like this than before.

Since the beginning of the year I've worked hard and only kept studying, i put my heart into it and now it's exams week and even tho I'm sooo ready for all of them I'm also too stressed, i kept crying for an hour just for the stress and the worst thing is that my mind kept telling me such things as "you couldbe revising instead of wasting time, why aren't you practicing?" And that happens whenever i take a break. Even if I'm really tired and all my assignments are done it became a habit to think about these things whenever i am not studying. Okay let's say all this will pass, but for real why can't my mother just care about it a bit? I'm the only child who respects her and treats her well, the only one who runs to do what she wants, the one who shows his love more then anyone in the family, I'm the one always making her proud with my grades and achievements and everyrhing!! Guess she got too used to it that working this hard and this much stress is nothing. She literally came to my room and told me to stop crying because my little sister can't focus on her homework. Oh god, what about me?

Ive been an overachiever my whole life, I had honors, peoples approval (specially from adults or teachers) made me happy. Now I get average grades, my parents tell me to get better, my teachers say they're dissapointed because they know I can do better. It makes me think "What happened to me?" "Am I not good enough anymore?" "Do I have to try harder?" I try to improve, I want to go back to that "perfection" But for some reason I don't have the motivation. I'm honestly dissapointed in myself.

these youtube playlists are really saving my grades.

This is TOO relatable. I'm scared. I AM A BURNED OUT GIFTED CHILD AND I ALREADY LISTENED TO ALL THIS SONGS OMG-

I started getting grades under 90% in 5th grade bc it was a hard year and all the teen stuff just got me that's why I was getting 80% 75% 90% 85% 100% 90% and it was just hard 😭 but I got through and now Im back to all A's in 6th grade. everyone who got similar problems to me here: ⭐u got this no matter how hard ⭐try to not care as much about others opinion ⭐if it matters to you you will always find a way ⭐nothing is impossible bc the word itself says "im possible" ⭐you will achieve great things in life if you stick to your goals ⭐you will get through hard stuff bc you r strong ⭐aim high and reach your goals ⭐if you get bullied try to withstand the pressure and get revenge for those bullies bc u are stronger than them and they r weak bc they bully u ⭐believe in yourself ⭐you will achieve great things in life ⭐reach for things you really want bc if you don't truly want it you might not get to ur goal now continue what ever you were doing and remember than you can do it :)) positive vibes only and u r amazing bye

Hey, I know i'm late but i wanted to say these things. I didnt realise how lucky I was in having been smart until recently... in elementary school and the first two years of middle school i always did my best and was very happy until i realised how toxic my ''friends'' were. The last year of middle school was a living hell and i just hoped i could feel better in high school. Now that I've started it im feeling way worse. I struggle doing the bare minimum and to concentrate. I feel like people wont like me if im too smart, so now im scared to get bad grades and even good grades. It seems stupid that someone could be afraid of getting good grades but i know that my classmates in middle school hated me because they were jealous of my how good i did in every subject... i have high expectations from my parents even in having friends, because my mum always had lots of them. Today I left school early telling my teacher i had an headache, but in reality i was having a lot of anxiety. I just spent my day crying and i cant even finish my homework... I know I'll have to stay up late even today to finish them. I feel like here in Italy high school is especially hard and I have way too many hard subjects like Latin and three other languages... i know i cant keep living like im doing rn but i really have zero motivation and I just want to cry all day. I basically just have one friend to rely on and shes not even in my same school. I'm scared that no one will want to be my friend in these 5 years i have to be in that school. What the hell is wrong with me.. 🥺 (also sorry if i made any mistakes)

this was just perfect thank u so much for this playlist :>

It’s hard feeling like I have to be absolutely perfect. Like I have to live up to the highest expectations, “be nicer” “be smarter” “be BETTER” when your too nice people look at you to be the one to do everything for them, and you do. People look at you as the smart one and expect you to help them. People expect you to go to the stupid school counselors like yeah that’s fine that’s something I don’t want to do.. and yeah I’ll go to the dance with some guy because he asked and I felt bad and yes I bought a old friend a whole Nintendo switch and acnh because why? NOTHING nothing happens nothing at all all that happens is I get left behind and told “wash your mouth out” “You are a horrible friend” maybe it is me.. I tell myself that because all I do is go and screw stuff up.. All I do is hammer a stupid bridge back together over and over until all the nails are gone, all of it is gone, it’s fallen… Am I scared of my parents seeing this and saying THATS NOT TRUE when over and over they end up dropping some of those nails, nudging them over of my hands because “I don’t know they don’t give off the best vibe” There’s something called being scared of adults when you feel like you have to live and be they’re standards just like me every single stupid day until the weekend and I’ll just sit down with my friends and call and play stupid block game and laugh but NO go call with friends in the state not people thousands of miles away.. So I’ll call friends and then your like WELL JUST GO OUTSIDE OR CLEAN YOUR ROOM and then freaking turn around a week later and say “Why aren’t you calling with your friends, are you arguing” No mom you said NOT TO so sorry I am isolating myself.. ig I just needed to let some stuff out sorry if I’m being annoying..

God the fact I’ve already cried to all of these before makes me so sad. Great playlist.

This is tooooo relatable. I never realized how much I wanted to be perfect in school until I cried after getting my first ever 60 on a test and then an 80 on another. Like all of my friends were like "wtf that's good I wish I had grades like you" and while I'm happy about the compliments I just feel so shitty. The biggest insult for me is being called dumb or not good at anything so I try super hard and barely get any recognition for it. Imagine that when I got 97 in math my dad told me to get a 100 next time. I feel like the biggest problem for gifted kids is when family thinks that you can do better no matter how much effort you put into it. (Also wow did not expect to vent like this) Anyways great playlist that I'm downloading illegally to my files as we speak 😌 yeah uh bye and don't study too hard my fellow smart people :)

funny how i was never gifted from the start, but i feel burnt out. thx for this by the way.

i am not one of this "gifted" kids, but I always tried to be. My grades are bad, no matter how long and hard I study. I feel weak and disappointed on myself every time I see my new mark. Now I'm listening to this playlist and trying to learn art history. Something tells me that I will not pass. (sorry for mistakes I do not speak English on a daily basis)

I was born quite gifted for my age , and my parents know this. They alway go on about becoming smarter and yell and scream at my if I dont do well in tests. I’m not allowed out unless I have done homework and I am made to study extra time . My dad is the worst, he screams that hen never even wanted me and I should follow in his footsteps. I have grown to be deathly afraid of failure, because if I do I will be screamed at . I honestly grew up thinking everyone lived like this but I guess they don’t . They also yell at me for the smallest thing like just knocking over a cup , which makes me flinch a lot as they raise their hands as if to hit me wich they have done before. I know people have it a lot worse but I am sh ing and I need help

my obsession with perfect grades got so bad that I was in a state of medical help. I'm the first born and everyone always expects me to take every responsibility I'm also the oldest of 6 grandchildren on my mom's side and second oldest out of 4 on my dad's side. It was always a burden and teachers never had any mercy on me when it came to my free time. I was pressured into joining clubs and after school activities, going to school competitions etc... Last year I did bad on one of my math tests and my teacher made me feel worse about it, she said "where is (my name) I used to know? The one who cared about school?" I literally couldn't stop crying, I tried proving them that I care but they said "actions speak louder" even though I did everything I could. That period was also really bad for me because that year I lost my uncle and pets and they all died almost the same month. Also all of my family problems were conformed that year when I exposed my dad's side of the family of all of the things they did to me and my siblings. My fears got worse and I developed PTSD and anxiety because of one stupid accident or "prank", how my friend called it. Because of her stupid "prank" I literally jumped off of the balcony (2nd floor) out of fear. I only had 3 therapy sessions but I learned to take care of myself and deal with my emotional pain alone. I had countless sleepless nights, panic attacks and my mental health was never worse. I let people take advantage of me and I was too nice. Having all of that going on my teachers still put on every burden on me. But that's okay I now know that I am the only person who understands me truly and I don't need anyone else. I learned it the hard way but it was worth it. Just because I'm gifted doesn't mean I am born to be perfect. Finally, after gaining self love and confidence I can finally say I am proud of myself and I don't need to prove it to anyone else. I'm my 1st priority and everyone will for sure know that.

This video is perfect, I’ve always done well in school and practically everyone in my family either says that I’m the smartest one in the family or they’re surprised by how smart I am. But lately I’ve been burnt out and I’ve kind of stopped caring about school/taking mental health days because of the stress. My parents tell me that they’re proud of me and wouldn’t care if I don’t one bad grade, but the only way I “care” about myself is depending on how smart I am, to me, if it’s not a 100 I failed. It’s stressful, and soon enough it’s going to get worse.

Pov: the playlist relates to you so much you start crying on the first song

TW: VENT (YOU DONT HAVE TO READ OR RESPOND) I’ve always been the ‘good-grades, All A+ perfect kid’ so this year when I got a B in 2/6 of my classes and had to watch everyone get an award (which you have to get an A in atleast 5 classes for) hurt so bad that I had a mental breakdown the whole night because I had put myself under that much pressure where I thought I was a failure for not getting an A in all my classes 🥳 So yeah- this playlist is very relatable- and it’s honestly just hard because I don’t want to be in extension but my maths teacher made me, so every time I get under 90 on a test I struggle so bad mentally.

Even though I’m the youngest sibling, I’m not the favorite, my older siblings are. You see my father abused me and my siblings and mother, but since my siblings were older they got it worst than me, so my whole family loves them more than me, grandparents, aunts uncles, even my mother and step-dad. My mother has never told me she loves me or is proud of me. I was taught at a young age that if I was perfect, then someone would love me but no one has. I have tried to be good enough for people but it’s never enough. I give and give but nothing is good enough. Losing friends because I’m to ‘Fake’ I’m not, I just want my mothers love and support, and it’s hard since I have recently found out I am gay. I’m just so sick of myself and this weight on my shoulders to be perfect, I just wish I was my older sister who everyone loves.

I was never the “gifted” kid but I have always taken AP classes and college classes ever since I was in 9th grade and I’m friends with all the gifted kids and I cannot tell you how depressing it is when you’re around them and feel so stupid but when I’m in regular courses they’re too easy. I’ve never had that middle ground and have always seen myself as a failure (thanks to some family and friends)

kind of a vent: As a middle schooler labeled as a gifted kid - it SUCKS. I am so burnt out with my 10,000 assignments that I can apparently do on time even though I can't. I'm also a pressured only child with divorced parents. why does my life need to suck. also there's this one kid in all of my classes but one: • who asked to call me • I didn't know how to say no so I said ok • he started calling me every day and I HATED IT • over the summer between 4th and 5th grade I ignored him because he's ANNOYING and I didn't previously realize • 5th graders ARE invited to the school dances they have at my school (5th is like a transition to middle school) • THIS DUDE asks me to GO TO THE DANCE WITH HIM (we were in the 5TH GRADE! 5TH GRADE!!!!!!!!!!!) • when I (politely, by the way) say no, he bothers me for the rest of the school year • the whole time I tried to ignore him • I ignored him over the summer between 5th and 6th grade • We come back, and I am out of patience with this kid • He starts being weirdly rude because I start showing my true opinion towards him (which is LITERALLY LEAVE ME ALONE) • He started commenting on one of my videos, asking to COLLAB (he called me a dips**t and then asks to collaborate? heck no!) • you can even find this video! its the one that asks what content you want from me! its on this yt channel! • He comments "I mean this is the person who friend zoned me multiple times.." YEAH OF COURSE I DID • People start joking about it lol • Someone here, please help me deal with this dude. • I literally hate him • He is rude to me in front of me and my friends but is nicer in front of others

As an overachiever, smart, ULTRA-PERFECTIONIST, with anger issues, who stresses over unfinished work and can rarely relax...I never realted to anything more...YOU GOT THIS!!!!!

I got a 74% on my Algebra test today and flunked a quiz along with it. It shouldn’t bother me this much, it’s not a horrible grade, but it’s still a grade that will drag down all my hard work so far. I’m just so mad that I didn’t study thoroughly enough, thinking I’ll just get through it. It was definitely a hard test but I could have done SO much better but didn’t bother putting in the effort cause I thought I was “smart enough” or something. I literally felt like crying while my teacher was going over the test and all I could think was “I knew that”. And then kids asked me what I got because they want to know how well the “smart kid” did and I just smiled and said “I should have studied more” because I’m embarrassed and frustrated. I didn’t even tell my best friend because I know she’ll either tease me a bit to try and make me feel better and/or end up listening to me rant and whine about it for the entire day and I just was not in the mood for that lol. I’m okay now though, or at least, much better than before. Need to remember that this obviously isn’t the end of the world and I can just bring up my grade again :) Thank you for the playlist, I forgot how much I loved Marina’s songs ♥️

The only way i feel accomplished is success. I absolutely HATE failure/losing. if im not constantly one of the best, all A's, highish in the social ranks, i feel like I actually am a loser who cant do anything and ive been constanly burnt out recently. edit: reading these comments reminded me my brother is NOT expected to have all A's like me. I cried over an 89. My last report card was a 83 in that SAME DUMB EXTENSION CLASS. Ive asked repeatedly already to get out and the reponse is ALWAYS "no youre capable just push through." I literally have to remind myself im not weird for crying over a B.

Ok so I’m kinda like the most ungifted person ever but like I like this playlist

The feels bro i legit can’t I was always the kid everyone expected the most out of it put so much pressure on me and when I didn’t get a 100 I felt like a failure but then 6th hit me and everything just fell apart I was seriously struggling with depression and questioning who I even was at that point and everything just dropped I became the kid who people got shocked at when I got a 80 it was super depressing realizing I let everyone down

vent ..... living with a two toxic people ....struggling to study , exams in 3 months ...ch more than 40 ...living in a city of compitition of students of my age ...i messed up my preperation ....also i have anxiety problems ...i am someone who is not people pleasure but someone who just always do things to avoid getting scold ....and it breaks my heart and i cry hearing these two people in the same house talking bad about me...i am just scared of them saying anything negetive to me again .....i am litrally ... ....plus i just dont have guts to say anything....well i want to deal with them strongly...and have good grades ...i am dreamer but i feel like i am trapped in a web means i cant move forward but time can...... THANKS FOR READING ABOUT THIS UNKNOWN PERSON (ME)....I HOPE YOU NEVER GET TO GO THROUGH TOXICNESS AND NEVER PROCASTINATE

this playlist is exactly how I feel rn. I was an overachiever in hs and graduated with the highest grades. But coming to college and dealing with a tonne load of more problems alongside studying has really burned me out. I feel bad for the hs me who worked so damn hard to reach here but now I feel lost. Seeing my grades drop is so painful...I want the hs me back.

As the “gifted kid” in my family, I approve of this playlist

When I was in fourth and Fith grade I went through a lot of trauma at home and at school and I used studying and reading as a coping mechanism and I would always avoid all my problems by busing myself my grades shot up and I started to feel a lot of pressure to keep them that way especially once I started getting many awards and other students my age treated me like an adult and a person to look up to a treat with respect rather than a kid like them and I didn’t make any friends because everyone was trying to respect me and give me space and I can’t blame them for giving me space as a sign of respect because I always pushed people away to study and if I wasn’t studying I was reading and I constantly told people I was busy so really it’s my fault I was viewed that way I started also being really nervous and cautious because if family problems my uncle was abusive and targeting us and studying was like my only escape I always overdid my work then worked myself harder once that work was done and things only got worse from there as I started to get many awards and opportunities even speaking for the school to board members as a kid I felt a lot of pressure and mostly blocked people off from me slowly as I figured out my situation at school and with my uncle I slowly started to heal and I now go to a middle school for special students who are above average it’s a STEMM school and now that I’m there I can fit in a lot better without people seeing me as a higher individual but even then I exell the other students and people look up to me and as the saying goes “old habits die hard” I still study when stressed but so do think I’m a bit lucky because studying is a better coping mechanism than other ones and I do think It can isolate and hurt me if I figure out myself how to connect with others and deal with the authority I could go to high places with this as my coping strategy I just need to know how to use it right and I will learn in time Edit: I should probably get a hobby to replace studying Now I’m actually realizing how much I care about this reading the other comments and I’m realizing how many times I’ve cried when I’ve had the highest grade like how many times I’ve been upset for missing a single question in a test or not growing as much on maps when I’ve been one of the highest scores at the beginning of the year and the end and yet I still grew and I grew more than others.

Vent: Idk if I'm the "gifted kid" I've met REAL gifted children my age who play instruments, who are multilingual, who do advance math that I couldn't even comprehend and I feel like the only reason they hang out with me is to make them see they could be doing basic stuff but they choose to be good at everything. I do not know any other language, I am not musically talented, and I can barely do a simple math equation without getting annoyed. I want to be good at those things! I want to give them a reason to hang out with me! I wanna be "super smart" so they see I'm not just some dumb kid they keep around. I get all A's but that is not enough. I work hard but how the fuck is hard work gonna compete with natural talent!? I want to prove my worth threw my brain but is my brain enough if I am as dumb as a rock around them????

i love this so much, its so sadly relatable but i love it

that one moment where youre actualy scared of not being smart because its the only thing youve built your identity upon so when you feel dumb you also feel like you're losing yourself in the process :D

I started being a "perfectionist" when I was younger because I'd feel validated and happy when I get high grades and proud parents, but during this pandemic I really stooped low and started getting line of 8 on my grades which honestly made me disappointed in myself and the dissatisfaction and disappointment on my parents face weren't shown but it was evident so it crushed me to bits. It honestly made me stop wanting to achieve the highest. Now this year is ending, managed to get some good grades. I'm not sure about right now but still trying to be the high achiever I used to be. I don't know why but it made me feel happy, validated and wanted. And to the others like me facing the same struggles, I assure you that you'll get through it and all of your efforts will be worth it in the end. Keep pushing and try to take it slow.

I finally stopped being a high achiever, and finally started realizing that grades don't matter, but that all ends now. First year in middle school and I'm here to perfect every damn test and project, so you will see me here very often. I will not tolerate a single mistake for the rest of the school year, and if I make one, you will see me here, again, venting about it. Anyways, I'm not the best example on how you should spend your life, everyone, I hope you enjoy yours! If anyone want's to hear more (if you do, thats cool bro, thanks) I used to be in rivalry with the smartest student and usually the one who wins quiz bees and other stuff like that, during the pandemic I realized that that I needed to prioritize my mental health more, but since then my grades have been going down, I lost my friends, and my whole school life is over, and everyone, including my family, compares me to the younger, better me. "Name, what happened" "It was because of the pandemic" "You used to have all first honors!", That was during when I was happier, now I don't care if I'm happy or not. I'm getting them 100s.

Being the first born and only son my parents had, I am currently living through Hell with both school and my own social life. I always end up having a fucked up sleep schedule, depending on caffeine to do the trick and keep me up, listening to a lot of playlists like this, being seen as "weird" while also having very few friends and always thinking about ways to distract myself... I am always the one thinking the most negatives, because parents can never see actually good points in stuff I like. Now, one thing. Strict parents think that by being strict, they'll obtain a perfect child. FUCKING NO, MOM! THE ONLY THING YOUR METHODS CREATED IS SOMEONE WHO CAN RECOGNIZE HIS OWN FAMILY MEMBERS BASED ON THINGS LIKE THEIR FOOTSTEPS AND FEELS THE NEED TO HIDE EVERYTHING FROM THEM!

This is very relatable. I already have to many problems in my life. I wish I was just that 1st grader again. The best in the class, pretty, everyone loved, no one had expectations for me and I didn't know that the world could be so cruel. But now I'm in 5th grade and I've been resorting to hurting myself and having suicidal thoughts. I still have good grades but it's only because I need too..