ABUSE SURVIVOR REACTS to 'THE TALE OF JENNY & SCREECH (FULL)' | Speechless... @RenMakesMusic ​ 

The cycle is what got me. Jenny being frozen like her quiet mother Violet and Screech being violent like his father.

He has an unnerving gift for leading us down dark paths like a pied piper figure. Until you realise you are either far from home, or god-forbid somewhere very *close* to home. Thank you for sharing your emotions so candidly. I'm sure Ren would very much approve of your bravery in opening up and relating to his incredible words.

I've seen countless reaction videos of this, and you are the first one to pick up on the "do you think I want to do this, Violet?" line! It never ceases to amaze me how people missed this classic line that abusers use. They always try to frame it as "you MAKE me do this!!!". Hurts so bad.

You are very brave to listen to such a heavy story having survived abuse yourself. Respect to that and thank you for exposing yourself to it before a camera. All the best for you!

That, my dear girl was not a easy reaction. You really was struggeling. And never apologize for taking a breake if it hurts. The most important thing for you is you and you must do the things that feels right for you. I'm glad you gave us a little bit of your sad story. I wish I could have been there to give you some big hugs. I'm glad you came out of the situation and I hope you can get an easier life.

I'm a 54-year-old avowed metalhead who's seen some sh*t, but when I saw you turn around and your shoulders shake, my heart broke and I just started crying with you. People that have lived that life resonate like tuning forks with Ren's music because it's too real for us. He brings us back to those moments of panic and fear. But it's cathartic. And having someone like you to be our guide and help us filter it through your relatable perception and reception of those moments in the music that are so hard to see is invaluable. I appreciate you so much for helping us process those memories of past emotional turmoil and trauma. Thank you for helping us find Ren, and for being a beacon past the rocky reefs in our souls.

Another great reaction. I love how you put your thoughts as text as they occur ... it makes for a continuous stream of the artists performance at the reactors feelings. You need never apologize during your reactions ... Your reactions are you ... Keep on being you.

I believe REN’s gift goes far beyond just telling a story, he is able to provoke empathy allowing us to feel things someone hasn’t experienced.

this is why Ren is so good....people need to talk about these issues, the only way to chase away the dark is to shine a light on it. stay strong.

"I have done enough to destroy myself, I dont require someone else to do that for me..." Shit. Indeed. That got me

I really like the way you do your reactions, quietly taking in the song, adding text comments along the way, and then afterwards taking your time to collect your thoughts. Music that uses such writing strength to carry such heavy stories deserves that kind of attention. If you're up for another song that addresses following through on those dark thoughts of wanting things to end, Ren's song How To Be Me (another one recorded live with Chinchilla) is staggeringly beautiful.

Can i say i absolutely love the way you add your comments! Instead of stopping the video every 10 seconds, you watch it back & add your commentary, chefs kiss!

Rens music brings situations to light that need a dialog. Hes greatat getting people talking.

My mother was the abuser. She is schizophrenic with bipolar disorder and would verbally and physically abuse me. My father was an alcoholic. When I was 14 she attacked my Dad with a knife. She spent 8 years in a mental hospital. I have 2 younger brothers who I raised until I turned 18 and moved out. I didn't continue the abuse to my children and they have had a wonderful childhood that I never had. I just want you to know that sharing your story makes moving past the trauma easier. It hurts to talk about it but every time you talk about it, it gets easier.

Hope you are OK after watching that, i knew that would hit you hard, sorry to see you get upset again, Don't know if you got the Story Lupy as you was understandably Disassociating a lot, *Spoiler Alert* Ren took you back in time with Violet to 2005 where she had twins before she Died from the Beating Stevie gave her, we can guess the twins must of been fostered or adopted as Stevie the father would have gone to Jail, so 14yrs Later Screech trys to rob Jenny not knowing that she's his twin Sister, so Screech kills his sister unknowingly.

We are suvivors dear girl..I'm 79 and still going.

This is poetry. I've never experienced such hardships as he speaks of. yet his ballads bring a tear to my eye and I gladly weep. Just amazing.

My wife had lupus, passed away in 2014 at the age of 23. We need more people like you to advocate for it. Love your reactions. I'll always support a lupus survivor

Go girl, keep opening up, healthy stuff. You are worth it!

I grew up in an alcoholic household and violence occasionally resulted. Though nothing like this, for some reason millions can relate and empathise with these song. It's understandable when you can relate to these more deeply that the subtle things can be missed first time around. Must be 50 times I've heard this and I still cry uncontrollably every time. I take comfort from that. We're all damaged and scared. This "big brain" of ours seems a curse sometimes aye. I hope there's some cathartic things you can find in this music too. The story, the music, cinematography and Ren's acting are incredible. I wish you all the best with the rest of your journey. Eyes forward, one foot in front of the other is all we can do aye. ✌️❤️

Watched the whole reaction. You are brave and I admire your openness. You are not alone.

Truly a wonderious and heartfelt reaction. Bravery is too weak a word to describe your incredible indescribable emotional endurance in dealing with the themes of this tale. To show all of us that we may dance in the dark through the horrors of our mind. Yet, the compassion and power we possess to push on allows us to step into the light of life and carry the rest of the rythmn in our hearts. Never stop dancing for it is what keeps this world turning even if we struggle getting used to the spin. The maternal monster that birthed me into this world was whom I had ran away from at 14 myself. I've been forced to do disgusting, degrading, and despicable things just to eat and get out of the cold but no matter the horrors I've endured I'll never go back. Eleven years has passed and alot of failed attempts to unalive myself made me understand the past will never be my legacy. That I will outlive that beast who birthed me. That it is not about the people who have hurt me that I carry on but I do so for the people I have yet to meet. I am lucky to have someone who is by my side now instead of in my face hurting me. Alot has changed in these years but that growth carries alot of scars that will never heal. Yet the more I try to forget why they are there the deeper it pains. I found peace comes not from forgetting but from remembering more than the pain. To remember that the biggest wave may crush us the hardest but it moves twice as fast. That I can create moments now that don't define what I've been through but where I've longed to be. Ren is a genius to create this community, these conversations, and connections with songs and passions beyond my abilities. Thank you again for your bravery in doing this reaction and know that while we all carry different stories we write them on the same page. Can't wait for the next reaction do be safe and know that you did an amazing job reacting but more importantly you are incredibly inspirational for all those who have survived a childhood that bled us dry for surviving through the misteps in the dark. Thank you for being here in this moment and I hope for many more moments of your videos thereafter.

The way he acts out Stevie's role creeps me out, but leaves me astonished. The realism and violence is so palpable; and I've never been in a relationship like that.

im soooo glad REN is bein known at LAST,,a LIGHT at the end of the tunnel,,HOPE for the forgotten,,a modern day poet,bard,and real....peace,,love from GLASGOW,,

I've watched a ton of reactions to this and you're the first one to point out that the very beginning sounds like God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen. That was the first thing I thought of when the song started.

Side note: I love your bookshelves. I have over 3,000, but then I’m 63. Just don’t spend away your retirement. My husband could have retired at 55 if I hadn’t bought so many books.😊 Just a lighter, funny side note to this terribly heavy experience for you. I stayed in a battered women’s shelter salting away money at the office till I could buy bus tickets for me and my two toddlers. All of our clothes were in paper bags. I could always tell when a woman was being abuse. Once you meet the dragon you see dragons everywhere. Later I helped raise funds for a shelter in my hometown. I was the house manager on weekends. In my 30’s I became a children’s missionary in the inner city/. The neglect, filth, and abandonment/violence was devastating. We lost too many kids to physical abuse, sex trafficking, murder, etc…. When I finally stopped, I had a nervous breakdown for 3 years. The nightmares of both my ex-husband and those kids still creep in when I’m really stressed, but its Decreasing as the decades pass. I’m still here. You stay too. ;

I applaud you for taking this one on solo. I'm not a survivor but I connect emotionally to music and this one hits me hard. Ren is so masterful at the way he concocts his tales, it's amazing. He connects with so many people in such deeply personal ways.

please feel safe to pause, cut, break as much as you need. thank you for sharing your experience with these heavy messages.

Thank you for sharing your story with us. I want you to know that I imagined myself seated next to you during Violet's Tale. I send you love, light and peace. The year 2005 in the lyrics gave me goosebumps and brought tears to my eyes. I left my abusive husband in 2005. I just couldn't do it anymore. Violet being pregnant makes me cry because it reminds me that but for God's grace that could have been my story. I was 5 months pregnant when I left my ex-husband. I escaped with our lives and I raised my girls by myself. I have PTSD and still hear every demeaning and degrading word he drilled into my brain. It has taken me 18 years to not see myself as the disgusting monster he trained my brain to see. I still have to remind myself that someone isn't mocking me or playing with my head when I'm told I'm pretty. It's a cycle of continuous love, growth, and acceptance that I live today. I pray that you know just how amazing you truly are. ❤ Light and love to you, Tori

I believe Ren was trying to explain how easy it is for these things to reoccur in each generation over and over .you bravely stopped the cycle ,in spite of the damage done to you .I dont believe Ren has told this story for any frivolous or selfish reason but to shine a light on an ugly truth that lies behind the headlines .traumatised children becoming traumatising adult .look after yourself as if you were a friend .❤

Violet gave birth to twins in 2005....girl named Jenny and a boy named Schreech. Jenny froze and was silent when scared (like her Mother, Violet) and Schreech was a violent abuser ( like his Father who beat and killed his Mother, Violet) ! He killed his own Sister (unaware it was his Sister)

You are spot on - ‘hurt people hurt people is a stereotype that I also personally hate. I strive to do the opposite. I’ve been hurt countless times and work hard to help the younger generations growing through pain. Making sure they know there are abuse/violent survivors creating a safe space for them. Allowing them to be heard and not judged You are such a brave young lady, having to courage to help react to this hard story, coming from a background I also know so well. You are honest and beautifully emotionally Women can also be abusers. It’s not so heard off, but happens soooo much. Even in ‘Violets tale’ the mum knew I saw the dissociation and the self soothing that is also so familiar to me. Thank you for such a raw emotional reaction. Truly heartfelt 🙏💜

Still here at the end! Came for the Ren reaction and stayed to listen to your thoughts and your story. So glad you had a step mum who helped you out and didn’t disappear. 18 years is a long time so you should be proud of yourself.

I can relate to what you said about the potential to spiral into ever worsening situations. I always consider myself incredibly fortunate that I didn't end up in the Drugs Scene because at the darkest part of my life a was surrounded by people that were! I did fall into drinking for a while but at some point my family got together and intervened and took me to go live with relatives in another county where I slowly rebuilt me life and went on to have the best part of my life. Sending you Love and Best Wishes.

I can see what it was like for you to watch this but I can't completely understand. But i can tell thar it was very difficult. Thank you for posting it and letting us into what things are like for you. Explaining to us through text what you are going through. Thank you for your videos getting the way they are, the way you do them.

Every time I listen to this song I think of “God rest ye merry gentlemen”! You’re the first I’ve seen comment on that

Ren has an unerring ability to make us look where we don't want to and leave us with no other option but to stare down our demons. Master story teller indeed.

First thing first here is the biggest hug. I am one of the people who have sent as many people to your channel as I can. Your honesty and openness are needed by so many people. I think this is what makes Ren special to. I have had a shitty day because someone on the internet decided to attack men who have suffered domestic abuse. Most abusers hide it so well from my mum and dad being upstanding people or my first long term partner threatening me with accusations of abusing her. You being open and talking helps me because just not being alone is important. I will give you a laugh my sister and I are no contact with our parents. Yet my parents have made my sisters ex the executor of their will and they see my ex every week. My sister and I are both in good relationships and still in contact even though we both have mental health issues due to our "amazing childhood". Together we can support each other and channels like yours and artists like Ren make the world that little bit better. Here is an other hug just because.

Thank you for being so honest, it is honesty which brings the audience. I can see it took a great deal of courage to react to this.

i could see how hard it was for you but the strength you where showing was amazing i dont know you but amazed and proud reacting to you such strength

OMG I never realized it before...I was soothing myself from seeing your grief by similarly touching my arm exactly like you were doing. As I live and learn!! I too love the comments in written form ♥ Never be sorry for feelings

I don't know what to comment actually, just a sencere thanks for sharing.

I'm glad you are still here 🤗 ❤❤❤

Ive never wished i could channel compassion and awe into a beam of healing positivity like today. You are stronger than pretty well everyone i know. I hope that you find peace. Total respect and best wishes from the other side of the Atlantic!

I'm sorry you have had such a hard life, but I'm glad that you are still here.

As I've read it both Jenny and Screech were real people. Ren read the newspaper one day in 2019 and buried on the 6th or 7th page was a short "write-up" [I guess you'd call it] on the tragic death of two 14-year-olds; a girl, Jenny, and her killer [proper name James somebody] known in the Neiborhood as Screech. He thought that kind of news [of the decay in society that resolves in such ways] deserved more attention. So, he wrote the first two of the trilogy shortly after reading of them. These few years later he took on the task of writing a fictional story to further drive home the point that this continuing cycle of violence and decay in society should be paid attention to. So, the entire Violet story he designed to fit the personalities of those two and how they are made. Very impressive writing [and storytelling] and motivation resulted in Violet's Tale. Easily imagined they were brought up in separate foster homes. Jenny took on the quiet nature [still nature] of her mom [freezing in her tracks, unable to move when commanded to give up her goods] while Screech took on the character of his father. 14 years after two zero zero five they met each other probably for the first time and a newspaper article on the 6th or 7th page is what became of it. [as Ren has imagined it for us] His story telling has purpose. Real purpose. That is what has him stand alone [it seems] in today's society. [unique as an artist]

Wow your words really hit home. We have different paths and circumstances but we all find ourselves here. Ren’s music has brought me out of some dark spots, and the community around it is amazing. Keep doing your thing - I appreciate ya for this one.

I’m going to echo others in the comments, don’t apologize for needing to stop. It is a very hard subject,especially for people who have been through similar situations. Because you were so real you earned a new subscriber and I look forward to watching more of your reactions.

Your strength and courage are an inspiration. You are an inspiration

The saddest thing about this is the fact each of these things are happening in every town, city, and country at this very moment and the cycle continues

Thank you for your courage! I am also an abuse and kidnapping surviver! Ren touches this humanity I had perhaps forgotten had existed! You are an amazing human!

You are so strong to be able to watch this with your past. Though my childhood did have some abuse, many kids had it much worse. At least we are aware of it and we can break the cycle. Thank you for sharing your strength with us.

I was so worried about you watching Violet. When you broke down I broke down with you. I’m sorry you went through that and I’m so happy you made it through the other side and that you are here now.

I love that type of reaction. Putting your thoughts as text instead of pausing the performace. That created an intimate situation for us as viewers and I'm sure it's not always easy for you because it makes humans vulnerable. Sending love to you.

Sweetheart your so bloody incredible and brave.. as a guy now 50 I still don't except my childhood. You are so impressive. Thankyou for you raw honesty.

It's difficult finding the right words to respond to your reaction. 😢. My childhood while different from your was still an unhappy one that has affected me ever since. I think it's something you never really get over, you just learn to cope or you don't. I think it's really brave of you to share your story, and I think it's a story that should be heard by more people because it might help someone else. As for Ren, he's a special talent, truly a bard for our times and because of his own issues he's able to connect in a way very few can. He is quite simply a genius.

This has been the hardest react I've been avoiding because of the title but that I needed to see.

Just a quick note to let you know I enjoy the reactions of those who watch this artist's performances but when I saw there was going to be so much time spent talking about it, I was thinking of stopping there. I'm glad I didn't. I listened intently to all you had to say, and I think it's a good thing you have this platform. Your sharing has value.

Hi LJ. Just popping in to say thank you for this reaction (and for your others). As you said, knowing that you're not alone matters. ❤

As someone who suffered abuse I always find myself smiling at things that are absolutely horrific that I don't find funny at all but as you said it is the reaction of disbelief and also a coping mechanism that turns on unwillingly. A lot of people who know me don't know what I've been trough so having that reaction makes them think "wtf is wrong with her". I don't try to explain since every time I did that it was not taken seriously. I just wanted to say that you stating that it happens to you make me feel less alone and thank you for sharing your story. I am glad you are still here!

They always say the best music is the music that tells a story in a way that punches you in the gut. This trilogy sucks. But so many women suffer in silence. This song gives her misery a voice. I can never make it through this video without crying

Ima grown man at 33 and cant make it through violets tale unphased. Ren is god tier with his playing using his guitar and voice to pace and show emtions . I can hear how i should feel from how he plays. Its not fair for him to be the good. He is a bard

Thank you for your openness I cried with you. Your bravery reacting to this was touching proud of you ❤️

I admire your willingness to stand up and tell even part of your story. The social taboo, the negative feelings, self shaming, it keeps so many silent. The only way we can BREAK the cycle for generations to come is not just to make resources available to those in need, and make sure the fact that they exist funnel through the proper channels so those that could use them are made aware but more importantly, probably most importantly ... We need to destigmatize their use, make it not so focused on the victim status and more on the fresh start. On the safety. We need to collectively change the narrative so no more children grow to fall prey to the same traps. People like you, people like Ren, are the voices that should be, that are shaping our future society. Thank you. I am so happy to hear that you are connecting with others and together we're all seeing that none of us are alone in this. Last, little side note. I think the issue with the phrase about hurt people, I love it. I think perhaps you have not looked at it this way... (And if you have, I apologize but just in case I figured I'd put it out there) your comment about not all of us do, I think that's close to it, I'm sure I worded it incorrectly. I don't think it's meant to be a warning or statement suggesting that we all will. It isn't saying all hurt people are hurtful... I believe it simply means that all people that harm others in one way or another, most likely were harmed themselves at some point. Which is what shaped their behaviors. Like nobody wakes up clear headed, healthy, in stable life scenarios and thinks huh I want to rob, kill, steal, lie, etc. That most likely had some traumas themselves. Whether it was a narcissistic parent, abusive relationship, heck even a blow to the head and traumatic brain injury. That being said it isn't an excuse or pass. At least, how I was lead to understand during my own periods of recovery, is obviously an abusive situation needs to be changed immediately, but in circumstances like with addiction, when your loved on, or friend is experiencing some kind of trigger or situation that causes them to react in a negative way, even if you had no part in it, that you are unfortunately collateral damage in somebody else's trauma loop, and that means above all else that you should try to not turn inward and let their negative situation. And possibly hurtful words or behaviors define you, influence your self image or diminish your sense of self worth. Their poor behavior speaks more to their character or personality and far less if at all about yours. Like... They didn't pick a person because they think any individual "deserves" it. it's less about the person they hurt, and more about the person doing the hurting. In their mind anyhow. It's about the void they themselves are trying to fill. It's about them. Their poor behavior is about them being hurt and the result, not about anybody that the harm being deserving, or anybody they cheat on being not enough. It usually has to do with them feeling like not enough. I think it's in hopes to prevent a person who is struggling with the individual in their life internalizing the hurtful words and actions. Again, just my take. But thank you again. So much. And congrats on the growth of your channel!

LJ, I finally got a chance to properly sit down and watch this - sending out hugs as I can only imagine that was a really hard one to sit through and watch. Apart from his obvious genius, what I find with Ren is he has the lyrical and musical talent to put into words what so many people experience or want to say - he is talking to us and for us in a way, a real life social commentator for this generation. That leads to people feeling more confidence about opening up to share experiences and thoughts. Even just by telling your own personal story, you are inspiring and helping others so take pride in that. Keep strong and safe - you've got an army of armchair keyboard warriors who have got your back and are on your side now lol ! As for Ren, being speechless is a natural reaction I find. The lighter side of Ren (or him with his band The Big Push) might be in order now lol. Oh and I think Sam the cinematographer deserves a huge shout out for all the videos he has done (and continues to) with Ren.

God Rest Ye Merry, Gentlemen... That was my very first comment when I heard it the first time. You're the only other reactor that said that! Good ear! Coming to the end of Screech's tale... I've heard this piece so many times I don't need to watch Ren. I was mesmerized watching YOU. Your obvious captivation was riveting. Your typed commentary was excellent. Okay, now for Violet's tale. I'm actually a little concerned about how this will hit you. Here goes... Finished. I have tears in my eyes from watching what you endured in the last several minutes. You touched my heart. This was the most emotional, raw, sincere reaction I have watched to date. I can only give one thumb up... you deserve a hundred. Liked and subscribed!

My heart goes out to you, your beautiful, strong, and can go threw anything now. Please don't self destruct. I'm 43 divorced and haven't be able to see my children in 5 years, was homeless for a year and lost everything and I got this don't give a shit if I died attitude. I quit caring, drank more, drugged more, drove faster.. u get where I was at. I realized life is worth it even if it's spent alone it took forever for me to love myself again. Love yourself, it's not your fault, you are worth it. I pray you find your peace whatever it may be❤

That haunting voice at the start reminds me of howling cries I have done myself,

Thank you so much. love you so much mate. Love you!

I appreciate that you don’t back down from a difficult reaction. Your format is great. The text is helpful.

It was very hard to watch you react to this video!! God bless you!! ❤

I am sorry for what happened to you. I grew up in a abusive alcoholic household also but nothing like what you did. I hope you're doing better today

I have been in an abusive relationship (it creeps up on you) but found the way Ren portrayed it so well that those that haven't thankfully been through it gives them a chill and pause for thought.

It is a weird thing when you put it like that. "Yay! Other people are miserable too! I'm so glad." It has crossed my mind before. Not glad that other people feel miserable but glad that it's not just me. You didn't make them miserable and people want to know that they aren't alone. Can be very isolating so it's no surprise that people have responded to you being genuine and honest. I don't know if you're into heavy music but Dana Dan by Bloodywood seems to be cathartic for many who have suffered abuse.

it was very hard to watch you reacting to this, I wanted to reach into my screen and hold your hand. Bless you.

Thank you for your vulnerability and for sharing your story with us. You are not alone! ❤️

Heartfelt reaction which is amazing to see. What I love about human beings is we are able to feel sympathy and in the absence of experience to feel sympathy we can feel empathy.

One of the best parts of being unwilling admitted to the hospital was the grippy socks they give you, I kept them every time I was admitted and bought the same kind off Amazon

You did very well to get through this one. I wish you all the best.

One of the gifts Ren gives us is the ability to open up and connect with others in this life who are not "okay". He helps others in ways he isn't even aware of. I hope you are doing well!

Thank you. And hugs.

Great reaction! I just got turned onto this song today and am now binging all reactions I can the rest of the day. Yours is my favorite so far!

That had to be insanely hard to react to. I've never been in that situation, but I feel for you and everything you've gone through. I've got a simple saying that helps me make it day to day. "Don't give up" there is always a purpose to still be here. If you would like to talk more, I'm here to listen 🙏

Wanted to hold your hand as you watched ❤ you are so brave ❤

I have become a big fan and it's nice to see people actually appreciate art

Thank you for sharing your story. This is another tough video to watch from Ren, but worth it. Statistics from 2021 show that perpetrators of child abuse/neglect are about 47% men and 53% women (maybe because childcare is typically handled more by women, there's just more time for it to happen?). I don't bring this up to get into a "men vs. women" blame game. I just wanted to let you know that your situation is not as unusual as you may think.

well you got my sub :) thank you for an amazing reaction, lots of love from Greece, stay safe and healthy

Big hugs. This was a hard watch for me as well the first time. I admire the fact that you still were willing to share this reaction! ❤

Thanks for sharing your reaction and your personal story. You show others that life isn't centered on who you "were" but rather who you "are". Your strength and understanding shines.

Thank you for your honest and open reaction about your past which is a really brave to put yourself out there with details that must be very hard to talk about This is a true story I met a woman we had a short term relationship which I ended after she asked me to do something I would never do you may be wondering what she asked me to do well she ask me to hurt her physically I was totally shocked by her request she said I was to nice of a person and she wanted someone who would control her well I said that's not me so I said we where over I'd rather be nice than be a woman beater Ren certainly knows how to tell a story the twist is so good

Much respect. I admire your courage. Wishing you much love and light for the rest of a long life.

Just on observation on your very raw reaction to something that clearly hit home hard: Putting yourself on here, for all to see, to be so vulnerable, is a gift of trust in strangers. Unlike the saying "you earn trust", to me, I see it not as earned, but wrapped up in a bow and given as an unconditional gift, and it is down to the recipient to hold it or misuse it. The level of guts to give your trust enough to put yourself here for all to see, is brave of course, but more, it shows me you can see that if things ever have a way of improving, it has to start with taking that step onto unsafe and unpredictable ground and see what happens, and you dear lady, have knowingly pushed yourself forward, taken that step, and showed the viewers what being brave really means, its not about heroics, its about going through something you could have avoided to improve yourself in some way.

I only wish to find someone like you. Thank you

A massive hug from me and Leeds hun I could clearly see your distress on this your amazing and don't let anyone say any different 💔💜❤

You are amazing . You are helping others through your own story and rens just by reacting. ✌️To you from Australia .

lol i'm watching and my heart's in my throat not really wanting you to have to watch Violet's tale. This one... oof. I love that Ren holds nothing back from the ugly truth of it but... This one, Sick Boi and Crutch are 3 i have to be very careful when i watch but it's important to support channels like yours bc we like to say "Oh let's talk about mental health" but what we mean is "Oh i support you going to therapy and getting medication" we don't mean ACTUALLY talking about it. What it's like living with the damage and there's this idea that you can go to therapy and fix it all. Nope. Like any other body trauma, sometimes there's only learning how to live your best beautiful life with the damage and that needs to be talked about. So here i am lol watching you watching Ren and reminding myself that i'm not just poking the bruise but supporting something that's important to me and that's you being a beautiful honest brave voice out here

The best part of the whole trilogy imo was either at the end of screeches tale when he kicks in with "Richard was an officer who stood..." or violets tale where he comes in with "that's the sound of his fists..." musically speaking that is. Don't be quick to condemn screech think about his potential societal position. I read Patrick his best friend has been screwing the love of his life which has been tormenting his mindset and thought processes for a long time. Screech has been suicidal for along time and longing to die. He then bumped into jenny their eyes they met. When he killed Jenny he killed himself. He saw himself in his twins eyes. He acted on ferocious emotion. Unbeknownst to him and he ultimately and immediately regretted his actions. Compassion is needed here. Patrick was with screeches mrs in Patrick's when he was knocking. He knew this deep down hence the persistence in knocking. He then immediately phones his Mrs but she was busy. This certified his deep agonising suspicions hence he went out swinging he effectively committed suicide. The trilogy is extremely thought provoking. It's a modern-day masterpiece. Big facts hundred percent.

First time watching your reaction channel,I'm a massive ren fan(sorry,admirer) and make a point of watching every reaction video to his artistry,I,at this point don't know your own personal story,but I guess purely from this reaction that you have experienced difficulties in your own life and I just felt that I had to comment on how I felt watching you react to this,and I can honestly say it was one of those very rare occasions that I genuinely felt proud of a fellow human being,hold your head high young lady,through diversity you have,some how retained companion,I for one will subscribe,it's the least I can do,you are real,genuine and worthy of all the love and support I can give,go girl!!!

Thank you for sharing. You are so brave!

OK so first, I love that doing these reactions are helping you to talk, it's so important to be able to be open about the struggles we've had and still have. You'll be helping so many by doing it too! First time I heard these, I dissociated a bit too hun, big safe hugs to you (my dog is snuggling into me again) Oh and yes I heard god rest ye merry gentleman lol. Xx