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Addicted to Fentanyl at 16

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CW: This episode contains descriptions of addiction, suicidal ideation, and SA.
Fentanyl, an incredibly potent synthetic opioid, presents an alarming and ever-growing threat to today's youth. Its prevalence and allure have ignited a public health emergency. Adolescents and young adults, in their quest for experimentation, are especially susceptible. The peril emanates from its unparalleled potency; even minuscule quantities can prove fatal. Fentanyl frequently lurks within counterfeit pills and illicit substances, deceiving users into believing they are ingesting something less harmful. This hidden menace has precipitated an alarming upswing in youth overdoses, claiming numerous lives. Its addictive grip further compounds the danger, ensnaring young lives in cycles of dependency. Prioritizing awareness, education, and accessible treatment is imperative to safeguard our youth from this perilous epidemic.
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00:00 Childhood
01:40 Divorce
03:15 Mom meets a new man
11:40 Isolation & not wanting attention
12:58 Being introduced to a new girl, beginning of risk-taking
14:45 Mean girls
16:25 Moving to Florida
18:18 Needing weed, drinking at school
20:12 Makes a friend with a Xanax addiction
25:25 Fentanyl
30:20 Doing Fentanyl everyday, memory loss
37:15 Overdose
40:00 ER & Psychiatric hold
47:40 Psych ward & rehab
56:30 Relapsing & hanging out with different people
59:00 SA
1:16:25 Dad takes her to another facility
1:22:15 Getting out
1:23:25 Reporting the assault
1:30:20 Working at a smoke shop, creepy boss
1:39:45 Different treatment centers
1:40:40 Fighting, getting arrested
1:44:30 Setting goals & life today

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@Blingedoutbymel 11 месяцев назад

This podcast is by far my favorite. Other people give platforms to already famous people whom we’ve heard their stories over and over. These are real people with real stories and it’s refreshing that they aren’t necessarily famous.

@Cass089 11 месяцев назад

I agree

@margaridadomingues2 11 месяцев назад

I share your opinion! Also, some of her guests get their stories published in major newspapers after the podcast which is so powerful

@LaceyHartman0903 11 месяцев назад

It’s like the guy who does Soft White Underbelly. Love the authenticity of this style

@margaridadomingues2 11 месяцев назад

@@LaceyHartman0903 love that channel

@Remixchannel-xv2nh 10 месяцев назад

Congratulations

@elizabethasheriddle 11 месяцев назад

I'm a psychiatric ER nurse and also sometimes work in our hospitals inpatient psych ward too. This podcast continuously opens my eyes to the experience so many of my patients have. I really believe these interviews make me be a better nurse. Thank you for giving people a voice.

@erikal1668 11 месяцев назад

Your patients appreciate you and your care 🙏🏼

@fma6387 10 месяцев назад

I watch all these videos and i can say I can relate to some of these people and open to understand wat people go through more . We all our crazy frl we all have certain trauma that’s triggers different things and behaviors in people

@abbyz13 10 месяцев назад

don’t you talk to your patients about their experiences though? like why would the podcast open your eyes to the work you’re already doing…if ur working that job fr?? genuinely asking bc i work with 2-92 yr old patients and i’ve heard everything under the sun just cause i ask.

@Kendralovesskincare 10 месяцев назад

@@abbyz13I'm going to assume if she's an ER nurse she's doing a lot of intakes where people aren't in the best state of mind to really share their stories. They're in the midst of it and likely not open, receptive or have enough self awareness to even know their "story" yet. If I had to guess.

@saracampbell4323 10 месяцев назад

@@Kendralovesskincarevery good way to describe it.

@hannaheifling03 11 месяцев назад

I love how supportive and patient you were with her when she was mixing stories

@lovechild872 2 месяца назад

She's still high

@youlookeasytodraw123 Месяц назад

@@lovechild872 brother

@rilezzz Месяц назад

Same sometimes when talking about trauma it’s hard to explain it clearly, she was patient because she’s not disrespectful.

@motionless_horizon Месяц назад

@@lovechild872fent can leave lasting brain damage, I doubt she’s still using, she sounds sober, but the lasting effects of such a dangerous drug can really make thinking and memory retrieval difficult. Don’t assume.

@dominiquegio4046 11 месяцев назад

This girl has lived an entire lifetime in 2 years. Her ability to self reflect is impressive. I pray she continues working her sobriety. Amazing young lady

@marshawall6603 11 месяцев назад

Grateful this young woman is healthy today, it takes so much courage to get clean. Since she is still so young and new to recovery this interview is great to look back on as she continues to mature through life 🤍 it seems like she needed this platform to share her story as part of her healing.

@SV-fp2gm 11 месяцев назад

She told her story very well, i felt so seen

@Chelle8847 10 месяцев назад

Absolutely. I love how candid and so honest, she seems very mature and aware of her mistakes and owns them, it's impressive

@karinaestrada873 11 месяцев назад

I can’t believe we are same age and our lives are so different. My heart goes out to her and I hope good comes to her.

@sarwall_ 11 месяцев назад

I was sold a fake Xanax bar about five years ago and only took half, scariest night of my life. My boyfriend (now husband) had no idea what was happening and I didn’t know what I took was fentanyl, so he was terrified stayed up all night to make sure I was still breathing. The amount of stories I know and hear now that are exactly like mine, except those people lost their lives, is astounding. Had I taken that whole bar I fully believe I’d be a number of that statistic. So sick of losing people to this poison 😪

@AyaAmena 11 месяцев назад

That is terrifying. So glad you're okay.

@sarwall_ 11 месяцев назад

@@AyaAmena thanks gf 💗 truly thank God all the time because I can’t imagine the pain I would have put my husband and family through. I’m now a little over 3 years sober with a 3 year old daughter and another on the way 🙂

@AyaAmena 11 месяцев назад

@@sarwall_ Congratulations!!!!! Your family is blessed to have you, and you them💕💕 It’ll be so exciting for your daughter to be a big sister!!

@MsNatalieeeee 11 месяцев назад

I was given a fake Xanax as well as I was having a panic attack at work from a coworker I thought I could trust. She gave me a few and it obviously took my pain away. By the time I realized what was happening and what it was, I was already months deep. I was in hell for a full year. I’ve been clean 2 and 1/2 months now. Scariest experience of my life. Also, to preface, I’ve never had any history of drug abuse, ever. We do recover and it can happen to ANYONE.

@AyaAmena 11 месяцев назад

@@MsNatalieeeee So absolutely disgusting that somebody would do that to you. I wonder if they knew it was fake. Either way, that is so awful. Can’t trust anyone :/ Glad you’re okay now.

@hiccup363 11 месяцев назад

ngl i’m 22 & a fentanyl addict currently so it was very eye opening to see another person like me speak out. Thank you thank you for sharing your story ❤

@KaitlynSimon-dn2vr 11 месяцев назад

Have you thought about getting on Suboxone it saved my life I was addicted to pain pills this was back in 2011 before fentanyl was big but a Dr told me about Suboxone and it was life changing it will make you feel normal no withdrawals.

@kelseagail_xo 11 месяцев назад

Hugs xoxo 😘

@catsinwonderland7473 11 месяцев назад

Stay safe, man 🙏

@user-st7jo6jl4b 11 месяцев назад

Keep that narcan on u girl be safe we can recover 🥰

@shaychaney5630 11 месяцев назад

Damn. My heart goes out to you. I hope you find a way out, it’s not easy but you can do it when your ready. Suboxone saved my life, maybe that could be your journey but if not, stay safe out there. ❤

@dylanrobson3802 11 месяцев назад

a friend i knew just passed from fentanyl od the other day, he was 16 as well. thank you for platforming this kind of story, it’s more important than ever to spread awareness of how dangerous it is.

@malibubarbie9098 11 месяцев назад

I lost my sister in 2020 from laced fentanyl. She was 33. Be safe out there guys. Addiction is hard, but you can get better, and do better. I have been through it myself, and got a wake up call that has forever changed my life.

@klownofkether6996 11 месяцев назад

Sophie when I tell you I was GLUED to my phone and could have listened to you for 2 more hours! I absolutely love the way you tell a story and your humor and vulnerability and frankness you share. I wish you the best of luck with everything going forward. I admire you so much!

@potchoe 11 месяцев назад

I was thinking the same thing, her way of telling her story is so raw but also so interesting - i could listen to her speak for days!

@lucysfv 8 месяцев назад

Yes!! Loved her way of sharing her story ❤

@taystowe9498 11 месяцев назад

It’s crazy to me how oblivious parents can be, and how lenient.

@saharavences6695 11 месяцев назад

Parents know they just don’t care enough

@MoxyVerve 11 месяцев назад

That also stood out to me. The severe neglect by both parents

@MACHETEMAN72 10 месяцев назад

right?? were they not concerned when their 15/16 year old daughter was regularly disappearing for DAYS at a time?

@melissamartinez3593 10 месяцев назад

Yes it’s true …

@alejandravega4060 9 месяцев назад

I think they just gave up

@Cathee45 10 месяцев назад

This hostess is amazing. The way she treats her guests is truly commendable! So respectful, attentive and kind

@allycasey6871 11 месяцев назад

I love the way Dev never makes people feel any kind of way if they mess up a story or get confused with a timeline or anything

@hayleyakins154 11 месяцев назад

my ex boyfriend was a fentanyl addict. i took it a few times. luckily i made it out alive. sadly, after we broke up he continued and gave a girl a pill that lead to her death. he’s now in prison. i haven’t touched a single drug in years. fentanyl is so scary. i hope the younger generation steers clear and this can bring awareness.

@lalaa8653 11 месяцев назад

I’m so happy for your growth Devorah. You can tell you want to protect your guests in a sense and make them comfortable and I’m so proud of this beautiful girl for talking about such hard times she’s learned a lot

@Fivestarcs 11 месяцев назад

haven’t even finished this story and it hurts how you can still see her mannerisms are still affected from her childhood which was not that long agooo 😭 so proud of you keep pushing through!

@reoxia 11 месяцев назад

33:40 she talks about the difference in the feelings fentanyl bars vs xanax bars give. she described it perfectly and the pressed bars in florida ARE mostly fentanyl: i took the same ones. she's lucky to be alive, and so am i. i'm so happy you posted this interview.

@alylopez3721 10 месяцев назад

When the kitty jumped up to comfort her 🥺💕 animals can feel the pain of our stories.

@bloojerseyy 10 месяцев назад

My parents also moved me to FL when I was 15 and it was probably the worst thing they ever did. Please don’t ever move your teenagers out of state unless it’s absolutely necessary!

@michaelthompson7217 10 месяцев назад

why? drugs?

@sarzootashoota351 10 месяцев назад

ESPECIALLY to Florida.

@sarzootashoota351 10 месяцев назад

@@michaelthompson7217it completely destroys their friendships and social groups that they've created and essentially starts them over back at rank zero in the hierarchy of kids at their new school. It destroys any healthy relationships they may have and it will stunt their emotional growth and probably lead to them being isolated more than they would like.

@DrayLoco 10 месяцев назад

Probably because being uprooted when you're trying to make friends and figure out life is traumatic and really tough@@michaelthompson7217

@britnysorenson8604 9 месяцев назад

It depends! I was miserable and moving out of state in high school was seriously the best thing that ever happened to me

@alucamon 11 месяцев назад

one of the girls in the year below me in high school died from a fent OD when i was in high school. it was mixed in with the xanax she'd picked up and ended up overdosing and dying within the next few days. she was 16 and had a twin sister. the kid who sold it to her had also sold it to another kid who also died; he ended up taking his own life a few years ago. glad this girl is still here and didn't suffer the same fate as a lot of addicts do. she has her whole life ahead of her :)

@barbrothers2 11 месяцев назад

When you die of an OD, it's usually pretty much instant.. you dont just die a few days later unless they're keeping you on life support but you're already basically dead anyway. at least brain dead. i've OD'd a few times, if I didn't get narcanned I would've died then and there. Not days later

@heavenleebiersack6743 11 месяцев назад

god that is heartbreaking. i hope the families of these poor kids are doing well.

@Isa-vl6qr 10 месяцев назад

tragedy after tragedy, damn.

@b3blsn 11 месяцев назад

I’m also a bipolar person that was misdiagnosed with depression. What she said was very real for me too, taking antidepressants fucked with my brain. Made me feel extremely anxious, then extremely depressed, then manic… Then when I finally went on mood stabilizers my life changed so much for the better! Bipolar can be very difficult to diagnose and so many of us are misdiagnosed at first. It’s also very common for people with bipolar to start doubting they’re actually bipolar after starting mood stabilizers. So they stop taking it. Sometimes I get those thoughts too. “I feel so normal, there’s no way I need this medication” when the medication is exactly what is giving you stability and normalcy. It’s difficult but I wish everyone reading this to be properly diagnosed and able to take care of themselves

@kristinicole2055 11 месяцев назад

😔 Dealing with a close friend who is going through an active fent addiction. It’s really sad. So happy to see this girl recovered. Really appreciate her story and insight.

@user-st7jo6jl4b 11 месяцев назад

Be there for your friend. Its so rough going through this

@kirbysthiccthighs 11 месяцев назад

I hope your friend is able to recover/get clean. While it’s important to do your best for them, remember that your health is just as important- and if you need to take a step back and establish a. boundary where you won’t be in their life until they’re clean, that’s understandable and valid. in fact, sometimes that’s the rude awakening that people need to realize the extent of their addiction.

@gmc5618 9 месяцев назад

Hey lovely, I'm a former addict (sober for 2 years nearly) and your friend is so fortunate to have you. Sending so much love to you both ❤

@aiyanaloves4721 11 месяцев назад

I am 16 and a year clean from meth, I had a friend pass away from a fentanyl overdose last year around October, most of the reason why I stopped was her death, I’d done meth with her and other drugs too, I loved her and her passing really messed with me and still does, but her passing pushed me to stay clean and I get sick when I smell drugs, I’m not proud of it but I’m glad I was able to stop I just wish it didn’t take me losing one of the closest people to me. Stay safe guys. And please genuinely do not take weed from random people. That’s how it starts .

@lunas9655 10 месяцев назад

❤

@sofsings101 10 месяцев назад

Sending you strength. You're worth so much more than that drug.

@squtnik 2 месяца назад

u are so strong

@samantha-pp1ik 11 месяцев назад

hey girl, i heard ur story and wow. i am really taken aback by how horrible those investigators were to u when u reported the assault. i truly, genuinely wish u healing, recovery and peace after having to deal with this event. and i believe u girl. and none of that was ur fault. thank u for sharing ur story with all of us. good luck on ur journey, i wish u the best.

@surprised376 11 месяцев назад

this guest was so fun to listen to, i love her humor! happy that she is sober, i hope she can keep it up, she seems like a lovely woman. i only wish the best for her

@autumnmatthew3185 10 месяцев назад

It’s sad how abuse and mental illness and drug addiction so quickly leads to sexual abuse at the hands of men who have these drugs. Speaking from experience as a fellow bipolar now in treatment. I really felt like I was the one winning in those situations, but I see now I was being taken advantage of by creepy older men. Years later they still try to contact me.

@hannamosinske 11 месяцев назад

I gotta say, this has been my favorite episode yet. Sophie Lou, you’ve been through so much in 19 years. I’m happy you’re still here to tell your story❤️

@diannh2894 10 месяцев назад

I swear there needs to be better statistics on sex abuse and drug addiction. Almost everyone I know that's been molested has turned to drugs. including myself. This channel is so important.

@lmr31721 2 месяца назад

Yup 100%

@sailorvenus1998 Месяц назад

definitely!!!

@kettleeeee 11 месяцев назад

my older brother passed from a fent od and it was so hard to come to terms with the fact that i’ll never see him in person again but everyday i see reminders of him ❤ thank you so much for spreading awareness about all this as it’s not very spoken out about

@Itshollymoon 11 месяцев назад

Her life sounds so much like mine. She’s so articulate for her age, I had forgotten that I was her a few years ago. I’m glad she is where she is today. That takes so much strength.

@katiecupkate0800 11 месяцев назад

I’ve never touched any sort of illicit drug, nor marijuana or even a cigarette. This is wild to me. Listening to stories like these makes me feel like I’m living in a completely different world.

@lunas9655 10 месяцев назад

must be nice😂😂😂

@hwoods-kg1jf 10 месяцев назад

You're lucky because living life with addiction/alcoholism is A LIVING H3LL!!! I'm in recovery these days but I spent 25 + years of my life struggling with addiction/alcoholism and it has NOT been an easy road. I'm 40 now and my health is in the toilet from a life of addiction/alcoholism :( You're very blessed to not know this kind of life! Keep it that way!

@p__kingg 10 месяцев назад

You're lucky you don't have that BUG. They think it's as a easy as just saying NO.. na it's a whole disease. If you got that tick that'll make you do WHAT ADDICTS DO... just to get their fix. You know it's definitely not a choice you have in it. I always tell ppl... that if they take an opiate and it makes them feel sick and dizzy to just throw them away and never touch em again... cuz it's a chance that one day it won't feel like that and it might change your life forever ... Congratulations to all of y'all who get loaded and hate it tho.. my life would be so much better had I had that

@alexb3286 11 месяцев назад

I’m a recovered addict and alcoholic. I’ve done what I knew was fentanyl/heroin and I’ve done many pressed Xanax. I can tell you from experience what she’s describing doesn’t sound like fentanyl to me but a research chemical benzodiazepine such as flualprazolam or clonazolam. These are much more potent than regular prescription Xanax which is just alprazolam they induce a much more tired response and more memory loss/black outs. I’ve lost multiple months on them. Everyone’s experience to substances is different, but if it were fentanyl she would have overdosed at least once.

@barbrothers2 11 месяцев назад

i agree, the fact that she didnt mention withdrawal and NEEDING the drug or being sick is a big indicator of this.

@ASoggyShoe 11 месяцев назад

I've watched all of dopesick Nation and soft white underbelly interviews. I also thought it odd that she didn't mention withdrawal

@haleyg6273 10 месяцев назад

Was thinking the same thing.

@jbuuuggg 10 месяцев назад

I haven’t finished the episode so forgive me if I’m wrong but if she went to a treatment center/rehab they will prescribe you medication for the detox / withdrawal process so that you do not experience symptoms, and if you do experience symptoms they are very mild to the point you don’t even realize they’re from detoxing. Also, she wouldn’t necessarily overdose at least once from doing fentanyl. I personally know a daily user that has since gotten clean and never did OD, it’s rare but it’s possible that this girl never did OD. It’s crazy the tolerance that can be built up.

@chaigirlfriend 10 месяцев назад

This was my favorite episode so far. I just cried and cried for her. The way she speaks and retells things I relate to a lot and I’m so proud of her for getting better and achieving things she never even had the mindset to achieve , like being a tattoo artist. That’s my aspiration in life and seeing another 19 year old say she’s stable and doing good for herself and having such a cool job ( even if she’s just an apprentice rn ) really opened my eyes to like… wow she’s genuinely inspirational

@barbaranaiman9783 11 месяцев назад

Sophie did a good job on letting people know what this drug is capable of doing to you. It’s such a cheap but deadly drug. Devorah your podcasts are the best you bring awareness to everything that’s going on right now with every day people keep it up. Your helping so many people great great job❤️👌👍

@kpmsmiling 10 месяцев назад

Sophie, thank you for being so vulnerable. What once were your secrets is now your story, and sharing your story WILL change lives. Recovery looks amazing on you. So glad you’re still here and changing the world by not living in the dark anymore.

@jessicaspangler2822 9 месяцев назад

As a woman in recovery… her terminology and vibe doesn’t seem clean and sober. She’s very much in active addiction. This is nothing but her reliving her war stories and almost bragging about it. I’ve been there. She still thinks it’s cool.

@onuspromis7166 9 месяцев назад

I though the same while listening to her, hope she is okay tho

@rhylie5225 8 месяцев назад

wow

@Halfstep2024 8 месяцев назад

I was wondering if I was the only one thinking that. Big “Jessica Kent” vibes from her.

@haleyrenae8404 7 месяцев назад

My thoughts as well. The way I was acting very early on, before I knew I wanted to stay sober.

@paolavillarroel7597 5 месяцев назад

i mean she’s also a teenager

@NaSyMo 11 месяцев назад

My heart sank as she goes into her story. Thank you for telling your truth and sharing your journey. ❤

@annatyra671 11 месяцев назад

Wow, this one was heavy. We live in such an evil fucked up, preditorial world. I feel for you, young lady, those things should have never happened to you. I wish you healing and great success moving forward. Remember, you are worth a life of respect and love. Don't ever let anyone take that away from you again.

@havenprizmich9217 11 месяцев назад

Trips me out how substances effect each person so differently. She has bipolar 2 and only fws downers, I have ocd and prefer uppers. Life is crazy🤷🏼‍♀️

@sarwall_ 11 месяцев назад

Weirdly enough I only did downers for the majority of my life bc it calmed my brain and I assumed uppers would just make it worse and had a couple bad E experiences so I refused uppers for about ten years. Fast forward to last year I was diagnosed with ADHD, prescribed meds, and swear to god that craving for downers to cope with any and every situation quite literally went away.

@mylastbraincell2533 11 месяцев назад

Same I could never get into downers

@SV-fp2gm 11 месяцев назад

Just came across this channel, watching this entire video got me hooked and im ready to binge your channel, thank you for spreading awareness, also sharing your story, listening to others and reminding us all we are human and we have all been there or love someone who is there/gone/or been there 😢❤ love love love wishing for the best for all of us

@Kailey44 10 месяцев назад

I lost my best friend to a fentanyl overdose in 2021, she was only 18 years old. She had dreams and and plans for her future.. she wasn’t her happiest hints why she was taking drugs but I know deep down she didn’t want to die she just wanted to get by everyday without experiencing pain. Her name is Tessa and she was my best friend since we were in 5th grade, I hate drugs.

@SV-fp2gm 11 месяцев назад

I love how she was just so comfortanble to be herself around you be honest even through all the trauma, what a strong beautiful young woman sending all healing vibes ❤

@nyssaangel8828 11 месяцев назад

I just learned from this video that men fish for recovering drug addicted women… she got offered from a few men in treatment money and an “escape” that’s fucked up! Be aware of your surroundings always! The world is filled with scams.

@wildchild69 11 месяцев назад

I SCREAMED when I saw the notification LMAO i love your podcast so much, it makes me want to share my stories

@prettypatties5170 11 месяцев назад

ur genuinely such a great interviewer I can always tell how engaged you are

@LaFemmFatal 11 месяцев назад

I’m humbled by this channel 💕

@DodongoManoof 11 месяцев назад

This is such a devastating story. I am so sr this happened to you. You are very strong and brave to be speaking about what you went through now. Keep up your sobriety and awesome work!!!!!

@addictions2hauls 11 месяцев назад

My friend passed away on an accidental od from fentanyl almost a year ago. This shit gets real so fast. Thank you for sharing your story 💗

@mirianserrano824 8 месяцев назад

I may be wrong, and please forgive me if I am, but I really feel like this poor girl was not sober during this interview. I really hope she's getting the proper treatment she needs. Fentanyl has become such a huge drug issue and I know we all have a close friend, family member or a friend who knew somebody who OD on fentanyl. It is so sad and heartbreaking to see so many young people lost to a false promise...

@sailorscorpio27 11 месяцев назад

So young and such a crazy tale! Glad to see she's carving her path forward; it's not easy but it IS doable. Dev, you were so nurturing and kind to your guest in this video and provided her with valuable feedback. I was addicted to xans too but thank god I never touched the pressed pills. She's blessed to be alive. My fav podcast.

@daisjaencinas1508 10 месяцев назад

I stand by the fact that this podcast is soo underrated

@breebree6736 10 месяцев назад

Omg, what an impactful story. Loved this episode and i hope this young woman prospers going forward. I’m rooting for her!!

@daynashannon9679 11 месяцев назад

Brave young woman to share her story. I pray her road to sobriety continues and that she finds people with her best interest at heart to help her stay on the right pathway to happiness and success.

@legostripclub 11 месяцев назад

my brothers close friend died of fentanyl and it affected so many people around them so negatively. thank you for shedding light on this!

@Metroid250 11 месяцев назад

I'm so happy for the people who've overcome their experiences and give a big hug to the people current struggling. I may not have the same experience or addiction (more of an alcohol kind of addiction for me), but I greatly sympathise with that feeling of not being able to quit and feeling like of either dying with this curse or try to quit alive

@kaylad729 11 месяцев назад

she’s so beautiful, smart, and funny i hope she heals from all the trauma she’s been through ❤ i do worry that she’s still drinking-but also her sobriety and how it works for her is none of my business, so get ya life girl happy for her :)

@elliott9892 10 месяцев назад

I hope this young lady reads this- This advice is coming from someone who spent 16 years shooting meth/heroine spent countless years homeless and many trips to hospitals/rehabs so unfortunately I know about this lifestyle all to well. This is not coming from a place of judgement or anything of that sort so please don't take it that way it's just advice after hearing your story and from my own experience.. You say that you're still drinking and smoking weed just not doing the hard drugs but if you listen to your own story a lot of the nightmares that have happened in your life came from drinking and listen I 100% understand how hard it is to grasp the fact that you are so young and you just don't want to spend the rest of your life not being able to have some sort of vice but in the same breathe the fact that you are so young and you have been through as much as you've gone through just shows that drinking might not be the right vice for you. I just don't want you to have to go through anything else like what you have been through. In my experience when i tried to quit the harder drugs and just tried drinking it always eventually lead me back to my drugs of choice in one way or the other. If you could put this lifestyle behind you at your age then it would be such a small small part of your story but it can also be the majority of your story like it became mine. Please just seriously think about if drinking actually brings that much good into your life and if its worth it period that's all im saying

@VeronicaStJohn-pm2pe 2 месяца назад

Came to say this. ❤

@cschweitzy 11 месяцев назад

I def was a part of the “Xanademic” in 2015-2016 and I don’t remember most of that time in my life. I was 16-17… I am happy I am alive.

@vintagejunktofunk4616 10 месяцев назад

You were great at listening when she was struggling getting the words out. I’m happy she’s healthy now You’re doing a good thing letting these people tell their stories

@ritacita 11 месяцев назад

the kitty feeling the vibes and going to the table to confort the guest

@andylombardo2936 11 месяцев назад

Siento una gran admiracion por Devorah. Siempre logra que sus invitados se sientan protegidos, cómodos y seguros. Logro crear un ambiente libre de prejuicios en el que cada uno de sus invitados, valga la redundancia, pueden compartir sus experiencias junto con una maravillosa anfitriona que esta dispuesta a escuchar de manera activa y empática. Saludos desde Argentina ❤️

@lnode-ln5gq 11 месяцев назад

One of the most intelligent, structured, and actually aware guests ive seen in a long time on your channel. She's incredibly articulate while also giving adequate relatability to the audience. not to mention fantastic storyteller, I think she good be a one of a kind author and storyteller.

@madisondicaprio7792 10 месяцев назад

I’m so glad to hear this story, mine is very very similar. Same age, same drugs, same situations. It feels good to not be alone and know that it can get better.

@Yesssiiii 11 месяцев назад

They given me fentanyl at the hospital for pain during birth, I had asked for the epidural and when the anesthesiologist came in the women giving birth next door coded and an alarm began to sound and all the doctors and nurses rushed to her aid, I was given fentanyl instead I was in so much pain when it hit I couldn’t breathe the nurse was freaking out my boyfriend was like oh my gosh what’s going on and the nurse said “I only gave her less than what is recommended for birth I didn’t know she was going to have this reaction”. Her along with another nurse told me to breathe and calm down but it felt like I couldn’t breathe, once that feeling went away I was out cold, an hour or two later I was finally given epidural and I was so drugged up during my sons birth it felt like I disassociated when he finally came out I was so hazy everything felt like a dream, I ended up getting a high fever that night and staying 4 nights at the hospital it was a horrible feeling I felt like that moment was stolen from me :(

@Eplovesjesus 11 месяцев назад

I pray that she continues to be sober! It’s so scary because with fentanyl, someone relapsing can very well be their death sentence. She seems like a sweet girl. I hope she gets to know Jesus. He is who has kept me sober 🙏🏼

@texvirgo9847 10 месяцев назад

Same❤️ Jesus is everything

@niystar 11 месяцев назад

it makes me so sad that they didn’t believe her about the r- thing. and the fact they made her write the letter even tho it wasnt consensual. 🙁

@MariaGonzalez-mt3px 11 месяцев назад

If she's on mood stabilizers she should NOT smoke nor drink. she can go psychotic anytime. I'm surprised she never mentioned any withdrawal symptoms considering she was a hardcore user... the fact that her mom "suddenly" moved when her daughter was stuggling like this is shocking. I have a feeling some parts are a bit exaggerated or untrue (which I'm glad about, addiction is hell), but overall I think she's still young and been "sober" for too little to come to any significant conclusions yet. If she continues taking care of herself she's gonna realize certain things and do great! I'm also glad she narrated her experience with (some) men. addiction is way riskier for women and they know you're vulnerable. the worst part is realizing what actually happened way later when you're sober and thinking clearly, which can become a setback in your journey. more girls need to hear this because it DOES happen, way more often than we think. just like she said one moment you think you're powerful, the next you're unable to control anything that's going on. when i came to terms with it and told a friend she was like no way it happened to me too but I knew people were gonna say "you looked for it, why were you wearing that, why were you blackout drunk". finding people who went through the same stuff and have a positive outlook is KEY. she's so right about not hating men in general but being rationally cautious. it can quite literally save your life. it's sad but it's the only way, at least for now.

@elizabethfish5593 11 месяцев назад

I want to start by saying that I really went back and forth about even commenting because I don't want to discredit someone's story. However, I felt the same way at the lack of mentioning withdrawal or being dope sick even a single time. That is an incredibly real and relevant part of addiction and if she was truly addicted to the point she is saying she is, that would absolutely be part of the story. Also she never talked about how she got money for all of the insane amounts of substances she said she was doing. I got sober 9 years ago and it probably wasn't until like year 5 that I felt like I had even the slightest handle on things. I really hope she stays sober and matures a bit. She has a lot to learn and is really young but seems like she has a decent enough head on her shoulders.

@FrauStormm 11 месяцев назад

Yes she is extremely fresh in recovery and has a long way to go and I’m glad she’s doing therapy, I just hope she has a good support system and stable friends to surround herself with.

@Velvetvixen22 11 месяцев назад

I had a friend that would binge drink on her mood stabilizers & refused to smoke bc she was afraid of the interaction 😐 when she shouldnt have been doing either. After we stopped being friends, I would listen to true crime stories & some of them would straight up remind me of her, when the people were heavily drinking on psych meds and just snapped one day. Hope she never snapped or at least stopped drinking 😳

@barbrothers2 11 месяцев назад

I was wondering this too... I was an opiate addict for years and I could've told my whole story without much mention of withdrawal since it only lasted like 12 hours(most of which I could sleep through) before I could take a sub and be fine, but once fentanyl got into the game, withdrawal became a major part of the story. I failed to get clean multiple times due to not being able to handle 5+ days of withdrawal and relapsing. you gotta wait way longer to take subs than you do on heroin. The only way I made it through my last withdrawal and have now been clean ever since is because I was somehow able to sleep for the entirety of the first 2 days of withdrawal and had stopped IV use for a few weeks ahead of time.

@perlzlove 11 месяцев назад

i don’t think it was exaggerated.. i think it’s more so that she’s a bit nervous .. she’s only 19 so it hasn’t been that long. they should come prepared with notes on what to talk about not just wing it bc she did stray away and dev helped her get back on track. either way, very brave of her to share her story.❤

@messiahchigozie 11 месяцев назад

It’s so awkward that she is the only one laughing throughout the story 😩

@breannepiper 11 месяцев назад

This is such a wonderful podcast. I hope this woman is doing well and is on her way to becoming a tattoo shop OWNER! She should be proud of herself:)

@imdegenerate 6 месяцев назад

lost braincells watching this

@anavukusic4285 11 месяцев назад

what a beautiful soul, i wish her all the best❤️thank u for being so open and vulnerable with us

@luciaagostini 11 месяцев назад

I love devorah sm, thank you for this, especially with the crisis that’s going on ❤

@swagmanmjn 11 месяцев назад

This girl is so strong, I wish the best for her and I cannot imagine what this battle feels like. All prayers and love for her ❤

@Youngblood-zv2sg 10 месяцев назад

Lost my father to fentanyl he was 35. Glad this lady survived and got better

@bastardseed 11 месяцев назад

The moments in the podcast where you see her just spacing out and dissociating is really sad to me... Her brain will never be the same again. Fentanyl is the devil.

@cassiopeia7017 10 месяцев назад

I am only about a third through and resonate so much with your story. I have bipolar 2 and antidepressants really messed with me. My brain is fried from 10+ yrs of heavy drug and alcohol use. I am clean now but would have taken anything and everything I could get my hands on (mixing lots of substances). I feel lucky to be alive and without a criminal record considering the irresponsible shit I did. I have word finding difficulties, huge blackout periods and confusion with time/memories. Thank you for sharing as listening to your story makes me feel less alone and less ashamed of my past.

@Julia-yx9ks 11 месяцев назад

i lived in a hathaway house when i was about 3 and i remember trying to wake up my mom (we had 3 other roommates), i screamed and literally was lifting her eyelids trying to wake her up and nothing worked. now i know that it was drugs and i never want to feel that way

@carlimarinello 11 месяцев назад

Our life stories are parallel to each other. I was addicted to xanax in the same years as you on top of all the other drugs I was doing so I understand the dark hole you spiral down when you’re consuming all of those downers. Just know i’m proud of us & happy we’re both still here. ❤

@elle-says 11 месяцев назад

For those not aware of Florida law, a Baker Act is simply a involuntary admission for mental health, such as a 5150 in California. We also have a Marchman Act, which gets confused with the Baker Act, for involuntary admission for substance abuse.

@delaneyexpressionalart 11 месяцев назад

fentanyl killed my father. i put in a form, i really hope you decided to have me on to share my story.

@ruthtirado2750 23 часа назад

This girl is so entertaining. Sorry she had to go though that scene, but she certainly has a very engaging way about her! Hope she finds joy in her future!

@bitterxxx 11 месяцев назад

i think it would really help a lot of people if you did an episode with someone who struggles with POCD

@Carebearritual 5 месяцев назад

I would love a video on this but it’s probably really hard for someone to put their face out there with it

@brittanyzahn7939 11 месяцев назад

I'm so glad Sophie turned her life around! A family friend recently passed away from fentanyl laced coke. It's so sad. Again, glad Sophie is doing better and I wish her luck on her tattoo apprenticeship!

@144avs 11 месяцев назад

this episode is my favourite!! she went through SHIT all caps but her attitude wouldnt show it at all i love that for her, shes so strong!!!!

@anneko6842 10 месяцев назад

Omg I would be that friend that dragged your butt into the Uber. I have had friends in the past want to stay somewhere or whatever, and I basically forced them into the car by either being direct or waiting/talking with them until they did come. Your friend is young so I’m sure she did what she could but it’s important to never leave your friends with anybody or in any uncomfortable situation. We girls gotta look out for one another!

@micaellamcelmurry7390 11 месяцев назад

This was hard to listen to. I was addicted to cocaine for about 7 years, I surrounded myself with people who could get it for me. I ruined not only my life but made things difficult for my family as well. I moved states and have been doing really good for 2 years. I really hope she sticks to being sober from the hard stuff, she deserves to be happy.

@toadslilsis 11 месяцев назад

good for you! im glad you've been doing better

@eddiesland93 11 месяцев назад

Opiate addiction is so hard to get overcome I commend you.

@ellensimmons1738 11 месяцев назад

i was stalking and now im early. love your podcasts

@Tamsin_bear 11 месяцев назад

Brave of her to tell her story, I’m happy for her and wish her the best. She’s gone through so much at such a young age, I’m so happy she is turning her life around ❤

@indesomniac 11 месяцев назад

Bipolar is SO commonly misdiagnosed as being ADHD + depression; I know multiple people who had that struggle and tried so many different medications to various effectiveness before finally getting the right diagnosis and starting treatment for bipolar

@emily_hamrick 10 месяцев назад

this was an amazing episode.. all of my heart and my love goes out to sophie. you have come so far. amd the humor to cope is so relatable and funny

@rilakkuromi 11 месяцев назад

was just looking for a vid to do my makeup to! perfect timing cannot wait to hear their story 🤍🤍🤍

@lonewizzy 11 месяцев назад

Florida girl vibes are chaotic but comforting 💖 (Genuinely, she looks so happy)

@jluxbeaute 11 месяцев назад

100%

@-D3aD_Kl_t3n-356 9 месяцев назад

im only a year younger than her im 18, my heart goes out to anyone around my age struggling. I grew up in north jersey, hearing her past made me resonate with her. Im glad she is doing better, I hope she lives the rest of her life to the fullest.

@MoraiBear Месяц назад

Sophie you are amazeballs! I could listen to you all day long! You’re self reflection is deep and honestly kinda beautiful ❤

@carly1954 10 месяцев назад

wow i loved this guest she’s so bubbly and positive i found it very relatable listening to her good job!!

@elscheib 9 месяцев назад

I'm not really understanding how her parents were just going on about their lives and had no idea what was going on. Did they not see her, talk to her, take care of her, check into her school progress AT ALL? I would never have gotten away with any of that with my parents. I have a preteen son and he never will either. Seriously, what the fuck were the parents doing?