Advice For Artists Who Are Too Hard On Themselves 

MAn, this was emotional as hell, how was I supposed to draw thru the tears??? Seriously tho, my therapist says to me the same things, being kind and compassionate to ourselves is key. I still find it very hard tho. Thank you for sharing, this was amazingly interesting and a great talk.

When you said "art isn't something you're going to master" I felt a wall inside my mind break. Thank you for that, I can't count how many times I had said to myself "no, not yet, it isn't good enough, it's not perfect"

No sage at all. More like a caring father conversation that I rarely experienced before, thank you

Hi Adam, I hope you like this quote, some of my friends mistreat themselves a lot and I always tell them In a funny way: "Do not mistreat yourself, because the person you are mistreating is my friend". Thanks for the video, have a nice day.

“There’s not a goddamn thing wrong with you. Stop that.” Thank you for the reminders, kind human.

your friend's words hit me like a bullet holy shit had to pause for a cry break unironically

I leave most of my drawings unfinished because I always think that they don't look good enough and after I actually complete a drawing it doesn't take long until all I see in that piece is only what I consider to be flaws, so when I show them to my friends and they say something positive I always tell them that they really good and other people would of made something much better. I can't really remember the last time I actually stopped and thought that what I made looked good, that probably is why I find myself drawing less nowadays. I quitted the architecture highschool I went to because I thought that I am not as creative as the others and that most of them were much better suited for this than I was but now that i think about it nobody told me this, I was the one thinking like this. This video was verry helpful, it made me open my mind.

This is probably the most valuable message I have ever heard about being an artist. Thank you.

I've been called lazy and unmotivated for many years when I was in school up until highschool because I have trouble concentrating for long periods of time and it became really hard for me to attempt or invest myself in anything because I kept running away from things that looked to difficult or time consuming and basicly killed my drive to do anything constructive up until a few months ago when I started to learn to draw. I had tried to do it a few years back but stopped when it became to hard like I did before. I realize that the self doubt and the voice in my head telling me to give up and go do something else is not my own and I've been having a hard time stopping it. I fell into addiction and depression for a long time cause I didn't know what to do and I still feel moments where I might slip back in them but learning to draw has really been a way for me to prove to myself that I'm not lazy, that I'm not unmotivated. I listen to a lot of your videos when I draw and thank you so much for them. They've really helpt me in some bad times when that voice telling me to give up was the loudest.

Thx for the video again! Reminded me of this great quote: “I am not what I think I am, and I am not what you think I am. I am what I think you think I am.” - Charles Cooley

"We spend so much of our lives being hard on ourselves and being gentle to everybody else." As an elementary school teacher and artist, I felt that statement in my very soul. Thank you. Your videos are incredible.

You're the only person to ever say these things to me and I hurts so much. I can't stop the tears

I used to mock myself how bad I am at drawing and start questioning myself why do I start picking up art rather than studying for a better life, and I'm still doing it. But thats how I really get better and better and better, and now I realize why I pick up drawing. People have different feelings for why they pick up or start drawing, but for me I do it for what we can do by drawing. I can convey a lot of feelings without speaking, with just a person standing in edge of a mountain looking a really beautiful scenery can convey thousand of feelings like love, sadness, adventurous, nostalgic, etc. I really don't know why I'm posting this, but I just really want to say it. But just remember we walk through the same pain but with a different reason. Don't hate yourself because you're bad, love yourself because you're growing.

I literally cried when you started "color dodging" me at the end...This video, It's like it was recorded for me personally. Having someone actually saying something about these clouds in my head really helps a lot. (The "fear of hurting someone" one was especially huge.) Thank you, Adam.

You really are an artistic lifesaver. The encouragement you put out is touching so many. Thank you. I don't have people that really understand making art, insecurity and the things I care about. Listening to your video's is like advice from a friend.

Adam: "I hope it didn't get too heavy today." Me: (literally crying) well, it did

"There's not a god damned thing wrong with you." "Have some compassion for yourself." "Art is something you're never going to completely master -- that's not the point." So many gosh heckin' good quotes in here... Thanks, Adam. I'm glad RU-vid pointed me here. With this quarantine, I haven't been able to see my therapist, and it's been getting rough on me mentally, but everything you've said here in this video have been topics me and my therapist have been going over. It's incredibly moving to hear it, specifically HEAR it and not just see it written on Twitter or something. And not only from another human being, but from an artist of your talent. In college, for four years, when I was just learning my fundamentals and trying to find my path, I was continually berated from multiple angles. That I was indecisive, that my interests were too broad, that a goal I may have picked or an artist I did a presentation on wasn't "good enough", and that the projects I would make for homework or for finals weren't deep enough or "too illustrative". After years of that, you can imagine how much I appreciate the story at the beginning of "they begin to think that about themselves", because it's something I struggle with almost a decade later. I'm only now starting to find the confidence to shrug that stuff off, and figure out what I want to do for -me-, rather than for my peers or for some imaginary standard of "good enough". There's still fear, of course, but I'm taking those steps. But I end a lot of my work days berating myself, or finding myself mid-painting each day suddenly hating my colors, my brushwork, my composition, anything and everything, like the nitpicky college critiques. I never thought that it might be learned from hearing it constantly from others throughout school; I just figured it was how everyone approached art if it was being told to me in an educational setting. You can't hear inside another artist's head, yeah? So it just... Never occurred to me that I was being disgusting to myself. That that isn't necessarily normal. So thank you. Sincerely. Thank you. I know this maybe doesn't need to be said in a comment this ramble-y, especially maybe not in a RU-vid setting, but I wanted to add myself to the pile of comments saying thank you. I have a lot to think about thanks to you. And I will try to be more compassionate to myself. And to this painting I better get back to. Keep up the great work; I'll be keeping an eye out for more videos~ Cheers.

sit with those negative feelings, dont fight them when they come up - but dont join in those feelings fighting you either. just sit with them, let them pass you by, like waves of the ocean, take some deep breaths. you're safe, you're okay. let them fade out peacefully

First of all love the concept, beautiful painting. Secondly, really appreciate the converstation this highlights. I've been told I'm my own worst enemy and it seems there's always a version of myself present, tearing me down on the daily and humiliating the simpliest of interations. I was told quite often as a child I was stupid and now I'm afraid to ask questions, I hope someday I stop doubting myself in a cruel way. Anyway thanks for the great video.

Hits home like a truck. But i'm glad i heard it.

"have some compassion for yourself" I will, I'll try

Thank You. I always find myself constructing szenarios in my head that tell their own stories and become so autonomous that I sometimes end up infuriated over an illusion. It feels too real. Creative people need discipline over their mental state. And because the current global mindset is in opposition with most creative mindsets, we need more willpower to walk against the stream. Don't read news. Don't lose yourself in "smart"phones. Don't overstimulate yourself with too much artistic options. Make peace within yourself and let it flow.

You help so much and completely see everything for what it is. Im autistic recently diagnosed ( I guess why Iv missed so many opportunities throughout my life) and I can tell you dealing with simple things is hard at the best of times but art calms me down but knowing to achieve things in a chaotic world seems a mind field. And finally now years later I realised what I want to do I feel Im having to catch up. But your calming words are so amazing.

12 rules for life: an antidote to chaos, Jordan Peterson, rule 2. “Treat yourself like someone you are responsible for helping”

I'm not an artist but a writer and I can say I agree with you. So thank you for sharing your thoughts. I will share this video on the internet and try to help others as well.

To quote South Park; "I'm not your friend, buddy." Hell I started getting annoyed by all the compliments and nice things you were telling us, your viewers. If that isn't an example of being hard on yourself, then I don't know what is. Rationalizing self-insults and not knowing how to take compliments or give myself compliments is something so many need to work on. How hard is it for some people including myself to just say, "thank you" after receiving a compliment. Well, thank you Adam, thank me for listening :P

I needed this, so so much. Being to hard on myself is something that plagues my life every day, and it causes me so much stress. And more importantly, it seems to materialize the more I do it. I notice that when I don't over criticize myself, I actually function better,more often, and for longer periods of time, than if I were to just keep hating on myself. Thank You so so much Adam, this is wake up call for me

I acknowledge that I'm hard on myself and I know that I do it only out of a desire to improve, but I have a hard time separating my criticism from the value of my art. I know I'm not actually a horrible artist, and I know that I can create pieces that look decent. I just can't stop devaluing my own work because of my criticisms. I feel like if I was able to see any sort of progress in the work I do that it would be so much easier to overcome the crushing disappointment I feel whenever I draw something and it doesn't immediately look decent. I've been learning how to juggle clubs recently, got em for christmas, and it's so easy to see progress that I make in that. I have a tangible measurement of how I've improved through the number of catches I can do increasing, or slowly being able to catch a second club without hitting my fingers. It's easy to see the progress. With art I just don't see improvement in my work. I still think a sketch I did years ago is just as good as any of the completely colored works I've done recently because I don't remember it being challenging. I didn't even consider being an artist at that time, I just drew it because I felt like it, and it turned out good, really good for my standards at the time. Since then my standards have gotten higher, I know the kinds of incredible art there is out there. So many incredible artists in the world and I put myself and my art to their standards because that's what I want to be able to do. If I'm going to do art as a career I HAVE to be able to do work at those difficult standards. I know that it's not reasonable to expect myself to be at those standards, and I know I shouldn't devalue my own work when it doesn't meet those standards, but I just can't seem to. I don't do it intentionally, I just can't seem to separate my current work from my goals standards. This video was very inspiring and the thought of being able to look at my work and be happy with it, see what I did and acknowledge the successes I've had, is a refreshing one. I really hope I can find a way to.

Thank you so much for helping me and others, i can’t help but imagine how great it is to be one of your students.

Never thought I would actually cry, currently going through a few things personally and I can not talk to anyone about it. But in all honesty, most people tend to think of themselves as imperfect, or just monstrous when in reality they are the opposite. You should never take yourself for granted as well, all of you have such beautiful minds and you need to know that. ;)

Hello Adam, once again when the voices in my head swirl with doubts about myself, you manage again, without fail, to silence them. Thank you.

Man, thank you for existing!♥️😔 You just tell everything that I've been feeling

You've helped me rekindle my burning desire draw again. I was always so hard on myself, blaming every inconsistencies towards my drawings for having the lack of talent. I know now that having compassion to oneself is key to living a positive life. Sure,I'll never be the next Leonardo da'vinci but that's the point, it gives me purpose to be better even if it takes 10 to 20 years I will know how much I accomplished by that point. All I want to say is thank you and that you are an inspiration to me. Keep up the good work!

I just need one person to tell me... hey your amazing... but it's impossible when the ones you care, avoids you the most.

This is exactly what I needed to hear and I imagine a lot of others do to, I admire your courage thank you 💕💜💕💜

I like to create stories. They come to me as easy as water from the sky on a rainy day. And I always think they are silly. Silly little stories a silly woman came up with. I really should stop saying those things to myself. I realized this listening to you. Thank you for speaking about things that matter most.

I recently read or hear something similar „if someone treats you as bad a you often do yourself, you would probably try to stop interacting with that person“ (sorry forgot the source). I have always struggled with self esteem, and I know that it’s practically self harming but still it’s much easier to know that actually practice this advice. Just because it’s probably for most a habit that we do a long time now.

i just went through first year uni in a very intense 9-5, 5 day a week fine art course and never in any of those days did either myself or any teacher around me say that my art or myself was talented or worth something - and there's only so many times that you can pick yourself up without even a little bit of outside influence - so just hearing you say (even though i don't know you or you dont know me) that i was talented hit me so strangely hard - thank you so much for reminding me to look after myself

I have been drawing for 8 months now and i feel so lost and confused. No matter how much i practice i am not getting better. Atleast thats how it feels. And burn out is always around the corner but i dont want to stop. However. My head keeps japping and tells me that i suck and i draw like a 8 year old. I am surrounded by people in my family that can draw. And i work hard yet i get nowhere. I hear the word talent in my head all the time. 😢

I needed to hear this. Thank you, Adam.

Laughing through the tears when he said I should color dodge myself

I really appreciate your videos, I'm a music producer and even though our industries are very different in what we create we still struggle with the same problems when it comes down to creativity. I always try to implement your ideas and way of thinking into my industrie.

man i needed this. Sobbing straight thru that whole vid while you rip completely open that can of worms inside that occasionally spews out. It was a kindness to myself to watch this fully, and i thank myself and you.

genuinely thank you for having the guts to upload this and actually speak about it on a personal level. It's spoken about a bit in some videos on youtube but they're not personal and it just feels like they're talking at you. This video genuinely hits hard in the right spot. Thank you.

well I dont draw but I program and am pretty hard on my self, and I come here just to listen and get over those feelings sometimes or make it worse. it happens

I was staring at this video for so long before I clicked it. I love your videos but all that was going through my head when I read the title of this one was: "I don't need this one, I'm not too hard on myself, I am too BENEVOLENT. I should be harder on myself so why would I click this." But it was the way that voice was getting suspiciously loud that made me click it, it made me question whether telling myself that I am TOO SOFT is part of being too harsh. . And gosh, am I grateful for clicking it. This shifted my point of view to the direction I thought I'd never look through, hell, I didn't even imagine this angle existed. What your friend told you when you said how hard it hit, let me say, it hit SO hard with me, honestly not as much about my art or art-wise actually but with literally every other aspect of my life. I'll think about this long and hard and I will try my best to use that one sentence the best I can. I also know a person who NEEDS to hear this asap and I'm going to share it right after I post this comment. This needs to be spread, you help so many people with - as you said - giving those thoughts a shape, calling them out, it's incredible. Thank you from the bottom of my heart ♥♥♥

"You're an artist. You're a creative person. So you're not only good at creating things that are beautiful, compelling, magical, emotional, evocative. You are also good at creating your own fictional phobias, your own realities. We are so good at crafting believable things out of nothing that we can do that with our own lives with such incredible precision that we end up believing it." So true! We are masters of manifestation. We literally create things from nothing. We are pure potential.

I was on a really bad mind set this past day's, feeling lost and depressed with my art. Some day's ago I received my first commission, I didn't think I did a good job, even do my commissioner was very grateful. I really was feeling like my art is dog shit. This video got recommended for me, it actually hit me really hard. I would have never thought that I was my worst transgressor, every "bad comment" of my work wasn't actually from the people that saw it, it was from my own insecurities. I really don't have self-compassion, but really hurt's how myself backstabbed my mind. Sorry for the venting Haha... andd the broken English. But yeah, it's a great video :) thank you for sharing this feelings and pieces of your mind, keep the good work. ❤

Damn I played this to start my day. Didn't expect to have tears! But we all need this so thank you.

Ten minutes in, and I'm already crying. I'm not a person who cries easily, not at all, but I am a person who struggles with what they used to be and what they feel they're not anymore. I'm also a person who has recently been feeling like shit, feeling worthless, feeling _useless_. This, in contrast, feels like reassurement, like a speech from an actual loving father who's teaching me about life. I'm not stupid. I'm not useless. I'm not dumb, weak, worse. Thank you, sir. I really needed this. Edit; as someone from, indeed, Santiago -although Santiago de Chile and not Santiago de Compostela as was probably referenced-, I can wholeheartedly confirm. I kept crying throughout this video, I loved ever second of it. Thanks once again.

Thanks for cracking open my mind, Adam! Your encouragement is impeccable.

Hey there Adam, I'm happy that you talked about this issue because it is definitely something that I personally struggle with. I'm very hard on myself at times and it drives me to deep depressions. However, I know the things that I sometimes tell myself aren't true and I need to learn to have more compassion for myself, just like your friend has counseled you to do. It's ironic that sometimes we go to great efforts to be kind to other people, and yet somehow, we are terrible to ourselves. It honestly makes no sense, but it happens. Thank you for having the bravery to talk about this. I've always enjoyed your art talks and I hope you continue doing them because they are a great inspiration to me. Keep being awesome. Much love.

That scenario you were talking about in regards to the self anger and everything perfectly describes my life situation to a T. Was hard to fight back tears because it felt like you were narrating my head.

With tears streaming down my face, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for putting out this video!!

Whenever Adam say "happy painting" it makes me smile and happy and relaxed. It makes my day. Thank you Adam.

Yes, it is wrong, but idk.. I just feel like bashing myself somewhat keeps me grounded. I don't wanna get too grandiose or delusional about things I've yet to accomplish. Also, you're right. I'm slowing myself down by trolling myself. I'll put an end to it

I struggle with my mental illness really bad, and it says so many horrible things to me. Thank you for this video. A lot. I feel like I'm being burned alive by the thought of drawing almost every day, and hearing what you've said is.. Let's say that I'm crying my eyes out right now. Thank you so much again. 😭❤

Nah, I'd rather give up. If I attempted learning to draw, I'd probably end up killing myself from the stress and pressure.

Though, being an artist, this advice goes beyond drawing and into the heart of our truest selves. Thank you for this video. I needed to hear this.

W*F man, how precisely you manage too touch my feeling as an artist.... that is too much, thank you so so much, I mean it thank you...

This hit home and I was in tears while trying to draw listening to this. Thank you for sharing, it hit home so hard, as a child I was severely emotionally abused by an aunt, and everything you said was louder than words with how it resonated, just how true it is, I have Avoidant Personality Disorder now and that mental disorder is the aspect of self-destruction, breaking yourself down on a daily basis and telling yourself you are useless and worthless. What you said gave me a perspective to look at, thank you for that. This was all beautifully spoken.

Have compassion for myself. Thank you for all my tears. You’re amazing.

Adam, its videos like this that help me with my depression. I've actually tried to hang myself but I guess the cord couldn't wrap around my neck. I guess I'll stick on this world a bit longer and I'll keep drawing.

I am a very junior artist and my negative point is always comparing myself with very top artists in the industry, and seeing the things I do that are not up to par. It depends on the moment, I use this to motivate myself but many other times it is not like that, and I sink a lot thinking that I am not going to be better or as good as them. It's a shame to have to think like this, this path is very complicated (mentally speaking, for many too)

I just woke up from a dream where I was back in school and we were supposed to work on an art project. And I was one of the people pushed off to the side by the teacher meaning I wasn't allowed to participate. I know this sounds like a stupid dream but I woke up thinking "even in my dreams I'm not good enough." So I really needed this, thank you.

when your own grade school teachers tell you your stupid...it resonates in your head for decades after... and it's very difficult to believe otherwise.

I was having doubts and struggling to overcome this and draw for a long time now and you got me in a moment where I'm trying to rethink stuff and have a different perspective, I think this conversation is what I was looking for, thanks dude!

I know that the solution is inside of me. There isn't magic button in this world. But it's hard and it's hurt. So I listen this as a morning routine. A moment of piece during my breakfast. Thank you.

This is such an important topic, and one that the harsh mind will rarely think of on its own, at least when you're a teenager/young adult and busy with work on top of drawing. So thanks for putting it up on the spotlit pedestal it ought to be on. Also cheers for listening to the viewers regarding audio sound, this is much better (at least for my speakers).

We get good at whatever we do/think (repetition). If someone thinks that they are insecure and they repeat that (in their head)for days, weeks,months and years they will eventually become that person because the brain will accept that feeling as part of the person (personality)

Everytime I feel down or depressed or unmotivated as an Artist.... I always come back to this video...and it helps me a lot thanks!

I think there is something wrong with my brain.... everytime anyone gives me any kind of positive words I just want to hide from them....

Adam, I have to confess that I owe you a huge thank you after listening to this video. In the past I enjoyed creating stories much more, feeling freedom in jumping from one story to another when I couldn't come up anything for story I was working on. This enjoyment eventually decayed away, when my ex-friend came into picture. She basically sneaked her way into one of my stories by making fan fiction from world I had once built with quite a lot of open options still being there. My mistake was to let her in to co-operate one part of it. To continue with the mirror analogy: over the years she lifted this mirror where I could see how horrible person I was for not giving her enough information, so we could continue making the plans on the story. Something behind my back of my head was nagging me badly about the way I was basically bombarded with questions, which sometimes had no relevance to our stories. All these "what if" and "What would character X think/say/do" eventually began to consume me to the point when my mind just stopped functioning about stories, and I blamed it on art block at first, since I had nothing else to point my finger at. And she kept the mirror up to remind me how I was just horrible person, going as far as telling me that I wasn't a creator, just consumer when I was searching ways to remedy my creativity back to what it was. Never before I had felt like dying so badly, but thankfully my boyfriend kept me away from harming myself further. Even after we broke our friendship, I couldn't see anything else beside how horrible I was to not come up with much more to stories we were working on. Today you broke that mirror into pieces and gave me a much better mirror to reflect myself from, allowing me to actually stop being so harsh and cruel to myself. I know it probably isn't much to you, Adam, but I am very grateful that you are making these videos. I thank you a lot for this.

One of the most profound messages I've heard. I'm going to re-watch and chew over this for a VERY long time. You definitely cut right through the shit we are thinking and spill it all out onto the table!

Well dang I did not think a description of my inner self would be up on youtube.

I like to think of myself as being a bit tough on the mental side but this resonnated with me so much and I can't even believe how much I needed to hear this. Thank you

Thank you so much for this. I came across this video just when I needed it the most. Again, thank you very much.

I had many opportunities and advice from hundreds of different people on looking after myself, and I ruined it all. Improvement is no longer appealing to me. And that's just it, isn't it? I wrecked my entire life, and I'm all too aware of it, as well as everything that went wrong and what I didn't do to make myself better despite all the knowledge I had. There's nothing good about this life anymore. I've proven myself time and time again that I am worthless, and every time I hear myself say that, I know that my potential is diminishing as well, more of my life wasted to this neuroticism that I will never get back. When I improve myself, I only think about everyone who worked hard to transform their mindset at a younger age, and to a better degree. Why shouldn't I just end it? Everybody talks about how you utilize these techniques and habits to avoid getting to a state of regret, but I'm already there now. There's no way out that doesn't remind me of the crippled potential I have as a young artist. I don't even have a good grasp on reality, barely engaging with it and choosing to live in a dream instead. I cannot be that calm, intelligent, diplomatic person that I want to be, and I never will, because I say so. And these words are final once said. Everybody would just laugh if I immediately contradicted it. Improvement just attracts ridicule when it's applied to me. I do not finish my art. I've stalled my career by not getting in the flow of commissions despite it being in my mind for over three years. The anatomy, value and color of my subjects are at a beginner's level despite being an artist for several years. I will not forgive myself for this gaping void left in my young years from self punishment and neglect. I have not earned the right because I did not develop myself through my art properly. I abandoned it. Let it end.

Wish I had more of your content in my feed than the Tate/PUA stuff. Heart to heart, artist to artist conversations

thanks you're such a nice teacher and i will always keep those words in my mind...damn i really felt that im no bad

youre like the dad figure i never had and still dont have aha, thank you so much for this

Shout out to anybody out there with judgmental or parents with anger issues. You're not alone. Get yourself some stability and gtfo, you can do it!

Its nice to have words of wisdom, love and compassion around, thank you Adam. God Bless you

i knew water was increasing on my eyelashes and I started to blink. Art is an abyss with lanterns.

It was more your mood to draw me in and I got more than I want!!! Thanks man!!!!!!

So I'm watching it on headphones while doing other stuff, and suddenly there's just rain. everything I see is blurry and wet. what kind of sorcery is this?! *sniff

Ive been drawing for 24 years, no one really knows of me as an artist in the world and people ask me "why do you keep drawing?" Because i didnt give up of my goals in life. I disnt let creativity end when i was young. I keep creating.

This was beautiful. Thank you for sharing

I really want to say something more but I'm somewhat left speechless, the pain I feel everyday but push it down just to put up a happy face around others and the force I put on myself to finish work when I've lost the motive to do simple things a while ago I'm so tired, I deep down always wanted to hear someone point out how hard I worked and how I should take it a bit easier on myself even if I most likely never will, just the thought brings me a small amount of comfort

All of this is quite moving, and I have been trying to practice it thoughourly myself - but for some reason the biggest thing to hit me was the off-hand comment of "creating synapses that don't exist." Like, I kinda knew that on some level, but I never processed it? Artists are literally creating memories, concepts, things - out of nothing. No matter how it may end up looking on paper, or how you feel about it, you're making something that would *never exist* if you didn't put the work in to make it. That's bloody incredible!

Woah, this video just helped me learn a life lesson that applies to so much more than just art. Thx Adam 😁

this was in my recommended... youtube u tryna tell me something?

I don't understand RU-vid algorithm, but I'm glad that it recommended me this video. A few days ago, I had to do a presentation about my art progress for a class. I practiced doing my presentation and didn't find anything off. But, when I presented in front of the class, the first thing my professor told me after I finished was that I should give myself more credit. Most of the words I use to describe myself as an artist were negative. I didn't notice how much I used self-degrading words like dumb, stupid, and unsatisfied in my presentation. I guess I used it too often that it feels normal. Thank you so so much for this video. I needed to hear it as words to realize how much of a big deal this is, especially for my mental health :)

Thank you, sir. Thank you. I stopped drawing for a few years, went into depression wormhole, overcame it, tried drawing again, got depressed and self doubt all over again. Art is the absolute best and worst thing ever in my life. Sometimes I ask myself if I didn't come to know the wonder of art, would I be this devastating? But in the end of the day, after all the crying, it is art that save me from itself over over. It's like a bless and a curse at the same time. But I guess that's just life. I just have to live with it.

I'm so glad I clicked on this video...

I found this channel by accident. I dont draw much just casualy. And i found this chilling my violin teacher after 1 month of knowing me told me: "you are to hard with youself, if you dont allow yourself to make mistakes you wont grow or experiment" . This Is hard to swallow. Myself I Said once "the mind Is mirror maze, every gift become his oposite somewere, if you are insecure probably also humble , good selfsteem keep the ego in check. ". I didnt think that a perfeccionist could be cruel with herself, a creative build the better maze of ideas . Tnks alot your soul Shine trought this drop of virtual wisdom on the lake. You Will be a awesome dad

I was trying to listen to this at work but i couldn't. It brought tears to my eyes and had to stop or I would have broke down right there. Well watched it at home and man I do all of these things. I beat myself up all the time. I've always done it. 2 years ago I completed a game art school. I started this when I was 31. I graduated cum laude. At that time I was pretty damn proud although I could have been more proud because it took me 5 years instead of 4 so I was beating myself up about that. There were people better than me and with higher grades and I was beating myself up about that. Now I think yeah it wasn't that special everybody could have done it. Even though most people don't start another education at 31 and graduate cum laude. I now work as a digital compositor at a post production studio not as a game artist so I beat myself up about that. It really has to stop. This video hit home hard. Thanks Adam.

This video is such a work of art. I wish more youtubers would exist that spoke so deep about this. THIS is something I REALLY, sincerely, needed to hear. I can't believe someone put it in words. This is amazing and thank you so much for posting.

Adam made me cry two times so far, with two different videos. His voice is so gentle and he sounds like a dad I always needed to tell me those kind of things. I'm so grateful for finding your channel.

"am I someone who likes to make dolls at home" I, who was watching this video while taking a short break from a weekend of making art dolls at home as part of my art school thesis project, actually did a double-take. Was not expecting that to be mentioned!