17:12 SHE FORE SHADOWS PORTALS OMG. SHE SAYS "Katarina in the womb for 9 months just to birth me" her mom was gonna name her Katarina because it means light, but when melanie was born she changed it to melanie because it means dark. It's crazy how much foreshadowing of portals there is in all of her songs. Katarina is probably the name of the fae we see in portals
This is all the lyrics for all the songs Notebook Write this down, baby I'm not physically fulfilled You've never held it down all night And you're selfish 'cause you always think your ass is always right And you never see the lesson when it's right in front your eyes Are you writing this shit down? 'Cause baby boy I think it's time Time you learned a thing or two 'Bout how to keep a girl like me with you Time you learned how to switch it up I'm tired of riding till you, just give up 'Cause I didn't sign up for this Acting like your times more valuable When I sacrificed blood for you I sacrificed blood Write this shit in your notebook, baby Since you never wrote love letters to me, to me Don't forget all the things I've taught you You'll need it for someone who isn't me, ain't me What's the point in your I love you's When they don't hold any weight? You touch your computer much more Than you have ever touched me Every night you come back home then you just go right to sleep Laying next to just a friend who occasionally fucks me Time you know just how I feel Since you threw me away forever Time you start growing up Age is nothing if you're not evolved Cause I didn't have time for this But I still gave you my all I sacrificed blood for you I sacrificed blood Write this shit in your notebook, baby Since you never wrote love letters to me, to me Don't forget all the things I've taught you You'll need it for someone who isn't me, ain't me Test Me Ha, ha! Wooh! Hey God I'll be the jester, entertain ya to the best of My ability when I suffer, no fragility when I enter Came here for a reason ah ah So stop complaining All have off seasons ah ah It's not just a joke or a lesson to live through Every which way and second is a breakthrough I'm mortal (ah ah ah) Defected by this form (ah ah ah) So I'd rather be tested by goddesses Resting their heads up on Pillows of all they have learned I'm not to be forgotten Drop your books when I walk in Magic talks without talking I make the most before the coffin Born to be desiring ah ah Gotta learn yeah Eyes are always on the next goal But space isn't there to always be filled up It's the quiet, the downtime to breathe in my lungs Cause I'm mortal (ah ah ah) Defected by this form (ah ah ah) So I beg to be tested by goddesses Resting their heads up on pillows Of all they've learned Cause I'm mortal (ah ah ah) Test me I'm mortal And I beg to be tested by goddesses Resting their heads up on pillows Of all they've learned Cause I'm mortal (ah ah ah) Defected by this form And I beg to be tested by goddesses Resting their heads up on pillows Of all they've learned Cause I'm mortal (ah ah ah) (Give me an A+ if I'm doing this thing right) Defected by this form And I'd rather be tested by goddesses Resting their heads up on pillows Of all they have learned Brain and Heart Help me when I'm at a loss for words Bring up all my memories folder please in the temporal lobe False lovin' when I was illogical Didn't know they held each other's hand cause they made one whole Brain stem yells temperature Arise now, sweat raindrops down my silky flesh Buttering up my consciousness C-c-cook now Ability to sleep sound throughout the star Time's an illusion if you just remove it When did humans start to separate Brain and heart as if they could stay alive alone? Flip it around the other way If they were apart and you had no power, start, or no database Only your shell remains What fun is it to be so calculated Or be taken advantage of 'cause your heart's too trusting? Silent expressed, push my head into my chest Bind them up, forever wed "Don't drift too far", they said Help me when I'm too detached and cold Give me the vitality that I need to trust love more Blood to the water, neither can fuel us alone Fervency in my arteries, passion bloomin' through my bones Heartstrings trigger emotions dreams Agape loves, a journey red rivers connect all of me B-b-beat steadfast, don't you disappoint me Sometimes I think you're all I need Wise beyond belief When did humans start to separate Brain and heart as if they could stay alive alone? Flip it around the other way If they were apart and you had no power, start, or no database Only your shell remains What fun is it to be so calculated Or be taken advantage of 'cause your heart's too trusting? Silent expressed, push my head into my chest Bind them up, forever wed "Don't drift too far," they said Numbers Count up your portions count up your checks Feeding your fam while you're coming at my neck When you gonna freeze with the cruel dramatics I'm not inspired by your foolish practice Butter your bullshit, set up your fence I'm just the chicken giving you the egg Soon you're gonna see that your breath was wasted Don't speak too soon on your doubts you're making A big deal out of a little thing Why should I try to conform to formulated paths When clearly all my instincts led to something more magical Am I just a number cause it seems like that's your goal You push us past our limits just to watch decimals grow I need a reason why I'm looked at like a joke Until I prove you wrong like I've done time and time before and All your idle teaching and your criticism lack the potential to Penetrate my solid golden path to decide what my future is I'm my own clairvoyant there's no controlling me Imagination on ascend Take me to Venus let me explode I'm ready to pop like a volcano Jump over me like you're playing hot lava Emotions on 100,000 who's gonna Shake me like soda crème but of course Use all your words to distract from the source of Where all the growth on the paper happens Leave me alone to my own concoction Pricking all my fingertips to carve out many roads Pushing out the petals from the bud of what I know Am I just a number cause it seems like that's your goal You push us past our limits just to watch decimals grow I need a reason why I'm looked at like a joke Until I prove you wrong like I've done time and time before and All my intuition says is expansion comes first but Not just by material I'm talking bout in here My heart space and my cranium must be loved too my dear Don't push me to the edge until I'm useless and can't feel They replaced their search for knowledge with the reach of many material gains They lack the tenderness of the sensitive empathetic bodies crying from the pain It's too late to grow their frame of mind it seems that its already made No use in arguing with someone who doesn't wanna prioritize birthing of creation Am I just a number? Am I just a number? Am I just a number? Am I just a number? Am I just a number cause it seems like that's your goal You push us past our limits just to watch your numbers grow I need a reason why I'm looked at like a joke Until I prove you wrong which I've done time and time before and All my intuition says is expansion comes first but Not just by material I'm talking bout in here My heart space and my cranium must be loved too my dear Don't push me to the edge until I'm useless and can't feel Glued I'm glued to the thoughts in my mind (Mind) They pester, like a hawk in the sky I am glued to the love in you (In you) It shallows me whole, your heart to let go of That's not what I wanna do (No, no) Perfectly attached like a noodle in a soup (Huh) You're good with the XYZ, (YZ) I'm good with the ABC And DEFG, HIJK, baby We all have our strong suits built differently Different experience, different needs I know we can't die at the same time but please I don't wanna think about the morbid parts of life no more I'm trying just to focus on the things that hold me so damn close I'm sticky, sticky stuck and solidly sealed up to this reality I'm seeing not what I wish, to be achieving the old idea of me is Glued up, sometimes it's too much I'm fucked up and clueless (clueless) Stuck in the vortex, stuck in the vortex Glueless, life would be boring Empty but no hurting (Hurting) Is it necessary, detachment is scary When my pretty feet start to sway (Sway) You better turn around the other way (Walk away) When the doubt starts creeping in (Oh no) It's hard to let go of old instinctual patterns that I picked up from my environment since a baby Cut the negative self-talk and, cut out my procrastination Being sticky, stuck, glue those old habits shut Paste me to a new way of being something to breathe new life in me again Glued up, sometimes it's too much I'm fucked up and clueless (clueless) Stuck in the vortex, stuck in the vortex (I am clueless) Glueless, life would be boring Empty but no hurting (Hurting, no hurting) Is it necessary, detachment is scary Glued up, sometimes it's too much I'm fucked up and clueless Clueless Glueless, life would be boring Empty but no hurting Hurting oh, oh Glued up, sometimes it's too much I'm fucked up and clueless Glueless, life would be boring Empty but no hurting Is it necessary, detachment is scary
Field Trip You know I'm not one to take orders from ya I'll drop another clue for you peek a boo, now do you get it You always wonder why I just say "forget it" 'Cause talking to a brick wall gives me headaches, headaches Spread your lies while I stretch Spread my legs and do the splits Yell at me on your screen While I send love to your being You're not real, just like me We were never our bodies We're just us, energy Hot like melting icey cream Tryna bring the mystical into the material Bitch, I'm an eleven life path, I'm ethereal I'm the definition of dichotomy, duality Katerina in the womb for nine months, 'til she birthed me Look at her she's a bridge and on her bridge, I'll take a shit Fuck it up you get lit let's get deep if not I'll dip I be riding solo on my field trip Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh I'm never gonna be what you had envisioned You say 'blanquitas' feel more Latina than you, 'ahora lo entiendes' You always say you're woke, it's your aesthetic But is your empathy actually authentic, is it? I am shy but I do speak only when I truly need To say some shit that hopefully Will reach the ears it's suppose to be I try my best to show them me, my rising sign is all they see Scorpio bitch with a sharp ass sting I gotta Taurus Sun, Moon, Mercury Tryna bring the mystical into the material Bitch, I'm an eleven life path, I'm ethereal I'm the definition of dichotomy, duality Katerina in the womb for nine months, 'til she birthed me Look at her she's a bridge and on her bridge, I'll take a shit Fuck it up you get lit let's get deep if not I'll dip I be riding solo on my field trip Ooh, ooh Ooh The Bakery La, la, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la, la, la Pack it, box it, flip it, top it With a bow tied, ribbon, stop it Eating all the rainbow cookies Pies are flying through the roof Not my first pick but I'll do it Make the cash right so I could move quick Out the shithole with a new whip Cream on top I'm about to prove it Pack it, box it, flip it, top it (Pack it, box it, flip it, top it) Pack it, box it, flip it, top it (Pack it, box it, flip it, top it) My boss is Mother Mary Catch me slipping through the concrete Show no mercy, step right on me Stiletto death, send me to purgatory The bakery, tryna make some more They expect me to stay when I should go Grab the bag for when I cross the door It ain't for me to roll it out It's just for me to raise the dough Pack it, box it, flip it, top it With a bow tied, ribbon, stop it Eating all the rainbow cookies Pies are flying through the roof Arbitrary, the way they all go Knock 'em down like she a dodge ball Little mess up and she's angry One downfall, she blame the whole team Pack it, box it, flip it, top it (Pack it, box it, flip it, top it) Pack it, box it, flip it, top it (Pack it, box it, flip it, top it) The bakery, tryna make some more They expect me to stay when I should go Grab the bag for when I cross the door It ain't for me to roll it out It's just for me to raise the dough The bakery, tryna make some more They expect me to stay when I should go Grab the bag for when I cross the door It ain't for me to roll it out It's just for me to raise the- La, la, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la La, la, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la, la, la La, la, la, la
2:16 notebook to test me 5:09 test me to brain and heart 8:11 brain and heart to numbers 13:01 numbers to glued 15:58 glued to field trip 18:54 field trip to the bakery
