A tiny ship, adrift in the silent evening calm, carries a traveler,
wounded all over, and has become his cradle.
His sad, sleeping face betrays that he won't let anyone approach him anymore.
Not knowing where he is now, he heads directly northward, northward.
Your hands, though they should be held, are empty,
as though from the very beginning,
you were never capable of ''being loved''.
Always lost, no longer even able to go back home,
only shouting, ''Save me!'' - though sadly, nobody hears.
''I'm all alone...''
I won't let you say things like that anymore.
Last night's rain, which has seeped into your ever-trembling heart,
flows atop your scars, as though it were washing away your past.
The rope that should have been fastened has come undone,
as though from the very beginning,
ships were never able to stay in one place.
Always lost, no longer even able to go back home,
your voice shouts, ''Find me!'' - though still, nobody hears.
So lonely, clutching your knees and waiting -
''I'm all alone...''
Always wandering, no longer even able to scream,
only walking through the darkness.
''I'm all alone, just as I've always been...''
I won't let you say things like that anymore.
Your determination is only a bluff, fluttering atop the water,
as though from the very beginning,
it could have soared through the sky.
No one can ever go back home.
We might try to shout, ''Find me!'' - but nobody ever hears.
So lonely, we clutch our knees and wait.
Everyone is on their own.
Always wandering atop the waves, without a path to follow,
ships move forward, though they're only adrift.
That's how we'll always live. But right now, we're together,
though we don't know our destination.
Always by my side: even when I can't take it anymore and burst into tears,
you'll be there, faintly shining in the darkness.
And since you've always done that for me, just for you,
I'd like to become Polaris.
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沈黙の夜凪に 漂った小さな船は
体中傷を背負った
旅人のせた ゆりかごになった
悲しげなその寝顔は
もう誰も寄せ付けないそぶり
ここが今 どこか知らずに
北へ 北へ ただ向かう
つないだはずのその手が
ほどけていく
君はまるで はじめから
"愛されること"ができないみたいだ
いつだって 途惑って
帰ることもできなくなって
「助けて」って叫んでるだけで
届かなくて 悲しくて
「僕は一人だ…」
そんなこと もう言わせない
日々揺れる心に
浸みこんだ昨夜の雨が
傷跡の上を流れる
過去を消し去るように
つないだはずのロープは
ほどけていた
船はまるで はじめから
留まることなんてできないみたいだ
いつだって 途惑って
帰ることもできなくなって
「見つけて」って叫ぶ声は
まだ届かなくて
寂しくて 膝を抱いて待っている
「僕は一人だ…」
いつだって 彷徨って
叫ぶこともできなくなって
闇の中を ただただ歩いた
「そうやって生きてきた
僕は一人だ…」
そんなこと もう言わせない
強がりだけの決意が水面を舞う
それはまるで はじめから
空を飛ぶことができるみたいだ
いつだって 誰だって
帰ることができなくなって
「見つけて」って叫んでみるけど
届かなくて
寂しくて 膝を抱いて待っている
みんな一人で
いつだって 彷徨って
辿る道もない波の上
船はすすむ ただ 漂いながら
そうやって生きていく 今は二人で
行く先は知らない
いつだって 傍にいて
こらえきれず泣きだしたって
闇の中を かすかに照らすよ
そうやって生きてきた
君のためだけの
ポラリスになりたい
17 авг 2020
