Hearing Matthew talking about this is amazing, and also at 1:00 hearing him legit go "No!" I had the vision in my head of Alan legit seeing that and going through the emotions.
I was not sure if that was real at the time, i thought the dark place was messing with alan again possibly. What really got me was when sagas life was changing, specifically when seeing what had changed about her kid and even casey was affected by the story was surreal