Alcoholic Sex Worker-Jessica 

I honestly had hope for this girl and then I saw on FB she passed away. As a recovering alcoholic of more years than she was alive, I know how difficult and shame filled the hole of alcoholism can be. Every minute of every day is spent in dread of how you know your day will end. I'm currently sober 2+ years and never looking back. I've learned that when I focus on the past, I'm controlled by shame. When I focus on the future I'm controlled by fear. I focus on my now because that's the only thing I have. My now is what defines me. I could've easily been Jessica in a thousand different ways. Mark, you allowed her voice to be heard. Her fears to be shared. Her burden to be lightened. At least for a brief moment in time. I'm so grateful for your channel. You give a voice to those who otherwise would remain in the shadows. RIP Jei Bee. You mattered.

They should really show this guys channel in high school and let people see the cause and effect

I’ve learned from watching these videos that when kids aren’t cared for they are sitting ducks for predators.

“School was my get-away.” THIS is why I’m a teacher. Because so many kids have a safe place away from their messed up homes for at least a part of the day with someone who genuinely cares about them as a person. I think a lot of people don’t realize this aspect of school. It means the world to me.

Every time she mentions or hears about “family” she breaks down and starts crying. You can seriously tell that’s where she hurts the most and struggles the most.

You can just tell that she’s tired of this lifestyle and wants help but doesn’t have a good support system

When she said "Growing up I didn't have anyone. I dont have anyone." I felt that. That hit hard

0:45 School was her safe place. My heartbreaks for all the children that, due to covid, are isolated and suffering because they can’t go to school. This pandemic will see more people suffer from mandatory isolation than the virus itself.

Girl, you can do it. You’re only 28. And you are smart. You can do it. Get your cleaning business. Get your restaurant. You don’t give up girl 😘

SHE CRIES WHEN SHE MENTIONS HER MOTHER AND FAMILY.... SHE'S BROKEN IN THE WORST WAY

"Alcohol and drugs will convince you that you can't do anything without it." -Joe Walsh

People have children for their own selfishness, how about having a child and treat it like a blessing!

She’s a little girl in a 29 y/o body. You can turn it around but only you can do it. You won’t magically wake up sober. You gotta start caring for yourself

This lady is gorgeous. I truly hope she finds her way . she has been through the mill it sounds.

I HATE when people say that because you're an adult, you should be able to get past your childhood. What do THEY know if they were never abused or abandoned or saw abuse?! What do they really know? I'm living proof that it does not work that way. To some degree I'm a functioning adult who has done well, but that hurt child will never leave me. Never.

Childhood Trauma...i feel her pain, her despair, hopelessness. She has said numerous times, "I don't have anyone". She is lost, and needs someone who can see her for the vulnerable lady, who is stuck as that young little girl, who only wanted to be loved.

I have become freaking hooked on these interviews man keep it up

Having a stable home and loving parents will shape you for your entire life. Children are so impressionable. So many of these people in the interviews I’ve watched were failed so tragically by their parents. It makes me cherish more that I grew up in a stable home with both my mom and dad who loved and protected me

School was her only safe place, this is why the pandemic has been especially cruel to some school age students. School is where they found love and acceptance, poor kids, damn life can be hard!

Jess!! Congrats on your job at the pizza place! I'm so proud of you!! You're doing great, I promise!

The lack of motherly love is deeply rooted . I hope she can find the healing, acceptance, and manifestation that she deserves. ❤️

This young woman hurts and longs for her family.

Watched this interview and read the comments. Mostly supportive, which is great but some claiming she is a fraud etc. Well, since this interview she has died. For those of you who claimed fraud and doubted, as i see on many of these videos. Your inability to have human empathy is a reflection of the society that ends up creating the tragic situations, stories and outcomes that this channel shows. They should not have to die to be believed. Take a good long look at your broken selves and realise, in another life, it could have been you. Soft white underbelly - keep up the amazing work. Very sad and rest in peace. Hoping you find the peace you never got to find in this life.

As a Dad I just wish I could wrap my arms around these girls who've been cheated out of their childhood and somehow convince them that there are people in the world who care about them. It breaks my heart that they've been used and abused like they have. Jessica and others that he's interviewed didn't have to end up this way, all they needed was a little love and encouragement.

I truly admire her honesty. She says “I have a really bad drinking problem” which is rare to hear, even though that problem is all too common. I feel like she has sooooo much potential to get it together. But then again we aren’t seeing the problem she’s speaking of, and with a 7 year old son this problem has clearly gone on for a long time. Prayers to her

As a mother, I could not ever even imagine treating my kid badly. So sad!

I just found your channel today and it is one of the best on RU-vid. Thank you for telling stories about forgotten people.

She broke my heart when she said “ Every time I think I know, I’m wrong “ poor baby... I hope she can get it together

I like her so much. She's the most relatable person on here that ive seen. Shes STRONG. you can tell. If you are that strong girl you can pull yourself up. Shes very much able to turn shit around. 💗💗💗💗 If you see this girl.. Don't give up

I used to feel like this girl and my family situation was VERY similar, I crawled out of the hole with spirituality, therapy, studying people I wanted to be like, and journaling... the sooner I realized that nobody was gonna love me until I loved myself the better off I was.

I'm 6 months sober, giving up was a nightmare...hallucinating, vomiting, shaking, not sleeping for 3 straight days. It was awful. After going through all that, I was told that there are drugs out there that prevent the craving and others that make you physically sick if alcohol is consumed...good luck girl, I hope you manage it

I know where she is coming from. I had a very traumatic, lonely childhood. I battled with alcohol addiction from my teenager years till I was 30. It's hard to know where to go or what to do when you have no one. She has so much potential, she just has low self esteem. She deserves happiness, she just needs help.

Alcohol is scary

Pray that you get real genuine support out here 🙏🏽

I love how so many of these people at the end of the interview say they were not expecting such an emotional experience and how they feel better for having expressed their feelings and spoken their story. Mark you know you are doing something good for humanity when you hear that at the end.

Mark, thank you for these interviews - this one especially I felt really touched by. I do have a completely different life than she has, but still could feel similaritys. Thank you Mark and Jessica for sharing your story. Hope you get back on track, I feel you, keep it up.

Jessica please start fighting for yourself and your son! You do have someone, Your Son needs his mother. This is why in order to recover we must get out of our own heads, I know I used to feel sorry for myself and didn't think I deserved better and I was very selfish. Please get into recovery, praying for you🖤

She needs a strong mentor.

She looks so tired.. I wish there was a place where these women could stay without being on the street

Sweet Jessica. I'm an alcoholic too. My heart breaks for you, beautiful soul. God bless

"People say I need AA, but I think I need counseling" She needs rehab!

She’s Damaged but not yet Broken...... God Please Protect her and I pray she accepts you.....Jessica you will make it! In Jesus name... AMEN 🙏

She was a sweet person. I never forgot her. Rest In Peace 🙏🏽

I'm deeply saddened to read that Jessica passed. She had great potential I think. I was going to write her a message but now I see this. I'm so sorry Jessica. You deserved your dreams. 😢❤

Mark, always coming in with listening ears and tissues for their tears. ❤

First of all hugs to Jessica! I am so glad you talked to Mark, it was clearly therapeutic for you. I could tell it made you feel better. Keep at, go talk to a therapist, you can do it! Both my dad and oldest brother are alcoholics and I love them but they have broken the family. We are so enmeshed with one another we all need counseling. I know Jessica can do it! Gonna pray for her.

I’ve been binge watching these videos and so many of these girls are so intelligent, well spoken, and introspective despite their traumas and addictions. So many are desperate to help themselves. As a society, as a country, we must find ways to help them. Jessica, I’m sending a virtual hug and sincere wishes that you get your cleaning business off the ground before too long. And then on to the restaurant!

I’m so sorry for this lady. How can someone be expected to know what to do if they’ve had any guidance. A previous comment mentions that she has passed away. That’s sad. All of us deserve a chance no matter what our life has been. Soft white underbelly gives the stories of those who don’t have a voice. Thank you. When I can I will be supporting your channel. You guys are doing what Studs Turkel used to do. He interviewed the regular folks and gave them a voice, just like you. Bless you and the folks you talk to. No one should be forgotten. 🙏

When she said “someone like me” it broke my heart.she seems honest; so she has great potential to have a better life.

It's so frustrating to hear the classic, I did this to screw up, so I did this thing to make myself feel better about screwing up. And then they drop the bomb in the middle of it that they have kid(s). The spiral of abuse is a merry go round that people very rarely get off.

Through out my covid lockdown here ive been binging on these interviews... and I hope it makes me a better father and person. Its opened my eyes not to judge folk so quickly cause you just never know

You're a beautiful lady & 29 is a good age to get sober for us alcoholics . It's encouraging to hear you mention A.A. There's some great ladies in A.A. who once felt or feel the way you do . You don't have to be alone . One alcoholic helping another . You have alot to live for & you are definitely worth it . May God keep you till then . Praying helps alot especially when we're down on our selves . ( Edited I just read comments that she died ). I'm sad . I will think of you to remember today maybe all we have to take a moment & not shy away from making contact in someone's life & extending a hand & a smile .. Or a tear

This is a Failed society 😔I wish the Best for her.

Praying for her!!

Your so awesome man... You come across so many amazing people who don’t have the opportunity... I wish I could help at this point, but I will definitely continue to strive to get to a position to help people the way that you do... This pain sucks really bad, but I keep watching and pushing to be able to do the type of things you do right now

Every single person on these videos needs a hug. Maybe some don’t deserve one, but everyone needs one.

You can tell she’s genuinely tired & she wants more out of life. She needs to learn how to celebrate her accomplishments. She has a job, most don’t she should pat herself on the back for accomplishing that milestone.

This is a prime example of the need for understanding and mercy. Lost souls, the hard- hearted, and those that are “criminals”, many truly never had support, love, and care. Babies that raise themselves. Imagine that. We can’t change the past, but we can be kinder to one another.

This channel needs to start allowing the viewers to help the ones that want out. Reaching out and communicating with them etc.

Sometimes when you drink repetitively it all goes by so swiftly and smooth you don’t even realize how badly you’ve hurt yourself. She needs a chance. 😔

I truly pray you are able to "walk into the building" soon. If you work AA you will find the family you crave. I promise you that there is light and life out there for you.

Sending love out to you Jessica. Everyone wants to be loved and wanted. We are all rooting for you to do better!

Your describing people not understanding your not having anyone resonates w me. It’s a terrible empty feeling and makes you feel unwanted unloved alone worthless at times, at least it does me. I’m so so so sorry you’re experiencing these things. Mark hit the nail on the head...stability. Support and love is absolutely something you need and deserve...you’re likely going to have to be that for yourself which is so hard to understand and really feel/get bc if you weren’t taught how do you know what self love is feels like means etc and then when you don’t feel worth anything it’s all the more confusing. It’s not as easy as people make it out to be. Ive heard it endless times too. I really have. I believe a way of going about it sometimes is just going through the motion, you may not be connected to it mentally emotionally etc but just do it, like a robot, until you get it, it will come to you, believe in the process 🙏🏽 and talking to someone you’re comfortable with and someone you believe in (LCSW therapist psychologist etc) is going to be extraordinarily helpful to you. You’re loved and cared for by a bunch of strangers I promise you that Jessica ❤️

Praying for her, she can turn this around she’s so young and has so much potential. So sad to see these people having to turn to these things to survive. Breaks my heart.

She does NOT have no one!!! She has a child, she has someone who has no one!!

I can relate to her so much. I had a son at the same age as her, I’m 4 years younger than her but I’m really lucky my parents help me out. She seems to have a really good head on her shoulders and I hope she gets the love and guidance she deserves. It sucks not knowing what the hell your are doing

At the end, she said "i kinda needed this." Damn, broke my heart

Being a alcoholic is rough but can be overcome with time..

idky, but of all the interviews i am drawn to Jessica the most. she reminds me so much of my sister. I want her to know her worth. I want her to know that she can change her life with just a little help. Everyone is so quick to say she needs rehab or AA, but therapy will touch the depression and the trauma. She needs to see the beauty that is within her

She said she doesn’t think she’s STRONG ENOUGH to commit suicide but I think she’s strong for NOT committing

Your goals are more than realistic! Make posts on Facebook to do cleaning. You don’t need a whole lot to get it started. My aunt started her own cleaning business like 30 years ago. She went from nothing, to very comfortable. You can do it. I believe in you. There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel, even if you don’t see it, it’s there. It’s awesome that you have a job. It’s rare to see that on this channel. You’re blessed to have a job during this pandemic. I can definitely relate to you about your mother. My mom and I do not get along AT ALL. She has told me she hates me and wish she never had me as well. I moved out at 18 and was “stuck” in an abusive relationship for 3 years. Had a son with him. My mom is an addict. So I could never become how she is. After YEARS of suffering. Working shitty jobs, being abused by my sons dad. I escaped. I always have had anger and attitude problems so it has made it hard for people to love me. But I found my other half. We have a home and I have a decent job. I never thought I’d make it out. And I did. You can too. I promise

Watching this girl breaks my heart. It makes my problems seem so silly. When she says she has these guys helping me, and starts crying, she knows they arent helping her. They are using and abusing her.

Yiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikes I can relate so badly. I remember getting into jail for public intoxication. That shit scared the shit outta me. I worked regularly for 3 years and lost my job now to covid so now I'm just floating. Man she really speak to me. I hope she pulls through!!!! Much luv to her!

I cried when she talked about her mom hating her..she feels she has no one to love her .. heartbreaking how overwhelming her pain is.

I’m so happy I was strong enough to not fall on my dads foot steps . I was around drugs with friends but even at 15 I knew better to say no. . Now I’m happy still living with my parents to help them and help me save money for my own home . Stay strong everyone

sweet angel needs a hug. you are beautiful, strong, smart, well spoken and loved by everyone out in the youtube world watching this

i hope this interview helps her do enough reflecting to get to a place where shes ready to become sober. im praying for her

God I feel so sorry for her she seems so sweet and genuine 💔

She needed this. She needed to pour her thoughts and emotions out. I hope this helps her gather herself and start a path to a better life.

Hey Bro... I feel like you showld hug these people when you finish the interview, a Hug is more medicinal than words... I just feel this is the only thing missing to this channel... Some people you just have to hug them. Love

She just looks empty .. completely drained and no emotions at all . She doesn’t show her personality or has learnt that she shouldn’t , so so sad

Her story is similar to mine. My single mom and my step mom were both very crazy women (I don't blame any of them but it wasn't ideal for kids to be around them at times). I moved out at 15 and school was also my getaway. Had too many boyfriends and I was abused, but luckily I also had good people who helped me to grow up with more confidence.

I admire how honest and self-aware she is. She says she lacks confidence but honesty takes alot of courage which will take her far. You can do this Jessica!

I absolutely love this girl and relate to her so much. I'm on the cusp of homeless too and it's scary as heck. All you can do is try. You're amazing ! You can do this! Life is absolutely brutal. It IS SO hard to get one's life off the ground and especially without support! Not everyone gets a paid education and home to stay while doing so. Or was born with mega brains and grit. :( She just needs an opportunity, a safe place to stay, some love and help. We love you girl and know you have what it takes! Keep it up at the pizza place! Save your money and work towards getting a place and a cleaning job IS attainable! We Love you and see your value even if you don't ♥️ Home or not you're precious.

I keep seeing comments about how these videos should be shown in high schools. As a high school teacher for 15 years, I'm here to tell you that will never happen. Even if every parent was ok with it (which will never happen) the school board would shut that idea down asap. I got in big trouble for showing episodes of Intervention in my high school health class during our unit on drugs and alcohol. Yes, some parents would be ok with it but again, that depends on where you live and when it comes to making something part of a curriculum, you're going to need a large majority of parents giving the "ok" and then the school board needs to also agree. A lot of you don't understand how many students in each class come from super religious families who demand that they preview movies before they're shown to their child and sex ed classes are taboo for them, as well as certain holidays. Yes, some teachers can show these videos but making it mandatory across the nation? Keep dreaming. I would love to see these videos as part of the curriculum but after the hell I went through after showing Intervention, I've let go of that idea a long time ago.

Yikes California seems to be the worst...

She’s very smart and she’s not gone so she can still turn her life around. I know it’s difficult, being that she hasn’t had any guidance, but she’s very aware of what she needs to change so that’s a start right there. I really enjoyed listening to her and some of the things she mentioned reminds me of my upbringing. I think counseling would definitely help like she mentioned. Stay strong Jessica! I know you can and will overcome your hardships ❤️❤️❤️❤️

I look and her and I listen to her story and it’s like I’m looking into a mirror that shows what my life could have been... I look at her and I see myself. If it hadn’t been for me becoming a mother at 19 and pushing to be the mother I never had, I would be this young lady right here. Bless her soul. I hope she sees her worth someday and fights for the happiness she deserves.

Its crazy to me How in America we charge Young women for being intoxicated and unconscious, us putting them in jail Will only make it worse, THEY NEED HELP

Effort has to be put forth for a change to come about. Nothing is going to just land in ur lap. Do it for u/ur son Jessica. U have someone...him and he's waiting on Mommy to return for him in a better mental and physical capacity. 😘

Jessica, you said that you didn't know where to start, but this is you starting. At the end you said your really needed this, and there is so much truth to that. There are a lot of people out there that would say your honesty and openness helped them as well. Seek the help that you can get. Whatever is available. And remember that its ok to go to AA drunk. Ive done it before. They will accept u how u r, not just how u think u should be. Lots of love girl.

Oh, girl( Your family is your son . That’s what should bring to you a lot of motivation being a mother and you should. make the best for you and your son! Good luck and all the best to you and your son! I hope all things get better for you soon ! Thank you for sharing your story! Bless you!

She still has a chance. I'm happy she has a job and I think with the proper mentor she can get herself on her feet and in a better place. God bless her.

"A man, has as many masters, as he has vices". Saint Augustine.

Your presentations are always interesting and good. Thank you

I can relate to this.. in so many ways.. my heart goes out to you my love.. I'm estranged from my mother also. And I often feel so desperately alone at times. Hope and pray you find inner peace. We are strong and we can live our lives the way we see fit. I hope you get the support and help you need. You ate not alone 🙏Big hugs 🤗 xx

this is truly heartbreaking..

All addiction is bad. However, alcohol is straight up nasty. Alcoholics are some of the meanest, most destructive people there are. Not to mention it's one of the most dangerous addictions.

Thank you for sharing all. It helps me in a way I don't understand

You really inspire me. I want to do interviews like this in Las Vegas but... I'm nervous and also not wanting to legit steal your work... but I think it's important to show the side of the city people openly banish without understanding it or caring about it. How much it costs all of us to support, etc.