Since May 18th, I have been having major depression. At first, I assumed it was just sadness, but by the third week, I began to have depression. I kept smiling whenever my family or friends were around most of the time, but in the end I just felt broken. I was also experiencing depersonalization and derealization at the time. Every day, I would spend the entire day dozing in my room in bed. July 18th would technically be two months of being depressive, I've had moments where I want to give up.
I am so proud that u have survived this long, keep on living buddy, it’s worth it. Honestly, if u ever feel like giving up, know that somebody will always love you, do it for them if not for urself.
@@jmathur011 haha thanks man, I appreciate the comment. It was worth it honestly, met two people back in Fall (2023) who are now my best friends, and there’s times where we all help each other out. It was the best thing I ever did. Again thanks for the comment
I'm so tired. So tired. I've been trying to sleep for hours and I just cried of exhaustion. What is going to pacify me is that you, tired angel in the car lights outside my window? whispering, with each brush a coded emptiness waiting for decryption (if anyone could hear me, would I have enough to say?) I admit by sorrow and roses I am forever blind why did you send me here? of all the damned places you may send me to the locked alter I stand and neither blinded or enlightended, she dreams
@maryjorosa2ho thank you, it was a dark moment and this song is still one of my favorites. Turns out this was the song I listened to 193 times on my Recap last year. I write a lot of poetry if you want to read a more recent one
Can't stop running, can't stop running From these tears falling down my face or back into an eternal plane Where nothing is everything and everything is nothing And my vision fades from reckless painful risks I take Just for some dancing trees I wish I could relate Be them Swing and sing with them But I crawl, tear by tear, clinging to the place from which I once came
The only person keeping me alive broke my heart. He was and always will be my everything. I can't believe he did that to me. I wanna let go but i just can't. how do i let go.
It’s going to be okay, I know u loved them, the only way to let go of this is reminiscing on the good memories u both created, it’s time to heal dear, and everything will be okay, don’t feel heartbroken more then u already are by replaying the memory of how he broke your heart, it’s gonna be okay.
begging my body to cry pleading for the relief the release for the pain to go away she won't let me listen to reason to kindness to peace just a torture machine just a moment away from bleeding I'm begging my body to cry I'm begging my body to cry this lust for blood is this lust for love is this lust for just enough is impossible to satiate me
