what it feels like to be a memory (playlist) 

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''Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory.'' -Dr. Seuss

"My life is just one constant battle between wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely."

We didn’t know we were making memories We were just having fun.

The worst pain isn't a cut or bruise, it's seeing those you considered so close turn into strangers

You know this playlist is going to be hard-hitting when it begins with Snowfall.

while listening to this playlist, I think of all the people who I don’t come in touch with anymore. It’s weird how they were a part of my life, but now they’re just in my memories that I replay in my head and nothing more. I wonder if they think of me the way that I think of them.

“Sometimes the best memories are sad because you know they will never happen again.”

To anybody who's reading this, I pray that whatever is hurting you or whatever you are constantly stressing about gets better. May the dark thoughts, the overthinking, and the doubt exit your mind. May clarity replace confusion. May peace and calmness fill your life.

Ahh yes.. The time socialising was easy The time you didnt care about school The time your home was healthy The time you never had to think about not having friends The time where we cried when we didnt get to watch more TV The time when we learned new things The time life was filled with color, rainbow and unicorns The time life felt like home The time life was worth living ... Will never be forgotten.

The most painful part in life is remembering the old good memories with people who are now changed

The part that sucks the most is you wanna love and care so hard, but it feels like being alone is better for a piece of mind.

My Girlfriend of 7+ years is going through a mental health depreciation, she has recently been going through schizophrenia and she seems so distant from me. It's like she is being held hostage in her mind and the girl I remember is trying to find her way back to the surface, but in the blink of an eye, she is gone again. I miss her and I tell her this all the time, what kills me the most is when she says, "She misses herself too"... I just look to the future with hope that I can support her enough that she gets better and maybe someday she can be her real self again, for the past year I have watched her get progressively worse, it started with depression, and then it progressed into paranoia, she thought I was against her and everyone was conspiring to hurt her. The truth was, I was trying to work hard so we could have a better life together. And now it feels like we lost it all, she can't even have a full conversation with me anymore without returning to talking to herself. All I can do is hug her and give her a kiss and tell her that I'm here for her no matter what. She was my highschool crush and we found each other again 13 years later. We lived together in pure happiness for a few years, but ever since 2018 is when things started to take the turn for the worse. I am being as strong as I can be, because I'm not weak and I have a resolve that has been strengthened for decades, My patience is greater than most people that I know. There have been some dark days where I felt like giving up and just ending my life, but when I look at old photos and the memories we created, I think about if she hasn't given up, then why should I? When you love someone if they are worth fighting for then fight...even if you have to fight yourself ❤

the more i fail to remember my past, the more i realise how precious it is to my heart. it hurts to know that i am forgetting myself by the time i grow up. i am changing so fast and it feels like i'm betraying my older self, my inner child. (UPD: I had no idea so many people would resonate with my feelings. I wish we all will be happy someday)

How amazing would it be that if there truly is an afterlife, we could revisit and relive our favourite memories? It doesn't seem all that bad if we can do that.

Ykwhat, it's actually insane how people actually take the time to make an hour long playlist, needs more appreciation ngl

Today I lost my bestfriend, my childhood friend, I still cant believe, I wish I could turn back the time and hug him while I can

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. -Some random guy

sometimes i forget how it even felt to be a child, i wish i had been able to enjoy my childhood for just a bit longer

One of the life lesson I've learned. You will always be alone. People will leave u behind,you will leave people behind. Doesn't matter which one but the outcome is the same. At the end of it all,you will be alone. I've made peace with that fact. I welcome the cold,empty void with an open arm

"I miss my memories when I was a child, nothing to worried, and nothing to cry..." *sometimes i have that feeling, and I feel like I want to return to that memory*

I'm struggling with depression.. These types of music help me cry, and it helps me calm down afterwards. Thank you.

*It's actually really soothing living and knowing that someone has you as their memory.*

Imagine listening to this, recalling memories with your father that passed away a year ago, laying in your bed,alone,at 2 am,broke,poor, jobless,went through everything,but never felt anything when he was alive, because he was like a shield. Goodbye Dad, I'll never forget about you, I'll keep fighting.

When you realize you're just a memory, that thought in itself becomes the thought that sticks around in your head. It doesn't go away. You just have to live with it. When you realize they don't have the same appreciation for you that you do. When you realize they don't love you back. When you realize they may never come back. When you realize that they're the true memory, only then can you realize true and honest peace. They can't hurt you, if they're only a memory. They can only linger. That's all they can do.

Honestly, the only reason i’m staying alive is to experience love. I feel like i have never experienced it before, i want to love someone and want someone to love me. I want to bake bread with them, get a cat, live a domestic life. I know this cannot be archived without pain and struggling but i didn’t know it would be this painful. I just have to study hard to get a good job in the future, and then hopefully i can work on my dreams of a domestic life filled with hugs, baking bread, and love.

Many years have passed since the last time I saw her. Life goes on as usual, I’m a grown man, I graduated from a higher education school, went through the army... Now I’m minding my own business, I travel a lot, I can’t deny myself much. But the memories of her do not disappear anywhere. During the years of ruthless student poverty, I remembered her, during the war I saw her eyes in the quiet sky at night, now, having traveled from Crimea to Kamchatka, it seems that I catch her at the crossroads of every city. I can’t forget everything, I remember it from school. I so want us to be 16 years old again, we were kissing in abandoned buildings, walking along country roads, walking in the park after school. Do you remember how I made my way to your house while your parents were sleeping... Anya, I still love you, do you hear me? I still write poems to you, write my thoughts in our chat, send postcards to your old address. How stupid I was. I so hope that everything is fine in your life. I so hope that you are in love and happy. I hope to see you someday in one of these immensely lonely cities. I promise that I will also give you that summer in Yalta, autumn in St. Petersburg and winter in Moscow. Please forgive me. Appreciate your youth years. There may not be anything more beautiful in life.

my sister and i became homeless by choice running away from abuse and addiction in our family at 16 and 20. had no clue what we were doing. worked like hell and prayed. Our mom is sober this year and slowly we’re making amends within our family. We’re celebrating our third apartment this month and i hope we never get to stop making memories. Lord thank you for giving me my sister and the day you call us home will be the most painful departure my heart will ever know.. Glory to God

I don’t have any serious mental issues, but these songs are really soothing. And it’s always so amazing to see so many strangers supporting one another in the comments of these videos. Keep on keepin’ on, everyone!

The best memories are from the strangers you used to love.

People die twice. The first time is when their heart stops beating. The second time is when they are forgotten

Everyone in my life eventually becomes a memory, and I've gotten to a point where it doesn't matter anymore. My deepest desire is to truly find myself, but when the world is so loud and the pain is just as deafening, it's almost as if I'm frozen in time longing to be released from this suffrage that leads to the epitome of my demise.

my parents mean i am lazy but they don´t know i am fighting with sucidial thougts

Whoever you are and whatever your situation is, I'm proud of you for making it this far. Stay strong king, you got this. I believe in you

shit hits different when you're not ok

As someone who is in their late 20’s and will become a memory for some people and lose my own due to early onset dementia this playlist hits me hard. I’m pretty much 30 slowly losing my memories and forgetting faces and it’s starting to take place of the feeling of being in a dream and a foggy haze; I’m afraid of the unknown. I’m afraid my parents are going to have to burry their youngest son after hiding this from them; I’m afraid my Friends will forget me and no longer love me when I change; I’m afraid that this is the only life this is and I’ll be suspended in darkness and non existence forever. I’m afraid like I was when I was 7 sitting in the dark at night. I feel like a coward not being able to face this compared to men who went to war or sick and died bravely and gracefully than me. I’m afraid that I’ll most likely never be able to have a family or a woman that would love me for who I am and who I was, to feel wanted and truly loved by someone other than my own blood. When I go; I hope my message lasts even if this is the only thing I’m known for. Live for people who struggle in life that don’t think it’s worth living; live for people who didn’t get to see the next sunrise due to sickness war famine and anything els. Live to go do great things or just help people in need. Much love MB❤️

Currently listening to this at 3:00 am. Unfortunately, this year, my friend passed away due to cancer; it’s bizarre how I talked to him and played with him, and now he’s gone. It’s fucking awful just how shitty cancer is. He was so fucking young too, he really didn’t deserve to leave this world. I hate how I can’t make anymore memories with him, I hate that I can’t message him and he’ll reply; it’s just sad how he became a memory. I’m scared I’ll lose my friends as well, I don’t want them to forget me and think of me as someone they can just ignore and stop talking to. Thankfully, they haven’t. My main goal in life is to become a therapist, so I can help others a in need, I just hope I can make it to that age and that moment in time. I’ll miss you Andre. I love you man. Rest in peace

It will come a day that this video will have been posted 7 years ago and now will be just a memory.

"Nothing is more painful than seeing someone you love move on."~life

I’m shedding tears right now. For someone who probably doesn’t think about me as I think about them. Who I am so grateful for being a part of my life

Sometimes when you open your eyes you may see the one you adore the most, but the most painful thing is remembering that they are in your memory, living a different life, far away in the world, or watching you giving you clues that they're still here on Earth, watching after you because they love you so much Life is hard sometimes, but after the storm comes a rainbow

“Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.” ― Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

“I once created something, and then it crumbled with in my hands and my anger let loose like a flame… until one day I realised that the wind will only blow the ashes away if I stop holding onto them so tightly” -My quote

I'm leaving this comment here so whenever anyone likes or comments I'll be brought back to this video and be able to express myself with tears ❤

The best thing we can do, fellas, is work on ourselves. If you're here, listening to this beautiful music, because she doesn't or didn't love you, we're in the same boat. I hope you guys are stronger after this. We shouldn't just give up.

What hits different is finding your old playlist and connecting with your inner child and realizing how broken you really became

I hope they all remember me, living as a memory is better than dying forgotten.

This ain't a playlist... this is a Calmlist.

Your worst memory you tell is not the worst memory you have but the worst memory you have the strength to recall and tell without breaking down.

I'm tired of thinking and worrying about the world. I'm tired of war. I feel pain for the citizens of Russia and the citizens of Ukraine. None of the citizens of both countries are to blame, the citizens are just pawns in the hands of "big uncles". I want to go back to my childhood, where I would not have to take off "rose-colored glasses" and suffer from the present. (I apologize for mentioning politics. Love everyone ❤)

Growing up I never had a place to call home, but now I’m in a mental health rehab and the staff make me feel loved, and makes me feel safe like a home should make you..

-"Be careful with your trust, sergeant; those closest to you hurt the most." - Ghost

"i wanted to go to the past, but when I went, there was no one there."

"Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds that you plant"

“When I stand in front of a mirror I could see my younger self smiling so much and laughing, we’re her eyes shined so bright and filled with happiness,but now when I look in the mirror all I see is a person who’s trying to get through her life day by day. The light and brightness that was once there is now gone.”

The thumbnail of this video made me feel relaxed, safe, and comfortable. I don't know why.

Don't give up. It's not going to be easy, but it's what we've got and we are here for such a short time in the grand scheme of things. Others are suffering too. You're not alone.

i feel like alot of people feel sad when listening to dark ambient music. But when i listen, it makes me feel spiritual, like i left my body, leaving my troubled mind, while i just sway around in the worlds air and in space almost. I get to feel like i leave this troubled world for just a moment. Its so precious to me to listen to this type of music, i like being lifted away like the wind is carrying me. I wonder if anyone else gets the same feelings as i do with this type of music??

I remember him letting me come over to his place for fun, we had the best night of our lives, we giggled,we laughed,we played horror games. but that was a year ago. He is in a better place now. I love you.

Bro really got me thinking about the people that i knew and friends that i haven't talk to since i graduate school 😭

This music has saved my life, whenever I’m feeling stressed or depressed or anxious or anything, I just pull this up to calm my self down, it’s never failed me, I trust this playlist more than I trust some people

For everyone who is going through a hard time in their personal life and also trying to study...I am with you my friend. Hang in there. We'll make it through this 😍

Time will destroy everything. If you don't know its value, its flight will wear you out. When time goes, memories remain. Memories drown. Memories make you sad and cry. Memories miss. But after a while, the memories fade. Then you start to miss memories instead of that person. Forgetting, not remembering forces you. But you won't succeed. You can't remember. And as I said at the beginning, time destroys everything.

When I listen to this playlist I imagine lying just at the shore of a bioluminescent beach, as the ends of the waves flow just up to your ears as you gaze longingly up at the dark blue sky speckled with stars. I love it.💙

After 4 years I broke up with her. Last couple months showed me that I am only one who fought for us. I was with her yet I fet lonley and angry all the time. Here I am now sitting in my basement smokong cigs and drinking beers, lookin at our pictures and memories. I will cherish those moments for the rest of my life. This playlist will remind me of her for the rest of my life. Thank you for posting it.

Imagine that you are one of those people who spent your whole life talking about knowing exactly where your "navigator of life" is going and where it is leading you to. And then one day you look up, see the dawn, and suddenly realize that you have no idea where you are after so many twists and turns and all those clear logical instructions… But in spite of all this, even if you don't know where you are, maybe it's not such a bad sunrise.

100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favourite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you 75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships. 76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person. 77. Joy and happiness in the little things. 78. The power to inspire others. 79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression. 80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life. 81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet. 82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family. 83. Learn new things and develop new skills. 84. Create a legacy that will outlive you. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Cuddles 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it. Ps : Never forget you are a beautiful person 💕 Life is so beautiful so live, l love you

Idk why, but this just feels so comforting Like it filled in a piece of my soul that I didn't even realize I'd been missing this whole time

"The most painful thing in life isn't a cut or a burn. It's seeing people you have made memories with turn into memories." Stick to Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior. He is coming soon. Repent and change your life! John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." Jesus can change your life. God has your hole life planned. Accept him. We're in the end times. You cannot deny the overwhelming evidence. Psalms 37:13 "But the Lord laughs, seeing that their day is coming."

I have depression, anger issues, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts but the way this music makes me calmer by the second makes me remember the good days when I used to have fun but then this playlist is more calming than anything else

Life may be cruel and harsh my friend, but the people that were and are there for you are reasons worth living.

I know most people miss their childhood. Maybe mine wasn’t that eventful because when I look back as a 29 year old, what I miss the most are my teen years. 19-25 years. They were so good. So full of energy and beauty and drama and chaos. It was as if the teenage brain was a magical thing. idk how to explain. These days I don’t feel so alive anymore. I don’t even know what am living for tbh. When I listen to some kind of music, I close my eyes and I can feel myself as that wishful teenager. Only for a short while. I try to play old songs but they don’t hit like they used to. But this video helped me remember and feel a little. ❤

times frl flies, it’s just like yesterday I was laughing in the hallways walking with my boyfriend and now we dont even talk anymore

My grandma passed away Thursday September 21 2023 and I've been crying for a long time but this music helps, thanks.

I miss u grandma.... Navajo Nation...It felt like hauling water was a chore...the sheep's water, your drinking water, washing water....I'd do it all over again w a smile on my.face ❤ ....I miss it EVERYDAY 😢

don’t take someone for granted at the beginning leave them if your intentions aren’t good , life is all about being a team i took everything i had for granted and i lost the perfect girl and seeing her as a memory hurts more than ever it kills me everytime i think about it i hope i once have a chance to make everything better one day …be strong and keep going to whoever reading this and learn from your mistakes or they’ll repeat themselves

she just ended our friendship for a guy that she hasn't even known for a year. now im left with nothing but the memories we made

my best friend, who i never met irl because we lived to far apart, left the internet a little while ago. i look through our messages together every once in awhile to this playlist and it helps me cry. thank you.

You've made it this far, Don't go hollow now

Sometimes when I hear this playlist, I just thinking, when the sun rise at the morning, my mother will wake me up softly My older sister make my breakfast with love inside the food My sister take me up to school with stories we share in the way Until we arrived and say goodbye to each selfs and the word "I love you" get out from my mouth Until the day where I live alone I wake up by myself Cooking by myself without love or anything No one here talk with me again in the morning No stories, no jokes, nothing. The day just silence Nothing lights up my day Because everyone was gone Lost by fate that has coming to themself. Sorry if you don't understand

My best friend died of blood & bone cancer before he got to start high school. I moved away from my hometown cause of gang violence. But I always imagined what if I stayed another year with my only real friend. What I would give to play cops and robbers. To hear his laugh. To see his face. Hear his voice. Just to feel his presence again…There’s not enough time in my life to grieve this loss. My soul misses you forever partner, you are so remembered and really missed Emmanuel. I fucking love you until death does me. I stay living for you my friend. I’m still here because of you😞🤎

this hits so hard... it reminds me of my childhood, everything was perfect, all the faces in my surroundings were friendly and happy, no anxiety, no hard times in family... just my toys, my happiness, my favorite tv shows, my favorite games, getting quality time with best friends... but now, it's different... the anxiety is eating me, my family became more and more instable, i don't have much time to get fun like before, my friends changed me for another person, my toys are covered in dust and loosing the paint and color, i don't know what's happening to me... i just miss my childhood so much

I'm truly sorry to hear that you're going through a tough time. Music has a powerful way of expressing and soothing emotions. It's okay to let it be a source of comfort, and remember that seeking support from friends, family, or professionals is important too. You're not alone in this journey, and I hope you find the strength to overcome these challenges.

I can’t believe a single melody can bring up so much back to mind. I just cried for 20 minutes straight. Thank you.

To the person reading this comment, it's okay, it's okay to feel lonely sometimes, if you're going through tough times, keep pushing through, but never give up, I wish you success. success in health, love and happiness!❣♥♥

Struggling deeply with suicidal thoughts, borderline personality disorder, depression, anxiety, possible alcohol addiction, relapse temptation (for a separate drug), and constant emotional distress. Please continue to help me through this with ur playlists

One of the most helpless and ego killing things is when the person you love and respect with all your heart wants to make new memories with someone else and nothing to do with you

There is a moment in everyone's life when you realize how fast your life has passed you. When you realize how little you have done, how little time you have left. A moment when you realize that all these memories you have collected are just that-memories. A moment when you realize that you will become that, as well. Return to what you were-a wish, a memory.

I never really realized that the reason why I'm forgetting those memories is because my mind wanted to protect me from them.

I’ve been to war twice as an infantry soldier and I’ve seen and done things that most people couldn’t possibly imagine. I’ll never experience anything as hard and traumatic as letting her go.

“I will never be a memory” ~sephiroth

I feel terrible these days. I don't have motivation in life. I am totally lost in my memories in good time that never existed in my whole life. I don't know exactly when was the last time I feel happy. This playlist brings me to fake happiness I created for my own soul. Thank you for a good playlist.

I lost my grandpa to cancer on 05/05/20, these songs make me feel like he's with me again

U know its deep when it starts with " Snowfall" :)

becoming a memory is one thing but realizing you weren’t a good memory is another.

it’s the feeling of losing yourself, losing the memories you cherished the most. losing the most important thing ever to yourself, your inner child.

a couple years ago i honestly just felt like giving up. the memories i used to have are not the same. as a child, the trips, the smiles, the moments. i wish i could go back. this makes me sob. all these songs relating to how i used to not care of what others say about me. now its like my head is filled with thoughts. wanting to go back, its stressful being a teenager so whoever is reading this that is still a kid please know live being a kid the longest you can .

"I get you. You are a crocheted quilt, every granny square different, unique. Every time the wool went through a loop, a feeling went with it. Your memories don't make sense because you are not a solid color or understandable pattern. We are you, we don't think like you, we don't love like you or hate like you, we don't share a name but still. We are one body, one quilt. We made ourselves, we build ourselves with our own fingers, our improvised crochet, and whatever wool was laying around. That's why we don't make sense, why we're incoherent. We never got to be build with care, loving, knowing hands, a plan ahead. Do not worry about your memories, you don't need them, we know who you are and we love you so, so much. Our quilt doesn't need to be pleasant to look at, soft or confortable. It's heavy and cold air goes through every little hole. You don't have a choice but to love it, too, like we do. It's ours, the only one we have, the one we share. I believe you will learn to crochet outside of your own head, and build us up for real. I can't wait to hold and sleep under our quilt. It's safe. It can't stand pouring rain, snow, windy days. It will be worse under the sun. Sometimes it will help, sometimes it will be a chore to hold. This makes us disabled, this makes us survivors."

When I hear these songs, I feel like I lost the childhood I’ve always wanted. Happy, bright… I wish I could feel and see those things. But as a mom, I will do for my kids what was never done for me. Thank you for this.

I listened to this in the car with my sister and my mom, on a drive at 11 all the way to 1 AM. I laid in the back seat with the window half open at my head and stared up at the stars. It was just beautiful.. it was almost like stargazing sadly just without full view. But it was amazing