I have seen, so many videos of her but you were the ONLY one who saw the PTSD and edited with HER in mind over any pairings (which naturally gets the twinflame pairing front and center but that's beyond the point) I'm not sure I understand what they want to show of her myself. I haven't read the books either, but from what I've seen of the series you encompassed everything we've been shown about her so far, from her own mind which is amazing because like you stated season 1 was her losing herself essentially then season 2 is finding herself and then partly losing herself again because the battle inside her is greater than all the others. It really sickens me how glorified that part of her story is, even if it IS in the books and I love that you showed it for what it is and the contrast between twinflames and what I call 'entropy'. However what I loved the most about this is you captured the intricate pieces of her mind in season 2 and you showed how the PSTD shaped her actions and such. This was beautiful, empowering and heartbreaking. Thank you so much for making this, there need to be more viewpoints like this.
Thank you so much 🥺 Yeah, I was similarly disappointed when I first did my research that a lot of S2 Alina videos were...mostly about her & the Darkling. I assume most people don't mean to glorify her relationship, and are genuinely interested in unpacking their dynamic (as am I!), but I was pretty shocked at this trend. Like I think I can count the number of *solo* videos (that are titled as such) on one hand? But for me, I was hoping and happy to see that S2 focused so much on her anger, her shame, her guilt, her recklessness. Part of what attracted me to Alina was that her villain was not just a stranger with similarities to her, but someone who groomed her in his image, and she has this unique struggle of feeling both indebted to him and betrayed by him. That's why I LOVE the monologue in 2x05; she's ashamed that she can't access her power without thinking of the Darkling, she's ashamed that she still feels some kind of empathy for & attraction to him, and it makes her shut down any chance of healing and instead throw herself into dangerous situations. And also, how can she heal when she's the Sun Summoner? She has the weight of the world bearing down on her, she "can't afford weakness", as Zoya says. I'm honestly surprised that more people don't enthusiastically celebrate her, since many of her "main character" traits are grounded in really interesting nuance. While I loved the way the Darkling & Alina's dynamic was portrayed in Season 1, that admiration was entirely contingent on what happens *after* Alina breaks away from him. And I think, unfortunately, a lot of people are more interested in that first part than the second part. But I can't control what people love, so I can only try to portray the story that speaks to me the most. I'm very very curious what will happen in Season 3...will she just be a baddie from the jump? I think ingratiating yourself with the ruling class is such a questionable decision 😭 and I don't think (total guess!) that she's the type of person who can thrive or even heal there. So I do hope that we continue to go down this road of Alina thinking that she's moved past her trauma, and can finally make her own choices and own her power, when really EVERY choice she makes is directly influenced by that violence and abuse. Like what will she do now that Mal isn't in the picture to pull her back from the brink! I don't know!!!!
@@xxbludger Yes, yes they were some of them do, but that's whatever. Nothing shocks me anymore after the trend with The Invisible Life of Addie Larue (Currently reading) when it comes to people but that's beside the point. Exactly, there are almost no solo videos. So was I, and surprised by it because they spent so much of season 1 catering to the pairing I was afraid they'd just continue with fan service but boy did they deliver on her character development. You hit the nail in the wall there, it is a different kind of dynamic one that gave way to that inner struggle you speak of for her. I loved that dialogue too because it was raw and Jessie delivered it with cruel clarity that this was someone who was suffering from not just a bad relationship, but even the good things that came out of it. Indeed, as the Sun Summoner she's expected to be healed, strong and the symbol the world needs her as. Eh, they're too busy focusing on the Darkling and Kaz- that's solely based on how many solo videos I've seen of these two. I loved it too, there is complexity to it, and when she chose to forge her own path instead of following his like he was subtly trying to do- well that was why I kept watching. They do but exactly. You spoke the truth, and I thank you for that. I'm not sure, I know she looked like she enjoyed that power but I believe after that comes shame, unless she you know is corrupted by the darkness now. We're in entirely new territory here as the books went a different route and from what I've seen they want to drill into the minds of the audience "This is not her and should not be encouraged" which of course leads to the opposite but I digress. I want her to move past her trauma too and see it, but I fear she'll be in for more trauma realizing she's becoming the one thing she never wanted to be. Yes, that right there is the biggest thing without Mal there. I think she can do it. She might stumble, but she'll find herself even if he isn't there to bring her back. After all, she made the choice to turn against the Darkling on her own. So that inner strength is there, she just needs to remember her power was hers first, never his even if he opened the door.
she is just a BABE! she is TRYING!!!! i looved how you dealt with her struggle to get back control of herself and deal with everything the darkling’s put her through. also this video really made me see the clary parallels harder than ever and i cheered!! i hurrahed!!! so job well done!!!!! truly another stellar piece of work
