Alone In The Operating Room 

Ellie and Jared Hope Ellie feels better soon xxxxx❤️❤️

Ellie and Jared I love you guys so much I pray for you guys every night 💖xoxo

Ellie and Jared you guys are such an amazing family! My heart goes out for you guys ❤️

Hope you feel better soon Ellie, My prayers are with you 💕

We're grateful for you guys! Listen to King of my heart! It has encouraged me in diffiuclt times!

Elise Wheeler 😀me too!!💓

You join the Mormon church, say your prayers and live it.

Join the Mormon church ☺️ this is how most true Mormon men are.

Let's ask Ellie :)

I have a Jared. Although he is more like Joel, Bonnie' s husband who may not do the big showy gestures but shows by his actions every day how much he adores her. Didn't meet my husband at church, just through friends. You can find good men everywhere

Ashley Vandersteen I understand what you mean! My heart just broke for her.

Ashley Vandersteen Ik this is late but I was confused on why she was there

Kenzie Vlogs she had a miscarriage and they were doing a D & C

*Felt

Ashley Vandersteen I know what you mean I'm crying

I was just going to point that out. Glad someone else noticed it too!

I noticed too. I have a semi colon tattoo for this reason... 8 years ttc baby number 1. 5 miscarriages and 2 D&Cs. We couldn't afford IVF so we gave up. I fell into a dark dark place and the semi colon project got me through x

cute!!!!! I agree

Loring Toney that was such a pound Profound statement, loved it made me tear up.

Because I'm not christian I dont believe it but I still think thats the cutest thing ever

Linda this is so sweet and beautiful! 😍💖 And i'm so glad that now you have kids,i really hope they are healthy and happy.. 😙 you're best mommy ever! 💖

Emma Wiley, 😢😭😦🙁

Emma Wiley ikr I almost cried when she was crying.

Completely agree. If you need it, please, please take time for yourselves.

I totally agree. If you decide to take a break we will all be here when you guys come back.

SweetTreats totally agree! Just take your time.And rest! Do whatever makes you happy

SweetTreats You are so right Ellie I understand what you are going though my first ever baby had to leave the world called earth as well :( If you need time off you take it,Heck if you need to take a month off take a month off... take as much time off that you need.

what does ellie have again that makes is hard for her to have babies, i forgot

Brooke T what is that mark

How did it came there

She threw the camera at the wall. She said it in the video....

Oh my gosh yes! I'm so glad you noticed it's a semicolon:) That's so sweet

And she is pregnant again!!!

mckinley darling I

mckinley darling your right

mckinley darling what was actually happening I haven't watched in 2 years

Super cute pugs And unicorns 101! Well she had a miscarriage and had to get a procedure done to get rid of excess lining,etc from inside her from the incomplete pregnancy....what are you doing not watching E&J for 2 years?? Sounds to me like you need to catch up again lol

mckinley darling I

my prayers are for you as well. Blessings and Love. Karen

I hope you get better soon Ellie

Nellie, I am so sorry for your loss, and how it affected your life. My thoughts are with you x

You have a fantastic family and friends and they are all supporting you when you need them. I thought it was lovely that Bonnie and Joel wanted to be there when you got home. You are both loved so much by your beautiful boys, and it was a special time with them at the beginning of this vlog. It was wonderful to be able to see that. You both love each other so much, and that is so very clear to see. Penny loves you all unconditionally, what a sweet dog she is, and it shows how much you love her, when you wished for her to be with you Ellie. My heart breaks seeing you both at this sad time, but know that we are all with you. You let us into your life on a daily basis, which takes a lot of guts. I will always be here supporting you from the UK, please accept my best wishes for now and the future. Sleep and rest easy Ellie, I know Jared will look after you, as he loves so much and your beautiful boys adore their wonderful mum. Both of you take as much time as you need to. Xxx Kind wishes Avril Xxx

Angelleb05 exactly!

Leah Marie wait what did she have to do by herself??

Jared was not allowed back during her D&C. So sad!!

As someone with a few science/nursing degrees, i have to disagree... I think it's healthier and safer all around if the SO does not happen to be in the same room. I do think they should have pushed more drugs before she went back so that she was calmer before heading back to the sterile, but thats the only area I found fault in. I can see how this upset her, and I hate that she felt alone, even so. To each their own!

I assisted OBGYNS for years and did many d&c's. It would be absolutely traumatizing for the father to witness it. I would never want my husband to see it. It's heartbreaking.

Your right, to each their own. But we can clearly see Jared and Ellie both wanted to be in there together. He didn't need to be there the whole time, because she was put under, but she voiced her need to have him there until she was asleep. If you would remember, in nursing school we learned about holistic care and healing....and that was greatly lacking here.

I woke up CRYING as well after my D&C :( So sorry

May i ask what it is?

I feel your pain. I've had two miscarriages and they are the worst things I would ever go through.

5timesthefun please sub to autumn the gymnast

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I know, right me too!! I'd have to have a C-section. I got a divorce so my ex could have children with somebody else.

God is on Ellie side too.. this isn't a punishment from God. there is a plan for all of this. her rainbow 🌈is coming and it will be amazing all in God's timing

AMEN I AGREE

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Alexa I agree with you in the name of jesus!

Amie Lawson i think they are everything. Getting true those emotions and having so much pain brings up another side like anger and pain.

I think that we all just have a lot of sides to each of us. The vulnerable sides are hard to share. I'm grateful she chose to share hers on this day.

💞

They are the themselves in all of these videos, however going through multiple miscarriages change you and you definitely go through a huge roller coaster of emotions. It was brave and amazing of them to show the reality of these emotions. I know as I am experiencing my second miscarriage right now.

Wow! That’s rude. So sorry to hear that! My aunt had a ton of miscarriages. My mom had one right before I was born. I was basically a miracle baby because when my mom found out, they thought it wasn’t gonna happen (kinda like what happened with Jackson) so ya know.

I have had several as well and in my religion, the husband is not in the room for miscarriages, D&C or childbirth. I did it alone every time and it actually angers me to the point of tears to see Ellie behave this way when she had her husband at the hospital waiting with her and supporting her. Miscarriage was a very normal part of life up until the last several years. Our grandmothers and great grandmothers probably all had miscarriages and have lost newborns and they did it alone. There are fewer miscarriages now, but they still exist. We don't all get the benefit of being coddled like this. I had my last miscarriage on a Saturday night and was back to serving my husband, making him breakfast on Sunday morning. This woman's lifestyle is so pampered and cushy. I've never even been on a vacation or have gone out since I'm married. My husband doesn't believe in birth control or divorce. I am stuck in this life because of an arranged marriage. Yes I'm angry at what some people take for granted.

C B things will change to the better wait for it and I will keep u in my prayers

@@SomewhereInTheMaidenverse Here we go again with religion.