Am I Depressed? 

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having depression feels like you don't want to live but also you don't want to die.

I don't remember the last time i was truly happy.

My experience with depression is just lack of emotion in general. I don't feel sad, but I also don't feel anything at all. It's like living in a void where nothing excites me, and I just don't care about stuff anymore.

As someone who is depressed, I got 8/9 of these symptoms which makes me clear that I am depressed. When I usually have mental breakdowns with tears flowing through my eyes, I always get the love and support of my friends but don’t want to ruin their day with my mental breakdown so I usually just make an excuse that I’m so tired and couldn’t sleep at all last night which pissed me off. They usually believe that but I realize now that this excuse won’t work anytime longer and eventually I have to confess how I’m feeling. I usually hate doing this so for whoever reads this comment, If you are depressed or not, I wish you live a nice healthy and prosperous life with your fullest potential as I give you my prayers. God bless ❤

Depression tests are probably the only test I actually pass with a perfect grade💀💀

The worst bit is when you can't talk to anyone without feeling judged 😢

Passed with all nine of them. Just pushing myself every day.

To all those who can relate to these points, especially the last one, as someone having the same struggle I request you to not give up. Reading these comments made me realise I’m not alone and how much we need each other in these moments, one person’s hope can be a source of power for another. So let’s all hope together, stay strong together. I’m sending you all so much love! I hope more of us come back to this comment and proudly say “We made it through”. ❤

The worst thing is when even breathing becomes too much of a task.

me having all nine of them still don't care

External and internal causes mental health issues. If you face yourself, your trauma, dysfunction, addictions, pain, stop isolating…it’s been 10 years of consistent and repetitive inner work…I am completely rewired and programmed differently than I was. If you continue to run from yourself you will never find peace and acceptance❤❤❤

I haven’t been truly happy since I was 5, so sorry to anyone else who is currently going through this with me..

The first time I broke down in front of my mother she yelled and screamed at me for being dramatic or selfish. It was the last time I will ever make that mistake

“How do you know if you have depression?” *Immediately begins crying.*

I've been struggling with these feelings for 15 years now. It really sucks. There's no point living like this

Hey i am legitily having all of the symptoms you have mentioned above for about 2 years , the intensity is increasing , no one near me believes as such , and i am also tired of explaining the feelings i am having in addition to the constant war of thoughts in my head , i am basically fighting every single day with thoughts of giving myself pain , thinking of different ways to die , they come everytime , i am fighting to overcome , i am trying my best , even though everything seems to be going wrong , i have frequent emotional outburst , i have no one to actually help me , your videos help me , i have been seeking help for the resources that are available , i doing it for myself because i know , even though i have a easier way to let go of world but it will increase problems for my loved ones , i am willing to stay strong for them , and i will come out of it , Please continue making such videos you act as a way to understand myself better ❤❤❤

I’ve felt all 9 signs for so long. Worst part is I wish I had someone I could just talk to someone to hear me out without any judgment

That moment when you realise all the points she said are the "normal" life to you 🙂

Very accurate. I've been depressed since I was 8 years old when my parents abused the shit out of me, but after 22 years it all feels like a losing battle

So true. My GP refused to give me a referral or prescribe meds. I spent years undiagnosed and without any help. Another one did the same. They keep talking about trying to reduce stress instead but depression can cause stress. They're afraid to prescribe meds because they say it will take you to a point you can never go bac.

It hurts the worst when you ask yourself “should I breathe?” 😢😢😢

Sending love to everyone who is suffering

I have seven of these. I’ve dug myself into a hole of depression and self hatred.

they’ve been guiding me through my life

I don’t remember the last time I enjoyed waking up everyday happy. Or doing something I love and truly getting joy out of it. Nothing feels the same.

That awkward moment when you've had all 9 for several years, but didn't receive any help because of the "perfect" image of your family, then went on to take so much responsibility that you stopped feeling, then went down the self-help path because it can be done in secret... It gets better. It's never truly gone, like a really bad wound, but the scars don't hurt most days, and even when they do, it's nothing compared to the wound. We do heal, you will too ❤

Praying for everyone to heal. If not for you, find something or someone worth living for.

Having all the 9 symptoms Everyday thinking why i am alive . Whenever close my eyes first thing that comes in my mind is to end everything. Its a blessing that many people get to see doctors. You are lucky . Even if i tell my parents they will probably say that i am overreacting.

Deppresion feels like a pit that when you try to climb out of, theres always someone or something there to push you back down

9/9.. Thank you for helping this actually helped knowing what I have. ❤ this really meant a lot ty❤

I used to feel like this (minus suicidal thoughts) when I was about 9-12. It’s started on and off. Like one week I would feel like crap then the next I would go back to normal. Then it slowly started to get more frequent and it feels like nothing is right in life. The worst part is, I want to live, but at the same time, there’s nothing to live for (except my kitty cat). I don’t necessarily want to die. I hope people struggling more or less than me get better, no one deserves this. ❤️

No one in my family knows what i'm going through for these past few years. I fear that if i tell them, they wont understand. They even label me as lazy because i'm always unmotivated to do things and sleep alot. I cry almost every night because of this.😞 If only they knew how i really feel inside.

Worked so hard on healing my own depression, that I can't believe I answered no to all of them. I've never been so proud of myself. Choosing to show up for myself everyday has been then best decision of my life.

have 8/9 for years, saw doctor took medication, no use and it is still here. Toughest is you see other people enjoying life, having good time and being happy.

I feel all of these, things will get better guys. We're all in this together

The thing is, you’ll never be able to know if someone has depression by how they look. They’ll hide it. You’ll prob find them smiling more than others. They can laugh. They can smile. They can be social. Doesn’t mean they’re not depressed. I can say this from personal experience. Watch what you say.

I have been feeling all of these for the past ten years. God knows why I am still alive.

It’s hard to trust people especially for me now and it’s effected me more than ever. I was in love and only ended up being betrayed by her.

I have ' em all and more and it feels like how my whole life was running! But too intense in the last three years!

I have all 9 but my parents are so strict and oblivious to the fact that no one is perfect I can't even consult or tell someone about it.

I feel this everyday. I don't know what its like to feel normal. I don't think I ever was normal. Im glad that I haven't given up.

I had 8 of those. For 3 years. Thank you for this information

Thank you for confirming the fact that I was depressed

I finally got a perfect grade, my mom is gonna be so proud

I remember watching a similar video a few years ago and matching 90% of listed symptoms. Since then I moved away from abusive household, went to therapy, started taking pills, started journaling, got rid of my dermatitis, stopped taking pills, started meditating, stopped therapy, then started and finished it again for now, started daily affirmations and daily exercises…the list goes on. It all took me a few years but now I barely match even two of those points. Life is majestic to me now and I’m so thankful to my past self for not giving up and for seeking help and for doing the work. And to my present self for keeping it up. I mean it when I say I know how it feels when you match most criteria for diagnosis. Do your best to see it as a sign for action . You can do this because we’re the same in that sense. Keep your head up, champ❤

Hope we all get mentally strong and healthy😔

I used to have all 9. Now I have maybe 2-3 every so often. The change is possible, I am living proof. ❤

I forgot how to truly smile 🙂

i feel like i forgot what it’s like to be happy, like my smile has been removed. is it just me?

I’ve been feeling a little bit low recently but when I am. My friend at school just had a go at me for ignoring her. But I’ve been struggling with self harm. But then after the fact I feel guilty

I’m pretty sure I’ve had at least 6 since early childhood and I hate that for myself but I’m grateful for good doctors and medications that do help.

The first time...you don't really realize until it's too late. Now I'm incredibly aware everytime the thoughts come back.

People say that i am addicted to k and c series but these series help me to escape reality and look forward to the next day, teaching me lessons of loving myself.... helping me get over my suicidal thoughts

"i don't wanna die but i don't wanna live like this"

I have watch your videos about depression, and how it really is, I think you hit the spot in that one! I’d just got the diagnosis depression, medium difficulty. I recognize very much of what you are teaching , but even if I can resemble most of what you have taught is it still hard to grasp it all. In my case do I feel mostly emptiness, feeling numb, and have some anxiety attacks if you will, but it is a struggle to remove this mental downfalI. I feel that there is absolutely so much more to learn from depression even for those who have it. and I really want to thank you for your learning. This is very important for those who have this diagnosis that the closes family or colleagues understand and get some deeper knowledge about the subject. I am grateful to learn more to beat this involuntary pain that one goes through ❤️

I have been convincing myself I’m fine, there’s no problem. Even though I know there is. I have all 9 of these symptoms. I used to be such a cool, amazing, fun person to be around. But my life has been going down hill. The littlest of things that go wrong send me into a spiral of sadness. I used to be the most empathetic person. I used to care for other people so so much. But now I don’t give a crap about anyone. I hate myself, but hide it from everyone. I tell myself it’s just a faze or to get over it. I have suicidal thoughts all the time, the only reason I don’t act on it is because my family would crumble. No one seems to see what I’m going through. There is so so so so so much more to this. It’s just the tip of the iceberg and I’m to tired to write it all out. I’m only 14.

the hardest part for me, is that i told my friend i had depression and she just ignored it and brushed it off, she will never understand what it’s like

Ive been in depression eved since last year. Humanity is just rolling downhill and i Lways hVe conversations where is like some asks if im ok and i smile and say that im fine. But then as soon as a look away my smild turns into a rock hard straight face. Everything is aslways in darkness. My sugfestion is to find the best out of life and ignore the negative. If your in the trash, find the treasure.

Earlier there were things I loved to do even though I wasn't good at it like singing and playing guitar, now they feel like a chore. It feels like I require courage to do even what I used to love.

I've been depressed for years. I'm on medication and therapy, and yet i can only sometimes poke my head about the surface of this illness. Sometimes every day feels like torture I'm sorry for traumadumping, but thank you for talking about it openly and spreading awareness. Just knowing what's going on with you sometimes helps so immensely

Me with all nine symptoms for years but just hides it no matter how bad it is because I'm to scared to talk to anyone about it

I have experienced 7/9 symptoms for 1 months & was unable to tell anyone about my condition....It is really difficult to act normally when there is a storm going through your heart....but i gave myself time to heal..."no one can help you but yourself" this phrase keeps me going through it... it's been 2 months still it hurts but the intensity is much lesser & also the symptoms been less...so get up & live your live because you never know what surprise is waiting for you😀

I experience all of this symptoms,when I was little til now because my parents always talked about my sister proudly while they couldn't even praise me or pay attention to me,as I grew older I feel left out whenever my family talk about something I just don't feel any connections, I'm used to it by now but I hardly talk to my family so I just read books,cry alone in the dark or hurt myself sometimes I want to say that I can't handle it and rant to someone but sadly I don't have real friends because they just me because they know that I'm pathetic,loser and someone who need attention and care,sorry for my wrong grammar or spelling I'm only 12 year old

My brother took his life 1 month ago today. The conversation I had with him was " Hey bro did you speak to mum about your problem?" Then him saying yes but she couldn't handle it... Then followed with I don't blame her I can't handle it either

I'm out of the darkness. Took 13 years to get through the dark cloud. But I am here. Healed. Happy. Whole. And profoundly grateful to be alive.

Yep I feel all of those. I’m depressed Last Sunday on January 28th, I had an accident with my right ear to loud noise exposure. I went to the audiologist yesterday and they said my hearing was normal. I thought that I was gonna be fine. But I tried going back to school today, I couldn’t concentrate. Everything feels not normal because I can’t hear things the same way before. It feels like I’m never gonna be the same, and I don’t know if can finish college. I don’t know what to do. However, I have a good support system, and I’m going back to my therapist tomorrow

Thank You Dock.

I have all of these. I told my parents recently. I thought it would get better. But I am starting to regret it. They are more strict for some reason with me. I can’t take this anymore. I can barely hold on if this keeps going. I haven’t been truly happy since I was 7. Childhood trauma is a bitch. And it causes me so many problems

I think I've forgotten how to be happy. I was literally searching for subliminals to make me a happy version of myself and ended up here. It's tough, but I don't want to give up.

All are correct 😢

I was born that way. I just had to pull on my big girl panties and focus on blessings and gratitude... I'm 53 and still use my attitude to deal with these feelings... Best thing I did was embrace solitary life and cutting out energy vampires.. Be blessed 🙏

I have at least 6 of these, I am scared some of these I didn’t even know were even a sign of depression

I'm reading so many stories of fellow Indians who can't seem to get help and their parents are also not supportive. It just breaks my heart seeing how bad the situation and how difficult seeking help is here. :(

I really resonated with 8/9 of these systomps. I feel so broken and empty yet my mind is not matching with body. I have so many goals and a very busy lifestyle I want to keep up with, and I go through the motions when necessary, otherwise I’m struggling to just wash my face or do any basic tasks. I’ve been in bed all day, my mom motivated me to go to the gym today- and I did. She was reminding me how good I felt everytime I did go, but the heaviness of the lack of desire or interest almost always beats me. I feel like I have no one to talk to. I have two friends, they both don’t seem to understand. I’m not blaming them but I wish they would just give me some comfort instead of either trying to say “no soldier, we got this let’s work!” (Which is usually what I’d say with her, my closer best friend) and then my other friend who would say “yeahhh I understand” and proceeds to talk about a problem she is having that day, that is insignificant- in the grand scheme of things (of course her feelings are valuable to me, and her problem is valid) So I’m just stuck here. It’s like, what do I do? Do I just keep going? I know one of the worst things that has took a toll on my mental health is my private school’s outrageous school system. Both my parents are very supportive, I talked to my mom though about switching to my friend’s school that I already know a lot about and their programs. It has a lot more opportunities that align with my goals, and at the same time I won’t be taking a test every single day that requires me to memorize chapters every night (literally). I’m stuck at this school for now until next year I think. I’m tired and lifeless. I feel like I could jump out of the window of a tall building and my mind would process it as “oh the view is really nice.” Like what the hell is happening to my cognitive functioning. I feel like I could actually end up killing myself because everything around me is so normal and no one or nothing has realized the real impact of this on me. One friend told me “yeah it’s kind of difficult what’s happening to you since you conceal it pretty well” on the outside I can see what they mean, but I am literally telling them I feel depressed and really empty lately. Do I have to be dramatic and break down crying to raise an eyebrow? It hurts I don’t know what to do

You are amazing !

i stopped talking to people about how i was feeling after i realized all it did was hurt them. the first and one of the only times i came to someone about something i had told my mom that i couldn't remember the last time i was actually happy. she burst into tears because she cares about me, but i don't want anyone else to have to feel that way. I would rather keep the pain to myself than have other share it with me.

Me who has all nine for years : 👁👄👁

I can’t rember anything from when I was happy or happy times anymore all I think about is is dying or jumping out my winder or punching my self and scratching or scaring my leg or arm I always feel low every day

thank you so much for this.

7th point touched me to my tears! I have so many problems making the smallest daily decision, people around me laugh on me, saying me dumb! I was such a beautiful young aspirant with such a great smile. I miss myself!!!

“…than usual” I don’t remember the last time I haven’t felt this way

I moved and for a couple of weeks I was very sad, I don’t know if it was depression or anything like that, but for at least one week I didn’t want to do anything, I wanted to stay in pajamas and be under a blanket watching cheesy Netflix movies all day, I feel better now, my mom said one of those days that she missed her Chloe, and I said I did too, then I went to the bathroom and started crying. By the end of the week I had told everyone why I was so sad, and they helped remind me it was gonna be okay. I haven’t felt like that since! ☺️

I never remember the last time i was truly happy, i suffer from emotional pain all the time but i dont remember feeling sad. Its like being lost in a void where you are emotionless and never feeling hype. I dont want to live, but i dont want to die either. I dont know what to do with this endless suffering.

All Nine Symptoms, but NEVER tried or WILL choose Number Nine either. Thank you for your advice ❤

I had three childhood best friends and my nanny died in a two year period. Yes the depression lasted more than a few weeks, but overtime the depression from their passing has passed. Last year the woman I was in love with also passed away. I have known her since I was 13 and I am 40 years old now. Lack of motivation comes more from being a disenfranchised citizen/second class citizen. It isn't mental but actual physical barriers like background checks that keep me from moving forward in my life at least in the direction I want to go. But, I sleep good and have zero suicidal thoughts. I am aggravated lately though because I take care of my family and my brother kinda just does nothing, my father does nothing, and my mother is always in the hospital. She just had a pacemaker in and they cannot get rid of the infections. She tries to help but in reality she just wants to rest. My aggravation is me not wanting to accept that my mother is giving up. I don't want to come to terms with that.

As a man, trying to accept the fact that we do have depression is one of the biggest challenges. "just feeling moody that's all." Our ego just loves to deny it.

I just started crying....

Ive had around 7 of these symptoms for around maybe a month and i really wanna get help, talk to SOMEONE but it never happens. I always wanna just tell my parents so they can get me help but ik they are going to question, doubt, ignore, or misunderstand it.. i feel like if they do any of those things it would be completely humiliating or embarrassing for me. Also one more thing to add, ive been crying more sensitively than i used to. My brother has been the most supportive even though he doesnt know anything about it. He’s been there for me when i was crying, when i argued with my parents, and just been there to give me the last rope when nobody else has. Shoutout to my brother ily 💗💞

My overthinking makes me internalize why am I feeling like this and address it by convincing myself I have found the answer I need.

I've had all those symptoms since I was about 12. Luckily I'm getting medicine for it and on a waiting list for some more counseling.

My first doctor always brushed me off as “seasonal”. After she went to another office, I got the nice old Hispanic lady who saw my mood chart and immediately got me into therapy. Then about a year later she helped me get on medication for it. Now I’m much happier, sleep better, do more things, and have lost 20ish lbs. helps having someone listen.

"People don't suffer from depression, they suffer from the reality we live in" - Keanu Reeves

„Persistently feeling down“ … sounds like a symptom of reality.

I only don’t apply with number 5, and i have for like a year, yet i lie on my depression tests so no one worries about me.

I am going through a lot but if i tell my family about this i am afraid that they might say “We bought everything you needed, you are in a good family we do everything for you why don’t you appreciate that?” And else. I am getting worse and worse day by day and i feel it getting serious but i just can’t find the courage in me to talk. I don’t know what to do anymore..

Things i have stopped.. 1. Living 2. Talking 3. caring 4.being happy 5. being happy 6.trusting people 7.Loving someone and never getting love back 8.Asking for friends 9.Believing myself/life 10.Having expectations 11.Eatting 12.Being happy 13.Dating 14.Loving myself 15.thinking im pretty but im really not 16.Caring for others 17.trusting people i love 18. Talking alot because no one listens 19. Sharin my feelings 20.Being myself 21. Being positive 22. People pleasure 23. Being sorry for everything 24.Trusting everyone I see 25.Giving people way to many chances 26.Not being cold 27.Hating being in my room 28.Believing in myself 29.Making friends 30.Crying after losing friends 31. Acting dum 32. Not standing up for myself 33. Apologizing alot 34.Caring for others. 35. Trusting someone again that already lost my trust 36.Forcing myself to do something i dont want to do just for others 37.Eatting to much 38.Sleeping to much 39.Crying 40.Loving 41. Using emoji's 42.Being someone im not just for ppl 43. Being open minded 44.Not being insercure 45. Respecting everyone 46.Being to active 47. Using energy Things i still do.. 1. Cry myself to sleep 2.Cry about being left by fake friends/relationships 3.hurting myself 4.Having depression 5. anxiety 6. stressed 7. Saying im fine when im really not im just hurting 8.Giving people way to many chances And way more i just don't want to talk to much because i know yall dont wanna read all of it. Random stuff I just thinked about I think it's learn to accept and distance yourself from others, don't take anything to heart, it is better to let it slide off than have it mentally/physically destruct you "Now, I understand that no one is crazy, they make you crazy little by little" - the sound of magic (kdrama) your so real.. it hurts, we give so much and receive so little in return The worst thing about betrayal that it doesn't come from enemies... This hurts so much..its a deep reason when no one cares about you but you care about them its unfair..why no one is understanding our feeling… When someone else is sad, i try my best to keep them feel that they are listened to, that they have me but when the same happens to be, there seems to be no one. I don't know which one hurts more, being alone, or loving again. Talking to much is a big one for me.. I only speak when necessary in school and I don't ever answer questions. Whenever some tries talking to me I have very... Intimidating.... Eye contact :) And I had to switch schools, and it's been like 5 weeks since school started, I ain't got 1 friend and honestly... No friends, means no drama. I'm just a dumb bug. "A fish with it's mouth closed never gets caught" It hurts when you don't get the treatment that you give them ! It leaves you broken 💔 I find it Hard to trust people because once I went to a family friends party, we took our dog. He put a cage around the exit to the house so mine and my other family friends dog couldn’t escape, we left them outside while we partied. I felt a little bit scared about the two dogs so I told my dad “ dad! Do you think the dogs will escape? “ he said “ no, trust me they won’t if they escape never trust me “ I trusted him. 2 hours later the door bell rung, that’s when my heard dropped. Somebody was holding my dog. His eye was about to come out and blood was all around him, he was hit by a car. The people said they were on a walk and my friends dog came up to them because he has escaped with my dog and my friends dog led them to the road where my dog was lying. Then my friends dog led them to the house we were in, we were heartbroken. I kept on telling myself it was a dream… it wasn’t. My dad rushed him to the vet, he survived! He has broken his 2 back leg bones, this was because he ran across the road but was hit on the back causing him to fly. The cars speed hit his back legs and they got fractured, he couldn’t walk for weeks but after a while he finally could ! My friends dog is a legend why should we care about their feelings when they don’t understand or validate ours Its hurts when you still can't stop caring even they dont care.... Everyone has there bad moments.. But for some people like me.. Those bad moments never leave...

I have never thought I had depression but 6 of these have been something that's been happening for the past few weeks

I have never seen a comment section being so nice to each other like this one in over 2 years of being a RU-vidr.

How I’m feeling and have felt for many years now is way beyond depression. There’s nothing more I can do to pull myself out of this very dark place 💔