Millie you are ALLOWED to cry, you are HUMAN. You are allowed to feel the rollercoaster of life, the older you get the more sensitive you get… I swear!
I wish I’d had a RU-vidr explain eating in that way when I was younger, honestly you put it perfectly. Coming from an ED background too it’s so true that your body really fights for those calories when you starve yourself, hence the cravings for calorie-dense foods. And also it’s okay to crave those things; your body really needs fuel so listen to it, no matter what it’s asking for! Eventually you’ll reach harmony again and the cravings will settle. 💗 also you’re a strong girl Millie, it’s very inspiring
No one ever gets over a parent passing away.. no matter if you have processed it in a healthy way. You will be dealing with this for the rest of your life. It's ok. There are a lot of us out here who get it completely. We are in different boats but we are all in the ocean. Continue to give yourself the freedom to feel whatever emotion you feel as long as you are not hurting anyone then it should matter. You aren't p*ssy you are human mama. We all are. You are so mature for your age but allow yourself to grow your emotional intelligence and not see it as a weakness. Much Love.
I love how real and open Millie is with us. I think the crying over your mom is normal, and it obviously gets a little easier but the pain I think will always be there as she was obviously your best friend, your mother, your rock but I’m 100% sure she’s always with you, and she’ll definitely be proud of the person you are. I can’t imagine the pain you went through/ still go through, but all the pain just shows how amazing your mama genuinely was and the reasons to why she’ll always be loved and missed. I hope you know how much she loves you. You’ve got this girl carry on making her proud!
Honestly, I think part of how emotional you are is where you had to grow up so quick. I wasn’t emotional until I went through some trauma that made me grow up quickly. Sending love ♥️♥️♥️
Truly respect your honestly and vulnerability. Millie you’re doing amazingly and your Mum will definitely be so proud of you. I think what you said in this video will definitely be relatable to a lot of people. Thank you for sharing, we’ve all got this 💪🏼💖
There’s something about her and her videos I just love. I think it’s because there’s no “script” or plan, it’s just her and the camera and uploading when she wants to. She’s just real and it’s shows ♥️
It’s been around 18 years since I lost my dad and I still get emotional about it now even just little things. It’s cause sometimes loss can open up an emotion that we all have but it triggers it. It’s healthy to get upset ect. Love you Millie 💕💕
Millie, You’re so brave. I lost my grandad two years ago in July and I have only just started grieving. Grief comes in waves, nobody can tell you how to grieve because we all grieve differently. You are such a strong girl and your mum would be so bloody proud of you💜💜💜
It made me cry more when you apologised for crying. It’s not weak to cry Millie. You’re so strong and dealing with this is such an amazing way. Your mum would be so proud of you. Love you ♥️
I absolutely love how raw and honest you are with your audience. In 2020, my dad passed away and my feelings have always been something that I've been fully scared to talk about. It's like no one understands, but they do, which is why I think the way you speak about your mum is so beautiful. I never knew her, but I can tell how much you really loved her. Sending you all of my love, always here for a chat x
0:33 do you want more cosmetic surgery? 1:20 how are you feeling about your mum passing/dealing with grief? 4:02 how did you achieve your weight loss? 9:28 did you cheat on Jamie in Dubai? 12:17 are you pregnant? 14:16 have you and Jamie said "I love you" ? 15:45 hardest part about being an influencer? 16:16 have you had a BBL/ anything other than a boob job done to your body? 16:35 what's your body count? 17:00 do you believe in love? 17:20 if you didn't do social media and youtube, what would you be doing? 17:42 have you ever questioned you sexuality? Sorry if I've missed a few
Grief is shit! My dad died in 2017 and it still feels like yesterday. I feel your pain bless you ❤️ obviously it’s not the same but still losing a parent it’s shit, really shit!! ❤️
my dad died the same year, it really is such a process isn’t it, every day is a new journey. accepting that it is shit but that it doesn’t define you is the key i think, letting yourself feel the emotions of grief whilst carrying on in the life they’d have wanted you to live. love to everyone in a similar position
I learnt this in therapy ……. You can move on/let go of grief and be fine for months/ years then something can trigger you and you can feel like you are back at stage one. You never really get over it you just learn to live with that pain. Some days are easier than others
Don’t ever ever say your not a pussy whilst crying about your mum, YOU ARE ALLOWED TO FEEL EMOTION MILLY! We’re all here for you, never try and act like anyone else, you are the best version of yourself❤️
You need to cry, love. And cry a lot. When my dad died suddenly 9 months ago, I’ve never cried so much in my life except when I finally let myself grieve. It still hurts but the tears come a little less now. So cry love, just cry.
“Map of Heaven” by Ebon alexander. I fully recommend that book to anyone who reads it . its about a brain surgeon who passed away for 5 mins then came back to life and he was scared to publish the book because he didn't want people to think he was crazy and he just talks about what happened when he died and its actually quite interesting x
Thank you for opening up with your grief it makes me feel so less alone and makes me feel like what I’m feeling is normal and it’s not just me thank you ❤️
I think because you’ve never been a crier you think it’s strange for you to cry but I just want to tell you it’s so fine and like when you’re talking about something so sad like your mam and everything you had to go through it’s normal to cry and you should let yourself and not suppress the emotion. Love you so much - realest yt out there ♥️♥️♥️
I can relate! I lost 60 kilos eating 600-800 calories a day. Everybody was complimenting me and telling me I looked great - except my Dr. He was very concerned. I started binge eating and gained 45 kilos back VERY QUICKLY. I am now obese again, but in the process of strength and flexibility training and slowly, slowly losing weight again ❤
That question about your mum being proud of you is just so wrong… I’m 100% sure you’re making her proud every single day with your achievements and how you are as a person. Please don’t listen to anything like that ❤️
When talking about your weight loss I resonate so much, I went through a stage of restricting myself to 800 calories a day (which did make me loose weight) but after a few months it was unobtainable which made me wanna eat more food, after breaking my 800 calories I didn't know when to stop eating because I went through the process of 'I've ruined it now nvm' which made me put all the weight back on. Now I don't restrict myself so much as let myself eat what I want to avoid binge eating, I've lost more weight not worrying and thinking about food and feel so much more confident in who I am than when I did when I was quickly losing weight.
You should own your spiritual journey - you gagging is a reflection of how you're not ready to fully embrace it for fear of being judged. The people who need to hear what you have to say will find you. Embrace it ❤️♥️
Trust me I’ve embraced it to its core it’s just hard to speak about online and get the right message across as it’s such a trend especially on platforms like tik tok ❤️
You’re such a down to earth girl. I lost my dad at the same age you lost your mum so I get what you’re going through. She would honestly be so proud of you girl and how you’re smashing life. Keep your head high and cry whenever you want or need too because trust me it happens and it’s okay. Keep winning at life girl 🤍
I think therapy would be super helpful for you. Genuinely. To talk to someone about the loss of your mum, what you saw and how you felt would really help because right now you’re reliving that moment every time you speak about it, you need to speak to a professional and get help with mourning. You’re so strong, and it’s the best to not be numb to your emotions, we aren’t robots - we are humans and you lost your favourite one, it’s normal to break down about it but it’s ok to get help too. Sending you love!
Millie, I hope you can realise now that you weren't the problem with the overknee boots story. They could've been sold in a bigger variety of sizes. It's a problem within a toxic fashion industry. Anyways happy to hear that you feel more confident now XOXO
Im currently struggling with the same thing around binge eating at night after fasting all day until 5. I'd smoke and start binging until I went to bed. Then I'd wake up feeling so shitty and ashamed. I'm on day 3 of cutting out weed and have been eating healthy and feel so much better already! Nice to hear I'm not alone!
Hey Hun, talk therapy with a psychotherapist can really help with the grief you're experiencing and the random crying. It's not pleasant, and it takes a lot of work, but I swear, it's worth it ❤
Ah Millie 💔 when you were crying it broke my heart. It might just be that you feel so much more empathy now towards things as it’s opened up a part of you which is understanding of other peoples pain/ trauma. Thank you for being so honest x
Some of these questions. Wow. Grief has no time limit Millie, you deal with it in your own way, in your own time. Your mum would be so so proud of the woman you are becoming every day ❤️❤️
I couldn’t stop crying the comment ‘when my mum died’ that’s the worst thing that can happen loosing family. I’m so sorry about this ❤️ Such a cruel world we live in I wish you all the happiness
Millie , I don't think we ever stop grieving. I had miscarriages when I was 16&17 and have a 5 year old, 4 year old and nearly 1 year old but the waves if grief still come for my babies that could've been , and I never even got got meet them. So I can't imagine the pain of you losing your mum , you are so very strong and your mum would be so proud of you and just know it's okay to cry 💖 sending lots of love your way 💓
There really isn't "processing properly" when it comes to grief, they say it comes in waves and could last year's sometimes even longer than that especially when it's someone so close to your heart, I think even more when you fight the tears they sit and wait until you cry again, it's not pussy to cry especially over the loss of someone you love, don't be so hard on yourself girl tears are the physical sign of loving someone who is heaven side now, sending love and light your way 💛☀️
thankyou for making this, when you mentioned about not eating all day and binge eating at night i related so much, its difficult and you explained it perfectly.
Millie I cannot imagine losing my mam I’m 30 and I know I wouldn’t be able to process the grief so thinking about you so young having gone through that and seeing her as poorly as you did x It must be so hard and my heart hurts for you x sending you all my love x
There is no timeline on grief! It will get easier in the years to come. I’m five years in to loosing my Dad, it does get easier. I think it took 2-3 years to get back to feeling normal most of the time.
Going off of your pregnancy comment yessss girl! Live your life first! I’m so glad this is becoming more of a regular thing people having kids later. I’m 25 and still can’t imagine myself being a mum yet but I still feel there is a pressure to definitely have 1 by the time I’m 30
This! But make sure you’re aware of your biological clock, not to worry you, but fertility starts declining after 30 which is probably why the pressure exists x
Wow, you’re really strong ❤️I’d not be able to handle strangers asking me how I feel about my mother’s death. It’s so rude to me, when they don’t know me personally or my mother - but you handled it very nicely❤️❤️
Ya its not easy losing someone. I lost my mom 2019. It does get easier to live with but the pain feels same. It's because when we are hurt something happens to fix it usually but when you lose someone there is no fix.
The same thing happened to me. Before I never cried, even when my dad was diagnosed with cancer. after he died I couldn’t stop crying and now I cry all the time🥹 happy and sad crying. This trauma we went through (even tho we processed it) just changed us. Nothing wrong with it
I’m the same after my Dad died last September with being emotional. I just get chocked up at any slightly emotional situation. Even if I see someone crying on the TV, I’ll just feel like I’m gonna start crying to.
I'll admit, a couple of years ago I remember leaving a comment about your accent changing and being fake. Now though... I was wrong and I'm sorry. I've realised my own accent changed a lot in my late teens and early 20s because of a combination of peer pressure and working in a call centre for years. I sound nothing like my family and Yorkshire friends and, like you, I get asked all the time where I'm from. It just is my accent and my voice now and it's always hard to explain. So again, I apologise for judging. I also hope you're truly doing well after losing your mum, I'm lucky to still have mine in my 30s but the fear is always there and I can't imagine the grief you've dealt with. It's okay to cry, or not, or to go through it however you need x
Your body allows you to process things only when you are ready, our brains are amazing things, maybe because your in a better stronger place those buried thoughts and feelings are moving into you conscious. ❤
My mam passed away in 2011 from cancer when I was 12, I’m 23 now and girl I’m still to this day still trying to process the loss and trauma of everything she, we, me, went through as a family xx
i agree that when you stop caring about your weight, everything is different, when i stopped caring i lost the most weight because i was finally being healthy
My grandma raised me and she passed away in october. My life has drastically changed. Everything is so much harder and different. I miss her so much and dont know how I'll ever get over it. Its getting better but I'll never fully get over it. I always go to call her and forget.
Hey gang! Millie you are a queen, and you've come a long way! but this comment goes to everyone else, first, never ever give up on yourself! i dont know the prespective on someone how's "having a lil too much weight" but i was underweight for years, it even reached a point when i tought this was the normal, and im so happy i've gained about 17Kg in the last 3years, im 24 now and had a big time gaining weight! Please dont be scared of your weight. no matter if its + or -. Do what you feel good about and the rest will come along! // A former wannabe cool guy!