Are we ADDICTED to feeling sad/low/empty? 

This is so real. For example when my life, my mental and physical health are okay...I almost feel like it's boring. I find myself thinking "is this it? Is this how life feels when I don't have any mental health issues? And it does feel really weird, that's when self sabotage comes in! But I'm working to break the pattern, of course

I am very literally addicted to loneliness it’s beyond repair at this point

It's hard to rewire our brains and thought patterns. I recommend Martina Sazunic's 'Build A Ladder' philosophy.

Shit I can relate hardcore. I feel numb 99% of the time and when I finally do feel something I hate myself for that because hey I'm not supposed to be happy

Exactly. This is a common topic in my therapy sessions ☺️ Appreciate the video!!

Horror is a genre

I’d do anything to make myself feel happy I hate being sad and axiety but it’s hard to achieve with very loud voices all the time - I do sometimes feel that if I felt get better that my family won’t care about me anymore but deep down I know it’s not true and it’s just my anxiety

I am not sure if addicted is the right word to use but I get what you are saying. I would say "used to" or "know the ins and outs of so it feels more secure". I never really got the chance to feel sad, low, empty or anything. I was just numb for many years, regardless of what happened in my life. I did every single thing possible to get out of it but nothing worked (because I refused to address the main issue). Yes, I was used to feeling numb but I was begging to feel anything but that. Now, I can finally feel things, I eventually get to experience emotions. I kinda have to experience a lot of stuff from the past. Not even traumatic per say, just day-to-day things, which now is very hard to look at. I definitely have a very small part of me that feels comforted when everything goes to pieces (but it's more external) because it gives her the permission to use whatever coping skills she has but she is not addicted to it and she doesn't rule my life, I do. I'll send in the comments a version of the poem I really like. The original one is about 5 stages of change, the adapted one is something I strongly relate to.

I feel like sadness and "bad" emotions are way deeper than good ones, happiness is shallow and it doen't suit me, being sad it's kinda a rest. I wanna feel something strong, like sadness, not stupid and silly hapiness. I can't really put this in words, but sadness and pain are inspirating, full of sensations, so deep and kinda beautiful... I sometimes doubt i wanna be happy. I do everything to be so, but i never manage to cause i'm not sure i want to

me right now. i am also addicted to feeling bloated and over eatting and the pain of fullness. I want to stop and i dont know how to stop. i am so addicted to not being good, its gross