0:00 My Alcoholic Friends - The Dresden Dolls 2:47 Oh No! - Marina and the Diamonds 5:49 Love Like You - Steven Universe 8:13 Class of 2013 - Mitski 10:26 Burned Out - dodie 13:57 Art Is Dead - Bo Burnham 16:27 Are You Satisfied? - Marina and the Diamonds 19:45 Freaks - Surf Curse 12:13 I need to be alone - girl in red 25:16 Alien Blues - Vundabar 27:53 Better Than Me - The Brobecks 32:20 4 Morant - Doja Cat 35:11 Not Allowed - TV Girl 37:59 Jealous - Eyedress 40:02 Michelle - Sir Chloe 43:37 YKWIM? - Yot Club 47:09 Swimming Pool - Marie Madeleine (slowed) such a good playlist, any playlist w tv girl and eyedress is already 100x better
pov: you kin yaguchi -never feel like your good enough -recieve compliments but still feel like yout not talented -pushing yourself to hard -think everyone else is more talented than yourself -feel like what you make/done isnt great welp thats me :'>
Anyone else miss when art used to be fun. When you didn't have to impress anyone. When you didn't have to follow anything. When there wasn't any pressure and you could just make art.
A very long rant... Art is very fun. I mean, it USED to be. I love art. I love drawing. I've been drawing alot of things since I was small. During those times, I was so full of imagination and ideas that I wanna draw down. I didn't care about what other people say or think about it. I have a long ass story i want to make a comic off about a parody of FNAF? Sure! I drew a 3 book long comic about it. I want to draw and make lots of OCs? Sure! Let's make hundreds of them and forget them at a later date! I didn't care at all. I even started an art account directed at Steven Universe that I cherish alot. That art account helped me improve, and it also helped me make lots of friends who are also passionate on art. It was very fun. I think about them every single day. I wanted to be an artist when I grow up. I wanted to be a comic maker when I grow up. Anything related to my hobby. I was also in alot fo fandom, so I drew alot of things. My little Pony, FNAF, Steven Universe, and so many others it's hard to list down. It's been a few years since then. Drawing now makes me stressed. There's just way too many ideas stacking up in my mind and everytime I tried to draw them down it just didn't meet my expectations and I break down because of it. I got embarrased looking at my own art. It's so weird, it's not the artstyle I wanted. I have a friend who started making art because of me, because back then just like I said, I didn't care and I openly tell everyone that I like drawing. I teached her about many things I know, and little stupid tips I used to improve my art. Over the years, her art improved like crazy. It was first a cartoony powerpuff girls style, then it changed into a very VERY good anime art style, and currently now it is a real life like style. I was suprised. No, it was more of shocked. I didn't expect her to be so good. She can draw real life people, she can shade! She can color and all that stuff. While me? I didn't change that much. I still have an anime dirty style that's not even that good. I was jealous. I started drawing way longer than her, why is she better than me? But of course, I didn't tell her that, because I love and support her. I can see that she's not good with body proportions and is better at making head busts, everyday she tells me that my art is very good and there's alot of them and my ideas are always good. I was suprised, and I pretended that I was happy hearing that. But I am not. Everytime I try drawing, it's all shit. I'm getting more and more stressed everyday and drawing is making it worse. I don't want to draw, but at the same time I do. My art account has long been gone, before this pandemic started. Since it was directed at Steven Universe, when the show finished I didn't really know what to do. Of course, I can keep creating SU art, but..it's just that all those friends I got from the art account, one by one they changed and moved on. I didn't really like it, because I don't know why it's just hard to move on from something I loved for years. And so I ended up deleting that art account of mine, heh. I want to be a comic maker, I really do. I try making small pages of them and using references and tips from those profesional comic makers, but it just didn't work out the way I wanted it to be. More and more ideas are stacking in my mind, and they are screaming for me to draw them down. But I can't, I never feel satisfied writing them down. It's annoying. It's so annoying. Why can't I improve? Why does my art stay the way it is? Why can't I draw hands? Why can't I draw two eyes at once? Why does all the hair i draw look similar? Why am I like this? How did it got like this? Why is everything..so MESSED UP???? Recently, I found about this anime. It took my interest and so I waited for it to come out at Netflix. It did, and I really enjoyed it. I love how the feelings of the main character was interpretted in the anime. I love the progress the MC made in the anime. I love the artworks displayed in the anime. This anime..it's very beautiful. I loved it, and it kind of woke up a little bit desire to start drawing again. I mean, I still draw, but not that much.. It woken up my forgotten dreams of wanting to be an artist, a comic maker. But I denied it, I don't want to feel hurt anymore. Besides, everyday I wake up like shit. My dreams are all about those ideas stacking up in my mind. My sleep schedule is messy, its hard to fall asleep so I always try to sleep early. Everyday I wake up to the thought of being an artist. Achieving what I always wanted. It is very annoying, because it always make me realize that there is still a part of me who wants to draw. So I tried to push it down by thinking negative thoughts about it. "Being an artist, isn't easy" You're wasting the potential you can be from being born in a rich supporting family" "Why not be a lawyer instead? Everyone says I'm pretty good at it". But it affects a whole part of me and now I am confused. I don't know what I want to be in the future. Hell, I don't even know if I'll be able to survive till I'm big. I don't know if I'll be accepted to the next school I'm aiming for because my scores are dropping. I shouldn't have started drawing. 24/03/24 Edit : Hey, thanks for the kind words everyone, I forgot about this comment before I finally checked my notifications and found people still liking and reacting to this comment. All you guys' replies have been really comforting, and I cried reading them too haha. I'm touched that you guys are also touched by this comment I randomly put out due to the tiredness. I'm not any better now, I think, just a little bit. I feel alot better towards drawing, but I'm still growing like a fungus in a toilet full of shit. To everyone, I hope we can all pull through together and finally reach a place where these feelings don't exist anymore. - Cheers and love, from another stranger in the internet.
i just wanna cry reading your story. i know this feeling, it really hurts. started drawing for a long time but haven't improv much and this makes me sad and stressed which leads to insecurity. but imo, you tried your best and you did a great job! without you knowing it when you first time draw and you really loved it, it makes a beautiful memory. I hope you are okay and achieve your dreams. so proud of you!
i relate to this all to much, drawing used to be my escape and something i cherished doing. it’s really the only thing i picked up and enjoyed doing and its been a consistent thing throughout my entire life, something to look forward to, something i’ve always relied on. It turned really south a few years ago and i stopped enjoying it, a friend close to me who i looked up to in which it was a goal of mine to surpass them turned out to be a horrible person and suddenly i lost all of my motivation, everyone around me continued drawing, getting into college for animation, continued chasing their dreams while i just sat back. i started this anime and enjoyed it and took some words to heart but ended up getting to scared and afraid to continue it, i should pick it back up again since very recently i’ve found a small project has been keeping me very interested, ive gotten back some motivation to continue drawing and even sparked my passion for writing again. it’s weird how something so small can reignite the passion in you and i hope that you follow those feelings instead of shoving them all down, snuffing out the little flames that keep you going is only going to hold you back, remember why you started drawing and what about it made you so happy when you were younger. try to re-associate drawing with meaning, things you care about now and maybe even paint out your emotions? it can help you remember why drawing is such a beautiful thing
I'm wondering If I chose the right career. How can I be an artist if I've lost my motivation, imagination, and confidence. It all seems kind of impossible.
I love blue period so much. It portrays so much emotion and shows the difference between hard work and talent. I don’t think I’ve ever had anything so close and dear to me than blue period. Shows that art isn’t always fun and shows there is more than just liking art. The characters are also really shown beautifully in each chapter. Can’t wait for more in the future!
I like how this manga kinda portrays my frustration with my own art, how I don't get the right product of my art I envisioned in my head or how jelousy wraps around my head and feelings of how others have amazing art. Drawing was fun for me until I pushed myself to hard to be better than I was before, I mean even the happy things you do can make you feel down about yourself or stressed out.
Art Block feels like burning from the inside out lol i've been struggling for months, barely being able to do one decent sketch I like every two or three months and then painting whenever I could reunite the energy to do so even if it was only five minutes. Now I have so many ideas to write but I literally can't make my body do it, I go to the page, I want to write. But it feels so uncomfortable, it's like i'm cursed and the curse makes me unable to write, or as if I had a restriction towards it. It's horrible, I want to cry.
... 😰well just draw whatever literally whatever maybe even try to portray your feelings (idk a lot about art but u seem 2 b struggling and I feel terrible for u sorry)
@@Sora__Z thanks yeah it's really hard, makes me feel desperate. I try as much as possible but either I can't make it as I would like to, or I just literally can't make myself do it. It's hard to explain, I try to command my body to at least do just a little bit even if it's random but i'll somehow end up procrastinating or alike
I fell this. So hard. Been in art block for like almost two years and it’s a wonder I haven’t given up on art yet. Every drawing hurts my soul and no matter what I draw it just never. Looks. Good. I hate everything I draw and I can’t even bring myself to practice enough to fix that. Recently, though, I did a painting that I’m..actually happy with? Although immediately after I went back to art block. But, I think i might be getting out. Slowly. Eventually.
The time of art school applications are coming close… I’m crying so hard I’m not gonna get in where I want to go, I just know that I’m not in the right level but if I could just somehow get in, I’m not sure that would be the best for my mental health.
When I much younger I started learning how to draw I remember obsessing over RU-vid videos & how to draw books. My parents even bought me a art box with different art supplies to show their support. I remember being really happy whenever I got praised from friends and family. Fast forward to now, i hardly make art and when I try I either get really frustrated or bored. I’ve been like this for years it sucks cause I want to make art but I just can’t. It feels like losing a really close friend, it makes me really depressed. While reading Blue Period hasn’t exactly fixed my relationship with making art, it has started a spark. Just seeing Yatora’s passion and struggles for improvement actually made me jealous. I love this series, I hope I can even recover just a small amount of my passion for art, it’d be nice to spend all my nights painting while drinking coffee like I use to.
Just saw this play list now.. When I first watch this I thought it would be so much fun about art and stuff.. But it's so much deeper. I never expected to relate to Yatora so much. It hurts actually, I cried at every episode cause I can put myself in his shoes. My friends are all talented, in fact, I'm happy about them. They supported me so much! even after those "Thank you" or "You're doing great" i was not satisfied. I'M not satisfied with how my skills are right now. It is so painful. I'm not good enough. I was not able to see myself the way my best friends see me. It hurts, it's painful. I loved drawing.. but after realizing and seeing people better than me I quitted for four years and came back this pandemic, I was still not satisfied with the results. Yatora was a character whom I can relate to deeply, it was crazy. The only character I relate so much was Kuroko Tetsuya and now.. Yatora is the next character. I was jealous of my friends, I hated myself for being jealous. I wanted to as good as them, heck, even in my own brother. My big brother was popular, smart and so much more, my parents loved him. Every time my mother looks at my grades, she'd just laugh.. It was horrible. I never learned how to love myself, I never experienced the feeling of academic validation, I never knew what it's like to have confidence.. I never knew what it's like to love my own improvement.. Here I am realizing.. Most of my comfort characters have strong determination, they're cheerful, they're confident. At first I thought it was just my type.. but then, I grew up. I realized.. Those comfort characters have the things that I don't..
I was experiencing this hellish art block, it took me a whole year to get back to drawing. Safe to say I am now constantly making art I actually enjoy and pride on. I wish for those who read this will get back to drawing without feeling bad ❤❤ you can do this! :> and its fine to take ur time, whats important is u ❤
I love art, I love drawing, since I can remember I draw. I love being complimented on what I do, but seeing the shit they praise makes me stressed, they praise my drawings like they're good. There are times when I want to draw, happily I put on a playlist, I grab my pencil and start, but then I get an artistic block, I feel something that oppresses the pit of my stomach and I have trouble breathing, I can even tremble, ideas don't appear in my head and I get angry. That block ruins me and doesn't let me enjoy my hobby. Blue period inspired me, but it didn't help me, I felt insufficient, I felt that I shouldn't complain and that I should overcome all borders. But I didn't get over anything, I even made everything worse, now I just wait and procrastinate what I want and love to do, draw, just because I don't want to feel bad.I'm disappointed in myself, I didn't achieve anything and I feel like I'm not moving forward, I'm just lazy making excuses, I feel disgusting. WHY DO I STAY IN ONE POINT? WHY AM I NOT GOING FORWARD? Why don't I finish my drawings? Why am I crying right now? Why do I always have so much weight on me? WHY DON'T THEY SUPPORT ME? WHY ARE THEY MOCKING ME? WHY THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND ME? Why am I so stressed? I hate my art block, but I hate how I cope even more.
When I started watching this series, i thought of it like a, little show of arts, nothing more, probably would even be something I would forget and keep moving, then it started, i am like him, i am fine, but I don't feel complete, and, how was i going to be anything better? I have everything I wanted, i am good in every i want to be, so, why do I still feel this way? Why do I want to cry? Why can't I do something and not think of it like something I can do just for fun? Why do I want to be perfect when I know I just *can't* be perfect? Why do I keep looking at the past like it was better, when I know, it's just not? Why I am like this? Why can't I just be better?
WARNING!! Vent/rant ahead I love drawing, I love art it's all so nice, and when I do something right it's just ahhh so amazing but it's so frustrating like I also hate it I always get something wrong in everything I do and even if I think it looks nice I always end up disliking it later, the other night I was just hysterically crying and screaming into my pillow because I just got really frustrated and it's actually happened more than once. But I also spend like 70% of my time drawing or more sometimes I could spend so much time doing it but then again I often lack motivation to do it it's rlly annoying. Drawing is literally my life and what keeps me going but it's also what often gets me down. I espect so much from myself sometimes and when I fail it's really disappointing. I had to do a short comic book thingy for art class and I was so pumped for it, then I procrastinated and didn't have much time and I didn't like it that much. The teacher said it was great but that's what they always say isn't it? It's so annoying when I have to show someone something I don't like because they can't see the best I can do, that's why I keep most of my drawings to myself, I feel so ashamed and frustrated because of my failures and I just don't want anyone else to see that because they expect better than that.
Thank you, i was feeling overwhelmed about peoples opinion in my art and this made me feel so much better, blue period is very conforting as an young artist and your playlist made me feel the confort yet calm sadness of identification that the manga did in my first read💜 :D
The fact that I was listening to this playlist while getting stressed about my drawing. I get called a perfectionist and I don’t deny it at all. When I try to draw what I want to, it just never goes the way I plan. I’m surrounded by so many people who can draw and I don’t mean just draw I mean they’re artists. I’m just kind of there wishing I was as talented as them. I don’t think I ever will be.
My brain knows well that it takes hundreds of practices to make the good art I want, but it's really tiring to see your art not as good as you expect it to be.. Art was fun, but throughout the years I've raised my standards past my level and now I need to improve to the point where I can draw what i exactly want to make myself enjoy art again. At this point I'm scared to face my art. I'm also scared to finish my artworks because when it's finished, it feels like it's proving my best isn't as good as I thought
me struggling as an artist whose ideas have stopped coming,imagination perished,scratched out sketchbooks,planning to quit art,LITERALLY NOTHING'S COMING AND I'M WONDERING WHY I EVEN STARTED OUT THIS THING CALLED ART.
It's been months... i couldn't even spare a moment to hold my pencil and draw anything because if school and everything else going on in my life ... Now I'm staring at the weird scribbles I'm "drawing" . It feels frustrating , having such strong emotions but not being able to put those feelings on paper my hand is heavy and my mind is blank .
I've never filled a sketchbook, I'm trying now but it's burdensome and I always feel like it's not good enough so sometimes I just don't draw for some time but contantly think abaut drawing and stop myself for dumb reasons(i tend to cordinate the pages too like "this one is all self portrait" or "this one will be all eyes") like this isnt the cheapest book I have, i somehow Fell like I can't waste a page or do really ugly art with no pressure, I'm trying to change tho.
this was rlly good- but its lowkey creepy bcs i was thinking abt Blue period all day and now its on my recommended even though i havent looked it up on here-
i have my art exam next week, funny how i just started pursuing art around August-ish, it was a very sudden decision. Not knowing anything, I just drew. But being next to someone really good at art and whose did art like half of their life, kinda puts pressure on you. I don't know if i like art or not, but, its pretty fun, on some occasions.
Really need to stop comparing myself with my friends artwork lol, I rant to my mom all the time on how I don't feel I could have a future with my art because I still have so much to learn and improve on, but I suppose all artists have to be patient and work hard to achieve their goal, if I keep practicing I will eventually be satisfied with my work finally..I'm trying to focus on something I need to improve on while focusing on a bunch of things at once, I'm trying to get better at anatomy right now, it's difficult but I feel a lot more organized like this. Practice makes progress!
feeling like your art is not good compared to all these artists you keep seeing everywhere, proud of their creations, while you just want to be proud of yourself and what you do. When you first, don't like yourself that much, appreciating your art/what you create in general is not a simple thing. (Vent//) At first, i started drawing because of my sister, and what i mean by that is that i never really drew before, my teachers always said i was talented, but i never saw myself as an 'artist', till we went on lockdown, i was eleven at that time, i was seeing my sister getting recognisation from her art, my parents were really proud of her. And i wanted to feel it too, feel that affection and attention they gave her. I also wanted to be famous on internet, seeing artist exposing their art, people encouraging them and telling them that their art was good. So i started making art, no, it was'nt art. Back then i created an instagram acc, and i started discovering how to make accs and posting on the internet, it was all new for me. Creating that acc, i was hopping to get famous really fast, my teachers always said my art was good no? So people would think the same right? i first started drawing a weird home. But i gained nothing, i was angry. Really angry. I just wanted recognisation. And why didnt people like my art? Is it not good enough? And with that, i started tracing on art, it was all anime content so right. I traced people's art so i could get recognisation. And it worked, my acc grew and grew i met some other artists and they gave some tips and all. I felt good, it felt all good. The people, my acc, my 'art'. I even started enjoying drawing. So i tried drawing without tracing, and then, realised how bad my art was. But i trained a bit, i won't say i did a lot of efforts to achieve that, i don't even remember, i was just drawing, and it finally became "drawing for fun". It was not for attention, but i enjoyed it. On that acc, i faked many things, like my age, saying i was 15, my art 'improvement' during the years and many things. Drawing is a comfort activity for me, it makes me happy, a lot. But remember, i was only eleven, and with the time i grew up, and Inrealised many things around me and had and has a hug breakdown. I guess it's a part of growing up. The year after, we had to go back to school. I was still a good kid with good grades and good state of mind, but many person and events made me change so much, i just want to go back from where it started. And yeah, self hating, just.. hating every single action you do, feeling ugly, 'questionning', wanting to disappear. And i was still drawing, and my art was the only thing i liked. Last year made me grow a lot, changed me a lot, and affected the me of this year. Rn i just want to draw something, feel proud of my art, i dont care if you say it's good, i want to feel it's good, to know it's good, but i want to be the one who see's it. I don't feel like other people are better than me, for me I can do better but i still don't. But i know they are, compared to mine, it's.. not even comparable??? Just please let me draw again, please.
THIS. 😭😭💖 I'm experiencing an artblock right now I can't seem to find interest in drawing ao much like I used to, and its kind of stressing me out 😭 I haven't been drawing lately as well, which makes me even more sad It makes me feel like I'm not improving T_T I'm really glad that I happen to find this playlist, seriously thank you for making this!! 😭👌💖🙆
I may not be an artist but this is curing my writing block a bit as I write the struggles of an artist having a mental breakdown. Wait here's the few parts I had written. I opened the art room door. The smell of damp rain whifting to my nose the second I entered. The blinds stringed up and white transparent curtains pulled to the sides. The wind furiously growling despite there being no thunder. I put my coat down as I caught sight of her. “ Lusion?” She didn’t hear me. A crack sounded through the air as she broke a small number 2 pencil. She huffed in annoyance before letting the remains drop to the floor. A blank stare accompanying her face. Dust falling down the ceilings, with no sunlight filtering in. The wide black crossed window, providing the only light. It’s a neutral sea green and grayish light. She gave me a sniffling of her nose. Well not me directly, since I don’t think she’s yet to know I'm here. She pushed her blonde locs out of her face, her hand brushing the freckles littering her skin. I couldn’t see much from a distance, but I was sure there were slight dry cracks on her face. “ Not right..” She whispered, “ Not..good..enough!” Her voice had slightly risen as she reached her hands out to grab the canvas and push it off the easel. She started shaking and breathing heavily before she looked up and I saw her blank pupils look directly at me. “ Oh uh..” I croacked out that much of a sentence. It must of sounded like a mocking tone, cause she looked me up and down and then looked away from me. i think it's pretty alright for my writing pratice period. But you cured it for giving me an idea so thankyou.
Well, i was forced into art and english in kindergarten. You can picture how that went. Honestly, i never asked to be an artist, but at the same time i grew tired of finding a talent that isn't art. So, i accepted it, i wanted to learn digital art and i did. It's been about 2 years now, and honestly, i started burning out. Guess i overworked myself with finding an artstyle.. Honestly, this is a secret of mine, i felt mad. I was mad at a person for being better at art than me, even after i suffered so much from being forced. And THEY were better than me. This secret has been with me for awhile. In all honesty, if i didn't read someone's rant just now, i wouldn't have felt like this again. In all honesty, i'm glad i feel angry. Being numb all the time isn't much fun, so thank you. Now, i decided..that i'll take a break from art for awhile, same with the online world and focus more on school to get better grades. Feeling this burned out and on this art block, it's the most logical thing i can do. In all honesty, the reason i wasn't good at art was because after kindergarten i stopped drawing and started drawing again in 5th grade. It's no big suprise that i didn't get anywhere with my art, i really just didn't liks it back then, not atleast till my sisters were drawing aswell. I really adored them. Honestly, drawing became a chore after my brother started asking me to do realistic art. The issue is, i'm physically uncapable of making realistic art. I pressured myself alot, that my artstyle must be atleast semi-realistic or anime-like or else nobody will like it. Due to that mindset, i really just forgot that artstyles ARE a thing. I forgot to the point where i just forced myself to draw. I really just hope i can find an artstyle i'll cherish. :) I already found one for the eyes, with body parts aswell! Except for the head, im not sure whether circle or no circle is a good idea. But like i said, i'm taking a break from art.
Damn I’ve never felt so connected to a playlist I love it omg And according to the comments this character is relatable new kin Me wanting to do art but I get art block and I’m afraid to mess up I get mad when I see it’s bad I drew this profile but I was in art school and got advice as I drew it (well an art school for anyone to join doesn’t matter what skill u have ) but when I draw at home or outside of the art class I don’t have motivation TvT I hope I get somewhere in life I feel like my art isn’t getting anywhere or good enough for a career i need creativity and meaning I barely make any work
Me gusta dibujar pero no realidad jamás he tenido mis propias ideas, utilice la playlist para hacer mi tarea, muchas gracias ♡ yatora de fondo es muy 😢😢
Drawing because you like it and drawing because you need to go to art university is different 🥲 I love art and I can confidently say that I'm good at it. But when I'm preparing for art university I have to practice drawing the same thing over and over again and it's just painful
Hello everyone, I read a few of the comments and I knew this for a while now but I really am afraid. As of right now I really like art but I'm afraid that I will one day hate it. I thought of it time and time again but I really don't want to stop. I think I'll regret it if I stop too. I don't want to stop this because I'm afraid so I'll see how I'll go as far I can go for now. Maybe I'll regret it but I made my choices and tried my best. I don't want something I love to hurt me one day and it's even worse I can't even say that I didn't expect it and I think it's someday soon. But as I said, I won't stop right now. I'm sorry that you had to go through that.
For me, art is a way to quiet my mind. I’m going to be an author, so my abilities as an artist don’t matter much to me. When sketching, everything’s silent. In the mind of someone with OCD and misophonia, that doesn’t happen much. Despite knowing that writing is my calling (I love it more than anything else) I appreciate art so freaking much. I can’t imagine stressing about it like the comments claim. Stay strong you guys!!! Edit one month later: lmao so I got an iPad and have been drawing digitally. So uh yeah now I relate to everyone here. It’s so stressful, I just wanna be good bye I hate this.
i couldn't finish this anime bc it hit too close home. making art is so complicated beside the people's comments the self criticization kills me. i lost count of the breakdowns i had bc i compare myself with every living creature.
I had a project in school and because of that shit i got an artist block. I‘m not even proud of it, alot and i mean alot of people told me it looks amazing, like i have talent and all but i didn’t have fun at all making my project and it was only for a good grade in my report card. Now i got the grade and it‘s 💯, at one point i was happy because i sooo struggled with my project but the after effect is just being scared of never be able to draw anymore. So now i just trace fav anime characters on paper which is the only thing i have fun with right now.
I'm so sorry but i just wanted to let this out from my heart 'cause it hurts me so much.. I have an art block for 2 years now and I can't really escaped from it.. and i just join an animation class, so I'm afraid I'm gonna lose my drawing skills
