Bravo! As a 50+ yr old, 35 yr costuming/wardrobe/etc veteran in movie & theatrical production. Navigating deadlines/ last looks/camera ready all while not truly understanding my ADHD diagnosis and hiding my autistic traits from being noticed by anyone outside of my home/safespace. *I feel as if your monolog is my daily inner voice(if I could beautifully and eloquently put the words together that my daily inner cries have no real voice). You have literally captured and conveyed so many of my struggles,hopes, and dreams. Somehow for the first time I feel heard, not alone, and a little more hopeful. I am excited to hear anything you have to say. You have truly given me a spark of hope and a feeling of ease. I am am on a big personal life project due in 7 days. After hearing this, I am getting into flow with less resistance, a big smile, a full heart, and allowing myself grace throughout this process. Thank you friend. I needed these words so badly.
This brought me to tears. I'm late diagnosed and still recovering from years of health issues brought on by trying to cope in the wrong environment. It took someone else pointing out to me, a boss at work, who said they didn't expect me to do absolutely everything that my team were doing. It had never even occurred to me that I could actually say 'this is causing me stress, I should do it differently or not at all'. I grew up being told you have to work hard, do all the things, blah blah blah. Where did it get me? Depression, Anxiety, Overweight, Unhealthy, barely able to function and no career prospects. Now with diagnosis in hand, I'm making radical changes to my life, I'm even trying to go back to Uni if I can afford it. My ADHD brain needs to be stimulated and my Autism brain needs structure. I'm still figuring it all out, but it's just one step at a time. Also, I didn't find any issues with your audio. Sounded fine to me.
I keep coming back to this video to remind myself why I create, and that my reason for living and sharing is NOT to create money or make sense to others. Altho i do need to make money and persuade people to function in this world. I can do that through creating or other means. My creation helps me most of all to make sense to myself, and hopefully that sometimes helps others connect to themselves more easily too. Thank you for creating this and putting it out there.
All I can say is that it is good to know that I am not the only one who doesn't fit in and if you made it this far with by using your art and research to teach and build a place for yourself, then I can too learn to use the mediums that are available to me to create and inspire. To find a job that brings out the best in me rather than earn as much as possible.
Thank you to allow us to be not good enough. This expectation that we put on ourselves is tiring and decremental. And note for yourself, we don't have to have a video every week, month. Just one when you feel it's time to be share.
I'm a latchkey kid of the same era, struggling with how to do more than barely survive racism, disableism, sexism and the Knowing things don't need to be like this but are and will likely continue to be in my lifetime; it's too disheartening, right now. I've not been able to make art of late - it's always been a process/tool of sustaining and sustenance but it, too, is one of the things that's too...something, right now. I appreciate your thoughts and videos, and ability to make - I find pieces of solidarity, hope, beauty and humor in them. Thank you.
This is my second video from your channel that I am watching this morning. And again I enjoyed watching it. Now I got to take a rest for myself because I need to settle down all the information that I just absorbed. #yourwordsarecomforting
This is so beautiful, your costumes are amazing! I love old fashioned clothing and it gives me a warmth I can't explain. Everything you say hits me to the core and it's like you understand me.
Great video Amber. You were the first “ally” I found after being diagnosed a couple of years ago, and you express what I experience (and need) so well. Thank you!
