I can relate to how you feel. I feel held back a lot, and have a hard time expressing how I really feel etc. I always think many others here on youtube seem to do better than me.
Hah, yeah the phone thing is a tough issue. Most of us NEVER pick up the phone unless it's expected, that's when we have our script handy. I'll notice when I'm away from people i'll think of things I should have/could have said, or while i'm rambling i'll have this afterthought like "damn I wish I could have said something better". Needless to say, it interferes with communication. Thanks for the comment man. Hey it takes courage to even post comments, i'm sure when your ready you'll videos
I think your presentation style is fine. People can speak with a lot of confidence and articulate well but it doesn't necessarily always make interesting videos that you want to listen to from start to finish.
@laurelisavantgarde Thanks for the comment. You will get better with videos, trust me :D. Even if you just make a video of yourself without uploading it that helps. It's almost like reading aloud, so you can hear what is you're actually saying... as opposed to keeping stuff in your thoughts.