Avoidant Personality Disorder & our physical health 

This video topic just sheds light on so many relatable health issues. The heart rate, high blood pressure and insomnia, unhealthy food habits. Even when trying to change it, tends to not last for long. Doom scrolling is a thing as well. Putting yourself out there sharing vulnerabilities with others we trust can help I think. That’s why this community is so helpful.

So much of your experiences are so relatable. I’m grateful I found your channel

Hey just wanted to thank you for sharing ur life struggles and day to day life with AVPD. You are really appreciated! I wish you the best, can’t wait for the next video, keep it up!

Oh my gosh YES. Trying to explain to a dr that I don’t exercise… because I can’t. Mentally I can’t make myself. I know what I’m supposed to do, I just WON’T. That look of perplexity and exasperation. “But you HAVE TO.” Yeah but I won’t…. I miss my old body. I hate watching my muscles just melt away but it’s still not enough for me to do it. And being shamed for it makes me even more unlikely to, so…. Yeah

... Our seeming inability to do even simple care, for ourselves, yet we are often quite adept, at taking care of others - we might idealize a type of _'co-dependence'_ that we'll take care of others, and desperately, hope that others will take care of us, too...

I think your videos are very informative! I also use food as a coping mechanism and it not having a great effect on my general health. I can recognize both general anxiety and depression, but the only mental problem I have seeked help for is insomnia.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this! It was also a reminder for me to release some tension from my body (to anybody reading this, unclench your jaw.) The fact that anything from digestive issues to chronic pain + disease can all be traced back to mental health is kind of wild, it's good to get reminded of that every so often so we can figure our symptoms out. Have you ever read "The Body Keeps The Score" by Bessel A. van der Kolk? It takes a look at this issue specifically through the lens of trauma. I've been slowly chipping away at the audiobook and it's been really fascinating so far!

thanks a lot for sharing your experiences and trying your best to make an actual and meaningful difference in this world. i found you after my therapist mentioned AvPD after struggling for weeks with giving me a EUPD diagnosis. i feel like this being taught in elementary school would help a lot of people understand themselves as well as others who do struggle with life a lot better. but i guess that isn't in the best interest of our economic system and those who benefit from it. but again, thank you so much. you are so helpful and i am looking forward to learning more from you. 🙂

I fully understand all you have said in this video. The current physical affects of the actual thing I am at that moment most anxious about often affects which physical symptoms are occurring, from feeling sick, sweating, feeling like a really heavy weight is pressing on my stomach or chest, a stabbing sensation in the chest, very fast heat beat down to simple sweating and visibly shacking. I comfort eat and as things have been tough in the last 6 months, I have put on a lot of weight which I hate, and this now makes it even harder to go out as although I do not look too bad as I was only a little over weight to start with, I just really can't do it. A lot of people just can't understand the inability to get out of bed, even when you do really want too. I can just lie there for hours, and sometimes do get up, then 30 mins later just go and lie down again and do nothing. I also resonate with the appointments thing, as I just don't make them unless I had to, or more honestly I don't get someone to make it for me unless I really need to. But if I do make one, I can't miss it as I would feel so bad about letting the person down, so I do not miss doctor appointments etc. I also fully relate to the self harm part of what you said, which again is not great for us and can cause in some cases serious problems. As you said sleeping can really be affected at times too. I on several occasions went more than 80 hours with no sleep, and would for months at a time never get more than 3 hours in a night and never all in one go. Was a nightmare. Now, because I have cut right back on doing anything, I am getting 5 or 6 hours most nights. One thing that is very strange with mental illnesses, is that one can affect another one. I will give an example that is true for me, and others might have other examples. I find great relief and have a huge desire to self harm, just as my anxiety rises it means I am less likely to self harm as I am more anxious about having to for to the hospital for stitches. So as my anxiety lowers the chance of needing more stitches at the hospital rises. So it can become a bit of a balancing act. Anyway, great video as always.

I’ve definitely been misdiagnosed and misunderstood by many drs and horrible and unkind therapists in the past… I do think I may have avoidant and paranoid personality’s, along side persistent depressive episodes and other issues! I’m glad I came across your videos, It’s true drinking alcohol, smoking weed, having sex with random people multiple people a lot, being in abusive situations and loads of isolation there’s a lot to avpd and other disorders and mental illness linked to it, unfortunately not a lot of people know about it but I have found private counsellors that are knowledgeable about this disorder etc. Love seeing your videos ❤

You know I don't know how I found your channel but I'm glad that I did. Some of us have dealt with trauma all our lives but never knew that it was what made us feel so eclectic (I was going to write weird but I really do want to impress you with my vocabulary). It's something that I do to feel smart (I almost wrote intellectually stimulating but then realized that it would be overkill). I love writing. I also love a good battle of wits. People are hurting everyday and too embarrassed to talk about it openly. You are a trail blazer and a good hearted person for expressing yourself in this way. It might be a surprise to you but I also suffer from a lack of self care. I'm not sure if I'm just feeling sorry for myself because the universe mocks my godhood and won't let me have it my way like Burger King or maybe I've been trying to separate myself from a long time narcissistic relationship that I unwittingly created? I have somehow managed to knowingly delude myself into becoming a legend in a niche online community... I don't think I'm crazy but some people tried really hard to make it look that way. I honestly thought that there was something like an inside joke that I wasn't privy to but I was just being authentic and telling the naked truth, from my perspective. I wrote all my own material and cried real tears. It seemed like I was a rainbow unicorn with angel wings... 😂 As a man who played D and D during his teenage years this was kinda like de ja vue all over again. I was on a quest to rescue a fair maiden who had fallen under the magical powers of a dark warlock who wants to be Darth Vader to my Luke Skywalker... There was treasure and bounty. Jack Palahniuk couldn't write a more surprisingly surreal tale! In the midst of it all I found hope and a purpose but I am somehow still lost in a forrest of mirrors, never sure who is a friend or a foe. I think I might have caused some real trouble in the process... I am truly sorry for any pain that I have caused. Help! I'm stepping into the twilight zone. This is a madhouse it feels like being home... I don't know how to get back to Kansas? Worse yet, I don't really want to. I think I should call Darth Vader but I really don't trust him. I will take the good advice that I've been offered in the form of positive affirmations and start doing a more proactive job of loving myself ❤. I might even go see a doctor... maybe tomorrow or next week... sometime. 😂 I hope that you are well and that someone may have gotten something out of my musings. Remember that you are beautiful, competent and capable. You are lovable and deserve to be loved. ❤

That's a very good one . I liked it ❤

7:19 - (sorry, to keep tagging, so many things) _"The dual problems of undernourishment and obesity - often referred to as the double burden of malnutrition...."_ It's very real, to be over-weight, and under-nourished, in-fact, _under-nourished_ may be as much, the cause of, overweight issues - assuming that the lack of nutrients, contribute to being less able to process (any) foods, may contribute more, to storing (rather than processing, and eliminating), the far-less, nutritional foods; and that the body, being in a state of nutritional scarcity, likely would, hold more of everything, for reserves, as an actual survival mechanism... And, at the risk of sounding like a _broken-record_ - again, mind-gut connection, if say, the emotional short-fall, from the brain, is getting sent to the gut, one would eat, to attempt to satiate, this emotional deficiency - Likewise, the nutritional deficiency, the body/subconscious, senses, may report a need to the brain, that gets translated, as a feeling-deficiency... or, too that effect... (thank you)

I recognize a lot of what you're talking about. It's not logical as I see it with one part of the brain but at the same time it feels very logical with another part of the brain, that mental issues really makes you not take good care of yourself. Remembering me as a child (my parents got divorced) thinking about whether I wanted to be alive or not. I think even then I could feel my life didn't mean anything to me. Also remember reading a book about astronomy and all the sudden I felt so lonely and got the first sense of depression. Little me couldn''t make a difference in this big universe I thought... I've never been into drinking or smoking but have a special relationship to food and candy. That can get me feel a bit more calm and can start to think rational again. Today I suffer from diabetes but have a hard time taking the medicin. So hard even to keep the nose above water living the everyday life. Staying at home is the safest but you got to make a living aswell. But the hardest part I believe is to think in a sober way about why life should be precious and worth fighting for.

It's all in my head - where else, would I keep it - my big toes?? (yeah)

4:49 - That's another interesting thing, that video, Ali shared, a short time ago (Discord) - we've heard of things like _"body-memory",_ and in that video, it's suggested, that the body _'is'_ the subconscious (or relates to that, more intimately?/perhaps a part of brain/gut), and why, when we _'know-better'_ consciously, and it's not merely a matter of _'will-power',_ we may still, be unable to correct our direction... and the subconscious, is long been _'programmed'_ to respond to trauma, and other extensive stressors - That _'knowing-better'_ does not, _de-program'_ that subconscious/body. Further still - may explain, why we feel (viscerally), very uncomfortable (if not panicked), just to be in a situation, outside of, OUR normal (adjusted/compensated) range, of place, events, controls...

Have you talked about any experiences you’ve had with psychiatric medication on this channel before? I can’t recall if you have but I’d be curious to hear any of your thoughts on it if you haven’t already delved into it previously.

It must be so hard mentally & physically (because they have to align obviously) & brave but hopefully we ALL GAIN SOMETHING Even if we have to keep re listening if you have ADHD Or other shit going on as well so thanks lovely if you can keep it up but don't put yourself under too much pressure we're all here but NOT WAITING So whenever you feel like offloading 😂😭💤❤️

What a great video, got me thinking, that's y i keep coming back. I got a cold and then i cut back on smoking weed but as i started to feel a little better i started back with the weed and i would cough every time. I was struggling mentally so i started smoking more and was still coughing pretty bad every time but i didnt stop because i didnt care and i paid for it big time. I got a pleurisy, and I'll tell u for free that u don't want that. I should have cared about myself enough to stop till i was really better

Too deep of a topic... Triggering avoidance but it's just true

Im So Thankful Ive found your account, i watched your videos about you talking about AvPD and your wxperiences and i just keep seeing more and more of life be explained. I was confused for the longest time and i always thought that its my fault that im like this and my fault why i haven’t progressed so much in life. I feel stuck where i can talk to no one except for the people who get it. You talking about not going to appoointments like doctors and dentists is where i was like Yep i knew This was what i was going through. Thank You for sharing your experiences 🫶🏻💕