“They say mistakes should be made. But with those mistakes affecting grades and grades dictating your future, school really isn’t a safe place to fail.”
This hit me hard,they say this everyday but when i fail a class i get yelled at saying how I'm not like my brother,and that I'm stupid for having no motivation by my parents.
Literally, almost all of my teachers say shit like that, but when we actually make mistakes, we get bad grades and get yelled at by if not our teachers then our parents. School really isn't the place to learn new things and improve, but to get good grades and pass, and if you can't pass, you're a failure. It's so toxic and it fucks with kids mental health so much.
I said i wanted to be part of a fantasy to my sister of a book and she said but what if you had to be like in a loop repeating it over and over when people read the book.I said im already on repeat every day school homework sleep eat im already in a loop as it is i would rather be in a book that has exciting adventures.
"I got detention cause i made that face nobody believed me that it's stuck that way" I relate to this on a whole other level, my friends and family always told me that my eyes were scary that whenever I looked at them they felt as if I hated them or that I was giving an attitude, I even got in trouble with my teachers alot because I "looked at her rudely" while she was scolding me, but that's just the way my face is, it's stuck that way.
@@Deeznutsin My caretaker's husband always asks why I make that face a lot, he doesn't really know that my face is just kinda, y'know, stuck like that :l Also because he's my least favorite family member Oh wait He's not in my family :l WeLp-
watching this really made me think about how terrible everything about school was for me as an autistic person with ADHD and dyslexia. i've heard non disabled folk talk about their school experiences and wow, the system fucking sucks. i was bullied out of a school, and then the school i went to after that didn't give me credits for nearly four years of school so i had to switch to another school and was taking twice the amount of classes in one school year to make up for everything. did i mention i have multiple disabilities, most of which effect my learning and memory? yeah, safe to say that i am a completely different person after such intense stress and pressure. fuck the school system, it fails nearly everyone in it.
man you're litterally me! austistic with ADHD and Dyslexia, got bullied and stolen from teachers and people in my class, taking at least 2 hours of tutoring per day because my teachers didn't teach good or anything useful for 2 years. the only teacher that ''helped'' thought would be way easier for me to have good grades if she put 9 questions on each page test instead of 10 like everyone. most of my teachers didn't believe i had Dyslexia cause i was good at english even if it's hard for me to talk in any language (non native english speaker, i'm from Italy), didn't believe i had ADHD because i was calm and introvert and thought i was just faking it for attention, when i'd do ANYTHING if it ment i didn't have to be the center of attention, after 3 hour still i always zone out they think i'm doing it on purpose because i think i don't care about they're lesson, and sometimes send me out of the classroom to ''reflect on my actions'', didn't believe i had autism because i wan't ''acting autistic'' man i can't wait for the next school year
When i was a kid i was a straight A teachers pet and I didn’t understand when people said they hated school, i thought that they were just being dramatic, but now i get it. School doesn’t make me feel safe or excited to learn anymore, it just stresses me out because I can’t keep up, its too much pressure to succeed that i feel like just killing myself to get away from it. Thats not how schools are supposed to make you feel
I was my English teacher's pet at primary school, too. She sometimes made my classmates feel embarrassed, and in that moments I wanted to die. She also said that I'm so great. I know, I was the best in my class (and I'm still the best in my class) at English, but I felt so sorry about my classmates, I wanted to be like them. (But in other I loved those lessons because we had lots of fun) Okay, now the situation is quite worse, but I don't have to feel embarrassed so much time
I feel the exact same way but for all different reasons entirely. My school refuses to punish kids who threaten the life of another student. The girl who I thought was my best friend was actually a two-faced bitch who threatened to end my life because I was being "too happy" about the fact that my boyfriend had broken up with me to date her. In all actuality that ex was toxic constantly threatening his life and continued to do so after he had broken up with me. But it wasn't a cry for help, it was only ever to me and not anyone else. Not to his therapist. He was looking for attention. He even went far enough to stab his leg right next to me with an extremely sharp pencil. Now, I'm afraid of sharp pencils and being alone. Being alone with someone, being alone in the halls. She had caused me paranoia and more anxiety than I already have (I have an anxiety disorder, depression, and a sensory disorder) The fear of failing came from the fact I wanted to impress my adoptive parents. I don't want them to abandon me so I strive to impress them. It hurts my brain a lot because god forbid I ask a question about the topic. The girl who threatened me is still out there without punishment and it scares me. She knows my home address from endless sleepovers and parties. Hopefully I will feel safe in school soon
I feel you, even if I miss school because of the *thing*, in school I just feel so much pressure it can get suffocating from the expectations of others and the feeling of getting high grades matters for your future which it does but you get what I mean. I'm not saying school can't be fun I just don't like the pressure that comes the farther you come in your education.
"A student talking back isn't someone being rude to you; they may be someone who knows something you don't understand, and something you refuse to understand." -Me just now
I used to be a pretty optimistic, and extroverted kid. Yes, I was loud I have to admit but I was a kid that's just how kids are. In kindergarten I skip into class with a smile on my face, nothing really changed until second grade where I had a teacher that just screamed at me, told my parents I had to go on meds, yknow the whole thing. It got to the point where I was clinging to the front door crying. My mom went to talk to the teacher that morning. She went easier on me after that but I was still terrified and didn't talk anymore. Fourth grade rolls around and I'm still that quiet kid, didnt really have any friends. When I did get a friend she was highly manipulative and bullied me for two years after that. In 6th grade she left and I was alone again. No one went up to me. I once heard someone go "she has her phone shes fine" in response to someone who was going to talk to me. Hell, In 8th grade one kid was sitting with me and some other friends and goes "I've never heard you talk before" Well damn you think theres a good reason for that huh? I'm not even gonna get into 9th grade that was just a trainwreck in itself but honestly people wonder why kids hate school so much. The system is bullshit and puts so much pressure on kids and teens and makes us become little zombies feeding us crap information that will never help us in the long run.
Aw, Im so sorry. Lonliness isnt a thing anyone should go through. If you wanna talk about stuff, feel free to reply to me. Your feelings and what you have to say is valid.
I have similar experience while I enrolled in a new school. I was usually the 'extroverted and joking around kid' and well I always got along with girls and even boys. I was always the kid in the class that would include everyone and not leave anyone out, even if I haven't talked with them. But well.. My new classmates roughly rejected me as a newbie. They didnt involve me anywhere, if I tried to talk to them they would reach the topics end and go do something else to avoid me or just stare at me in an awkward silence. Not saying anything. I could see that I was not needed, I was a bother. No one wanted to know me and I started to not want to know them too. I tried at the start, I really did. To talk, to get to know them, exchange hobbies or things like that. Nothing. Nothing worked. Time got by and I became a silent kid. Always alone, eating alone, drawing alone. They started picking on me, for the things I did. I knew that they didnt have anything better to do so I ignored them. But there's a certain point that you can do that. It started to get physical at one point. I was so done one time, they anyoned me so much by pushing my chair on purpose all the time and giggling after, that I toppled a whole desk on them. I can say they shut up for a while. I became quieter, I didn't laught, joke around or smile I seemed like a cold hearted person. At this point I could stab daggers at anyone and they would stay away so the bullying didnt last. But school was hard.. It was a torture everyday. If it wasn't for music and drawing I think I would have had severe depression. But oh well two years later, here I am. I am more silent, but still a cheerfull kid inside. I put my guard on people I dont know but I still can open up. I learned from those classmates to see what's really inside a persons heart, so I guess I have to thank them, even if theirs was damn filthy and disgusting. If anyone read this boring, rambling story of mine.. Thank you. I hope you get over what you are going through now and never give up! ♡
And if you try your best and someone still rejects you, it's their loss. You are not the problem. I understood this after a while. So stay strong and don't let them lose your way!
School isn’t even about learning anymore, it’s about who can memorize the best, and recite it exactly how the teacher wants it.... and it destroys our will to live... and drive for learning...
I know right, I've learnt more from that TECHNOLOGY and VIDEO GAMES then school has ever taught me in such a smaller amount of time and when I actually have fun. Literally I learnt more english from reading webtoons then english class ever taught me. I have such a bad memory so when they FORCE you to learn things it just goes straight out the other ear then they expect me to do HOMEWORK!? Maybe if they made it somewhat fun and exciting and added each person's qualities and interests into learning but no. They just want us to be all exactly the same BUT THAT CAN NEVER HAPPEN we are all our individual people and they can't try change that the school system is so outdated to many kids kill themselves because of it. Technology is the future and they can not change that...
@Shâdøw Gîrl Aw :< I'm really sorry. I haven't personally dealt with that, but I know it feels horrible. Please keep being you. There's no need to impress anyone.
Ever just feel like you’ve given up trying at school? Like you don’t finish your homework, hand in assignments late and just overall starting to lose that care you had about not being a disappointment?
School system: Sleep early! Also school: *gives 10000 homeworks* Its true, every like after vacation, when its the first day of school, we already got shit tons of homeworks already 🙄👋🏻
I know right, I've learnt more from that TECHNOLOGY and VIDEO GAMES then school has ever taught me in such a smaller amount of time and when I actually have fun. Literally I learnt more english from reading webtoons then english class ever taught me. I have such a bad memory so when they FORCE you to learn things it just goes straight out the other ear then they expect me to do HOMEWORK!? Maybe if they made it somewhat fun and exciting and added each person's qualities and interests into learning but no. They just want us to be all exactly the same BUT THAT CAN NEVER HAPPEN we are all our individual people and they can't try change that the school system is so outdated to many kids kill themselves because of it. Technology is the future and they can not change that...
"We care about your education!" "It's ok to make mistakes!" "Don't be afraid to ask for help if you're confused!" but then they say: "Grades are all that matters." "Why didn't you get this question correct? it was an easy question." "I already explained that. You should have been paying attention." Teachers are such hypocrites...
@@bronzwillz4725 I get that. One time my class was preparing for a field trip and we were assigning seats. Everyone was trying to be next to their friends. My 'friend' (was a fake, manipulative bully) lied to pretend to be like me and said she said she had motion sickness too. My other friend, said: "She can't sit with us because she has motion sickness and needs to sit next to the window, but 'Some One' needs to sit next to the window too." That's all she said. That's all my friend said. Both me and her were kept after class and she got scolded on 'excluding her' to the point where my friend started to cry, and she even said that the fake friend had been bullying her. You wanna know what my teacher said? "I don't care. You were mean to her." Yeah, because saying that a kid had motion sickness is so much worse than bullying. (I'm no longer friends with the bully.)
@@Tipsy_Turby tbh my parents kind of understand because my mom is a teacher and she understands the workload and the amount of exams they give us. And even if she wasnt a teacher i bet she’d still understand how i feel
Grades in a nutshell about school: Pre k- what’s school? Kindergarten- ok whatever 1st grade- what? 2nd grade- I like elsa 3rd grade- this is getting annoying 4th grade- I hate this 5th grade- *no.* 6th grade- bruh kill me 7th grade- can I leave 8th grade- FUCK MY LIFE- 9th grade- I swear to god if- 10th grade- I hate everything 11th grade- hah it’s my last day here College- *THERES FUCKING MORE?*
8th was the worst for me until now. but i'm halfway through 9 now and it's on the same level of 'FUCKING SHIT' as 8, so i'm scared how this is gonna go on for me...
I've been what you would call a "nerd" my whole life and I still hate school. I hate when people assume that I like school only because I have good grades. Being smart doesn't mean that you don't get stressed out before a test or forget about your homework. This system is broken, it puts too much pressure on students, doesn't care when they are being bullied and then it blames everything on video games and technology. Edit: Ok, this is now my favorite comment I've ever made on RU-vid. I love going through the replies and seeing that I'm not alone. If you also feel the same way, feel free to join the conversation. Have a nice day ;)
Finally, someone who talked about it, I really hate it when people assume that having straight A's means that you have your life figured out and that you have nothing to worry about.
@@n1vzee It's also really annoying when they get disappointed when you get a B like just because I'm usually an A student doesn't mean that I can't struggle.
I’m an A student for the most part and that’s all well and good but in order to be that I have to absolutely trash my mental health, like light it on fire and make sure it burns. I’ve always worked much slower than other students, and though I’m intelligent it takes me absolutely forever to complete assignments. During eLearning this year everyone I knew was finishing their work in 1 to 3 days every week but I was taking from 9 am to whatever time I got to sleep every day of every week to finish my assignments. Monday through Sunday and you know what? It was barely worse than normal school. I’ve never had free time, that didn’t change, but having my parents checking in constantly made me feel awful. I could be doing well with school stuff but if you ask me how I’m doing with schoolwork or say anything related to school my mood plummets. Even nowadays when school isn’t going on. The reminder of expectations just leaves this lingering memory of every mistake I’ve ever made.
@@carianawaters6425 Same, but I think that the reason why I work slower is that I'm a procrastinator, not only that but my attention span is low, I also get bored easily, and space out a lot.
My mum asks me "where are my happy children?" Well you know what happened to them and thats because of school its a good thing my brother dropped out hey.. atleast he does what he wants and is actually free
Same. But I'm actually scared to fail school bc my brother was literally kicked out of the house bc he was very bad at it. Right now I'm failing bc of my VERY LOW mentality and haven't got proffesional help in a year.
My teachers: I know this is a stressful time but don’t worry we’ll get through this together Also them: *proceeds to give us 5 essays, 3 projects, and tell us to read 100 pages*
Man ikr 😕 I know regular school is 8 hours but there are a lot of breaks, and my teacher will have me on my laptop 6+ hours everyday. From 930am till late in the Erving and it’s extremely tiring. I am just now getting a fall break and all my mother is focused on is me getting ahead (aka me working the whole time) because I didn’t do work for a month due to not being able to. It took me at the point of crying for her to not just say I have to work all day on my break. And she called me dramatic, I wasn’t being dramatic just because I wasn’t in school for awhile before doesn’t mean I wasn’t stressed getting back. I had to mentally prepare for all the work dumped onto me. I only just recently settled into to being able to do all my work in a day without leftovers. And even that is stressful, I want to cry just thinking about doing work while I could have free time to have a much needed break. And my mom says I’ll only work a little everyday but I know she’ll want me on for hours because every other kid finishes early. But I’m not every other kid and I can’t focus for that long and I can’t do that. 😖 Sorry for the rant I’ve been a bit stressed and I’m writing this at 5am on a Friday morning so I still have work for today, and the day after, and so on.
Dude I love how he bleaches his hair because in Asia (edit:some)people with light hair that isn't natural are deemed as rebels edit: it's less common now but sort of nitpicky traditional parents type thing-
honestly this is how my burnout feels. I used to love going to school and learning and was an AB honors kid up until 8th grade. 8th grade is when I seriously broke. My grades started slipping so my parents respect for me did too. I lost motivation to do any work and hid away in my room drawing which helped me keep any sanity that was left. It also didn't help that kids in school treated me like shit. Literally last year I started to dress more fashionable and started to be more confident and half the people who blatantly bullied me started to be nice like wtf. School used to be my escape now it's my 2nd prison. School has fucked up so many kids perception on real life. We won't be randomly tested in real life we won't have to carry text books for work. Many kids used to have fun with school now all it is is competion on who can get better grades. I'm glad I'm on my last year of high school because I'm taking a break for myself and my art business. No more school work no more grades. Just me and my art.
can we all collectively agree that online learning just made some of our grades go down because some of us actually find other things to do that we actually enjoy?
Mother Mother-I love their music and this animation was just what I needed. I’ve been reading the comments and I’ve never felt more related to _in my life._ It’s an endeavor now, and I’m killing myself over academics, but I know every single of of you can make it to brighter skies. *We got this!* Believe in the me that believes in you ^^
Haha my parents just don't care they sleep all day and wake up for like 3 hours to make food a day or go to sleep straight after or at like 7am just before I wake up at 8am or at 6am just before I wake up at 7am for school, I tell them something and they just push it away and moan about having to do things parents should do. Half of the time they don't even wake up and I have to make myself food. I'm only thirteen this has been happening since I turned 7, my sister has been taking care of me while my parents slept my whole life, but now my sister is in university so now I have nobody to care about me and my other second oldest sister is always asleep at her boyfriends. I could literally be overdosing or killing myself right now and they'd still be asleep or I could be taking drugs or smoking and my mum literally doesn't care. Whenever my teachers HARDLY EVER call my family that I am good they're always asleep. I am the best student in my class but just because I am quiet and shy the teachers don't care. Sometimes I have even thought of trying to kill myself just to get my parents attention but i'm not sure they'd even care then. This is because my sister get's all the attention because she gets depressed and tries to kill herself sometimes. Also my house is absolutely a mess and my back garden has grass about 3-2 metres high and nettles everywhere I wanna go out but I can't, I have been wanting my mum to cut it for 8+ years and she's been saying she will but she doesn't. My family is lazy and they don't care at all
@@ratskullz_x damn man, i hope you're still alright. If your situation is real, that is so fucked up. Don't end it even how messy things are, you still have a chance on getting out of that hellhole. Finish school (even how annoying it is), leave and never look back. Do whatever the hell you want, just distract yourself with anything you like (like anime and stuff), I wish you well.
Me too, I'm always punished when I'm late to class ( i wake at 4:00 or 3:00 then going to school at exact at 5:30,at 6:00 school starts, at 4:00 it's soo dark and scary, Many student at my country kidnapped.)I'm always late and punished by standing outside the classroom till the subject is done. Most of my teachers are strict, I'm slow-learner and always shouted by them. I hate REALLY hate strict teachers.
Ernie Mae Malle you have a TERRIBLE education system. seriously, wtf??? is school a punishment facility or an education facility? why would you make your student miss a subject as a punishment? why would you get mad if they don’t understand? if everyone understands then send them home, no need for school. honestly schools like yours should burn.
I used to always have straight A’s all throughout elementary and middle school. Back then I always enjoyed school and loved the idea of it. Now that I’m in highschool everything changed. My grades are dropping like flies. Since I got such good grades before my dad expects the best and only the best from me. My current grades are all Bs and Cs, this may not see like horrible grades, but in my Father’s eyes they are. If I get anything below an A he begins to yell at me. This really damaged my mental health.
Man... I really understand this, and it makes me so sad. I honestly used to love school so much, and I wasn't sure what about it made me like it. I think, now that I have some room to breathe and think about this, it was because it was so much different than my home life, and kind of acted like an escape. I loved my dad a whole lot. Still do, as difficult as it is. But I had to admit that he wasn't as good a person as he tried to be. While he never did any of that stuff you hear like battling addictions or something, he was a guy who didn't believe in mental illness, a bad thing for someone showing violent and sociopathic tendencies. He had a knack for gas lighting, or manipulation into guilt. Making people think that something he did was their fault. It made things a whole lot stressful, and even more so when grades started to be a serious thing. When I finally kinda broke one year (for some reason the teachers had it out for me though I never acted up or even swore for the matter) and a string of failing grades kicked in, I got the beating of my life. Bruises, and blood. Something that had never occurred. So, yeah, school was really Heccing stressful. Still is, unfortunately, for both my mistakes and his. Sorry, ignore the rant... what I meant to say was I understand, and I'm sorry that things felt like that. I really wish I could say it gets better, but the bitter truth is that sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes you just can't do the right thing in their eyes, that they never understand what makes you struggle, or even recognize the effort. I just hope that they can realize that you tried your best. It's a whole lot more than what I can say. ... Have a good day, stranger
One word of advice for everyone graduating high-school. Do not. Rush into college. Take a gap year, travel, heck even just work somewhere. Take time to think where you want to go. Who you want to be. College will always be there. There is no rush guys. One step at a time.
in Russia there is no such possibility. right after high school you have a choice: either go straight to college after 9th grade, or study until 11th grade and go to university/institute. If you don't go anywhere at once, you will go for a fee, in most of any educational places, they cost more than the average class of people can afford.Even if you do well in the final exams, you have a chance that you will enter for free, but still this does not give a 100% chance of free admission.
College acceptance rates drop if you’re not a new graduate+ I don’t want to rush but I have no choice+ I can’t travel nor can I study abroad (1-I’m a girl 2- I would be under 18 when I graduate 3- there is no work if you’re under 18 where I live) I wish I could take a gap year but I can’t. I’m just gonna have to wing everything I guess
“Everybody has a cousin who hates school.” “I don’t have a cousin who hates school. *Realisation* Oh shit I am the cousin who hates school, Oh mah Gawwwd!” Edit: Holy frick guys, dats a lot o likes, thanks
I'm Korean I am not good at English but I used English because I wanted to communicate with Koruma's viewers ♡ That's what Korean society is like. I'm not very talented. Therefore I'm the only one who can answer 오늘도 Koruma님의 영상은 빛이납니다♡ (Interpretation:Today, the video of koruma is shining again♡)
I really understand people who are in quarantine now and don't want go back to school. If I don't count a few weeks in September and a week in December before Christmas, we haven't been in school since March 2020 in our country. And I can say that when we teach online, I feel much more mentally stable than ever. It's true that teachers give us so many tasks that sometimes I spend more time doing those homeworks than I normally did at school, but for me this is still better than spending a few hours a day by driving to school in crowded trams, being stressed at school and going to bed until morning when I come back home (so I slept enough hours, but another day I felt like I slept for an hour). And the worst was the week in December, when I went to school from Monday to Friday, and it was horrible for me until I left school afternoon. I felt sick, I was cold even in my jacket I wanted to cry at times and all I wanted was to just go home. Honestly, I've never felt comfortable at school, I'm studying something I don't like very much, but I don't want to go to another school because I didn't even find out what I want to do, and I although I'm in a group at class, I still don't know what to tell them most of the time, so we talk mainly when they need something and I don't want to see them. But I've never felt worse in school than the week in December. So I really don't want to go to school anymore. And I feel I'm able to do a lot to archieve that. I don't have the slightest motivation to go there. I don't care if I'll feel the same way in school as in December or before quarantine, in both cases I experienced feelings there that I no longer want. It's clear to me that sooner or later we'll go to school again anyway, but I feel that I can't do it. I finally feel alive now, I'm happy. I never felt that way at school. I understand that others want to go back to school, because the lessons are better. But if I feel like this there, then this reason has no meaning to me, unfortunately. I don't blame the school or the teachers for all this, it's just my problem. This song is probably mainly about the education system and teachers, but even so, I feel in chains at school for this reason. And I know that others are experiencing even worse things at school and conversely, some people have hell at home and may at least relax a little at school. Cruel world. I wish you'll feel better
It's kind of weird knowing that while people complain about school, other people would love to get an education. I mean... In my country schools were built for children and adults after centuries of illiteracy. It was born to be THE best thing, a way in which everyone can learn things and develop their own ideas. Sadly it is not like that anymore, and now school is just a cause of stress and sadness; even for people like me who enjoy learning new things and don't mind spending 2/3 hours to study. Something went terribly wrong and it's sad, because school shouldn't be "a cage", it should be "the key" to "the cage".
I left after freshmen year, finished it online, joined the army at 17. Looking back on it I realize I didnt have anything to worry about, and should have made more friends, but thats only compared to what Im going through now.
I have a month left of school holidays and my anxiety is already reminding me about this big test that counts for most of your grade (Let’s just say, I’m not in a great state of mind) -v-
I've seen some people commenting about school so I'm going to too. So they say school is a safe environment where kids go to learn and get a good education. That's not what is now. Now it's where they put pressure on you to be good and stress for you to be perfect and act good and get good grades or you get in trouble, when that's not what their suppose to do. Their suppose to teach us math, history, science, reading, and English or if you want art, German, Spanish, ect. Their not supposed to put pressure on us to succeed, they just have to teach us subjects that are supposed to help us when we get older but they can't even do that. And they say they help kids with depression, anxiety, ADHD, ect get help but they don't. They just tell us to do this and that and put pressure and stress on us.
I know right, I've learnt more from that TECHNOLOGY and VIDEO GAMES then school has ever taught me in such a smaller amount of time and when I actually have fun. Literally I learnt more english from reading webtoons then english class ever taught me. I have such a bad memory so when they FORCE you to learn things it just goes straight out the other ear then they expect me to do HOMEWORK!? Maybe if they made it somewhat fun and exciting and added each person's qualities and interests into learning but no. They just want us to be all exactly the same BUT THAT CAN NEVER HAPPEN we are all our individual people and they can't try change that the school system is so outdated to many kids kill themselves because of it. Technology is the future and they can not change that...
True,my school has a therapist and when I told her about my problems she said something like “Oh stop lying! Your a A+ student! You perfect,you don’t have any problems :)” like I’m coming to you to talk about my problems and you say I’m lying?
@@salmanelahi001 oh boy, same Even if I'm still in elementary God, in six months of Quarantine I learned better English than 4 YEARS of school I even learned more about history and geography again in 6 months of Quarantine than 4 years I start thinking I might just give up when I have the chance to.
It’s always “do you talk to your teachers like that?” No. Because if I did I’d get multiple detentions and an iscolation for 2 days. School is just the same day for years and years of your life, teaching mostly things you’ll never use in the future. I have uncontrollable anger now at my mum because of everything happening in life, I get scared when people look at me because I feel like they’re judging me from bullying, I’m scared to go outside with just a top on because I’m scared I’m too “fat” for the public. I am a bit chubby, yes, but I can’t help It, eating gives me something to do, I get bullied for it. But it’s always the same - you’re too fat, go on a diet, you’re too skinny, eat more, what are you doing?! You’re going to get obese! from eating a simple donut, I haven’t gone to a doctor but my dad calls be retarded for not going downstairs when his girlfriend who I hate is round and with her son, who I get along with, it isn’t my fault. It never has been. My mum always said “you were so happy when you were younger, why are you so horrible now, or, you’re a disappointment to everyone” from having a “bad day” which is every day. I’m scared to not talk to people because otherwise I’ll be asked “are you alright?” And I hate when people ask that because I don’t like talking about myself, I get how narcissistic this is, but I’m fed up of plastering this fake smile of my face to come home crying, and being yelled at for doing so, I’m fed up of life but I’m scared if I kill myself, it’ll make people sad, I might miss something that’ll make me happy again, things like that. The only time I’m happy is at home, but now I don’t feel safe there, nothing interests me anymore and I can’t take it, if you read this comment wow you must have a headache, I only wrote this so I can get it out but it’s made me feel worse now, oops holy shit I wrote this when I was 12 I'm 13 now I didn't expect this to get likes, but I'm surprised at how many people are suffering in the same/slightly different situation as me I don't have those suicidal thoughts anymore, I have one friend in person that keeps me happy I hope everyone who replied earlier is better now, thank you everyone :)
I laughed the whole time I was reading this because I have gone through exactly the same thing ! I felt like reading something I wrote myself it's ... Recomforting ... Thank you
Things will get better I promise you. P r o m i s e. You need lows to have highs and killing yourself is just moving the struggle to someone else. Please stay around. Also if you can, reach out to people (be safe about it obviously) and don't care about what other people say about you. You're beautiful and stunning. Even though you may feel ugly or anything negative, there's always gonna be a person who thinks you're amazing. Keep your head up champ. You'rE AMAZINGGGG
I was chubby when until 8th grade, if you eat cuz your bored that's fine cuz I still do, but I workout now. If you workout you wont get as fat and its something else too do. unless you don't like it then fuck lol. other then being chubby I cant relate to anything, Id like say some helpful words but I dunno, good luck with life lol
My mom keeps telling me ''Do you talk to ur teachers like that?'' when I accidentally say something in a rude way, she still does, but does she know that I'd rather not have a long talk with the principal and ending up getting a detention or an iso(lation)? no + I finished reading the paragraph now, it's like I kind of relate to most of this, I'm don't wear clothes that reveal my body hairs because it makes me uncomfortable, Last time I did, someone commented on it and made fun of me for it and more kids bring up the topic for like 5 months to the point I snapped. When I don't smile, my mom assumes I'm sad when it's just my normal expression, she tells me ''do you really need ur laptop, PC and phones to be happy? make some friends'' YES, YES I DO, I don't wanna interact with people face to face, I'm not happy out of my room, I'm happier here, the internet both impacted and ruined me, I don't know which one it leaned too, and saying ''Make some friends'' I'd rather stay alone, there are rarely people who like me, or who fit with me, or who I fit with, why should I make friends when I can't trust anyone? or when I know we will drift apart, and friendships temporary. She points out that my body is thin a lot and that I should eat more, does she know it's hard to gain weight like this? same with everyone else, it's hard to gain weight, and when I do gain weight, people will make fun of me for it, I hate having to worry about how society thinks of me, where people need to be basically the same and liked by everyone to be loved, I hate it, fucking hate it. And I don't like talking to people about my problems either, people say it makes me better, IT MAKES ME WORSE, I don't wanna bring it up, don't wanna sound rude, but I just don't, don't you think it's better for me if I don't talk about it? either way, I am going to be called an ''attention seeker'' if I open up about my problems to my friends or to anyone, they don't and won't help me, people will make fun of anyone if they aren't to their standards. I didn't expect me to write this much- oh well
I want to be an artist when I get older and school has been taking everything away from me, I want to be so many things I want to be an animator at Disney Pixar, a manga artist, video game artist, poet, writer, illustrator, author and many many more. I never have the time to draw or do anything because my school overwhelms me with work, and for me if I can’t do my art then I don’t see the point in my life, my art is my life, I feel like my school is putting chains and locks onto my brain and not letting me think creatively. I feel like school just wants me to be what they want me to be, they try fitting us in boxes but life just doesn’t work like that. I was actually going to kill myself because of stress and anxiety, also doesn’t help that I have social anxiety and a lot of toxic kids in my school make fun of me. Quarantine saved me, I finally escaped and I am able to do my art, yeah there’s online school but that’s a million times better than going to school (in my opinion). I was able to reflect a lot, and listen, school isn’t for everyone, don’t think your stupid because you suck at math or science or whatever you have so many wonderful amazing qualities. You can get through this, I’m here for you.
I'm going through the same thing as you I don't understand why people around me say they miss school.It's hell for me School gives me anxiety and I struggle to have friends.When I was a freshman people looked at me like I was a freak and I got bullied too... It stresses me out!! 😭.My school system kinda makes me depressed.I really love making art and that's the only thing I'm good at.I want to have a job thats art related but somehow I can't take that subject (bc of the class I'm in and also theres no teacher that can teach me art).so now I don't know what to do or what I want to be.I have accounting ,economy and additional mathematics classes which really makes me feel down most of the time.I do not enjoy learning those subjects.I dropped add math bc It was too much for me.I watch youtube a LOT to forget about the things that's happening to me.Sorry if this is long I just wanted to let it out :/ But, We'll get through this someday :,)
you're not alone, all of you. the school gives me anxiety, and i don't like most of the people that there are. i graduate this year THANK GOD, and well i feel lot better than before the lockdown. i don't know if the University will be worst but i hope not. if you all think about kill yourselves, don't do it. this is just the beginning, and i'm sure that there will come better moments. i wish the best for all of you, and i also wish strong and will
I doodle in class and just take notes and cram and yes school is very stressful so I try to get through it by just doing work and just trying to not fail so I can get into a good college for art
I like how people say shit but don’t know shit school is for learning the teacher is suppose to make reading or writing or whatever fun do they No they make it like it’s major important, rarely teachers try to make it fun even if they do your going to have pressure.your smart get the hell off the comments study since you get good grades but the people that have grades that is passing and barely made it or even hate school I understand because your going to be in many situations good luck this is for the people who’s not getting all A’s or A’s and B’s I’m only good in math , I’m Advance but that don’t mean I’m the best just like Ilive_frogsongs school is a pain it used to be fun not anymore tbh I’m not going to collage I’m ether going to be a RU-vidr or a businessman who makes mills signing out
The peer pressure of "If you don't get this right, you're a disappointment." It's seriously such a fricked up system they have. Punishing kids for wanting to think out of the box. School isn't even necessary in my opinion. We were born and didn't have a choice. Capitalism has way too many flaws people over look. We were born as another human. I freaking hate school...
I know right, I've learnt more from that TECHNOLOGY and VIDEO GAMES then school has ever taught me in such a smaller amount of time and when I actually have fun. Literally I learnt more english from reading webtoons then english class ever taught me. I have such a bad memory so when they FORCE you to learn things it just goes straight out the other ear then they expect me to do HOMEWORK!? Maybe if they made it somewhat fun and exciting and added each person's qualities and interests into learning but no. They just want us to be all exactly the same BUT THAT CAN NEVER HAPPEN we are all our individual people and they can't try change that the school system is so outdated to many kids kill themselves because of it. Technology is the future and they can not change that...
@@ratskullz_x The education system is very outdated, since it was explored a very long time ago. There are so many things that are old and they don't try to change it. I've gotten good grades in english because of cartoons and stuff like that. I can't believe that they still use outdate crap and not important things, like 1st aid and taxes. How am I gonna get a job by knowing how to make a pillow? I DON'T EVEN LIKE SOWING!
@@whyudoit4009 yes that is true..very true actually.. if I kept listening to my parents and teachers advice I would have been a dumb depressed kid who doesn't know a shit about society ...lol
Us kids can’t do much And we can’t escape Like me I can’t escape my mean family And we literally do the same thing everyday Go to school come home Go to sleep Wake up then repeat
and then when we get sleepy its all gaming that did it to us they say,they pressure us to not make mistakes that they made you try to doghe but cant becuase its hard and they blame you for stuff they do accadently
I’m sure that’s how teachers, and adults in general felt back then, but over time when they got graduated and got a job they realized it’s the same thing. So they just accept it and want to drag us down with them, so we could be the exact same when we’re older.
Haha my parents just don't care they sleep all day and wake up for like 3 hours to make food a day or go to sleep straight after or at like 7am just before I wake up at 8am or at 6am just before I wake up at 7am for school, I tell them something and they just push it away and moan about having to do things parents should do. Half of the time they don't even wake up and I have to make myself food. I'm only thirteen this has been happening since I turned 7, my sister has been taking care of me while my parents slept my whole life, but now my sister is in university so now I have nobody to care about me and my other second oldest sister is always asleep at her boyfriends. I could literally be overdosing or killing myself right now and they'd still be asleep or I could be taking drugs or smoking and my mum literally doesn't care. Whenever my teachers HARDLY EVER call my family that I am good they're always asleep. I am the best student in my class but just because I am quiet and shy the teachers don't care. Sometimes I have even thought of trying to kill myself just to get my parents attention but i'm not sure they'd even care then. This is because my sister get's all the attention because she gets depressed and tries to kill herself sometimes. Also my house is absolutely a mess and my back garden has grass about 3-2 metres high and nettles everywhere I wanna go out but I can't, I have been wanting my mum to cut it for 8+ years and she's been saying she will but she doesn't. My family is lazy and they don't care at all.
@@ratskullz_x you should go see a therapist and force your parents to come along, too I swear there’s much re to life than having to work. The meaning of life is to have fun, cuz you only have one!
School isnt about learning now, its about competing for grades and popularity. As a smart kid I can say that i dont have any goals for the future and try to be humble but teachers always praise me and then the other students in the popularity contest isolate me and bully me as if I have the fault of the school system being like this
And the American school system has any even the worst one I can’t think of other countries like japan or china’s school system (I’m guessing you’re American
School falls into similar criteria as prison... It mentally challenges you You’re not allowed out until authorised personel allows it You’re monitored 24/7 with cameras They have fire drills/lockdown procedures You move between rooms and aren’t allowed specific objects on grounds (for Aussie priv school we can’t have phones or pens or electronics) You have to wear a uniform (in Australia even public schools have them) SO WHEN TEACHERS SAY THAT PRISON IS AN OVERSTATEMENT THINK THE FUCK AGAIN (Also we have pointed fences so students don’t jump them... fml)
Well I’m American some public schools have uniforms and I get the phones and stuff but pens? You can’t have pens? Half of everyone I know would be fucked without pens
I say it is an overstatement because jail you eat like shit you sleep on a hard mattress or no mattress you are sourounded by criminals and depending on what you're in for you will get the shit kicked out of you. Plus school is a privilege I'd rather have the temporary limitations over no school.
Used to be the "good influence" the kid everyone should look up to. Used to get all A's, go to honors classes, put in advanced programs. Now I barely go to any of my classes and have gone an entire semester all F's
school doesn't teach us things, it teaches us to memorize I wanna learn stuff i'm really gonna need, like how to do taxes, how to get a job, how to cook/ clean, do laundry, paying debt, how to make a resume, how to buy a house, how to calculate your yearly income and how much you should be getting, I mean the list goes on...
Bruh like, I understand like you need to learn history, geography, basic english and maths, but who tf needs chemistry ? Kids should be learning things that they need in the future not some shit like what will happen if you mix helium with CO2
I understand why I need some things, like English, and Basic math. History seems useless to me, I'm never gonna use it. BUT WHY THE FUCK WOULD I GRAPH A LINE IN DAILY LIFE! I *REALLY, REALLY* HATE ALGEBRA.
I just tried to explain not even 10 minutes ago to my mom that I'm doing hella big anxiety crisis every morning before school and she was just like "Okah, go this afternoon then" *I was like uuh man, do you think it solves my sChOoL pHoBiA??*
Oh my gosh. I think people need to make a schoolphobia a thing. I don't even know why but I get anxiety of anything that reminds me of school. I'm normal when it's summer time since I know I don't have to suffer and I know I'm safe... I would even forget I even have anxiety when that happens but when school starts, fear would just rush into me like an amnesiac person in movies who bumps their head and memories or information will suddenly flows in their head. In the past I even had a fear of seeing the sun because morning represents going to school for me that's why I prefer to stay awake at night because the night sky helps me calm down. Well I don't really have that much fear now since I'm currently not attending school cause I'm too lazy to enroll for college... Though I still have panic attacks from time to time thanks to my sister who have online class, just hearing the voices of her teachers makes me lose my shit. I would always scream and slap my face when fear comes in but after feeling that pain I'll be back to normal and just watch youtube so I won't notice her online classes anymore. Sometimes I just wish my memories would disappear so I would be okay and start anew with good memories... But at the same time I also like my current personality (no matter how shitty it is) so losing a memory could also be a bad thing. I've never been bullied though I think I just hated school and the pressure it gives me. Also I have a very good memory when I was a kid, I'm not anymore but still the bad memories that my kid self has obtained was still stuck in my head and from time to time they resurface when I experience something that reminds me of those memories.
I’m currently in primary and hate it here and I’m considered the one of smartest. Everyone says when I go to secondary it’s going to be amazing but on the internet secondary is absolute hell. I have no clue what to think and is not going to bother hoping for the best because I know I’m going to be disappointed
School can be fun and a great help to us, it depends on how you do it, it depends on the person not the school itself, the school just wants us to learn and help us stay active on our surroundings, school is life, do you think going out in the school it means that you're done with the hardships!? No your life continue and you will fail a lot eventually, but ur gonna take that failure as an advantage to grow yourself, there's no life without a hardships, everyone has a problem everyone can feel miserable, but it's up to you how to handle it, don't blame on things that doesn't have to do anything with you. You're just running away.
@@phersianaheavenlyianagabri8119 I mean it can also depend on the school as well. Your school could be great, and the teachers are all amazing, and they motivate you! But other schools may not have that. But you can still go to a great school and not enjoy it, I’m just saying the type of school is a factor!
School teaches you oddly specific stuff, like if Billy had had 5 apples and ate 2 how many would he have. Like, *bold* of you to assume I would meet someone named Billy
School has made me so emotional over the years,I can’t handle it when teachers scream at me,so I try to be the ‘sweet,A+ student (aka a white bread) now I’m at the point where I want to say something that makes me sad and I don’t wanna cry but then I burst out crying and nobody cares.Our school has a therapist I went to her once and she said “Oh your overrating,making things up and being dramatic,your a perfect student! You don’t have any problems.”
When I was younger i followed all the rules and played by the game. Didn't talk back to teachers, did what they asked me, displayed wanted attributes. What did this earn me? Certificates, many of them. Back then I was proud, but now... I feel like I'm just being pet over my head with them telling me "good little robot, you followed all the rules. Just like we wanted you to". Of course the situation is much more complicated and is based on what I felt how the people around me reacted, and that school isn't 100% bad (some would care to argue and that's fine), it's just going about this wrong. Using techniques and rules that haven't been changed since school started, and the fact that most schools are no longer public services and just businesses to make profit from.
yeah. same. the system is fucked up. adults just don't understand that we can't be kids anymore. i hate it because adults are like 'all you ever do is sit inside', 'go outside and do something'. but i can't just go outside because of homework. i get like 1 hour of homework in each class. so in total that's like 5-6 hours of homework. and those same adults are the ones who give us all that work. I'm just so tired. i wanna give up and run away. sorry for ranting
This. This comment. Out of the countless stories expressed in this comment section, this one hit home the hardest. I know exactly how it's like, because I'm going through it right now. (Get ready to read an very unwell-written essay) Years ago, the perfect little kid. Good grades, mentally sane, surpressed freedoms. My parents were proud to have their child be on the "right track" for a "better future." I was a machine, sold in mint condition. Later on, the machine grew weary of the slav- I mean- school system. It was in need of repair, in need of help. The gears needed oiling, words needed repainting, wires needed replacements. And the mechanics didn't read the manual. It was booring and complicated af, so they tried improvising using what they knew. Every minute spent "fixing" the machine was another minute the machine wasn't fixed. And since the machine needed fixing from age, well, as the minutes pass, it's condition gets worse and worse. If you read this, I don't know why you did, but thank you for doing so. Unfortunately, there hasn't been a happy ending. Not yet anyways. Hopefully. Have a good day/night/whatever, my dear reader.
I can't believe I have to wake up early to go learn some stuff that wouldn't even help in my life as an adult and I will end up forgetting it the moment I step out of class.
My teachers were like, “But I assure you! you’ll DEFINITELY use this when you’re older!” Like bitch wtf? Im an artist, wtf was I learning math shit abt?
School sucks and can sometimes be bad for you. How? Sure you get education, but your mental health? Pyschical health? It quickly goes down as your education slowly goes up. Schools are just like: "We have bullies that affect our students majorly and most need counseling? PfFFt! Impossible! This is a no bully zone!" They do absolutely nothing about these things! Nothing about bullies or the poor education we get. Nothing about the depressed students or the ones who seem insane. It's a prison. That is what school is. A prison. Think of it like your a bird. Once you were flying free with imagination! Then school locked you up in a cage and forced you to fly here and eat this and play with that. You are just a prisoner. An innocent prisoner that was running free. Half of the stuff I see on tests are nothing like the stuff my teacher teaches me! I'm supposed to do this useless thing instead of learning important life skills. Us: Can we learn about Taxes? Schools: You ever heard about a prefix? Us: How do I figure out how to vote for the right president? School: you put a word infront of a word like PREschool, now try it! Us: What are my human rights? School: hahah *N o*
What do you mean? I learnt about human rights, governments, climate change, and all the essential things about life like cooking, planting, digital technologies, science, engineering, mental and physical health, human anatomy, human reproduction and more in primary!
As someone who’s lived through extreme bullying (mostly verbal but also physical) as someone who now suffers from ptsd and as someone who has a panic attack at basically walking into the doors of a high school; I can say this song hits a very personal cord for me. I’m recovering now and managing the anxiety, depression, and partial seizures that plagued me for nearly three years after everything. Most of it is a blur and sometimes I can’t remember months of time from back then until something happens and, somehow, those old painful memories are jogged and everything comes flooding back in again. It’s hard for me to even face a school environment (I was forced to go to a new school for about three years and everything was so overwhelming that i’d just go to the bathroom and not come out. I’d make up any excuse just to get my mom to pick me up and sometimes i’d just cry.) so i’m going to do homeschooling from now on. I’m 18 years old this year and, thanks to my counselor noticing my behavior, i’m no longer suicidal. I’m seeing a counselor and regulating my mood and anxiety with stabilizers as well as being put on an antidepressant that can help to treat or get rid of my partial seizures. In the end I found a way to love myself as I am no matter what, even if no one else likes me, at least I know that I love myself and i’m not willing to let myself be hurt anymore because, when you love someone, you work your hardest to keep them safe. If you’re going through anything similar just know you aren’t alone and that you are worth so much more. All my life I was told I was worthless and I realize now the only thing that matters is how I see myself. And I don’t want to reinforce those judgmental and irrational comments other people threw at me just to make me feel bad. I’ve found my own purpose in life, I love myself more than anyone I know, i’m still a selfless person and with all my heart I know I always try my best to help the people I love. For anyone out there who can’t forgive themselves or who feel you aren’t worthy know for now that I forgive you because anything you did or said in those times was necessary. You deserve a chance to live a happy and normal life just like everyone else does and I hope that eventually you can find it in your own heart to love yourself the way you love others. Sorry this is long, just a very personal experience that I wanted to share.
School needs to know that they are actually hurting some students mentally. For some people school can be literally hell. Not just saying that as a joke. But because they are actually suffering from stress or something else.
Have had MULTIPLE breakdowns in school due to so many personal problems and it seems all the school's look a blind eye to it all. All they really care about is there reputation and money. It's all really twisted and makes me feel sick.
exactly. i have social anxiety disorder and its so hard to be around other people without having an anxiety attack. my highschool does nothing about it. dont talk/participate = lose points. guess what my grades are like.
@@_animatorchara_ Yup. It's so hard to be there. It feels so sufficating. I had my fair share of breakdowns as well, they chose to let me be bullied and just move my seat in class instead of actually changing my class. It feels like I'm stuck at the end of a bottomless pit, desperately trying to claw my way out.
@@ComedyCre I agree with you. It's so hard to be there. It feels so intimidating especially when people only seem to care about social status and stuff. It also feels so hard to just even find enough energy in me to make it through a single class to listen and take notes.
I remember thinking back then about how fun school and life was, I had so many friends and all the teachers loved me. I couldn't process the thought of self harm or suicide. It just seemed wrong. Harming yourself to stop pain? Ending life when there's so much in it? But now the fact that I thought it was weird back then surprises me. School makes me so stressed out. I hate school
Sometimes, I'm so low that I get the thought, " If I wanted to, I could just end it all. Right here, right now. " But I've been able to persuade myself not to. And I don't know if I can keep persuading myself anymore.
@@marshmallowsaremyrolemodel6406 I’m doing much better now, I’ve gotten help and am no longer having suicidal thoughts. I hope yo have an amazing life as well. :)
just an introvert school doesn't make depressed tbh I like school... Well a little ill admit but the amount of work and effort you put to pass is just stressful which takes why I hate school and Like school at the same time cause I don't like to be in my home cause my dad always scold me for everything :,)
To everyone who is suffering in school: hold on you guys! Life actually gets much better when you're done with school. Im 23y.o. after huge trauma at school causing bipolar disorder to thrive. Right now Im living my own rules, my own job, feeling much better as If I were never sic. Stay strong!
@Flaffici øus do you really have to go to collage? High school yeah its a thing that needs to be went through, but I dont thing university is essential these days.
That is why we need to change school, we can’t just say, it will be over soon anymore, children are getting nightmares and mental issues that will not go away easily
none of us should have had to be _traumatized_ by this in the first place, seriosuly. theres so many people coming out so much worse, you and i included. ive been fantasizing about the day im out of this shithole. one more year to go, i have to keep telling myself, but i dont think that has to be something people have to be telling themselves. this shouldnt have to be a bad experience, it should be education about _life_ and how to deal with this shit, not "sit still, stop talking, pay attention more! who cares if you have anxiety? have you tried a stress ball??" (seriously, went to a school counsellor about a genuine DAILY panic attack in my classes and she asked me if ive tried a stress ball. for panic attacks.) i wish there was more guidance. people say there is but there really _isnt_ if you arent going to follow the path everyone wants you to take. idk man, i just want to be happy. i have no idea what im gonna fucking do after high school because really my plan, my biggest _dream_ in life is to just be _happy_ and satisfied. i have to wait to get out of here until then. its hell having to wait just to be happy, but in the society that we were born in i guess i have to.
I love how they teach us things that we won’t need in life when they could waste a bit of time to teach us more about morals, self respect and self defense mechanisms, which are more important than algebra and any other thing. How will your students use the information you taught them in the so called future If they are not even alive? School = stress = negative thoughts telling you to end the stress = suicide “was the only way to end it” Or Smart kid walking in the streets but no knowledge of self defense = bad person which didn’t have the correct education (THANKS SCHOOL) = smart kid cant escape = death. One more thing, you know what’s funny? I’ve learnt more from games than from school. I learnt a whole new language from talking in games, my first language is Spanish and I literally learnt English this way.
@Lad they are. The school’s job is literally to educate the newer generation right both in knowledge and morals since there’s some parents that can’t do it themselves.
Todo lo que dices es tan real... Ya no nos enseñan cosas útiles, si no a competir y sobrevivir en un mundo que la educación está creando por sus inútiles formas de enseñar
I was hanging out with my friend and my brother yesterday and we walked next to our school and I got anxious, I'm going back there in a week. I'm scared.
I hate school, they are like: “Ask for help when you’re confused!” “It’s okay if you make mistakes!” “We care for your education!” When they actually mean: “I’ve taught you this, why haven’t you been listening?” “Why did you get this wrong? It was an easy question” “Your grade is all that matters”
School has become such crap that once you're finally released after hours or on vacation or for the weekend, your still being spammed until midnight with assignments and notices. They want you to do work outside of the classroom (those who are in class now) and I'm not for that. And people wonder why all my work gets turned in late. When hours are out, so am I. School can wait until I'm back in my seat
It's so sad when you think about it. School is for people to get educated and live a better life in the future. Education isn't something bad and neither the process should be painful. While some kids are struggling and fighting for the chance to get a decent education others are suffering under stress and depression, wanting to quit school.