Five years ago I hit rock bottom on all metrics of what's considered a normal life. I was broke, homeless, alone and desperately clinging to every bottle of alcohol I could find. For the past two years I've spent almost all my days alone and at home. I literally separate myself from everyone. Today, I am healthy, have more money, exercising, reading novels, learning French alone, listening to music, gardening, cooking, etc. My point is this, being alone is a gift I gave myself for which I am eternally grateful. I won't be alone forever, but now I know the value it holds for my life.
It’s so true. Nowadays if we are not careful with our time and focus, people will just devour our resources and attention robbing us of time we should be spending on bettering our own life and wellbeing. People generally want to involve others in their drama which adds nothing valuable to that person’s life.
Congrats to you. You've done all of that yourself, you should be proud. If you need a French conversation partner, I'm trying to learn at the moment too!
According to the Bhagavad-Gita, a sacred text in Hinduism, isolation is an essential characteristic of wise people who continuously seek supreme wisdom.
Also in Christianity. Several times, Jesus is quoted as going out into the desert, getting away from the crowd. Some monks and religious sisters continued the tradition, inherited from Judaism. Even today, the practice of retreat prevails, whether to a convent or a monastery, a walk (like the Camino) or an period of solitude, away from unwanted influence. It may also be the case that this desire to follow the best path in life could also be contributing to the growth of single households in parts of the west. This stage is temporary for many and, with prayer and trust in God, can foster a stronger path than previously.
@@clarecorcoran8585 prophet Muhammad (saw) also spent so much time in cave Hira ,away from people ,and that was the place where he recieved first revelation
@@rafiknevinovnik807 If you believe that, then so be it. Try telling that to a traumatised person who might just want a hug from another person who's alive right now.
Solitude has been my healing of attachments that drained my life force and soul. I am now ready to take l year to be with me. I whole year solo to me. Dropping addictions, sabotage, depression. My year gift to me.
I think this is what I need. I've been thinking I should live with my brothers and be close to family but I'm longing to gtfo and away from all of them. I just want to be at peace.
I am doing the same. After having had a massive mental health breakdown (now healed) and not stopping I am now taking an enforced year off because of a recent cancer diagnosis. This year for me is a blessing and is very much needed.
Fr. I literally just deleted all my social media (except youtube obviously) like a few days ago. Stopped talking to people and have just been deeply studying and working on my future
@@ortegaproductions7513 Hi, hope you are doing better, I have a question. Do you know if you 'delete' your RU-vid....can you reactivate it and it will all be the same. ?? I have been trying to find the answer to that. I mean, not start with a 'new name' and everything. Will it go back to exactly where you left off...in case you might know....THX
@@Melinda8162 As long as you have your login and password information still, you can just delete the app itself from your phone and when you are ready just install it again and log back in. I'm not sure if you can delete your channel and get it back
You can delete the app and block its url but your youtube account is tied to your google account. as long as you sign back in all of your recommended and history will stay the same
4:05 you must limit the influence of what you don’t want and increase the amount of what you want in your mind. Until we are burning bright enough we must not allow any influence that will overwhelm our efforts of trying to change
I’m really sick of most people. After going down this road and getting my life back, I’ve noticed just how many people who claim are our friends are anything but. I don’t even want too many “friends”. People are NOT what they portray.
I needed this. I've been ruminating on the idea of distancing myself from my friends, for a while, and as much as I love them, and it hurts to say, they are a distraction to my life goals. I'm not saying it in a pompous self-righteous way, but, they do not share my same ideals, and outright asking them to is futile. It's better to follow that path and be a role-model. I just hope they understand.
Hey, if they understand and love you, then your needs matter to them :) and it's actually quite interesting to test the strength of your friendships by adding distance to them
The sad truth is generally speaking people are a problem and will always let you down. I have a great many associates, however have come to realise I consider none friends.
Hey. I don’t know if this helps, but I was one of the friends that was distanced from. My high school best friend disappeared from everyone he knew when he graduated high school. I didn’t hear from him again until 4 years later, and that was for him to just check in. He wasn’t trying to be friends again. It hurt, of course it hurt. I was sad for a long time, of course. But when he came back four years later, I only asked him how he was doing, how was his new life, and if it was worth it. He said yes and that was that. I didn’t dwell too long in the time he was gone. And today years later, I know he did it for him and I hope he’s well. I say that to say, you’re unfortunately going to hurt some people. And not all of them will stick around, but if this is what’s best for you then it’s what’s best for YOU. And you’re the only one that you have to answer to at the end of it all and determine if you did the best you could and everything you wanted to. Anyone else will either have to understand and wait for your return, understand and remain completely distanced, or not get over it and have you live rent free in their heads. But you still have to do what’s best for you, random internet stranger. Coming from someone that lost their best friend to the very same thing. :) Good luck! P.S. for anyone wondering if I’m glad he reached out or if I wish he hadn’t. I wish he hadn’t. I was happy to hear he was safe and sound, but it reopened the wound I worked hard to close. It would have been different if he reached out in the name of friendship, but he really just wanted to check in and disappear again (which was a known fact. No wishy washy stuff or false promises.)
Be careful of that hope for understanding. That hope can hold you back, waste your energy. How people react is their choice. Respect their right to feel however they choose to and stay focused regardless.
2 years ago I decided to completely isolate, leave all my social media except youtube and dedicate fully to myself. Learning languages, musical instrument, gardening, meditating, exercising, connecting to all elements and only watching videos thatd teach me something positive but mostly being offline. I started to feel so peaceful and happy that I’ve been keeping my life this way, only allowing back a few old and new friends that are contributing to that vibe. 🙏🏻 my dog is my best companion fs 😂❤
Hi good for u really but how do u entertain urself, cz from ky experinec if i dont i end up having a burnout, nd like u i want to prefer to work on myself in so many things so i wanna know that and how did u programmed ur schedule . Thanks
@@oumeima5718 There's this idea that you've been living with hyper-stimulation your entire life, and so now it's harder to keep yourself "entertained". The very need to be entertained could be similar to experiencing withdrawals. Our reward circuits are just fried because we're so used to short-term gratification. Find pleasure in small things, and comfort in stillness.
@@SlicedSlappy No friends is better than fake friends. No point in spending time around people that you have to pretend around just to maintain the illusion of connection/friendship with people who can't appreciate you for who you are, _or_ vice versa.
"Solitude for me is a fount that makes life worth living. Talking is often torment for me, and I need many days of silence to recover from the futility of words." C.G. Jung
Yessss! Yesss!!! It’s the only way to silence all the voices and to listen to the ONE voice that matters: our OWN! Sitting in our own energy, getting to know who we are deep down inside - away from everyone and all things is not only a healthy thing to do, but a necessary one! I just LOVE your posts !!!!! Always always fantastic reminders on here and teachings 🥰
Im very glad the RU-vid algorithm and the universe put you in my path today. Thank you for speaking calmly, not too fast and no loud bells and whistles etc😬 I wish more content creators would adapt this format. 💜🇬🇧
Powerful and thoughtful reflections. I totally overdosed on people in 2023, realized, left and spent 2-3 months in solitude... I walked unusually slowly for 30 days and did a lot of exercise. I said nothing more than “Hello” to people in passing for at least a month. In months 2 and 3, I had 2 conversations but preferred to be alone. I stopped using my phone and replying to messages. I taught myself to ride a moto. I rode all over a tiny island in the Thai Gulf, swimming in golden beaches and watching sunsets so radical they made me weep. The greatest freedom I’ve ever known! When I returned to socialising, people said I was different or that I’d changed. I noticed people were much more kind, generous and in some cases with new acquaintances, elevated e.g. in an advanced position to expand me personally and professionally. I sense it was some kind of system upgrade 4.0.
This is what I needed to b reminded of that what I'm doing isn't actually wrong. I have this close friend of mine whom I use to do certain things with and now I let go and haven't seen them for a while because I don't want to keep on reliving on the past and doing the same old things. I do appreciate them with the fact that we have gone through several difficult times in life, but it doesn't mean that I have to still live with that person and share my life with them. It was a good times and bad times but I've been done reliving and doing the same old things because of them. They don't understand about moving on and seeing things fowardly which dissapoints me because I know I had to let them go and never see them again . All they do is just bring me down with them. Thank you for making me feel like I have done the right and not feeling like I just abaonded them. I do pray for them and hope for the better and change. Its one individual who has to make the change for their own good. Again thank you for this message Im sending blessings, guidance, and protection your way angel 💗
I have a similar friend I have known since college. We used to party together, and continued to until last year (college was many, MANY years ago, so it was a while). During Covid he began to sell this substance and made it very easy for me to obtain. I had to cut him off completely, block his number and even delete my social media. I asked him to leave me alone for a while and I haven’t heard from him since. We had been through a lot together but I can’t go down this path with him. I can never be friends with him again. I have been on the straight and narrow since and have finally found my true self. Good luck to you on your journey. Some people aren’t meant to be in our lives forever, just temporarily so that we can learn a lesson and move on.
Hey man, I'm currently 19 and turning 20 in August... and this is exactly the video I was looking for. Full disclosure, I've been lurking your channel for a while. Your messages are phenomenal. They're the sort that will be passed down onto generations. You hold me accountable for things that I've been ignorantly avoiding. You're gifted and so full of wisdom. You get me going. I wish you success and happiness to you and yours.
I really needed this today. I had an ego death experience a few months ago (a sober one!) and when I came out of it, I had such a hard time holding on to the wonderful parts of myself I had found. I knew it was necessary to regain some sense of ego and some psychological defenses just to navigate the world, but I was shocked how poorly people responded to what had happened to me and how quickly a number of people around me treated me very badly for not conforming to their idea of how I should be in any given moment. I had to cut off a number of people just for the sake of my own heart because I couldn't take the pain of their cynicism and disdain. Since then, I've felt bitterness creep in. And I've been working my way through it, but I felt like I had failed at something. But realizing now how new and fragile my mindset was, it's not surprising that I regressed somewhat. I felt like someone who finally quit smoking after a lifetime and was constantly finding myself in rooms filled with toxic smoke. I've retreated from the world quite a bit, but I felt ashamed for doing so. It made me feel like it was impossible for me to live in the world anymore because I was just too fragile. That all the people who seemed to be insisting that their negativity was "normal" and the only sensible response to living in a chaotic world were actually right. I began to break faith with what I had come to learn and know -- namely that there is a better way to live in the world. This video helped remind me that just because I haven't strengthened myself fully yet to navigate in the great wild world doesn't mean I won't be able to one day. And that I still have the chance to overcome my bitterness and disappointment and shame.
I was ready to hear this today. I needed to hear this today. I've been absent for some months now and I'm starting to get the urge to reintegrate. I'm not quite ready though, I need to hold out a little longer until I'm in a mindset where I won't regress.
Peace of mind is so important. I moved to another state, and I've lived like this now for 4 years. But I love it too much to go back to my old life anytime soon. I love the peace in my life now and that I have time to learn new things, volunteer for organizations I care about, and enjoy the little free time I have without other people annoying me with their drama. Like someone else said on here, my dogs are my best friends. They're the best.❤
This came at the right time, I have been searching for an answer to the restlessness in my being amongst familiar, frequently on-rotation options but this, the way it’s been communicated, makes total sense. Thank you.
Well said. Sometimes we have to go away, becasue we are not ready for the next step, and need time to shapen the saw, get our own fire burning more intensely.
There's a balance between influencing people to make a bigger effort doing something interesting together through leadership and charisma, and accepting their flaws out of gratitude for their presence.
It's true that we must at least entertain antagonistic attitudes without accepting them; to self-exile is a mark of discipline. I hope and pray that this is a time of solitude and not an isolation.
Incredible. Thank you. I have a birthday party coming up (family’s birthday...) and I was just thinking how I don’t want to go. I can’t relate with those people, showing smiles and acting so nicely but then talking bad about everyone behind their back, including me... I can’t deal with it at this moment. I know I won’t feel comfortable there. I decided I have to put myself first. I am on a path of self growth and dealing with them now is going to mess it up, I can feel it, I know it’s going to affect me. I believe there are no coincidences, this video didn’t show up for no reason today, it really helped validate my feelings and decision. Oh, the universe...! Thank you!
Being alone is important. You learn to handle things by yourself which builds resilience in life. I have friends from college but I hardly speak with them as much as I used to. I just focus on my financial success now and what I want out of my life. I cannot agree more though on just learning to be alone and loving yourself. You don’t have to be with someone all the time to impress others. Nobody cares at the end of the day. I don’t even have social media. I’ve cut it off years ago. I’m too busy climbing the ladder
Wise advice. The analogies are simple and helpful. Saving this video because I really need to remind myself of this daily especially as to why I should respect my need to isolate and not let others make me feel guilty about it. It's the ultimate, "It's not you, it's me (but it's kinda you too)." 😁 When I make myself better, I can give a better "me" to the world. Thank you.
Random but you look so majestic, your energy is so refined, your aura is shiny and down to earth. Your thoughts are so helpful, the accent everything perfect. Universe truly loves you. Thanks for videos like this. I believe in spiritualty and these guidance definitely work.
Rarely do I comment on videos or share my own thoughts but this video spoke to me in such a way. You just helped me with agonizing thoughts I have had for months. A little while ago, I took a trip away from home to see some old friends and had an "epiphany." I really wanted to work hard to achieve my goals, and to be able to live a comfortable and fulfilling life outside of the 9-5 standards set in place. I'm an artist and have been dedicating as much time as I can everyday to learning and improving in several skill areas. And a little while ago I decided that I wanted to move away. I live in a small town in nebraska, and its very clicky here with not much to do at all. I have gone on a few trips to see friends, and when I am able to see such diversity in people I get so inspired and excited. I want to move to a big city, which I am doing within the next few months! I want to not only grow as an artist, but a person, and I realized I need to be somewhere that allows me to have different experiences. Home is safe, and the thought of moving somewhere unfamiliar and far away from friends and family is scary. But I realized its something I have to do. And I am beyond excited to see what happens. Even if its hard and scary, and I know for a while things will feel wrong and it will be a difficult transition. But I know in the end it will be so fulfilling once I come out on the other side. As I came to these realizations, I started spending time with my friends less and less and I felt guilty for it. I felt like something was wrong with me, or that I was a bad friend, and I didnt understand why things were different now. I used to talk to these people daily and now I do maybe once a week but I do still try to keep up with them because I care about them. But they live such different lives from me, and a lot of them are not passionate or driven people. I still love them dearly, but you helped me come to terms with the fact that thats why things are different now. I feel like everything clicks now, so thank you for that. I feel less guilty for this change. You helped me realize that being absent in this time was the best thing I could have done for myself. And Im excited to get out there and see the world and continue doing what I love in the process. Good luck everyone!!
Absolutely wonderful message. Been living that way for quite some time. It’s a challenge to be so different than most people who associate with just anyone. But the end results have always been worth it, including developing the self control to say no to people and situations that have no potential to make us soar. Thanx for the video, and many of your other ones.
I FEEL you. Uninstalled Instagram, WhatsApp etc. almost two months ago. And it helped a lot, focusing me on my new goals. Bonus effect: you see who truly cares, by giving you a call, LIKE IN THE OLD DAYS :)) BUT, yeah. It’s hard to stay away, in the beginning. But (again), I was aware that I wasn’t giving anyone, not even myself, love and light, or the dearest person near me, so I had to disappear. So here’s my reinforcement advice to you, that complements what this gentleman already said, dear reader: NO MATTER WHAT, KEEP ON GOING….
Thank you for everything you are doing!🙏 I am currently taking some space from some family members that do not align with me and my inner peace and all the work I’ve done. This video came at the perfect moment for me. “If you want to change what your mind is, you have to change what your mind wants” love love ❤
Concur. Isolation therapy is especially more important and more relevant than ever, considering we live in a characterologically psychopathic culture. I took a few years off to get my head straight, and it was the best thing I ever did. I find myself not particularly motivated to mingle with status quo, unaware zombies...because it feels pointless/boring. I'm there, and they're in fantasy.
Just a recent graduate. 2/12 months in without any social media other than my work acc, YT, and Pinterest. Planning to do creative arts and learning the things I didn't have time to learn back then.
I am new here, accidentially your video got into my feed. I am religious, what you speak of is written in the bible and kabbalah principles. The eyes, ears and mouth are feeding the spirit and soul this can either elevate your soul or distort it and have a negative impact. Thank you for sharing.
I made this mistake in a big way. Long story short I moved in with my girlfriend and her children. I thought I could raise them up. But they took me down terribly. It's been 7 years that was over and im still feeling the affects. I grossly overestimated my strength and ability.
Good on you for trying. Take the experience for the learning gift it can be, you tried to do a good thing, give yourself some credit and let go of the hurt. Bless your heart.
Isn’t it amazing how the universe works Just last night I decided to take myself out of the lives of some people who I know have just drained my energy and self worth I am inherently a massive introvert and know in my heart of hearts that I need to spend some time now alone While I work a lot and a lot of my work involves speaking to people, I do it from home and have managed to really carve out a niche for myself in my profession. This keeps me more than fulfilled. But I cherish solitude and I just know that this is what I now need to find my centre again and to clear out all stagnant energy. Coming across your video lays it all out so clearly Thank you
This information is good but people should be careful not to misinterpret this and use it as an excuse for not being the best person you can be and want to be. Ultimately you are the master of you no matter who you are surrounded by. There is a lot of victim mentality being promoted nowadays. Don’t fall victim to that
The assumption here is that the listener of this video is already doing their best to live by their virtues despite not being perfect. People have their own traumas and triggers and sometimes even codependent relationships they’re struggling to break away from. The “master of you” you speak of is the exact goal these people want to achieve, and if they already were that, they wouldn’t be struggling so hard. Self-compassion is what he’s speaking of here while continuously working on yourself.
@@Jay-bw3fl While a valid concern, I don’t believe you have much to worry about. The video sets some excellent context for the main message. To echo what @mr.richochet8603 said, it would really take some kind of mental gymnastics for someone to twist the content and turn it into a victim mentality POV.
It is very difficult to walkaway from influences especially from your close friends after transforming and choosing a new path in life with new habits integrated into your lifestyle. It is better to isolate yourself and let the fire blaze up enough to burn away the temptation and influence.
First time I have watched your channel. Thanks and appreciation from London. The stoics are a source of timeless wisdom, ( many of its tenets are to be found in the major religions and philosophies of the world) which you inculturate for a contemporary audience with intelligence. I liked your analogy of the junk food and how that can be a symbol of every aspect of our lives in terms of peer pressure to continue in ways that are unhelpful to us. You have a very pleasing manner as a presenter. Self effacing but authoritative.. I have liked and subscribed. Here's to "the bliss of solitude" as Wordsworth said.
Damn you’re right i thought i was crazy after going out while chasing my dream. Im still chasing my dream and it doesn’t feel too good going out right now while i know i have business to do. Now i have money in my pocket but i still have business to do and my spark isn’t bright enough. Unfortunately i will have to cut ties with two people that are very important to me but those are the same negative people fading my spark feeling i had while being fully focused on myself and what really matters, they just dont have the same urgency as i do and i dont have time to waste. I really needed to hear this man thank you so much! Will be Making my moves soon
This video came to me exactly when I needed it. I have extremely needy people in my life and have felt it was unkind to not be there for them. But I just came to a stop. Today I am feeling like it is time for me to go on a solo journey. Feels weird but I feel like it is time to be with me and nourish my soul.
I agree for the most part with what you’re saying, especially with what we consciously choose to consume, but from a humanistic approach - what if that so called ‘toxic’ person is also going through his/hers ups and downs and maybe (or most definitely), we are the strength and support he/she needs. Even though it’s invisible at first - the good influence we do, but I believe that all acts of love and compassion heal people in mysterious ways. I was writing this while thinking about my friend with pretty severe chronic depression for quite some time and no real actions to get help.
This is such an interesting take on life. So many toxic friendships and relationships that leave you feeling less than, and wondering why you keep going back for more. Thank you I had never thought about things in quite that way before. New subscriber. I love the short videos, to the point and incisive.
thankyou, i see your words as God sent, this is everything i needed to hear today to validate the next step of my life. Thankyou for being the medium of this message being delivered to me
Very well articulated . Excellent content . This world needs people like you . Keep up the good work 🙏 A sapling needs fence till it becomes a tree . Nurture and persevere. I liked the example : You are with someone if u r in the company of a tv show or a podcast . How true . Going a step further … In fact we are with ourselves ( our mind ) even if we r in solitude sans all social media . We r never alone per se till the time we master our mind. / thoughts .
Speaking of food, eating out was literally ruining so much for me. There’s just something about eating out that makes me want to eat more food. I have been cooking for myself for the last two months from scratch. I have routines. I have saved gobs of money and I feel 150% better. I gained 30 pounds during the pandemic and now down two sizes. I literally had to cut off some people who can’t do anything or won’t do anything but eat out. You have to make sacrifices and sometimes yes they’re drastic. What’s really cool is I can make a homemade pie with flour and lard and not gain weight. Years ago you could not find a bad restaurant. It’s not that way now and the cost! Once you get your ingredients down and your plan, you’ll get into a routine and it’s so fast and you’ll get creative.
Thank you for this video. I am recovering from disordered drinking, and people keep minimizing it saying "just a few drinks". I told them I can party with you but we have to make changes e.g. let's go karaoke instead of the bar. I also left my language community when it became about flirting rather than learning. When the moderator was like being uh-huh about my concerns because she is benefitting from the attention, I said total shit denial. I met my language goals since while she has been ostracized by everyone for her promiscuity. I have never met such a very self-unaware person
Just yesterday I was thinking about taking a break from the internet in general. I'll take this as a sign. I love your content, it's always on point 👌 Keep it up! :)
Thank you so much for this- I have been dealing with an internal struggle between the path I am forging and the sometimes limiting influence of friends . I’m not sure… but I think it comes down to knowing what’s important to you, your own values and beliefs - and the courage to hear/accept differing beliefs from those close to you 🙏
I was currently thinking about just isolating and going back into myself and giving to myself. I feel myself fizzling out and falling into a depression. But something in me felt a certain obligation to the people and factors around me , I didn't feel like I was allowed to that it's selfish and dramatic so I decided against it. Then this video pops up at the right moment and it's made my decision that much easier. Thank you for this
After distancing myself from people for years who don’t contribute to my goals physically and digitally i can understand this completely. For anyone who is scared to cut off people and make that decision your future self is already thanking you.
There is one influence above all others and it is the hardest to escape. 8+ hours a day 40+ hours a week. You need it to pay the rent and pay for groceries. It's your job. Everything else pales in comparison. Every social media any friend even any lover has little influence compared to the time and energy required by your job. So yeah ditch your friends. Ditch the screens. Go away. But oh do you have enough vacation time to really get to the point where you are burning bright again? For a lot of us no because we know we'll have to go back to the job that is destroying us snuffing us out day by day hour by hour.
wow thank you, thats exactly what I needed. I am not anymore pulled to the persons that I once spent my time with. For at least now several months. And by that I mean my family too. The last days it was for me so hurtful, because the people around me cant understand my viewing point and often I thought I act wrong and egoistic. I get always reminded why I am on my way to the next chapter. I am ready for it, for new people, for people in a higher consciousness and for an upgrade version of me ;D thank you for reading
I came across your RU-vid video today...I consider myself to be spiritually strong and definitely self reliant....and your words definitely impacted me....thank you.
Yes I've realised at certain point some of them drained my energy like an energy vampire just because of am an empath. But something made me to realize that I need to vanish for sometimes so I did that exactly for two years. I am always and forever alone ranger. I felt I can survive all by myself. After knowing the power within me. It's a blessing to be alone
I'm currently struggling with this. I've developed a horrible habit of going on the internet and pretty much purposefully looking for stuff that I know will make me feel depressed and incredibly anxious. It's an addiction at this point, and it's funny that it is because engaging in this doesn't offer any relief, it just makes me feel terrible. It's stopping me from progressing in my life and making the positive changes I know I need to make.
A big tip for getting rid of bad habits apart from the one in the video: try to make it as hard for yourself as possible to do the thing. For instance: set an app time limiter.
Ive been in similar situations, not about the internert. Im doing better now, it takes time and effort. Don't neglect your body, move and lift heavy stuff. Eat natural food and face nature.
I’ve been living alone for almost two years now and my growth has been immense. However, there are some things I wish to change about myself and for good. I found this channel at the perfect time.
As so many others have commented, this video resonates so much with what I've been feeling. As u were talking about people changing thier eating habits, i was like 'wow'..I'm doing exactly that: giving up eating garbage' Glad i saw this video. Thank you!
this channel is creating a huge impact on my life. i watch your videos daily and practice some of your ideas in real life they are extremely helpful in todays generation
Just subscribed this video really resonated with me im currently cutting alcohol and smoking out of my life and been going gym every day, feel absolutely amazing now, great video thank you excited to watch your other videos ❤
A newfind here. who is this guy? i love his delivery so easy to listen to and take in his golden points he makes . I also enjoyed reading the comments he get's all very insightful and valuable
I started out this process of being absent for a while and coming back better. But now I'm so in love with being absent that it takes so much will to come back .
