I know its hard to hear but you have a full life ahead of you Leah. You have tofind a balance and move on from this. Open your heart to whatever comes next. Being stuck in the past will beat you down. We all miss luke and think of him often as well as thinking about you and hoping you will recover from your great loss. I suffered a similar situation and had to move forward from it. Loss is never good and luke would want you to be happy and to live your best life.