Being Yourself On YouTube Is Terrifying 

From one British lad to another, as long as you're enjoying what you do, that's all that matters. If you want to discuss stuff, do it in whatever manner and medium that interests you. RU-vid is just another vessel for language, just like Bitwig is a vessel for music. you can be as direct or creative as you like. Real you is fine, scripted you is fine, AI generated you is questionable. Peace.

We love u mate. We are all just bumbling around, do whatever you feel is right, we will love it regardless ❤

Meh, I love your videos and the wisdom shared. Now to the real deal - what's that background, where is that?

I do appeciate the alan watts type vibe you go for in a lot of the videos. But it was cool to see the a more casual you here!

No worries, your craftsmanship is being appreciated. Keep it going!

A real humam BEAN

I respect you for this video. Even if you admit your faults and show your humanity, you still proved that perfection is a lie. I needed to hear this thank you and love your content regardless ❤

That's the video I wanted to see for the longest time! I like scripted Alex, but AlexAlex is an awesome dude too. Makes you look and feel more real and relatable. ❤

your channel is unique , that's a good thing 🙂

You pushed me finally releasing music and not to worry about perfection!

Boom. There's a real video. Love it. Keep it going. We're all a bit of a f*CkUP :)

I never felt like you were trying to be some high horse type of teacher, but fuck the script, just say um and uh and get your thoughts out. I quit editing my videos. We’re just here. The nerds will find us.

Oh noes! Don't break the spell, oh wise eloquent philosopher guru teacher man*! ;-) * non machine washable

Alex, YOU have worth. Just you. As someone who struggles with impostor syndrome every day, I know where you're coming from but you have to recognise that you are the best-qualified person to be you and trying to emulate someone else or be something you're not just puts you at a disadvantage and makes life harder. Also, creating a swirling event horizon where all the fucks you used to give were, is a helpful start.

Started my RU-vid channel in the past few months and this has been the main issue that I've been feeling. The amount of RU-vid I've consumed for nearly two decades now has leaked into my subconscious assumption of what a person making a youtube video can be like (especially in these longer form talking videos). The camera does not feel like a friend in the room that I can converse with, it feels like a cold, judgmental audience that I must entertain with my perfectly written and performed words, beautiful shots, and an engaging storyline. I think intentionally breaking from the 'expected' structure, and doing things that are "unoptimized" is the way forward my friend. keep doing what you can to be you

Wow what an interesting insight and oppurtunity to reflect on my own music edu creator journey. For the record, I have never seen your delivery method in a negative light. I also strive to present knowledge in a way that I deem as unlikely to waste anyone's precious time. So I also use a script. But if I'm honest, its also motivated by perfectionism and insecurity. I have had a few of my patrons comment on how they like my delevery... which is somewhere in the middle between educators which deliver info through overly-lengthy, unorganised, careless, and "raw" screen capturing, with all the "ums" & "ahh"s and what not, and the trend of fast-paced #shorts which have to be contantly paused to obsorb any info from them. I do a lot of editing, just to shatve of 3-5 miinutes of total video length. Iin a nutshell, the middle-way seems to be the goal for me. Not too rigid, not too loose. I have always enjoyed your style, I wouldnt have continued to come back to your channel if I thought you were wasting my time. I appreciate the extra length you go to. And your close friends are just one aspect of the demographic. So when they say " it would be nice to see you just be more yourself", take it with a grain of salt. The Tache that they know, and the the guy that presents professional, guru-level edu content do not have to be the same person. The middle-way brother. Let's aim for that.

Woah, totally different energy - love it! No performance for the ego but the honest, humble status quo. Yesterday I heard about seeking for truth instead of looking good as a motto for life. That includes looking on all stupid sides of me to grow. I wondered how that could be a practice. You are doing it 🤘🏻

Right On! Keep doing that thing you do... being you, or presenting a persona that you enjoy pontificating with. Rock On!

This 100%! If you manage to transition into this more natural authentic style I would very much enjoy that. But of course the most important is that you keep bringing your reflections!

I came for the Bitwig content, but I stayed for Tâche Teaches. I finally figured out how to type the  just for you :)

I like this version of you a lot. NGL the guru vibes made me unsub for a while. Since I know negative comments (for most of us) carry more emotional weight than positive ones, I'll try to balance mine with the reason I do subscribe: you are very good at what you do. You are super talented, a great communicater, knowledgeable, and your music is dope. Keep up the good work!

I love that you let go, and that SoCal "Fuck'n" coming out a few times. Bro hugs duder!

This is a fucking awesome video. It only makes you and the channel better.

I do like the Guru Type Beats though. I get that it's a character but its a visually pleasing and well spoken character, sometimes its nice to just hear someone talk about stuff you already know. I like that you dont put music in those videos either so i dont have to pause whatever else im playing.

You just need to say the f-word more often. Seriously though, I can see appreciate the effort you put into your videos. As a teacher myself, I struggle with filming myself for youtube videos. I don't know how to "just be myself". I'll literally film a talk 15 times and then give up. Even though I know that people don't care about this kind of detail; they choose to learn from me because they like me or because I'm teaching something unique. You usually have both these things going for you as well. I think one thing that would make you more human and personable would be to simply talk about what you've learned, including the mistakes you've made. Like this video! Also, we can tell if you're having fun, and that makes a video more likable. So keep doing it for the fun of it and not out of obligation.

Well, if you were a mainstream brand and represented cruel, exploitative humor, totally amoral or predatory lifestyles, or totally bankrupt philosophies and whatnot, you would probably be less susceptible to this fear and you would be defended by that element. Being sensitive and empathic, creative, positive, self reflective, and NOT those things (as far as I know), opens you up to feelings like this more often, especially on *this* horrible platform.

Thank you for this. This is my first time watching one of your videos and I have just subscribed.

for what its worth, I really enjoyed those well planned, beautifully articulated videos, I am sure that I am not the only one

Creative process can tend to be a distillation of things we try to embody, especially when you give yourself a didactic role, it makes sense and that's normal. Don't people criticize Alan Watts for being an alcoholic? It's not like that makes those messages any less valuable. You're one of the people that got me into Bitwig, yes, but I also appreciate your insight into creative process as a whole. You're not a fraud, and I would be happy to see more personable work from you.

Your videos are all the better for being scripted. It keeps them engaging and flowing. For those of us who are learning from your wisdom, I can assure you that the work you put in is greatly appreciated.

existence is brutal! as you touched on, the solution isn't to be found in perfectionism. This only leads to insecurity. I find there's nothing more helpful to reset my own guru habits is to do a meditation retreat. I really appreciate this vid, and I agree that just being vulnerable, as hard as it is, is a great thing to be. "just be yourself" is often very unhelpful to hear from friends, because we have such myriad selves within us. But we do know when we're not existing in a real way, and it's freeing to admit of our lacks and hardships because we all have them, every last one of us. I'm from LA, and I know very well that it can be a place where appearing 'successful' and dressing the part and all that tend to be more highly regarded than just being a real human. But I also know, just from existing on this planet for over 40 years, that honestly is indeed the best policy, and that faking it til you make it doesn't work, because there isn't really an "it", is there? The more we can all be real and vulnerable in this weird, beautiful, crumbling world, the more we can find contentment and joy - despite the realities of how difficult life can be.

I love your guru/monk man persona, but you do what you feel what you want and need to do. Maybe keep that when you want to present something polished and then the other always when it feels right. It’s all good. Do you know the channel Venus Theory? You two have a lot in common, it seems.

For what it's worth, I always knew that you're not really like that, and that it's all for the sake of art.

bro, I remember one of the videos when you were just sitting in the woods, smoking vape - I thought - dude is a real deal, keep it up we need genuineness more then ever in this crazy fake-ass world.

I’m here because of the ‘endless student’ video 😂 just watches it and subscribed and hit the bell before watching this one. Social media is such a playground for the ego, I swear it was put here for us to freak out and realise and break down all the narrow good/bad categories in society

Your desire to craft the best videos drives you to script and rehearse and re-record. Don’t sweat it. You make great content. I think your personality has shone through even your most constructed bitwig tutorials. You seem like the same person in those as you are in this video. I have learned a lot from your efforts and courage. Thank you.

'Physician, heal thyself' - you need to have been there to come back with the lessons

Thank gawd you're one of us! I just presumed you were some unapproachable Guru ;) This could be your Zarathustra moment, I find your advice encapsulates a lot of Nietzsche's writings.

Your Wes Anderson + Seneca definitely needs some Ross McElwee

55 seconds in and I'm already telling the guy (Alex) on the screen to get out of my head.

just let it flow, we are blessed with your content! congrats on the M3 max, its like actually insane, the single core performance is on par with Intel flagship while having 4 more Performance cores in a freaking Laptop consuming like no energy in comparison.

Well it might be time for a Q&A. Let your viewer base ask questions and get to know the real you. I'm a Reason user trying to get my head wrapped around Bitwig and I also enjoy just watching music production videos for fun and inspiration. I like seeing the human side of people I learn from. You have a lot of cool locations. Keep up the good work!

You’ll always be my Holier than thou Monk Man

Absolutely love it. thanks for the honesty, so we can relate!

Portray yourself mate. That's all you can do

....three and a half years by now....!?....oh my goodness....that long ago, i've been following u already...!?....well, well, well...don't u worry....ur still doing fine....and so does all ur charming bitwig wisdom broadcasting....

your content is gold bro, this editing style is a breath of fresh air.

Well yeah but paradoxically that is you. You are the guy that goes through 100 times to make sure its perfect because thats what you decided was important to you. So you have been being you. So its not really about being you or not being you. Its about what you decide your priorities are.

Maybe you do need a hat to signify real vs fake? Or maybe a long beard and robe? 🤣

I rarely comment on type of content like this but it's okay. there's no real you completely. it's all fragments of you. sometimes external things can extract the "you" you never thought. you can be whatever you want to be. youtube and camera are a reflection of you too. don't force trying to being yourself on youtube. don't force trying not to being yourself too. say whatever u want. do whatever u want. fake or no fake. it's all you. if people don't like it, they will leave. I vibe with ur stories or tutorials and here I'm. Look at Sam Sulek contents. He doen't even have thumbnails or no editing. Just raw ass put ur camera down there and talk and it even breaks the algorithm where nobody expects because people need the social aspect from youtube. keep going with contents or music here. it's like a community already and I'm happy to be a part of something bigger than life.

Honest and authentic is rare! Keep going

Maybe your wisest words yet! Appreciate the vulnerability and honesty. Enjoy the freedom to be you. I'm sure we'll all relate more to the content.

This breaks the perception built by a curated channel, very interesting and funny because I found you from the endless student video and can appreciate the duality of having that side of yourself but also a less curated version

Great video. You are talking publicly about what we all go through privately. We are all bumbling along, wasting too much energy on pretending to be someone we are not. Thank you so much. Keep going!

Looks like you needed that :)! Brilliant stuff. Thanks for all the videos you do. They are all absolutely first rate and this one is one of the best.

I think you should whine a bit more

Honestly, I love your sorta wry / dry 'wise teacher' character that you intro/outro your stuff with cause you always end up switching over into your true 'self' self when teaching. I think this is funny and something I genuinely love about you and your channel. The thing is, in all human communication, we 'tune' ourselves a bit to fit the audience. Call it presentation. You shape yourself up a little if you are having company over or meeting up with friends. There are a few (two, maybe that's it) people who I trust enough to be completely myself around without any attempts at this 'presentation.' They are not on the Internet. Plus, video as a medium is about telling a story - often this requires a plan or vision, 'characters', perhaps a few takes and attempts, and some editing, etc. So as far as being 'yourself' for a thankless online youtube audience - sure, people prefer genuine honesty, but it's more like, just don't be someone else. Frankly, unless you are going WAY out of your way to really NOT be yourself or do and be something you hate, then I am not sure what the problem is. Do what you love. Coincidentally, my favorite moment on this whole channel is from around 7 min into The Automation Trick You Wish You'd Known Sooner - when you stumble on some sound and are like: OOOH I accidentally just did that!! It's clearly genuine and hilarious.

I'll stay if that's cool with you

Real Lex is not what the audience wants, but what it needs! Good stuff, keep it up, say hi to the cat for me

Glad you do shites just like the rest of us! :]

u are appreciated man

You are awesome as you are!

Big fan brother.

I like your accent

Nice one man! Really enjoyed that video. Lovely for you to be so open and honest. From now on, you do you, (boo). x

you're great that's it thks for all!!!

For some reason I started belly laughing during this video! I thought it was going to go somewhere different after the intro bit and it got the laughs flowing heartily, Keep up the great work, from 1 quirky weird awesome hilarious self aware perfectionist to another. Lol… you’re a gem and we’re glad to witness you in whatever form you decide to arrive in 🙏🏼 The choice of scenery makes each video an art piece in itself as well lol Keep cookin’ 👨🏻‍🍳 - said someone, somewhere, at some time, or other

Love this ❤

Ha. This is why I’ve never started a talking yt channel. I’d over-edit myself, the same way I write music!

I love all your videos. You show your truths no matter how polished and scripted things are. The scripting it's self is created by you, so your voice is very much there. And meticulously planning details for a video is just general quality control. However, seeing how I didn't get to the end yet and just ran for the comment box like any other dummy RU-vid user, I completely respect and support your need if you want to be more free flow. I can't do anything unscripted as I stutter from ADHD and anxiety when forced to say things on the spot (but believe me, I don't have an issue when I'm not thinking about it) to put it another way: you only did this in 30 takes? I would have been on the 50th and would have to stop and try again the next day

Both your styles are great, the carefully written and the freestyle. Would you consider merging the two? With bullet points, key words and phrases worked out first, but then saying your sentences spontaneously? Best of both worlds!

Thanks for the videos Taches! What I've enjoyed with this honest video is the humour you've just brought out, I can tell your naturally funny and it's nice to see this honesty. You bring a lot to the community and also the one you're creating is the conversation between us all and you have a lot of amazing advice and are affecting lives in a super positive way. You have at least helped one soul here ☺️ and I'm sure many others. Looking forward to seeing future videos in whatever format pleases you. It your life and the happiness within yourself is the most important thing going forward.

Hi, I personally believe your channel is a huge resources of quality contents and ideas because you really ARE profoundly honest in your contents making rather than PRETEND to be. I remember when some time ago you share a deeply sad moment in your life and i thought that a person that can be so honest, so sincere, so internally naked and exposed with a bunch of strangers on YT has to be a great person and a great human being. No one is perfect. We can just do what we can to pass through life as better as we can and in the meantime trying not to fuck up staff and do something good for the other. For what is worth, from an Italian guy on the other side of the ocean, you are doing a great job in that, thank you, from the bottom of my heart. :)

I think this video embodies the real reasons why we really keep coming here. Thanks for sharing. We appreciate you. ❤

I recorded my videos on the first try, but nobody liked them and I was myself on them as I am

I can feel the immense relief in your tone and I’m happy you were able to share so openly. The thoughts you expressed have been the precise reasons I haven’t started a RU-vid channel of my own. I understand the great effort you go through to prepare and create your extremely well scripted presentations, however it is refreshing to hear your talk like this. Keep up the amazing work and remember “you do you babe!”😂

I really like your approach to personal development, and that of content-creating musicians in general, it's very poetic 👍

Good vid! Ya seem like a lovely dude, keep on doin what yer doin I am sure the high concept stuff is great too but this is the first video of yours I have seen and there is nothing to critique tbh believe in yaself g

Haha loved this! My fav Taches vids are sitting in the Sun, having a few beers, and vibing on Bitwig and music in general. You seem (and always have) super real to me

Birds are impressive!

F-bomb storm??? How dare you!! Unsubbed!!!! Only joking! You might feel that your real personality has taken second stage to a contrived persona but actually your honesty and integrity has always shone so brightly, along with all your audio insight. As you can see in the comments, WE FUCKING LOVE YOU; don't go changin'! ❤🎵❤🎹❤

Your new green screen is splendid

We're all bumbling through stuff, bro. Doesn't matter who you are, where you are, where you're going, or where you've been. You're doing a bloody brilliant job of bumbling in your own wonderful way!

I like your videos. And also being a human, it is scary being yourself and accepting it. On a side note: That's some view in the background.

How did you shoot your scene and what filter are you using? Your shots are improving!

Im looking forward of Authenticity Era of RU-vid, cuz its been bloated with ingenuity and i honestly hate it, it doesn't feel human anymore I hope mext year it goes that way

of course, there's a lot of nuggets here that are begging to be sampled! ;-) Seriously, though, your humility here has elevated you in my eyes. You're an all-round honest and relatable chap now.

this connected with me

Brilliant ❤

bros awake thank fuck

this is great man! great channel nonetheless.. i would love to see a live performance attempt etc... im struggling to find a way with this looper etc

I’m first😂

You’re hitting home runs. Just keep swinging the bat!

your experience is uniquely identifiable for me, though admittedly the effect is more widespread throughout my life in place of it being with content creation. that constant need to be justified or worthy of speaking on something or talking to someone or even commiting to a goal, may likely be why i've never made a youtube channel actually. The amount of time I spend editing and re-writing texts or comments or dm's borders parody. To clarify I'm young and just watching my own behaviors and reactions to figure out where to go from here, and analogous situations like this are pretty helpful. Your video that blew up found me as well and I had the same sentiment there, although I am starkly familiar with that false epiphany effect where you find something insightful and end up not digesting or implementing it gonna cut myself off here