Beth Crowley- Standstill (Official Lyric Video) 

When ever i hear this, I imagine I died, and only when I was in heaven did I realize that people cared about me. It sort of helps me with my depression.

This song reminds me of my mother`s first love story. When she was young, she had a friend who had a crush on her, and she knew about it. One day he asked her if she will marry him. My mom answered that she`s not ready yet. He accepted her choice. Years passed, and my mom found out that he married someone else. Then she met my father. They married, I was born, but soon my mom realized - he is not who she needs, he`s not meant for her. They divorced. She has been trying to find him a replacement, but still didn`t. It hurts me to see that she`s lonely. When she told me this story, I was shocked. I know what meeting my father brought me to her, and she loves me. But...I wish she said "yes" back then. Maybe, if she did...she would be happy.

This song is like a musical version of my thoughts after my amnesia fog started first lifting. I realized in my pain, I hurt those dearest to me. But it was nearly 2 years after the initial amnesia when I had enough memories to realize it. I'm not good with people, but I'm moving forward in my animal rehab and training... Getting my life back to being mine, and not my injury's. I miss my old friends, but I'm too different from the girl they grew up with. It's too noticable for many, same face- completely different temperment etc. Making new friends the more I get out, the more dogs I help train so they can finally be adopted out... I never had a true regret before my wreck, I was content. Now that I've got many of my memories back, I dearly miss the bulk of those that are in my memories. Even the ones I had to cut contact with because they became toxic... When I get a memory of us as kids back, I miss what we had. At this point though I'm able to look ahead past all the medical stuff... And I can't wait to get out there and be able to do what I love for a living... Even though I can't work with livestock(my first love), I love working with other animals. It also helps that a dog saved my life when I was lowest, a dog everyone else had given up on being adopted... He was 10. I took him home and that was that, he went everywhere(that pets were allowed/my family and friends allowed him to be with me even when they didn't like animals inside) with me and began picking up on my medical issues and with my mum's help we trained clear alerts and he became my service dog, I carried him in a hiking bag since he was old tho. He helped train his replacement, and retired to my bed and the family... Even the shelter owner didn't think I'd keep him. She loved me afterwards, and mentored me to work with shelter dogs. Paired me with my current dog and found someone to help me train him for mobility assist...(he's 60-70 pounds haha) So with the right help, I think all dogs have a place they could belong and be able to help their owners... I work with unadoptable dogs that no one else can handle... I love being able to fix major behavior issues and see the dogs go to homes that truly love them. And if a dog is helpful to its owner, the chances of that owner being willing to abandon the dog drops drastically... So that's my thing now. Me and my SD train dogs to be companions, and a couple have went on to be adopted for the sole purpose of being trained further into a service dog. :) So anyone reading this that's low, find a cause- no matter how little- that you believe in. I've been in a place I physically couldn't do anything, and I've been in a place I was fine to move but my mental state was such that I had no will despite having things I wanted to do... Don't let someone picking on ur interest get to you, it's not always easy to understand how someone else works.... And many don't try. I've been told all the things I could be doing other than troubled dogs... Yeah I could. But if my heart's not in it, I can't guarantee it'll be done RIGHT... I can be great at what I do. And I will love every second of it. That's what matters. That I'm excited to work with my dogs everyday, and even when I'm low I dont have to argue with myself to go do it... I just do it. Part of me feels like I owe my first service dog. That this work is nothing compared to what he and my current guy have done for me... But it's a good feeling. One I'm reminded of Everytime my dog alerts before I pass out, and Everytime he lays on me to hold me down during a seizure... A human couldn't help with this. So how great could someone's life be if they get one of my dogs and said dog helps them? Be it through actual work or just by being there.... It can make a world of difference. One of my dogs saved his owners life. That dog wouldn't have ever gotten adopted without my help... (He had major issues when I got him, which is why I had him.) Takes alot of work and patience, and taking the time to teach the dog how to properly communicate... But it's worth it.

"But I've hit a standstill a brick wall" That line....

I love this so much 😍 my fav lyrics were definitly "I have nothing but my pride, it doesn't keep me warm at night"... That's some real shit...

_Are you lonely?_ Me : *No. I'm not.* _Do you miss me?_ Me: *Yes I do. I **_miss_** you.*

😍I love this... why are all your songs so relatable?

Why do you always make the songs that I need most in my life...

Idk why but I love that high note in "like I'm trying to *be*". To me, it really hits the overall tone of this song...Maybe it's just me?

you are an amazing singer. i love your music. keep going

This is what happens when you find out you're the villain in your own story. You truly have nothing but your pride. And it was never worth it.

Why is it everytime you put out a new song, I feel like it's my new favourite. That is, until the next one comes out. I seriously do really love this one though, nice slow and emotional with painfully relatable lyrics.

I love this song! I hope you have a good day! 💛💛💛

wow, Beth, what a beautiful song.

I adore all of your music. 💞

The heck. I cried a lot this song...... This song is so relatable!. Geeze it hurts.

I hold my emotions all day and at the end I burst.i only have my pride left because i through away everything i ever had.regrets are my hole life.

My pride is nothing But you are everything

Lyrics~ I just wanna sing along with her UwU I guess it's my fault this time I used to think that it was so important to be right So I didn't call you Say "I'm sorry" You wouldn't have answered The damage was done I should give you up But I've hit a standstill a brick wall I won't admit it But I just keep collecting regrets How did I make such a mess of this? I wasn't ready to love you Can't say it now though I want to I have nothing but my pride It doesn't keep me warm at night I heard you met someone else I ask our friends about you 'Cause I just can't help myself I push down the feeling That I'm breaking And smile when they tell me It's not going to last I just want you back 'Cause I've hit a standstill a brick wall I won't admit it But I just keep collecting regrets How did I make such a mess of this? I wasn't ready to love you Can't say it now though I want to I have nothing but my pride It doesn't keep me warm at night Are you lonely? I get lonely too Do you miss me? Lately I've been missing you Are you happy Like I'm trying to be? Have you moved on Or do you ever think of me? 'Cause I've hit a standstill a brick wall I won't admit it But I just keep collecting regrets How did I make such a mess of this? I wasn't ready to love you Can't say it now though I want to I have nothing but my pride It doesn't keep me warm at night I've hit a standstill a brick wall I won't admit it But I just keep collecting regrets How did I make such a mess of this? 'Cause I wasn't ready to love you Can't say it now though I want to I have nothing but my pride It doesn't keep me warm at night It doesn't keep me warm at night

I have nothing now only my Faith to our God.

Love this song. All the lyrics really stand out to me

Love this song I can relate to it so much

you are my new favorite artist ❤

This.is.perfect.

The first time I heard your song "monster" i think you're a great singer and i love your songs... Keep it up pal

"Do u miss me?" Lately I've been missing you. Although i am currently in a relationship i have been feeling like i have so much faults in my relationship. My depression has become one of the biggest wall, the biggest problem we have. My depression has been affecting him. Now, i distant myself not only to him but to most people to avoid them getting hurt. 😭

I love this song and this song can help us with difficult situations too.

This song is really great 👏

it might just be me, but when someone texts me something sad and i read it while listening to a sad af song, the text hits WAY harder, just me?

I have nothing but my pride. Say it all d time when i do or say hurtful things to ppl

Finally found THE ONE who keeps defining me...

Truth always comes out Beautifully broken

RU-vid needs a love button- just for this song ❤

Must say, your songs including this one are absolutely beautiful, probably the most beautiful in the whole history of music! Truly sincere and relatable! You're the best songwriter I've ever known!

I absolutely adore all of your songs! Thank you for singing and making such beautiful music

You're truly remarkable.

this makes me think about leta lestrange and newt scamander for some reason.

Her: "doesnt keep me warm at night" Me: no a blanket does Also me: realises I honestly really like being single yet not 😂😭😂

Beth!!😩😩❤️❤️

The last verse as "I have nothing left but pride" "but now even that has died" would be my version of the song

Your music brings the beautiful out of my brokenness that I feel and you have helped me piece myself back together for about 4 years now, Don’t ever stop! I love you truly 💔✊🏼🖤

I keep coming back to this song

Love it

This is absolutely perfect. You’ve come such a far way since some of your early songs like Warrior!

This song reminds me of 2 weeks ago where i lost everyone I loved or use to love... this song lyrics it's self makes me realize that I won't get them back.. "I won't admit it but I just keep collecting regrets, how could I make such a mess of this? I wasn't ready to love you, can't say it now though I want too!"🎼🎶🎵😭😭

I love how she has lyrics on most of her songs. It makes it easier to understand the song.

Nothing but pride left.

Our ego the Soul our spirit is like our pride or vice versa point is free will the Healer love those two because they makes you whole that's the worth that matters you are the treasure in this rotting world

I love the line I have nothing but my pride it doesn’t keep me warm at night

I did hit brick wall with regrets I love still but I can't have him.. He doesn't want to love me like I do. ♥️

Thank you for such a beautiful song♥️

Holy hell this is great.Exactly how I feel about something now

Amazing

First seconds already made me cry😭💔

this song is so relatable and makes me cry 💔

Being Alone is Critically Dangerously Bad Bad "sigh" Thanks Beth Crowley 🐦

Beth you have such a beautiful voice. I love hearing it, this will become an iconic part of my childhood

You posted this on my 16th birthday. The day I wanted nothing more than to give up. But your music inspires me to fight, and the notification for this broke my heart. It kept me clean, thank you. Even though I only just now got the guts to say something, thank you, for helping one girl fight on

Beautiful song

I love this so much ❤️❤️❤️❤️

My new favorite song.

Beautiful song, heartwarming!!! ❤

Its Beautiful beth 😍😍😍

OMG I HEARD THIS SONG LIKE 3 YEARS AGO BUT COULD NEVER REMEMBER THE NAME

2020...i love her voice...😍😍😍

I know I say this about all your songs but this so relatable

And that regret would be... that my 26, young daughter just overdosed on fentanyl.. September 5, 2020l!! She had been clean for 8 months & left rehab early!! And 11 days later my baby girl was found dead in a motel room... all by herself!! I’m more lost & broken like I’ve never been before!! She was my very bestfriend and she was always my everything!! I’m so seriously not doing all that well with my angel being gone!! I’m so ready to go home & join her!! I truly have zero desire to still be here on this earth any longer!!

I have nothing but my pride It doesn't keep me warm at night = We all need to leave behind our ego and love someone

Beautiful.

This is so relatable for me on so many levels

I really love your songs😊

are you lonely? i get lonely too Do you miss me? Lately ive been missing you are you happy like im trying to be? have you moved on? do you ever think of me? 😔😔😔😔

Ugh I relate so much. Thank you for sharing your voice and your songs with the rest of the world ♥️

This is such a beautiful song, like everything you write!

This song is beautiful, I love every single one of your songs. Please keep up the work. Never give up on your beautiful voice or anything you believe in. I believe in you😊 😄

Wow What a wonderfull song with so much deepnees♥♥♥ don't stop making things like this♥- sorry for this awful english but i'm not quite good at it because i'm german and 15 Years old- i defently speak it better than write😂 but i love this song

Why is this so relatable 👍

Congratulation lady you are the best

Your music is the best!

Already added it to my playlist of you on Spotify!

I think Beth deserves more respect and popularity

YAY A NEW SONG

So relatable I love it.

I really really love all of your music. And I really can relate to most of the lyrics. And o love your voice! "I have nothing but my pride, it doesn't keep me warm at night" ♥️♥️

I love this song!😍

Lot of love❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I love all your music. It realtes to my reality and helps me cope with it

Damn. It's beautiful.

I'm wasn't expecting to cry to this song but I am.

Love the two questions "a u lonely, do u miss me? Such questions are relevant in this lockdown

Nesta to cassian eventually in the spin off acotar series

I like the way of your *Attitude*

Wow this song really spoke to me since my friend isn't talking to me anymore after I did one little thing that I thought was helpful but she didn't think so and I'm wondering if she doesn't regret her decision to not speak or look or interact with me and I'm thinking this is her this song it just hit me thank you for posting and creating this song

Your music is helping me get through my divorce. Thank you!!! Keep up the wonderful music.

You did it again!! Wow this song is so beautiful and relatable in so many ways! You’re a wonderful talented singer and writer! ❤️ can’t wait to hear more!

love this song 😍 this reminds me of a story i struggled to write, i hit a brickwall and was unable to write anymore on the subject. i really tried though.

So relate to my situation right now..it reflects me. 😊

Wow! Great job! Love your music!

Amazing ❤️

These songs keep giving me main character energy