Dude. You are one brave dude. I can tell in the sound of your voice that you very much regret the part you played in the mishaps. put more than anything. I respect the fuck out of you for being accountable. To be honest, I needed to hear this because I am currently having to deal with a situation where someone very very close to me who has bipolar disorder, has gone to great lengths to hurt me, and ruin anything she can my life. It hurt me so much too experience. Such awful things from someone who I love so much. I know that she has bipolar disorder, and in the past I would just stay away f her for a few months. But this time it wasn’t an option and unfortunately I ended up being attacked, abused, and hurt more than I’ve ever been in my entire life. I’m trying really hard to find a reason to forgive . I do want to forgive her because part of me says that she’s not in control. But then at the same time, I’m not sure I believe that she can hold her self accountable. It just sucks so much because I do want her back in my life so bad, but at the same time I have to do the right thing and hold her accountable. I’ve already forgiven her in my heart, because I know that this is a difficult thing that she struggles with, and honestly watching your video solidified in me, the fact that I know deep down in my heart, I have already forgiven her. Now I just have to do the right thing and make sure that she becomes accountable in someway. Anyways, it was a long rant and you don’t need to read it all. I just some reason vented right now after watching your video but thank you again this really helped me.
Fellow sufferer here. My go-to option when I get angry is to withdraw. This has its own bag of problems, but at least I'm not blowing my shit in someone's face when I withdraw. Sometimes I do boil over and that's never better. As in your story, when i direct my anger at someone I can do damage with my words. I try hard not to do that. Sometimes I even succeed.
Damn hope all is well brother my ex had bipolar disorder so i know the other side of the spectrum with your situation i hope your getting better i had to study up on it but i have more of an understanding of it
You're on the right path. Don't dismay. You will overcome your condition. You just need the right tools, therapy or group therapy program, appropriate medication, and first and foremost, love and compassion to yourself. You're the one in charge of you. Be kind and compassionate to you first so you can be to others. Best wishes and success 🙌
We do some crazy things during a manic episode but yes, we're still accountable for our own actions. Hope things are getting back on track for you and your family
Though this was a year ago I think it's great that you could make this video and say out loud the things that you messed up on. My husband is definitely having his struggles with the rage. But I don't think there has been one time in our 12+ year relationship that he ever called out what he did specifically, not just to me but to anyone. I don't know how your videos popped up in my algorithm but watching your videos is making me super emotional. Makes me wonder if this is what my husband thinks/feels. I have no idea because he doesn't really speak to me about it. I hope you have found more resources to help you navigate your way through the bad and even the good times.
Neurotypical people don't realize how difficult it is. No excuses from me; but eating too much sugar, too much alcohol, or too much stimulation turns all my best efforts upside down. It is such a precarious balance. I am exhausted trying to keep all these balls juggling.
Better seek out professional help before you end up dead or in the penitentiary. The world is cold and doesn't care about a person's psychological disorders.
