BIRTH STORY : My Stillbirth Experience

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This is my stillbirth story of my angel who was born sleeping, Amalia. Pregnancy loss is more common than I ever knew, I hope nobody else has to experience what I went through but I hope if you have gone through a similar pregnancy and infant loss, you know I'm here if you need to talk
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@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you for helping me give her a place and don't forget to subscribe 💕

@nesisador7331 2 года назад

Ok njjolpopp

@OrdinaryEnglishMum 2 года назад

Wow. I'm 16 weeks pregnant at the moment Ash I can't imagine going through this. Ashleigh I am so sorry. That's absolutely one of the most heartbreaking experiences. You are amazing and so brave. ❤

@kmartaus 2 года назад

I should have bloody messaged you!!!!! I'm an idiot! I should have given you a warning about this video as a trigger and I am so sorry chook! I have just had a sneaky peaky at my emails this morning and I can see I have one from you 🤩🤩🤩🤩 I'm not ignoring you, I have major anxiety this morning and I have just spent 45 minutes building up the courage to look at comments hahaha give me another few hours on my emails haha xoxoxoxox I love you and thank you for watching, I feel silly I didn't warn you though!

@hayleypuzey 2 года назад

Don’t you ever feel silly for crying about your experience beautiful girl. She lived and it was real. Honey I am heartbroken for you and what you had to go through. You are so brave, and especially for being so vulnerable with us all. You are held here babe, we love you xo

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you for supporting this video above all others, it was a hard juggle of emotions and thoughts whether I would ever tell this story but when I saw the memory pop up of the positive pregnancy test I knew I had to. Thank you for caring for me and my boobala. It has unexpectedly helped me, I don't feel so bottled up anymore 💕💕💕💕

@hayleypuzey 2 года назад

@@kmartaus its a huge release posting a video on here about stuff like that. I did one after my miscarriage in 2020 and I was so nervous and sick to my stomach that it took me weeks to post it, but once I did the love poured in and it was such a release. I hope you get that for you too xo

@Mummakat 2 года назад

That is so traumatic! I’m so sorry you lost your beautiful baby in such a horrific way! I just want to jump through the screen and hug you! 😭💗

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you beautiful girl! You are too go to me and I can't wait until we can actually give each other cuddles! We are attempting our first post pandemic holiday this weekend to give us a bit of confidence around travelling further and further from home again 🤪😘😘😘😘

@Mummakat 2 года назад

@@kmartaus can’t wait! Hope you have the best time beautiful! 💗💗

@barbarakohut2147 2 года назад

Thank you for sharing. I'm so sorry I can't imagine going thru that. It must have been very painful. Physically and mentally. She will always be in your heart. Thank the Lord for your 2 healthy little girls.

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you for your beautiful words Barbara 🙏💕💕💕 it was definitely an experience I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy and yet i feel blessed that I had an opportunity to meet her even if she was born sleeping. Thank you again, caring about my story means more to me than you could understand 💕

@Bethany_Jane123 2 года назад

I can’t believe nobody told you anything when you was at the hospital! They just left you in the dark about it all, that’s awful. My heart is breaking for you Ashleigh, the tears have started 💔 I can’t imagine the shock and pain you felt when you saw her. I’m so glad you had kind paramedics. You’re never silly for crying about your little girl, I wish I could go through the phone and give you a big hug right now

@kmartaus 2 года назад

I wish I could give YOU the biggest hug because I miss you that much! I was really upset at the time as you could imagine so in hindsight I think that not one particular person wanted to be the one to tell me bad news so they mistakenly didn't tell me anything. False hope is what they gave me. I was very thankful to have two such kind girls because I can't imagine how much worse that experience could have been if they were not very nice people. Males even?! I don't know 💕 but I was thankful to have them

@wendyschutze2818 2 года назад

Hi, I’m an Australian Midwife, now retired, and you and your baby girl were treated terribly. I would not be surprised, after your going through such terrible trauma, that you are suffering from PTSD. I can’t believe that no one prepared you for what was probably going to happen, and no one gave you anything to help you when you lost her. I am so, so sorry and so ashamed of my profession at the moment that this was allowed to happen to you with no empathy, information or guidance…..from not even one single person. I’m glad you got to spend some time with your precious little one and make some good memories with her, but what happened prior should never have been allowed to occur. I am sorry, as a human, as a woman, as an RN and a Midwife and I apologise for, and am ashamed of the people who neglected you and your baby daughter so badly. I wish I could have been there for you. My heart goes out to you, I send you love, hope and prayers for you and your Angel Daughter and your two other precious ones. I really am so sorry.

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Wendy you have honestly made my whole day. You have no idea how much I appreciate you and that comment, you made me feel heard 🥺💕 you've made this mama feel really good and thank you for watching such a special video to my heart. I hope you and your family are having the best start to your year so far and that you know how in awe I am for what you have dedicated your life's work to. You are an unsung hero that I just wanted to sing to for a moment xoxox

@Thats_So_Kay 2 года назад

Oh my god Ashleigh I’m so sorry you experienced this. I was crying with you I wish I could hug you!! You are one strong mama 💗💗💖

@kmartaus 2 года назад

You are such a kind person Kay, thank you so much for listening to my story about my angel 🙏💕 I did not expect to cry like that and right off the bat so thank you for putting up with my ugly cry faces haha

@asey_bear 2 года назад

Ohh ash 🥲🥲 this was raw brought me to tears big time, I’m so sorry life can be cruel this I know unfortunately first hand, 💚💚 our children are everything and losing them I would have to say is most definitely one of the biggest hardest, terrible things EVER!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you so incredibly much for watching my birth story about Amalia 🙏💕 I wasn't sure if I would ever tell this story on here but I am really glad I did; I have found making this video has helped me a lot unexpectedly so thank you for your support babe. You are amazing 💕

@Bethany_Jane123 2 года назад

I’m so furious that the doctors didn’t tell you what was going to happen when they sent you home. The amount of anger I feel towards them is unreal so I can’t imagine how angry you must feel about that. You’re so brave for opening up and being vulnerable and telling yours and Amelia’s story. I love you so much beautiful and I know that Amelia does too 💗

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you so much beautiful 🥺 listening to my story honestly means the world 💕💕💕

@lil-mumma-adventures 2 года назад

I’m so sorry for your loss & how you where treated! It’s something you will never be able to wrap your head around been such a shock & huge thing to happen. I’m so sorry again & your beautiful lil baby doll will always be with you 💕 I have angel babys & can understand all the questions that run threw our heads with the what if’s and how to cope with the madness of it all. I know it still hurts and thanks so much for sharing her story. Stay strong Mumma 💓

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you for your beautiful words mama 🥺🙏 that is it, it was just such a huge shock, I found it hard to try and not think about it during my next pregnancy but that was almost impossible. I am sorry for your loss' and I hope you are doing okay (again, for a lack of a better term). I appreciate you so much 🙏💕💕

@BlessedToBeAMommy_ 2 года назад

Oh, Sweetie. My heart goes out to you. I can't even imagine how this experience was for you. I'm so sorry!

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you so so much beautiful 🙏💕 I wasn't expecting that making this video would help me in any way but it has and your support means everything, thank you xoxoxoxo

@ejmakesus6 2 года назад

You are so brave to share your story 🤍 I’m crying 😢

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you gorgeous woman 🙏💕 my heart broke yesterday when I saw the memory pop up in my phone and that 7 years later I still hadn't told anyone the full story. It was a lot of emotions making this video but I'm so glad I did it. I genuinely can't even look at the thumbnail rn without crying haha I don't feel brave, so thank you 🙏💕💕💕💕💕

@BabybelAndMummy 2 года назад

Oh my goodness, I’m crying with you. I’m so sorry for your loss. This is heartbreaking 💔. The lack of support is absolutely shocking, I can’t even imagine what you went through x

@kmartaus 2 года назад

I am so beyond touched that this story spoke to your heart and made you feel that way, thank you times a million for caring about me, my birth story and my baby girl. 💕💕 I hope you are having a great end to your week and again, thank you 🙏

@Bethany_Jane123 2 года назад

Hello beautiful, I’m here watching. I can tell I’m going to cry from this video 💕

@kmartaus 2 года назад

You are honestly the best, thank you for being here to watch my birth story babe 🥺💕💝

@georginabrookerbeautylifes6961 2 года назад

I cannot believe this heartache you’ve had to endure…I can only imagine the pain you would feel but thank you for sharing this with us. You are so brave and strong. She will always be a part of you and forever be with you. Wish I could give you a huge hug 💐😢

@kmartaus 2 года назад

And thank YOU so incredibly much for watching this video and hearing my birth story 🥺💕💕 you are too kind and I hope that 2022 has been treating you well so far babe 🙏 xoxox

@asey_bear 2 года назад

I know what you mean ash, some days some moments I can talk about Bentley then other days I can’t get the words out! She will always know you have a huge place for her just like your other two beautiful girls 🌸🌸

@kmartaus 2 года назад

It's all very linear isn't it. One day you feel like you are taking the right steps towards healing and then other days you feel like it just happened. I love you and your beautiful children 🙏💕 you are such a strong mama and you do not give yourself enough credit!

@Hill593 2 года назад

Hi Ashleigh, Thankyou so much for sharing this story, it’s a subject close to my heart - I’ve had multiple miscarriages…the last one less than a year ago at 16 weeks. You’re so brave to talk about it, it’s heartbreaking. Sending all my love.❤️xx

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you so much for watching my story beautiful mama and I am so so sorry for your loss' and I feel honoured that you shared your experiences here. It is scary how common miscarriages are and that fact doesn't make it easier to deal with at all. 🙏💕 sending you so much love xoxox

@mroberson9027 2 года назад

My heart broke over and over again listening to your story. You are stronger than I realized

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you 🙏💕 strength isn't a word I would have associated with this experience but it has definitely made me a much stronger person today. It means the world to me you watched my birth story, thank you xoxox

@45rrr676ggu 2 года назад

I remember my younger brothers white lace casket/coffin. I remember his funeral. I only saw him once, and I can’t remember what he looked like but I know I’ll meet him one day in heaven. Your angel is a precious girl and I I’m so sorry for all you have been through and for your loss. 💓

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you gorgeous girl and I again I am so sorry for your families loss', it's memories nobody should have to experience 💝

@susanlassiter6494 2 месяца назад

I'm watching this 2 years later and I want you to know I will pray for you because I've experienced this over 40 years ago and I still feel it. We are a part of a club wè wish no one else jins.

@asey_bear 2 года назад

Yes I even felt a little uncomfortable talking about my ectopic pregnancy as well, but thank you for sharing it’s nothing we have done wrong it’s just how life goes and what it throws at us 🥲🥲🙌

@kmartaus 2 года назад

And thank YOU for sharing what you went through 🙏💕 if only I knew back then how common anf yet so specific and personal that these experiences are 🥺 I love you woman!

@chloeanne8036 2 года назад

Wow, sat here crying for you. I'm SO sorry you went through all that pain. She will always be with you. Living on in her sisters. SO much love to you, you are so brave. XX

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Girl you don't even know how much I appreciate this and how much love I have for YOU! There is a special place for women who support other women and you have made my night 🙏💕 thank you so much

@45rrr676ggu 2 года назад

You are such a strong woman, and I can’t imagine going through this myself. You are truly beautiful inside and out and this video put tears in my eyes. I love you and support you. 💕 xx

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you so so much babe!!! I love you more than you realise and I promise that the upbeat and fun videos are coming at you hard and fast from here. I'm in the middle of a vacation prep video right now ☺🙏💕 Thank you for support me in everything!

@lauriewromar5478 Год назад

What a wretched experience. Thank you for sharing. Like you said, if it’s so common, why do we not talk about it. Thank you for talking.

@monicawynn3250 2 года назад

Ash I am so very sorry. What an absolutely heartbreaking experience to go through. You are such a brave, strong woman and mother sharing Amalia’s story with the world 🤍

@bethanderson397 7 дней назад

I’m so very sorry for your loss. 🥺

@angelm795 2 года назад

Thank you for sharing your story and precious baby girl 🤍👼

@taramaryalice8877 2 года назад

I just want to jump through and give you a big hug 💜 So horrible that you had to go through this 💔 God this hurts my heart so much what you went through xxx

@kmartaus 2 года назад

You are so kind mama, thank you for watching and caring so much 🙏💕 a situation like that will both make you and break you. I can only hope nobody else would get left in the dark like that again. I hope you are well gorgeous and thank you again for watching my birth story 🙏💕

@taramaryalice8877 2 года назад

@@kmartaus yes its one of them ones that break your heart but she would want you to be strong for yourself and fr your bubbas too! she's always with you all. you're very welcome, I love watching your videos x x x

@angela1la3guera 2 года назад

❤️❤️❤️ love that you put this video out🥰 I almost lost my first born. They say it was from high blood pressure. We trust in these drs thinking they know what they are doing. I was young and didn’t know anything. I also got send home and went to the hospital after I’m guessing my water broke too. He was born 4lbs 12ounce. I think she will always have a place (in your ❤️ ) lots of hug 🤗

@danniimariesse4032 2 года назад

I’m so so sorry to here this 💔 your so strong! Thank you for sharing your story I know it most of been so hard! Xx

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you beautiful woman! The fact you watched this video to listen to my story means the world 🙏💕

@emilybanks2044 2 года назад

Babe. I love you so much 🥰

@kmartaus 2 года назад

I love YOU so much

@sophielouisetaylor4069 2 года назад

Thank you for sharing such a hard story ❤️ I’m so sorry xx

@kmartaus 2 года назад

It means the world to me that you care girl, thank you so much 🙏💕

@45rrr676ggu 2 года назад

💕 my mum had 4 miscarriages I know it’s different but I can sympathise with you x ❤️

@kmartaus 2 года назад

It's really not different 🥺🙏 my heart goes out to you, your mama and your family because that is the most heartbreaking experience that someone could encounter and poor woman encountered that 4 times 🙏💕 I am so sorry and thank you for watching this video and listening to my story babe, I know that this was an intense storytime 😘😘

@45rrr676ggu 2 года назад

@@kmartaus

@kmartaus 2 года назад

@@45rrr676ggu love you chook xoxox

@ShannanRose 2 года назад

I'm so incredibly sorry Ashleigh 🤍🤍

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you so much for watching my birth story babe 🙏💕 it truly means the world to me and I hope 2022 has been treating you well!! xoxoxox

@brilliantbutblue 2 года назад

Ashleigh l feel every bit of your pain through the screen, you have been let down by the Public Health System in Australia and for that l am so so sorry. I am grateful you got an autopsy for your perfect Amalia, she may have her Angel wings but she is still a part of us. Thankyou for sharing 🤍

@rubyandfam4516 2 года назад

Oh babe this had me in tears ❤️

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Aw babe it touches my heart so much to know that you felt emotional for my bubba and my story. Thank you 🥺💕

@christinem.carter-wanner5304 2 года назад

God bless this family!

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you so much 🥺😘🙏

@hayleypuzey 2 года назад

Here mama, I have tissues ready xx

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you for being here beautiful mama 🥺🙏 it means the world to me that you wanted to hear her story!

@crubbythebeagle57 2 года назад

crubby loves likes your vlogs impressive really a great vlogs

@kmartaus 2 года назад

Thank you for watching 🥺💕🙏

@shadow_hillsgrandma8224 Год назад

may our Lord bless you, dear lady, and somehow soften the agony in your heart and soul.

@LinLin-fp5dw 2 года назад

I don't want to doubt your understanding related to the cause of your baby stillbirth but are you sure you comprehend correctly the explanation regarding the infection? Because in majority of the cases the prematurely broken or leaking of the water is due to already existing infection in the mother's body. It can be e-coli and strep as it was in my case when my water broke in 31st week and my baby was born a week later. So the infection already existed and was progressing in my body till the point the pregnancy couldn't whistand it. Maybe you should consult it with yet another doctor. Just to have peace of mind.