BJD and a Cup of Tea: Confession - Shame in Doll Hobby 

I love how you sip on your tea to talk!! XD I remember when I had my first doll over a decade ago. I didn’t even really know myself. I was too ashamed admitting I liked dolls. I ended up letting her go few months after purchase and felt guilty ever since. Now I am confident and really know myself, I came back to bjd and never regretted ever since! The only thing is that I have three kids (and two cats) so it’s difficult finding time. Sometimes I hold my baby and just look at my beautiful dolls, maybe touch hair or tell them how I wish I could have time with them. :( I realised that it’s also a part of doll time now :) Now I use my dolls in my work, so lately I am super open to show off my dolls to non-doll people because I use my work for excuse to bring them with me! I hope you enjoy your very own way in this hobby!!

When I was a kid I was always playing with dolls making up stories, I would spend hours on the balcony with my myscene barbies and the horrible flowy white dress I made for her and I would make up stories in my head just silently playing with them. Once I found out about comics I started drawing and left the dolls behind, it was a way for me to grow up and leave the shameful dolls behind, I still draw and I still make up stories, but it's hard for me to write because I have so much else on my mind. 15 years ago I discovered BJD dolls and fell in love with the possibilities of a moveable doll that can be endlessly customized, so I tried making my own, we were really broke, like I would glue 2 sheets of printer paper I got from school together to hold the watercolor I won at the school drawing contest better broke, so I knew I had to make my own, after over a year of fiddling with that thing I left it in the beautiful case my dad had made for me and moved on with my life, once again leaving the dolls behind. A couple of weeks ago I saw a video of myscene dolls and decided to see if I could get some second hand to replace the first one I ever had which I completely destroyed as a kid, a couple days ago I stumbled across a little cheap doll on the second hand website, and boom, I started looking up bjd dolls and bought one from a seller, I don't have her yet but I can tell you one thing, I'm not ashamed, my brain is telling me I should be because I know that's what's expected and the rules are dolls are lame and for kids but I don't care, I'm so excited for my doll to be here in a few days and I so so excited for my brand new doll to arrive from an actual doll website, I haven't been this excited about something arriving since I was a kid. I'm likely on the spectrum and at 28 I have finally accepted myself and am tired of apologizing for being overwhelmed easily or not eating certain things, and yes, I'm a bit childish and thats who I am, I think the only shame here is that it's a damn shame we don't let people enjoy "girly" things, men get to play with lego all their lives, they get to have action figures in shelves and they get to buy lifesize models of star wars characters just because it's not girly, so fuck that, I'm happy to soon own dolls, I'm not gonna hide then and I'm gonna show them off, there is nothing shameful about a person enjoying harmless dolls.

Wow… you just poured your heart out in this video…. I’m new to this hobby… But, I’m an Artist and a Mom… life happens. You give it what you can when you can. This was beautiful…. Keep posting, keep chasing your dreams and give yourself the same encouragement and grace that you have given others 💗

شكرا لك، اعتقد بأننا محبوا هواية ال BJD جميعنا نشعر بذات المشاعر و نواجه ذات التحديات، انا سعيدة اني وجدت مجتمعا من محبي هذة الهواية، لقد خشيت من كلام الناس لسنوات و كنت احاول ملء هذا الفراغ بصناعة دمى القماش و قد صنعت الكثير في الواقع لكنها لم تكن كافية، اما الآن فسأفعل ما احبه و سأسعى لممارسة هذة الهواية و انسى كلام الناس، و قد قرأت بعض القصص في التعليقات و قصصنا متشابهه، وربما نكون متشابهين فعلا، و انا ايضا احب التصوير و المونتاج و هي من هواياتي و كذلك صناعة الملابس لهذة الدمى كانت هواية منذ الطفولة، كان من الشجاعة ان تقومي بصنع هذا الفيديو و من الرائع ان ندعم بعضنا بعضا و نواسي بعضنا بشأن الصعوبان، لقد اطلت الكتابة لكن شكرا لقرائتك، اتمنى ان تري تعليقي 😊

Thank you for this great video. You opened my eyes and really helped me. One of my bjd inspos and so helped ease me into the hobby, your genuine words reached my heart. Sending you good wishes ❤️❤️

I'm in this hobby since 2004 and your channel is one of the very first that I've watched and subscribed to, we will always be here for you we miss you, and will be waiting for videos whenever you can, so brave to do such a video.

Thank you. New to this hobby and appreciate hearing this kind of talk/discussion. 💖

Its called life happens :) I have been on many hiatuses, sometime you need a break (for inspiration) sometimes things happen which causes a hiatus. Still have bjds, and when I start appreciating them, I really do ♡ Nothing to be ashamed or guilty about.

Really great to see you again 😭💗💗💗 I really miss the old days 💔😢

Omg. I’m sending you positive energy! As someone who suffers from manic depression, my ventures and interests often end up collecting dust. I get it! I don’t know where this BJD journey is headed, but I’m already worrying about potential dust. Thanks for sharing. I’ve been looking at cabinets that can be modified into a 1:3 scale wardrobe/dollhouse/storage.

Thank you for sharing 😊 All the best in your future plans ❤❤❤

It happened to me with my hobby too. I just gave up writing fiction for several years when my son was born. Now he is older so I came back to it, feeling the same kind of guilt you describe. About my other hobby - dolls - I never stopped collecting, now I posted a few shorts with dolls for fun :-)

glad i found you,, i fell out of the hobby when i lost my good job that allowed me to buy so many bjd's, its a very expensive hobby. but now i need to thin down and let go of alot of dolls and clothes wigs etc

You can try doing a trial for their story. Write a short story with their different perspectives. You know like a one shot background story just to give us a some idea about their world. Their are many different novel apps like webnovel/wattpad.

Long time no see! I’ve missed your videos. I too have stopped doing RU-vid videos for quite a while because it’s hard to keep up with and because I’m hot and cold about my hobbies. Sometimes I’m really into my dolls, and sometimes I only have one on my desk to look at but don’t do anything with them otherwise. It ebbs and flows, and that’s okay.

Very nice video. I actually want to film bjd related videos, but I feel like my room and doll room don't look nice enough. I think I'll try soon after watching this video. Also I really like watching your videos about your story so I'll send positive vibes out into the universe that it'll get picked up! It's a really great idea so I think it's also a matter of also the right editor (?) reading it. Hopefully this new iteration of it is the one.

I remember you from an eye making vid you made. Thanks for that. I just subscribed again. SOME of the types of people in this hobby had me running with my tail in-between my legs. I kept all my bjds and items to myself... Like now I am making vids on my channel pointing out items in this hobby I find to be STILL too pricey, or just plain outta style. Been around since 2013 and I love dolls. Thanks for your vids, and your personality is sweet. 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻 Hope to make it to 1,000 subs one day.

Hope to see a new video soon. I’d like to know your family and your friends viewpoints too.nice video topic.

I’ve been watching your videos almost since the beginning. Wow it’s been 6 years, it hasn’t felt that long. Have you thought about writing your story from Lysiana and Echaehn’s perspective? Then form a draft from everyone’s perspective. Have you ever considered publishing your book yourself?

I like your collection really want to get that dolls

I've tried writing before but I always ended up deleting them before they got very far. I can draw so I drew the characters of mine I loved so much. I think I can understand because I would really love some dolls that look like the characters (especially the main protagonist because he means so much to me) but I don't think I'll be able to for a while ._.

i feel this vid... :(

Long time no see!! 😋

you know,, shame and guilt are cousins,, my guilty nature comes into play when i look and thing holy crud you paid 550 or 6 50 for this plactic toy,, are you nuts!, ? but when i look at my elfdoll Soah and boy Mir i cant feel guilt theyre so beautiful im taking them to my grave LOL ,, Rainman was a great sculptor, and his dolls are so so beautiful