He said when he recalls where he was before...compared to how happy he is now...he hopes that someone who relates to his dark music can see that they too can get to a better place. Look at blue October 4/12/2018 live recording. It addresses it there.
How can someone. ...stay in depression. ...when in life....someone came....from nowhere.....and gave you love?? Is destance a reason...to keep this person away from you? Love is something spiritual. ..
Steffan Jones stay strong acceptance is the hardest...depresses since 1998...pills help but sadness is there...seing my kids become who they are is what helps me on a daily basis...
Steffan Jones the song is about suicide & Justin’s personal battle with mental health. The voicemail message at the beginning is taken from his answer machine left by his Mom who knew he was sick & the very end is where they’re trying to bring him back from a suicide attempt.
This song makes me cry EVERY SINGLE TIME I hear it. I seriously have to change the station if I'm on the highway. Even just reading the lyrics rips my heart out.
My mom passed away 6 weeks ago and unfortunately she never really seen me sober especially from opiates in my adult life. Now I'm 2 weeks sober. I know that's not long but it's a start. Mom I miss you so much and I'm so sorry for all the problems I caused for you and what I put you thru. You deserved so much better than me and I cant say enough how sorry I am. I love you and miss you mom. RIP MOM
My husband is 7 mo sober.. he always loved me but when he was so high on pills he was so different. When he went to rehab a month before we got married it put us to the test. I saw him in rehab and we talked about our relationship and he made me be honest about how shitty a lot of it was, the times I knew he was lying but choose to let it go, when he would spent more then half he paycheck on payday and we still had Bill's we had to pay with us both working full time we scrapped by. Now life is pretty amazing. We've never been better and he is so rational now that it was hard to adjust to at first. We are a team now 100%, we dont lie to each other we talk about everything and he is my rock. He got sober from coke at 18 when he had his son then relapsed with pills for years. Then he got sober for me and his son. I respect and admire him more than anyone on this earth. He looked at his demons honestly and choose to change his life completely.
This song is so important because it reminds me of what I should have said to my son and what he should have said to me before he died by suicide. this song helped me balance my anguish and grief and guilt.
Dayna Whitmer my mother's friend lost her son to suicide last year, I remember specifically thinking that no pain in the world could match hers. I am very sorry for your loss and very thankful for the life that you gave to your son.
Dayna Whitmer This was my little brother's ringtone on his phone when he took his life. His letters to my Mom and I were full of him thanking us for our unconditional love. I am sorry about your son
I'm so sorry to read this. My brother passed a couple years back by suicide. A friend told me a line that I have gained alot of comfort from and shared often since:"If love could have saved him, he'd stil be here." My brother knew he was loved, he told us so. If there was anyway that loving him more could have prevented his death, then he'd still be around. But thats not what it was about, and so he's not. I can't imagine the pain of a loss of a child. I hope that your well. Take care.
I cannot even begin to explain how hard this song hits me... all the times in my life where I was broken and battered. All the times I've given it all only to have a person literally smash everything Ive fought for so hard into a million little parts.... Each one mocking me as they shatter upon the floor.... Watching people self destruct no matter what you do to slow or stop it from happening... things you couldnt change no matter what you did but still somehow blame yourself for not changing... The world is a horrible place... beautiful enough to make you love it... dark enough to smother within... Peace, Love... Empathy.
this man expressions pain that i've never had words to express...it is a gift to those who've lived the darkness and who are still trying to survive the hideous face of life. thank you justin...i just might make it with your help.
I love both versions. The first he did when he later said he wasn't well. This one feels like he was well, but it doesn't dishonor the original version. I love him for sharing all of it.
Im 3 months sober today..bekka im sorry for all the things I didnt do for you ..thank you for making me compliment myself.. ill never forget you 102 days 6 months sober
I love the way he sings it here. It plays a story in your head. If you’ve ever experienced a karmic relationship that’s full of pain and lessons. This song resonates. You have to say goodbye to a lover because the dynamic is just too toxic together. It hurts. For both parties but you must move on and become a better person because of it all.
I fought heroin addiction for over 10 years so your not alone. I am 31 now and have been clean for 2 years and week now and it was no easy feat. I started popping pills from my doctor at 16 and got dropped by him at 18 and started using dope. IF it wasnt for my daughter and facing a 16 yr state prison sentence who knows whered I would be. Please try to get help, I know it sounds so cliche, even if its for no one but yourself. You deserve to be happy. I know how hard it is to tell yourself that, at least I know I thought I didnt during my addiction, I thought I deserved all of it. The pain, suffering, sadness, sickness, hate, misery...but no one does, smile and keep your head up. Look for a methadone clinic to get involved in or a sub clinic.
I don't know if anyone's visiting this video at this point, but man... this was one of the few mainstream songs that really helped me through the worst of my nihilistic suicidal issues. I hope Justin knows how much he touched one guy's soul.
I'm here revisiting this in 2023. I'm not really an addict, but as a military man I've had a lot of short comings when it comes to my family and this song gets to me
If you guys are hating on this song as acoustic, well don't. It a depressing song and very slow. It's usually meant to be put as an acoustic version. Although I understand why Justin furstenfeld does the more upbeat version, because most of his usual songs go faster so it would seem in place. Honestly prefer this is one of my favorite acoustic covers he's done. So please stop hating this because you are used to the album version. Another acoustic cover that's amazing is Calling You acoustic ver
This was my first ever MySpace song. I always knew he was an amazing singer. People seem to have forgotten how amazing of a song this was. Here I am 12 years (or more) still loving this song. I never knew how much truth this song would ring in my future. But I know a great song when I hear it. No matter what age. Such emotion.😥
The depth of your heart and soul is so touching and beautiful You are a wonderful artist 🎶 I honestly have listened to this beautiful song at least 1000 times 💙 I prase your recovery my friend xo
This song means so much to me for so many reasons, I listen to it whenever I'm in a bad head space, I feel every word....his music means the world to me.
Ive been a fan of Blue October for years, every now and again another acoustic version of this song pops up in my list, No two are ever the same, every time Justin sings the song it's like he has a different agenda in his head. One of the most underrated bands I've come across.
This song makes me think of my mom and everything she did and tried to do for me. She's gone now and it reminds me how I was and breaks me. Thanks for this version
I always loved this song because it reminds me of family my whole life. The exact same feeling. Part of letting go of that life we thought we loved and knew is affecting truth it was never real or needed. Life alone helps me share my Music and Art with everyone else. Grateful for that and this song. Thank you.
i like this version. Ive loved this song since i was in high school dealing with depression myself. I could listen to the history for sale album forever.
I know there's no chance of him seeing this post but I'm gonna say it anyway, thank God for you and your music my brothers. From the bottom of my heart for letting me know I'm not the only one who feels the way I have felt. And really just for keeping going even though you want to give up, you didn't, or haven't and that helps me every time I hear one of your songs so again, thank you so much guys.
I remember this helping me through a sad breakup as a teenager. It's stuck with me ever since. It's what made me fall in love with him and the rest of the band.
I'm sober now for 3 whole months thats one accomplishment that you helped me with. The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again.
Best version of this song forsure. Battling opiate addiction for the last 17 years. I have a son now and I stay away from heroin for him. This song speaks so loudly to my soul. I know exactly how it feels to want to leave it all behind because of the hurt we cause. I know what it feels like to see the disappointment in your mothers face. I know how it feels to let everyone down. So this hits harder than most songs ever could. How could you do this to me? Shit how could I do this to myself? There’s no better way to silence the soul than doing opiates.
In the end, our lives are far too meaningful to live solely for ourselves. Please flourish brother. Not just for your sake, but the greater world. Hard though it will be - you're much more important than you would ever dare admit.
I never looked up the meaning to this song….nor will I……but I feel that this is a song that expresses such love for another’s devotion that the only way to repay them is to absolve them of their self inflicted dedication and devotion. Now that’s true heartfelt love……incredible song even after all these years.
as an ex addict and someone that suffers from severe depression, my mind is constantly racing and i lost the most important person in my life, i cant ever just seem to find peace in my own head, really the only thing that makes me feel okay is music, ive been to the edge, and blue october is what brought me back, you guys listerally saved my life, so thank you and keep making these songs, they are perfect
Thanks Momma, we're all still alive, thanks for taking care of our father during his addiction's & taking care of us!!! You're our heart Momma, I'd never hate you, 😍🌹😍
Understanding this song is something I’d never wish on anyone. Not even my worst enemy. Because I understand it. I understand every line. And I can’t keep fighting.
I don't really prefer the way he sang it in this version (besides the beginning I kinda liked how he sang lower) but what really matters is the emotion he puts into it. You can tell he's really feeling the song. It's a really personal song so I guess he can sing it however the fuck he feels best
