Borderline (BPD) Man interview-Josh 

I'm in the same boat. No meds really work for more than a month (If that). I've gone to therapy before many times but, stopped because I felt it didn't help with the constant depression. there were times that when the meds helped though, and therapy actually made a difference. It just feels like what they are telling me, wont sink into my brain to effectively change my thoughts. I can't get past that constant depression, to get better. I'm hoping to find some new type of treatment, then go back into therapy to work on things. Hope you are doing well.

@woolfy02 have you ever looked into IFS therapy? It stands for "internal family system" It's different from a normal talk therapy approach. It was the first time in my life I didn't feel my BPD could control me for forever. Took time to get there, but IFS 10000% gave me some hope I desperately needed. And I use the stuff I've learned everyday and it's super beneficial. Normal talk therapy sucked because I would get super sad telling some doc about my crazy mind and then feel even worse after cuz now I'm worked up and my problems are still the same. I'm not saying it's gonna be your "game changer" but maybe it can give you new perspective on yourself, which is exactly what it did for me. Wish you the best friend!!! 💚

@@oggaspack7971 I've never heard of that but, I'll definitely look into it! Thanks!

It’s actually DBT that’s recommended for borderlines, not CBT.

I hope he resumes a connection with mental health services. BPD is lifelong. He has found the strength in his marriage that he lacked in his relationship with himself. But without a strong sense of self, he is living precariously before the next challenging life event hits. Not to mention if they choose to start a family. May he learn to love himself as much as his wife loves him ❤

Glad to hear it!!

i am really glad to hear that. I don't have any disorders but I can somehow relate.

I'm so happy for you!! You are a Champion ✨🏆✨ I have Bpd and Cptsd and am determined to put it into remission!! Best wishes to you 💜✨

what talking therapy helped?

Fr I have ptsd and bpd and anxiety of all kinds and I can't afford the help , because it's hard for me to keep a job because of my mental health it's a never ending cycle, in top of I never have any emotional support just always around assholes .

It seems like medical science is not up to treating all issues but that he had a lot of treatment resource available.

I agree #lifecap

Universal healthcare period needs to happen here

World wide has This same ignorance to peoples lives. even in places where healthcare is free it’s still something that needs work 😢

Have you ever had DBT? It’s changed my life and it can change yours

@@TheMellsBellsdbt has changed my life. I still have so much to learn from dbt but it’s been a huge help in my life. I use the stop skill and tips skill and checking the facts all the time. Radical acceptance is the most difficult for me.

Are you sure you have the correct diagnosis? It is a genetic disorder and often misdiagnosed. People with BPD have extreme mood swings, unstable relationships and trouble controlling their emotions. They have a high risk of suicide and self-destructive behavior.

Love you 🙏💞💗

Just quit alcohol totally for 8 months and the pathways 100% will erode ...do it

I think that's called "object inconstancy".. Could you please give an example of that? What is being viewed differently? (You don't have to answer but I'm very curious.. thank you!)

Thank you

Thank you! My partner is a man with BPD as well. He has so much to offer this world beyond this diagnosis. We were friends for 20 years before we got together and I was blown away to know this side of him. He hid it so well. The depth of his emotions is inspiring; it fills my soul. I'm lucky he let me in. ❤

I have BPD. Thank you for your kind words.

I'm a guy with BPD and that means a lot.

Why do you Americans say your "Partner" Why not just say your boyfriend? You worried about offending all the far-left wokie feminists saying Boyfriend because it's a straight white man? 😂 Usually in context you say partner when your in a relationship with someone of the same gender or in an open relationship. Just sayin.

take this out onto the street and try it with people, nobody cares for nobody i dont know why you even fight fire with fire. try water hey. just saying.

unless your loved ones are narcissists and kick you when you're down....

@@leahscheelar5130that happened to me! It’s the hardest part to overcome!

I love a guy with narcisstic BPD but he doesn't want me to love him, we are friends but he keeps me at a distant. I wish he could trust me and love me back. I stay friends with him because I worry about him so much. I let him know I'm here for him and he knows that...

Sorry for your loss❤

I'm so sorry

I'm so sorry ❤

I'm so much like Josh. I'm listening again to try to find my way out of another funk. I needed to hear his story. Maybe the marijuana is affecting me more than I was aware...All I know is I will not go to another mental health doctor. It truly is up to ourselves to improve our situations.

Same , bpd and bipolar 2 here 20 yrs old

Must love yourself. Not depend on a partner. He needs to drop religion. Masturbating is ok and normal. The little girl was probably being molested and taught him. He is not a bad guy and must love himself first. Then love a partner. No sky daddy

How can anyone have a stable relationship with a pwBPD ? Even therapy didn’t help my exes lol

@@skantewarrior522it is possible

​@@skantewarrior522 You're the problem

@@earthangel7253 typical bpd response, everyone else is the problem right?

Why do u think the US is so mixed up n has so many ppl doing crazy things.

Its not church, it's PEOPLE

It’s not church or religion that does that, it’s people who try to force church/religion or really anything on someone who’s not ready for it.

Exactly!

💯No medicine can help him if he feels like he'll never be good enough for God because he masturbates and consumes porn. He needs to reconcile with his own sexuality and self worth aside from the church's viewpoint but that's next to impossible when it's your whole world physically, and the mental construct that you base all your opinions upon.

65 year old woman here. I suffered most of my life, but wasn't formally diagnosed until I was 40. It is hard to understand, even harder to live through. My oldest son has also recently been diagnosed with same, he is 37 years old, and we get along great now, but didn't always. We don't live together but see each other regularly, we can relate to each other. He is my main source of support.

23 male bpd, how do you manage to live

40 yrs male with BPD no body understands me … Hmu

@@MrArqo83 how do you live brother, im in the same boat

I’m 20 with bpd. I’d love to talk with you if you end up seeing this please

Go take all of this and give it to a therapist. Let them figure it out for you. Present yourself and allow them to help guide you. Pray about it. You got this brother. Take it day by day. I have felt it all and I’m sure you’ve survived so much!!! Be proud of yourself

Sorry to hear. What you wrote resonates with me. Would you consider making a video about your experience and going more in-depth about it?

In a very similar situation here. Although neither me nor my ex seem to have proper diagnosis - What you said about being depressed and prone to co-dependency resonates with me so much, and when combined with a partner with Borderline - it's a recipe for disaster. Even if you were completely mentally stable, you cannot (or should not) be with someone you cannot lean on, and yet always be there when they are the one in need (which I know can sometimes be hard to grasp when you're the codependent one - I personally tended to diminish my own needs for his sake in hopes of that helping him - yet it only ever made things worse, since he always had someone to run back to and therefore not have to work on himself, needless to say my needs were never even close to being met). Hoping you'll both heal from this, if not together, then with someone more compatible who will be able to meet your needs. You're not alone. Take care

U did the right thing. I gave up too. It's painful but worth it. God Bless

The way they go back and forth from being lucid taking responsibility bettering themselves etc.. to being delusional selfish manipulative lying makes it extremely difficult to leave because you can see who they COULD be and when they are rational and emotionally stable you really like them. You think you can either help them better themselves if you just understand them better and work with them and love them but it doesn't work. You'll waste a lot of time energy and lose a piece of your soul in the process. It's devastating I feel really bad for people who have to deal with this and don't have the option to run because they're dealing with an immediate family member. It must be awful. It's just really irritating because it seems like something that could be cured but it can only be managed and only if the person with bpd desperately genuinely wants help and applies themselves fully but the disorder doesn't lend itself well to self improvement because that requires one to take accountability and the blame shifting and delusional thought processes and emotional reasoning make it almost impossible. It's very difficult to change yourself if your problems are related to your actual personality and was developed in early childhood you have to basically reprogram your mind and most people can't do that.

Who was he even blaming….people with bpd don’t always blame others your one experience doesn’t count for the others

Look up word salad please.

This isn’t word salad, you need to look up what you’re talking about before commenting. I’m willing to bet you’re the Golden Child with very little empathy for your sister. Also, BPD is on a spectrum.

First of all, I'm so sorry about your sister struggling with mental health issues. My sister had been on Zoloft for almost 20 years and slowly reduced her intake. She actually managed to quit in July of 2021. But she became in such a bad condition mentally and still is, that she can't even be alone while her partner is at work. The hour he's working, she came to my mother. Every day, 5 days a week. A year after she quit them, she was suicidal and I was the one who had to contact the doctors, the ER, and everything else. I'm diagnosed with severe OCD, ADD, anxiety, severe depression and more. To deal with someone so ill as her, I just couldn't do it. After a while I had to pull myself out of the situation. I started to get suicidal thoughts myself and by the years I've become so selfish that I prioritise myself first. I got a few very critical comments from people around about the fact that I removed myself. How dared I? How could let my sister down so horribly when she needed me most? I had to. It was either her or me. When a person becomes so ill that it affects the people around to the point where they also become seriously ill, then it's time for the professional to take over. But she doesn't want that. She would not let herself be admitted to a psychiatric hospital. She got a team that should come home to her every day, but the first appointment with them they said something wrong and that was it. I'm sorry about this rant. My point was that I believe I know how you're feeling. Being next of kin to people with severe mental health issues is the worst situation ever. It's absolutely horrible and so exhausting! I really hope your sister is open to accepting help. I hope she gets better and as stable as possible. And I hope 3are able to take care of yourself. I believe there are groups of people who are families, partners, friends and so on of people who are very ill. Support groups. Those can be gold. I've never been in such a group but I was in a self help anxiety group years ago. To meet people who truly understand what you're going through is such a powerful experience. Suddenly you're not alone and there are people who actually understand you for real real. I've never experienced that before. I also just want to say a few words about the interview. You wrote something about the word salad. And I was just like a big question mark thinking that did salad have to do with this? I'm a bit slow and very literall. If that's even a word. However, now I understand what you mean. Word salad is someone all over the place? Because that was my first though when I started watching the interview. He's not finishing his sentences. And he hardly ever gets to the point. At least I didn't understand what he was saying. First I thought he was very nervous and it got a bit better. Bad I had a very hard time following his though process. He never finished. But that may very well be a part of the BPD. Even though in my opinion he sounds almost manic

I wasn't done. He comes off as manic. I never knew that was part of BPD. I'd though his struggle at this time was Bipolar. No matter what he's dealing with, he doesn't come across as stable. Far from it. But there's probably a lot I don't know about BPD. Even though I've looked into it a bit because I'm wondering if I may have it because I have such issues with relationships. I just can't figure them out. But if that's BPD or a Autism Spectrum disorder - I don't know. I'll finish now and leave you be. I'm sorry. I hope you're doing fine, and your sister, too. Stay strong and courageous! Lots of love to you both and everyone involved, all the way from Norway.

I came to a similar conclusion, but I would be careful about assuming that he's ashamed of it in any regard. Perhaps he just didn't feel the need to overexplain. If he wanted to specify that he has exclusively slept with women, he could have done that. Doesn't mean that he feels guilty about it or otherwise that he hasn't made peace with it.

👀 😑

It's black and white....that how he sees it.

@@vettie​​⁠​​⁠Fair point about assuming his reasons. We really can’t know. But, he sure overexplained a whole bunch of other things in the 45 minutes we saw him. In fact, most of his monologue was one big overexplanation. But, while he was specific about losing his virginity to a girl, he was not so specific when speaking of his sexual escapades in his young adulthood. Ask yourself how many young women do you know who make a habit of meeting a complete stranger behind a gas station to have sex in the dead of night. Now tell me, if you had to bet on it would you guess that an encounter like that was between a young man and young woman, or two young men? If you’re honest with yourself, I’m fairly certain you’d wager on the latter. I know you said you’d had the same suspicion, but I just feel like there’s a whole lot of evidence that it’s very clearly true.

@@AntiPlatitude Yes, there were several instances that made me suspect he might actually be gay. The aspect of pornography is significant. It seems he recognized his attraction to men but couldn't act on it due to his religious background, which may have led to his suicide attempts. He mentioned telling someone about it, stopping for six months, then trying to kill himself when he couldn’t hold himself back and revisited it, likely due to deep shame. He also brought up transsexuals, which is interesting because many curious, scared men look at transsexual porn, seeing it as a middle ground. I've met men who’ve admitted to this. After mentioning transsexuals, he said he doesn’t support that because of his religion, which seemed out of place. He also said, “I’ll show you mine if you show me yours,” which felt coded. The pornography part of his story was significant, but he didn’t specify what kind, and he seemed very ashamed of what he was viewing, not necessarily the act itself. Because he doesn’t talk about having sex with 40 people with as much shame as he talks about the porn. I also sensed that the "girl" he experimented with under the bunk bed might have been a boy, given how he framed it. There was ambiguity in certain parts of his story but a lot of detail in others. Additionally, he mentioned driving two hours away for sex, which suggests he was trying to hide his activities. His story is incredibly sad, and his wife seems like she might be a beard, which could lead to more suicidal behavior. The repression runs deep in this case and I blame the church.

Schema therapy was a breakthough in therapy

Hi from Tipperary ireland . So sorry you're grieving. Please take care, talk to the priest's and people I'm the churches they are great also pieta house !

@@katieb2098 TPP is nice and bless you i do not discriminate if faith is love - thank you for chiming in really - bless yer heart happy easter sunday and pieta house calls the gardai if you did not know - love to you!

@brookebowers1229 oh my goodness ... calls the guards ... wow.. OK is that a recent thing?

@@katieb2098 sadly no and the same with the Samaratins ...they lull you into falsce security keep you on the line and handcuff you - if they want to- or just come harrass you flashlights in all the windows back and forth in my eyes and my autism help dogs eyes - the day i found out my sister was murdered 6 cars showed up because all my buddies in the states assumed i knew and i found out online -everyone called because my health isalready bad and i thought i was dying ... they all showed up 12 gardai to my lil cottage to silence my "prank calls" what they call welfare checks for me ... i shoved the laptop at the 1st garda and screamed that is my sister while the news in seattle played her death over and over - all of them got out i was screaming one forced in and forced me to take a random bottle of pills to put the "whisht " into me and she told the rest to back away - they al knew they were in the wrong being here - just bored - fun to pick on the handicaped in bantry country cork being i am autistic and i cannot walk oh and i am married to the town drunk - so i deserve all this abuse - sorry real bad day i have no friends in ireland but lived here for 22 yrs - easter is a bad day and the anniversary of the hardai breaking my pelvis last year for trying to get an ambulance home from the hospital - i ened up in bridewell cork nepotism and the crooked gardai cheers lovie thanks for being kind

That’s awesome to have been diagnosed by Marsha herself. I’m really sorry for your loss. Male BPD from England.

He was probably exaggerating. At the very least it would have hospitalized him and made him very sick if he truly ate that many at once.

I get this. My mom is BPD and I’ve had to cut off our relationship. It’s heartbreaking.

I had to break up with my girlfriend of 2 years who I’m still so in love with but i myself have mental health issues & don’t have that kind of strength to support her the way she needs(& vice versa). Our mental health issues seemed to collide with each other. It was just too painful & hard for us both. It’s just truly heartbreaking. She goes back & fourth between understanding, taking responsibility, being remorseful of the pain she’s cause me, and blame shifting, insulting, manipulating, saying I’m giving up on her or not being understanding & thinking I’m just a fuck boi or something. As someone that struggles with codependency, chronic major depressive disorder, severe anxiety disorder, OCD along with many other things, I just don’t know what to do, question my own conduct, moral compass, faithfulness, & general ability to be a loving kind respectful, strong person. I became paranoid, obsessive & compulsive with these things. It feels like our souls are reaching towards each other, but our brains just won’t let us in this life. It just breaks my heart.

They are all hopeless

@@JocelynDaroczy Sorry to hear that.

Word. Don't be so hard on yourself. Live a little. 90+% of ( male ) teenagers ( puberty ) have probably indulged themselves in a compulsive wankin' period. I know i have 🥵

This might be a really insightful comment - self-love often divorces itself from the dark side (the new me!), but then when the shit hits the fan and one reenters the dark side (the old me) - the self-love that was being cultivated is nowhere to be found. Overcome the "black and white thinking" by bringing the darkness (and guilt) into the light, rather than pretending it doesn't exist. "It's okay to be bad" hmmm. Reminds me of the Jung quote, "One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious." Something to ponder, thank you.

People with BPD have extreme mood swings, unstable relationships and trouble controlling their emotions. They have a high risk of suicide and self-destructive behavior. Genetic disorder.

I am so sorry that happened to you beautiful, found ur socials, never would have known

​@@LuluBritnot at all established that it's genetic. Current 'best theory' is it's due to a biological susceptibility meeting a triggering trauma. One could have the right genetics and never have it manifest because no trauma. And someone can experience similar trauma but not develop BPD. The behavior can't be genetic, because it's a behavioral pattern. It acts in response to interpreted information, as opposed to psychiatric disorders which act before interpretation. The emotional reaction for BPD is entirely dependent on how the situation is perceived by their personality. And it's not really emotionally unstable (ie. unpredictable), it's emotionally reactive. The difference (which is important to understand) is there's a reason for the emotion, it is just disproportionate (extremely) to the cause.

@@craigslist6988 Ref: Mayo Clinic

C-PTSD is borderline personality disorder. It was made up by social workers who were uncomfortable with the diagnosis of borderline personality disorder for some reason and it caught on for billing purposes.

92' babies uniiite! It sounds like you are describing me 😂 what life... we got this tho! (Says this with a broken ankle from totaling her car under the influence a week ago 🥲) Bi polar 1 for the win... have you ever been assessed?! The meds help being somewhat less impulsive... i was doing so well... fml...

Love your comment. Going through the same thing! Much love to you ❤

Yt is a nice place to now more about BPD. We're all together here! Good comment by the way!

Could you sum this disorder up in a few sentences because I still don’t understand it. Thank you 🙏

look up it on google, it will tell you the symptoms @@crazy4bruno1

Understand. I have C-PTSD from being abused on a scale only a few know as a child; locked in a closet, tortured, hogtied, forced child labor, malnutrition, brainwashed, gaslighted, isolation from all people, forced my mom’s RX drugs so she could maintain full power & control over me, etc. I prayed every night to die or for her to die so the abuse would stop. We lived on a farm so nowhere to run. My exit strategy was hand forging HS transcripts & begging acceptance to a Christian college (PBAU). It changed my life & my motivation to succeed is so I’d never go back! #survivingtothriving

@@crazy4bruno1 People with BPD have extreme mood swings, unstable relationships and trouble controlling their emotions. They have a high risk of suicide and self-destructive behavior. GENETIC DISORDER!!

@@crazy4bruno1 People with BPD have extreme mood swings, unstable relationships and trouble controlling their emotions. They have a high risk of suicide and self-destructive behavior. GENETIC DISORDER!!

holy shit that's crazy.

Maybe… see how he’s doing on social media first, before you call. BPD tends to respond very well to treatment, but that means the person has to be seeking treatment, or actively working on their mental health.

Absolutely true!

It is possible to be your own hero. Sometimes these traumas make us stronger and we really can heal, despite the lies in our heads. Keep swimming Dory, moving objects are harder to target. But pls process along the way. Don’t hold everything in. It is so harmful. I know mental weakness and vulnerability first hand. From trauma. Life is somewhat better now after decades of pain, because I befriended my depression, self cared a LOT, released stuff!!! and started loving myself, deeply. And moving more. And giving back to others, that is truly becoming my joy. My 2 cents worth. And thanks for sharing. 🤍

TY for sharing your thoughts. I will just say I have a very difficult time opening up about the depression and hurt in my life but on the flip side I hate living with it for so long. Just need to take baby steps but in a positive direction. Sometimes it does really help to see there are other people living with issues and that you are not alone in the fight even though each fight is an individual journey......

No don't you get it. God won't let him pleasure himself yet he is a pdo himself

Yup. When I went through sexual harrassment, my “friends” suddenly left my life and unfollowed/blocked then cancelled me forever. People on social media act like they care about others for clout and the euphoria they get from good attention, but on the inside they really don’t have any interest in helping anyone because they are selfish and only care about themselves and their own feelings. After this experience, I stopped asking people to hang out because they don’t cherish the friendship they have and it was a waste of time. Now I self improve every day and love and rely only on myself.

i agree, america needs to stop prioritizing profits over our fucking health!!!

I am so sorry that happened to you just terrible

Its so sad meds aren't legally available for a fraction of the damage done currently by the booming illicit med market. "Just say no" has been a resounding fail for too long. Creates, as you so rightly say trauma on the early trauma that drove us to self medicate in the first place! This articulate young man has been through a lot His faith both helps and hinders imho

Understand. I have C-PTSD from being abused on a scale only a few know as a child; locked in a closet, tortured, hogtied, forced child labor, malnutrition, brainwashed, gaslighted, isolation from all people, forced my mom’s RX drugs so she could maintain full power & control over me, etc. I prayed every night to die or for her to die so the abuse would stop. We lived on a farm so nowhere to run. My exit strategy was hand forging HS transcripts & begging acceptance to a Christian college (PBAU). It changed my life & my motivation to succeed is so I’d never go back! #survivingtothriving

People with BPD have extreme mood swings, unstable relationships and trouble controlling their emotions. They have a high risk of suicide and self-destructive behavior. GENETIC DISORDER!!

It is often misdiagnosed and a genetic disorder. People with BPD have extreme mood swings, unstable relationships and trouble controlling their emotions. They have a high risk of suicide and self-destructive behavior. Please get multiple evaluations. Sending ❤💪🙏

ADHD is common amongst BPD and C-PTSD. I have all three. A side story to a side story but they are all relative to the point. You add over explaining, it could seem very chaotic but that’s because it is. Very much trying really hard for someone to understand us tends to be difficult even if we give numerous thorough examples. It’s very much complex expression and the average person can’t relate regardless how hard we try.

@@AnthonyHernandez-je1tx Sounds exhausting. Hopefully you’re effectively dealing with all those things.

​@@AntiPlatitude Or not effectively dealing with them. He can do whatever he wants. He could spit in your face if he met you actually.

@@Tandle779 what the fuck are you talking about?

@@AntiPlatitude something your dad could use help with

You mean all religion

I grew up with the same religious guilt and it took years to heal from it. It's sad how many people suffer from the toxicity of religious beliefs. My heart goes out to you.

​​@@Innerlight320 aLl ReLiGiOn...religion has been around for thousands of years. Society is sicker than ever and it's more SECULAR than ever. Not a coincidence.

Yeah, it's insane how they make people feel guilty for the most natural things.

Mine is literally doing the same exact thing right now. Smh. I’m sorry you guys are going through this too.

How do you think she feels! Do research into this harrowing disorder, and don't judge or criticise her, as I have been by most of my family. You need to empathize, not blame. Because of this I am estranged from most of my family. However I feel lucky to have a few really great supportive friends, whom I see now and then. I also have my 2 beautiful huskies, they are my lifeline. I wish you all the best for the future, you have many years ahead of you, and I hope they will be happier ones. Sending love and thoughts from Australia 🦘🐨🇦🇺

@@lindamcgregor4080 , I know how she feels because she tells me, I have read books, listened to podcasts and interviews, you tube videos etc.. it runs in my family and I'm grateful I haven't been hit full force like she has BUT, my family has tried to help her and she just blows everything up. Right now she's in a good spot, her meds were adjusted and she seems good. She gets good for 6 months or so then does something to fall back, she even says she's her own worst enemy.

holy c. BPD isn't psychotic so hearing voices was due to something else, maybe BP1 or schizophrenia. I cannot imagine a psychotic BPD living very long at all, that is a feedback loop nightmare.

I hope the young man finally found peace 🙏

@craigslist6988 He might've had schizophrenia. No one knew, really. His family had said that when he was upset, he wouldn't say anything and would be nonverbal for weeks at a time. No one knew he even wanted to self-harm at all, so that's why he was on a unit that didn't have much restriction. They had to bring in trauma counselors to talk to the staff involved and the patients that saw as well. People quit because of it. Just really sad for everyone involved, but I cant imagine the suffering and torture he dealt with every day and the torture.

@@BespokeCarpentry weird they didn't put it together that he was schizophrenic. Nonverbal is a symptom iirc, the voices and hallucinations get so extreme they just get lost in their own mental noise. Very sad indeed, and what a living torture. Medications should be able to help but if not that's no way to live... can probably see why he did what he did.

Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.

Hey! Yes Dr.medshrooms

Ive done shrooms last month in my house. It taught me how severely traumatized I was from alcohol. I healed from many mental traumas from my past and was able to forgive, let go. Shrooms to me is a remedy not a vice. I even felt more refreshed the morning after. So no hangovers. No depression mood for days. No anxiety.I now have a more calm mind

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

I was horrifically depressed since childhood. It was relentless. I assumed it would ultimately end me somehow. About twelve years ago I randomly accepted the offer from a friend of a few doses of mushrooms. I did them two consecutive nights alone. First night was pretty mild. The second night? Wow. I saw my depression from every angle, realized much. Next day: depression totally gone. Never came back, never coming back. It's like it's a forest far away I can remember, and could probably find again with enough effort, but it has zero impact on anything in my life or mind. They honestly saved my life and improved it immensely. I never did them again, either. I wish there was a good, organized way to administer them to people who would benefit from them.

Ya, he said often he was kept in for 8 hrs.

Probably crisis interventions.

uhh no the current medical literature clearly suggests that the disorder stems from emotion dysregulation via the amygdala. Most BPD know the outcome of their behavior it's the lack of ability to control the impulse that is the problem but that doesn't steam from immaturity. If you don't have BPD, you will never be able to understand how they feel. BPD literally feel emotions much strongly than average person which is shown in the literature.

At the end of the day, we don’t know, but my guess is that the girl learned it from first hand experience. The subtext I read from his story is that he went along with the activity, and it came from a mammalian instinct, coyly not believing where it came from. Statistically as well, young girls experience SA at that age more often than boys. I was in Josh’s shoes as a kid, experiencing something similar, and I’d never been SA’d. The other person, with how cavalier they went about it, might’ve.

Probably the girl is how he knew. More girls are victims of pedos than boys

I don't agree to full extent. While you might be right to a certain degree, children are also naturally curious and experimenting, including with their g3nitalia. THe mingling and exploring does not have to be learned from someone older. The SA issue seems to be much more prevalent in US than anywhere else though...?

I was waiting for someone to say this. NPD 100%

16-39% of people with BPD are comorbid with NPD too.

I have BPD not with npd.

​@@Tumbleweed_ it's hell.. it's like we're defective Narcs

I agree.. it's good that they share their story with their own unbiased words, so I don't think it's bad of them. But for viewers I think it's confusing. Most or all of the BPD interviews don't seem to understand or are unable to communicate what BPD is or how it causes their behavior. Possibly it's too stressful to expose themselves that much to strangers. But it would be nice to see.

It is often misdiagnosed and a genetic disorder. People with BPD have extreme mood swings, unstable relationships and trouble controlling their emotions. They have a high risk of suicide and self-destructive behavior. Please get multiple evaluations. Sending ❤💪🙏

​@@LuluBritSource on it being genetic? Everything I've seen indicates that it's a sensitive temperament + early childhood trauma (especially CSA)

​@@ChannelHandler88Same, and I'm an RMN 😬

I would like to see scientific research suggesting its genetic as well. I was with someone for 4 yrs, while h3 never has been diagnosed, has every characteristic I've ever researched about bpd. As far as the behavior destruction. I was the recipient of most of those destructive behaviors. Instant, unwarranted, and unwarned snapps of raging anger. To the point of him slapping me, choking me, leaving bruises on my face, busted lips, the inside of my van destroyed, spit in my face, throwing things at me. Once this rage is activated it was impossible to disassemble. I would typically run outside if I could then he'd switch and tell me he was scared id send him to jail and ruin his life. He would destroy the entire house, blame it all on me, then after either hours or a few days be apologetic profusely tell me how strong I am say he doesnt want to be like this and be relaxed for a few days or couple weeks but it always cycles around again. His emotional state depends on everyone and everything else. I still try to be a supportive person in his life bc he clings onto me at such a deep emtional level but its effecting every single part of my life in a negative way. My own mentao health issues mixed with his is not whats bbest for us

Many wear and Carry Labels like a badge of honour. This is not healthy and only adds fuel to the fire. Self care is Key

Psychiatry is still in diapers

It is often misdiagnosed and a genetic disorder. People with BPD have extreme mood swings, unstable relationships and trouble controlling their emotions. They have a high risk of suicide and self-destructive behavior. Please get multiple evaluations. Sending ❤💪🙏

BPD can also mellow out with age, it’s not uncommon. Getting to that age though.

You may not have BPD 😭I was misdiagnosed, I was just going through a hard time and emotions were strong But I finally met someome who truly had BPD and they literally ruined my life! It’s a imposible mental illness to deal with.

Good old Christian Narcissism can destroy any Borderline..

They are lucky

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What caused their BPD? They were really born with it? I dont think so. What happened in their lives that would cause such horrible disease?

Then you don't understand mental disorders.

I hope you are doing fine.

My heart just sank. Addicted at 4? I imagine she's " numb" to it by now, but I can imagine there's still some shock. I can't wrap my head around that.😢

@lisapatrick343. That sounds very interesting but Mark usually doesn’t read the comments. If your mother is open to being interviewed, have her apply for one. Instructions on how to apply for an interview can be found on this channel’s page in the description box. If she applies, good luck!

I'm so relieved to see someone 75. I'm 50..I've started feeling like I won't have much longer because my heart has hurt so much. I'm just now getting skills I hope I have more years to try

This is why we should never date. We just ruin the only people who care enough to be patient with us. I'm sorry

@@user-kv8bl7rm1t Thank you so much for that. I truly appreciate it. I believe there is hope for those who are committed to therapy and take it seriously. While there are solutions available, in this particular case, there seemed to be a lack of openness.

@@user-kv8bl7rm1t But why do you ruin us? You cannot control your evil behaviour or what? Why not? Wha happens inside you? Could you please help me understand my (ex-?)girlfriend better?

@@pvn2474 we feel like you don't truly love us, that you have to be lying to us or waiting for someone better. We don't feel like a whole person, so when you do find someone whole you'll realise what your missing and leave. These thoughts become so real that we hate you because we know you're not really going to stay. We will hurt you in any way we know how to show you how you make us feel, even though you're not trying to hurt us. The smallest things make us feel betrayed. It's just constant torment and pain. It's so hard to see the good in others. But we're like this because of trauma not because we want to be, people did some really bad things to us, if the people we loved did that then people we love in the future probably will too. We love more then anyone you'll ever meet but there's some demon like shit in us I can't describe. Trust me we feel guilty when we hurt others, really guilty even if we don't say it

I’m screaming lmao

20 years later I met that same girl in the psych ward I was at- not a manifested memory conjured by obsessive neurotic pondering on why I was promiscuous but I understand why you would think that

I tend to agree ... if there isn't an explicit memory of SA why ruminate and torture yourself with it

Sounds like an OCD personality. Ruminating on intrusive thoughts; racked by the guilt to the point it is debilitating; the way he speaks- explaining thoughts to the very end of his breath- My prayers for everyone in this channel.

He first needs to get a better diet. I notice his belly. People with mental disorders are often drawn to all kinds of obsessive stimulants. These are also highcarb foods, to drugs, alcohol, porn obsessions, sugars & candy, gang violence (boys mostly). A diet science knows help BPDs and autists is based on beef, cheese, salad leaves and unmixed fish. (Avoiding milk, junkfood, pizzas, pasta, bread, beer, deep fried foods etc.) They will be able to focus better with the paleo-lowcarb (nomad) diet.

Us adhder are usually more sexual and we love the rush...we aren't very good at understanding the emotional side)

@@Miawallce80 Those that are to sexual do not make good relationship partners. They are not Loyal. It’s inevitable that they will cheat. Enter at own Risk ☠

My bidar is kinda going off