The statement…”you’re almost evaluating yourself as you’re living. And that doesn’t work. You’re meant to live and then periodically evaluate in a healthy way.”...it’s like hearing someone say exactly who I’ve been in better words than I have been able too and explain why it’s been so hard. It’s so foreign to how I’ve lived when pursuing a life after God. Im stoked, thankful for these resources and to be digging into this.
I could feel the presence and freedom of God during the prayer! The teaching was exactly what I needed to hear! God bless you, your family and the ministry!
It's a constant striving. I've recognized it before in my self and another thing that ties in with it is approval seeking as well. The ability to be at peace with ourselves is to live fully in the love of the FATHER and unblock the flow! This is great Mark- Thank You!
@@anthonygerling6365 i feel you, so deeply, but isnt it nice, that this is therefore why Jesus said, preach the Gospel to every creature (not in madness, remember love, grace, and mercy) because that part of you that wants to save the world, is really the part of you designed by God; to give full surrender to the One who has ALREADY saved the world when He said “it is finished”. So my friend, it is finished. All we can do, is spread the gospel,and try not to forget to LIVE it to, i struggle, we all struggle, but keep that goal in mind and hand control over to God. DIFFICULT, but with God all things are possible. Im your sister in Christ and i pray that your joy is full, peace be with you God bless.
I think you and many others may very well benefit from a teaching called burden bearing ( as i and many others have as well ) by john and paula sandford of elijah house. Either way hope this helps and tc!
Yesterday morning when I woke up, I heard the word ‘introspective’ - I didn’t know what it meant so I googled it and thought ‘that sounds like what I’m experiencing’. Then last night this video came up on my ‘suggested videos’ on RU-vid. Thank you so much for explaining this truth and thank you for the powerful prayer 🙏🏻
This is real. Thank you Mark. I needed this. Sometimes we mean well by self examination, but it gets to the point where we cross over into introspection and it gets unhealthy. And it can happen without our awareness. Good word.
I have realized that the enemy gets the kind, sensitive ones of us to ruminate and condemn ourselves because we are less likely to sin willfully. We have big hearts and care too much to do that so he whispers,”if you really loved Jesus...(fill in the blank) and we are off to the races!!! He gets others with the opposite,”you’re good no one likes God as much as you..” They stay stuck in willful sin being tricked into thinking they are right when they are being selfish
Tu Bailey I wish I could say that I’m not guilty of the latter comment you mentioned. But I am, and many times. Thank God for His goodness which has led me to repentance. And, Thank you for your reply, my friend. 👍🏽
@@tubailey2459 True words. We all have diffrent struggels and issues. Thats why love and grace is so important. Walking out a legalism, learning what grace is and does is a gamechanger
I feel like I’m constantly working on my self so I’m not living looking for that silver bullet through books 📚 etc so I am seeing that I’m constantly trying to fix me but it’s like I’m chasing my tail this was good and makes sense thank you 🤦♀️
Great video! I'm working on this right now: embracing the wonderful rest of God and trusting that He will straightening out the areas of my heart that need his intervention! Thank you.
Wow. You're so on point with every single one of the videos I've watched. I really appreciate how are not sharing just theories but experiencial knowledge. You're blessed 🙌
As a recently new believer and recently just entered in adulthood and got baptized not even a week ago, along with dealing with ADHD and anxiety (I don’t know if I have OCD, have yet to be diagnosed but am currently seeing a therapist). Someone sent me this video, and I found it helps a lot, even though I still struggle. Thank you. 💙🙏🏻
Yeah, I realized how much I’m self-obsessing over myself, even when I’m thinking I’m trying to heal myself. Whenever I catch myself judging others or judging myself or thinking that others are judging me, I make sure to remind myself not to shame myself so I won’t shame others. Then, I get on with my day until I come across another trigger and repeat the process. Here, I’m not sure if this is introspection or self-obsession.
I’m a rapper. I haven’t made as much music as I wanted to this year because I fell into such a deep introspection to a point of where it’s been difficult for me to make sense of anything that goes on around me and started wanting answers to questions that no one could possibly answer. It’s been such a difficult year for me mentally but when I started praying it was the only thing to pull me out and now I have a creative spark I’ve never felt before. You’re video is awesome. Thank you
I’m glad you got out of that bro I’ve been in that state of mind actually going through it again now but I’m better equipped to deal with it actually just getting refreshed on this video because of that but it helped again a lot but thanks for sharing and I’m glad you’re doing better
Omg!! I so needed to see this video!! I have this disorder and didn’t even realize it. After watching this video I’m started my journey breaking free from it.
I'd like to share a technique called "Contracting". Where you set up a time in the day for introspection. And be very active in your mind to block those thoughts until the shueduled time.
Dear god shine your light on the ones around me and give life to the ones I love. Let my soul be a carrier for your love and forever help me to be in your righteous ways. In Jesus’ name we pray, Amen
I cannot believe that I’m hearing this now at 60! I have worked on and acknowledged the unhealthy introspection but hearing you it has now come to a full circle. I guess , it’s better late than never. Sooooo sad that i hear all that after a divorce......
This is soooooooo awesome!!! I didn’t know anyone else knew about chronic introspection, or the hypercritical internal critic!!! I’m all too familiar with the voice that always says, “it must be you”😳👈🏽
I think some of the hard things for me are the abstract ideas involved in healing. Like the ♥️ heart. And trying to fix or to make yourself somehow more sensitive to God’s love. I never really thought about my heart much but I’ve had it broken plenty of times… Probably creating a rejection mindset out of a way to protect myself from further emotional harm. These are the type of things that keep me in a state of confusion. I was worshiping God and fasting and praying trying to get closer to him. And the next thing I know I’ve got this OCD thing blasting thing in my head. Growing up nobody told me anything about Who I was in Christ. It’s frustrating because the Bible tells us that he has not given us a spirit of fear. That’s what’s so difficult is because when we have a spirit of fear it just feels like we’re on our own. That’s the scariest part about it. And then There’s walking towards peace... and I hit a wall… Usually in the form of an observation like… I know God hates pride And pride is difficult to see for yourself (usually other people can see it in you but you can’t see it yourself.) Then I might turn away from that for a minute and I’m worried about a rejection mindset. Feels kind of like you’re going through a spiritual mindfield. I keep editing myself like you were saying. Over analyzing everything. I want that simple childlike way of thinking. I find myself complaining to God… Why did you make me this way? Or did I make myself this way? And there’s all this talk about communication with God. I can talk to him for an hour at a time and sometimes I feel like I can guess what it is he may be thinking but that’s not truly accurate. Sometimes it feels like my soul is on the line and I lay in bed crying for the Lord to speak to me. I have fallen down on my knees. It makes me frustrated that Satan is allowed to put all of these things into our minds… No problem there. I can’t tell you how many times I have been talking to a fellow Christian and they would say something like “what you just said was A lie from the pit of hell.” This OCD thing is horrible. A few weeks ago I was in a room and I was looking at a gun And I was thinking it would be so easy too just end all of this mental strife. But my father committed suicide and I would not do that to my family. I thought maybe if I showed God how serious it was to me. Maybe he would help or give me some kind of sign… But I did not get one. Then I realize that was the wrong thing to do. Selfish. I quit all drugs and drinking three years ago. Arent things supposed to be better ? I wish there was a setting on my mind for Peace and quiet. Now I’m taking meds for ocd that aren’t really working for me. So frustrated.
Where do I begin Mmm, thank you? For captioning to the last detail, pretty much everything going on with me atm, I've just released a huge sigh of relief! I couldn't have described it better than you did, but it's gotten to a point where it's like you're assessing every little thought in your head on a minute to minute basis! and ending up feeling nothing short of being stuck and paralyzed, it's become exhausting to live, and that's an understatement
Hit rock bottom with this last year! God really pushes me to just make a phone call sometimes. Used to think this introspection was an asset … till it started killings me!
The first creatures were microbes, passively floating about and eating what nutrients came their way. Then you had things which had some basic sensory apparatii, like photosensitive organelles which meant that a microbes could identify when light levels were high which could prompt them to push deeper into the water. Creatures then became multicellular and member cells specialize. This allows for a greater range of automatic responses. But they are still fairly simple at this stage. A seed buried in the soil detects that it has been above 5 decrees celcius for a week and so it begins to germinate, growing away from gravity. If X, then Y. Eventually you move beyond that, to creatures which can navigate their environment. They have eyes and can navigate it's marine environment. They see a patch of algae, they swim to it and eat it. If they're full, they find a mate. If they are not full but there is no algae in this area, they move onto. This is a decision tree rather than a switch that is flipped, but the responses are still automatic. Then we introduce a predator to the mix. It identifies not algae, but other creatures as food and will try to eat them. After thousands of generations of culling by the predators, this prompts the evolution of a new response among the algae eaters: if you see a predator swim away even if you are in a prime algae patch. The predators in turn refine their hunting instincts, if the choice is between two prey peruse the closet one. This adds more and more branches to the decision trees and increasing the necessary processing power. Eventually you have the emergence of memory. A useful asset as it means that an Algae eater knows a place where there's plentiful algae or a predator knows a place where Algae Eaters can frequently be found instead of wandering the reef blindly, starting from square one. But this unlocks another tool: the ability to learn. The descendants of this decision tree arms race have moved onto land and now need to hunt and drink in forests. In some areas pools of water contain large ambush predators which can snatch up those who wander in to get a drink (with some being able to leave the water and others unable to do so) and in others they don't. It could take generations to adapt instincts to either one, but a better solution is the ability to learn and write one's own responses. What took 5,000 generations to develop and can be invalidated by a change of weather can now be learned in a matter of days. With learning comes the ability to pass information down from generation to generation. Then there is the final stage, the ability to not only learn, but to sit back and evaluate one's knowledge. To audit one's activities and trends to not only learn, but adapt learned responses deliberately. Introspection is a key part of what makes us human. The people who are not introspective are people with Authoritarian Follower/Right Wing Authoritarian personalities. They are receptive to those they see as being in Legitimate Authorities, are highly conformist, uncritical, hostile to dissent and out-groups. These people are the foundation of tyrannical societies.
It’s as you say, In my relationships I fail to be present because I’m thinking about my own issues. And this arises from battling a legalistic mentality, which thanks be to God, with your help and God’s Word I’ve been slowly but surely breaking totally free. But as I commune with others, still, it’s hard for me to silence the voice of the satan saying hypocrite, HYPOCRITE, i could be literally talking to someone and EVEN WHILE PRAYING i hear these lies, and i get so discourage and confused like “WHAT AM I MISSING” and im genuinely responding mentally “but why am i a hypocrite? what’d i do or forget now? leave me alone ” what’s worse is then i think..but what if thats GODS voice? so i should take head, run back home and fix it before i see people, youre storing up his wrath!!.…wow… because im not following all the rules an regulations in the WRONG timing and in the WRONG context… (and trust me with much introspection and ultimately Gods help i can atleast make that conclusion for sure). I care, deeply about holiness, and ALL that, seriously…but those voices and lies often choke me up, and make me not even want to eat or see anyone and i know its not of GOD but in those moments i cave in and just go home sometimes. Like I. Cant take the inner dialogue anymore so i start just taking notes on myself….self-surgery again. Getting fit to go to the gym mentality… But i do go to GOD, i just, take control so easily. Idk… i could go on. So I guess, i just need to load up on scriptures to silence the accuser, and move on…but this is worth expanding on for sure as you said its a pandemic and so sad cuz its the SECOND COMMANDMENT going through the drain, the love of the brethren, our family literally..…its so important…cuz its love, our Fathers desire. :( Any further advice on this topic, if you could direct me to another video(of yours or anything), or better, any SCRIPTURES. I love you my brother in Christ and i shake your hand spiritually in gratitude to what the Lord is doing in and through your own life personally, and in your ministry. May God bless you always, grace upon grace.
Youre not the only one bud ( or hun, idk honestly lol). Almost everything youve said resonated in me. I think one of the main points was the part where he spoke of was - the ACCUSER of the brothers. I think there needs to be a switch in the operating ( no pun intended) system ( think of computers). Either way may the lord god bless you and keep you.
Omg I deal HEAVILY with real event ocd AND moral/religious scrupulosity and making constant restitution ...this is probably the closest video I've found that almost sounds similar to real event ocd ..it's cnstsnt of replaying failed events and its torturous. I've tried to earn salvation and question my actual and accidental sins
Youre not the only one bud. In fact im glad you said what u said cuz now i have more language for what im dealing with / struggling with. So tybud. Either way god bless ya and keep ya!
