My dear, just getting the video out is good. It's a page in your story and however you're feeling it's the truth. It's a connection to the world and it shows you as you are - very real and very brave. Some day there'll be others going through the same... and they'll find you and they'll thank you because you'll have made them realise they're not alone. That's a day there'll be tears of joy! My heart bleeds that you're still waiting. You're amazing and you're in my thoughts and prayers, as ever. 🙏🙏🦉🦉❤❤