These 2 gave me strength , Emily really helped me to look at things another way, she died 1 month after my mom also died of Cancer, I use to watch her Vlogs to help me prepare for my worst to , I was also told my mom has a short lifespan due to cancer, honestly I always look back at this vlog, how I had to learn to prepare myself for the worst , 4 years later, yes I miss my mom a lot, but thanks too these 2 , they gave me strength to go though it, my mom passed away 1 month after Emily at the hospital with me only by her side , no grudges no sadness , because she choose me to do the final transition which was a relief but sad to let her go
I remember watching this when she posted it not knowing she’d be gone in less than a week. & her saying she’s struggling with speech etc and me refusing to believe it. So sad.
Me 🙋♀️🙋♀️ just found her. I've watched almost all her blogs as well as peewee Tom....I'm forever changed! I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU EM!!!! BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT!!
Trying to, but I'm heartbroken. Watch her vlog called "A brain tumour way of thinking | check up day" from March 2016. Emily talks about how she feels blessed every day even though she has cancer. It's so beautifully expressed by her, and it has stuck with me since I watched it a couple months ago. Her zest for life and unwavering positivity will never be forgotten. ❤️
Emily wasn't dying of terminal cancer, she was living with terminal cancer. She never wasted a minute. I just hope to gawd they have a subway, starbucks, and nandos in Heaven 😅💙💥
Do not stand at my grave and weep I am not there; I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints on snow, I am the sun on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry, I am not there; I did not die. mary elizabeth frye - 1932
I love that poem, almost as much as I , like thousands of others, loved Emily. Sleep tight Em, you were an amazing young woman & I know that everyone who “knew “ you on RU-vid will never forget you. God bless ❤️
One of the comments below said this is not a cancer vlog...its a vlog about life. That is so true...For all the thousands of us witnessing your journey we are learning about life not death. How to live it, cope with it, fight it and celebrate it. Emily you are life enhancing and our collective energy is evident. Thankyou
I don’t have any rah-rah statements to make right now. I can only tell you how much you and Aisha have changed my life. I am 63 and the last five years have been challenging for me as well. I had stopped living my life and had pretty much given in to my illness and was couch laying. I also lost my parents and my sister/best friend. You guys have been inspiring to me in so many ways. I started walking every day and eating healthy food. I went to outpatient rehab and from there joined a gym next store to the rehab. Still taking “baby steps” but feeling so very much better. My kids are really happy and tell me how much better I am. Very encouraging. I would still be on that couch without you guys and that is the truth. I love you both so much💖
Deborah Rushing Wow. That's wonderful. I've been having some of the same problems and watching Emily get up and go to the gym has motivated me to get up too. Good job Deborah!
Deborah Rushing Same here. I have a progressive illness too and without Emily's dogged determination and Aisha's inspiration and positivity I too would have remained laying on the couch, giving into the illness. I was in so much fear I let the illness define me and allowed medical reports to terrify me. I am now, according to the assumed medical prognosis, meant to be wheelchair bound, yet thanks to these two, two days ago I wasn't just walking, I was running in a field with my dog, defying my diagnosis just like Emily. Emily has changed my weakess into strength and Aisha has put everythig into perspective for me - and so to these two girls I don't know, but feel I know like old friends, I am forever grateful. These two are world changers - and I really hope they know that.
I feel drawn to Emily’s positivity that I watch her videos and feel so inspired to push forward with life. She has given everyone a beautiful gift. 🙏🏻🙏🏻
Its crazy to think its 2023 and I still come back to Emily's vlogs.. I always look back at this video how tired she looked.. I think she knew the time was coming.. Its like a goodbye really because the way she ended it with thanks for the support and love you lots.. She never said those words of ill see you in the next vlog or didn't mention about uploading anything else.. I really think she was saying goodbye.. She was a warrior and even though years have passed i still cannot stop watching Emily's video's.. She smashed life in the time she had on earth.. I wish she was here in 2023 with Aisha. We miss you Emily..
Aisha you are so wise my darling. None of us knows when it’s all gonna be over so why even dwell on it! Emily, you’re a warrior, a good-hearted human being who gets more from one hour of life than most get out of one week. X
That's so true. You can tell by the way the doctor is grabbing his knee. That looks to me like a sign of severe anxiety and stress. It must be a really tough job, much respect to them.
What an amazing observation. That's something one doesn't usually think about. It must be so difficult. I remember thinking the same thing when paramedics had to tell me that my Mother was gone. I had found her after she fell asleep and just didn't wake up. I'm sure I was in shock but I do remember having that thought. How difficult it must be for them not to be able to help. I hadn't thought of that for awhile. Blessings to you...peace
It’s 2022 and I still think of Emily when things are hard for me. Her bright shining personality and determination still inspire me to push through when things are difficult in life. I think everyone needs a little bit of her strength and positivity at the moment.
I'm Catholic and I pray the Rosary every night for you. I know we all have different spiritual beliefs, so before the atheists start rolling their eyes, what I'm saying is this: Please know that you have tens of thousands of people every day who are thinking about you and directing whatever positive energy and hope they can, in all the ways they know how, towards the two of you. I'm actually crying as I type this because I feel so helpless. So congrats: You've achieved what I didn't think was possible -- I care deeply about two people I've never met. And now that I know that it's possible, I realize I can also care this deeply about humanity in general, instead of just passing people by on the street without giving them a second thought. This is the gift you two have given me, and it will last a lifetime. I love you guys. ❤
TheErinnF What a beautiful message. Agree with and relate to everything you said. I pray the rosary for Emily every night too. With all the time differences and the people praying for Em worldwide she's probably covered by prayer every hour of her UK day. When we all feel helpless we can still all pray; I believe very strongly in the power of prayer.
No matter what pathway of faith, most of us who follow this dignified, courageous couple unite in wishing them well and healing. They are ambassadors for unity. A truly undeniable testament of fortitude and grace. Keep on praying, directing angels, or whatever your equivalent is as Emily had defied the understanding of mere mortals, she dances where angels fear to tread.
TheErinnF ...well instead of just hanging my rosary up on my dresser I am going to pray at least a decade right now for Emily. Emily I believe in miracles just like Aisha does and just like many of us do. I love you two ladies. Dusting off my rosary as I type!
“What’s going on you lot welcome to heaven” is what Emily would say if she could make one more video from wherever she is 💔 I’m beyond devastated. I am a better person for finding you both on here.
You notice she was tired, after a 7 year long fight she was tired. The vivid Emily is gone in this video. A few days later she passed. She was a very strong young woman with such an inspiring vibe. Rip sweet brave Em.
In case someone doesn’t know…this wonderful Dr…..who also cared for PeeWee Toms, passed away of a reaction to a malaria vaccine. Not long after Em died. What a huge loss for so many who loved him and needed him. He was always there.
I found you after my mother's diagnosis Melanoma stage 4. I was scared, lost and confused. For over a year as you fought she fought. Through watching you I learned how to help my mom. How to not be so scared, how to be courageous and positive.. I learned what was really important.,Thankyou Emily for impacting my life like you did 💕 Forever grateful Rest in Peace 🙏💜
I think it was clear that Emily was suddenly not doing as well as she was, but I never expected her passing to happen this soon. RIP Emily, you have made a such a positive impact on my life. Fly high beautiful soul ❤️ Aisha, my deepest sympathies during this impossible time. Sending bucketloads of love and cuddles from New Zealand ❤️❤️❤️
Sophie & Boys Absolutely. Emily shared her most intimate times with her followers, good and bad experiences, so there becomes a closeness that you don’t necessarily feel with other vloggers. Emily was a reminder to keep everything in perspective in my own life. I’m sure many others feel this way too ❤️🇳🇿
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I just found out she passed away and I'm literally fucking broken. She was so god damn beautiful and such a light in this world that nowadays is filled with so much darkness. I am in tears even though I don't personally know her because she deserved so fucking much and I prayed for some sort of miracle for her. Emily you are such a gift to this world and I thank you for your strength and overall just fucking incredible personality. You worked so hard. You may no longer be in this physical world but I pray and hope if there is more to life after death that you're living it with happiness and love. Thank you for being you, Emily.
Had a bad feeling once she started slurring her words a few weeks ago. Then today I was thinking about her because she hasn't posted in awhile, only to find out she passed away. Such a shame that this can happen to such a good person. Makes you really appreciate life, and it can all go away in an instant.
Engineer I knew couple weeks ago the life went out her eyes thats always a sign. God bless her she is in no more pain now. Poor Aisha will be devasted and her family.
Her last words to us; “Thanks for your support guys, love you lots”. Although she didn’t want to believe it, I think she knew that the end was near and it was time to say her last message. “Power on for life” is a quote I will always remember. RIP Emily xxx
I know, it’s heartbreaking 😢 at the same time I’m also glad she didn’t go through prolonged pain. Slow end of life process. She’s no longer in pain now. RIP angel.
I can't believe she passed so quickly. She was at the gym working out just a week ago. I'm really saddened by this news. Never met Emily but she seemed to be like a friend to me. Be with the angels, Em. No more suffering, no more pain. One last time: Emily strong like bull 🐂 We'll all miss you. ❤️
How tired she looks here . She knew. I think they both did. A few days later, she slipped into what would be her final sleep. Bless her. What a true inspiration 👏🏻. Just amazing. So young, yet so wise and incredibly brave! ❤️
if you watch at 2.26 you can see that Emily look tired, Don't know if Aisha knew that when they were in the waiting room. Emily went downhill on the 23rd of June 2018 and pass away on the 26th of June 2018 , but she die in her sleep i think
It breaks my heart to watch this vlog now. I never imagined that complete strangers could touch my life in such a way as you both have. Life is so precious. Thank you for sharing your journey.
Rachel B •Farmiga Fan• Is this confirmed..I can't get on my Instagram right now. I prayed for peace. Has it truly come? I am stunned. If so I can't ...I just can't...can't even cry. Pray all family involved and for Sarge and Daniel in the big fight.😢😢😢😢🌹
Her bravery is breathtaking. The strongest person I have ever witnessed. She would have had a very successful life had she never got Cancer and died. Right to the very end she lived as normal as she could, even continued her gym work, which to me is absolutely incredible knowing she had so little time left. It's incredibly sad she is gone.
July 2022, A day doesn’t go by that I don’t think about Emily. She truly lived her life to the fullest. She only had 17 years of a worry free life, a normal life with no cancer. She’s with God and no more cancer. 💖
There are no words. My heart is completely broken. Thank you for everything you gave us, Emily and Aisha. You were one of the most inspirational people I have ever come to know. Aisha, our thoughts are with you. Sending you so much love. Xxxxxxx
Never truly believed you would go. Thank you for letting us on this journey with you. I feel privileged to have known you in some way and also completely heartbroken. Rest easy Em, you deserve to 💛
I'm 59 and I feel devastated that this beautiful young woman suffered and died. A light has definitely gone out and I miss her cheeky face every day xxx
Dear Emily and Aisha, if love was measured in years, you two would have an eternity together. Emily you have the most amazing wife by your side, the positivity and determination you both show is simply beautiful. Whatever this journey has in store for you next, I wish you peace and thoughts of sunny beaches xx
The decline happened so fast... just one week ago she was kicking ass in the gym .. I didn't expect this would be it .. this is incredibly heartbreaking. Rest in peace darling. Nobody should go through this. You were so graceful, so awe-inspiring. You've put most of us out there to shame with how you handled what was thrown your way. Gone too soon, but you've touched so many of us and gave us something to think about. Rest easy now sweet Em.
Can't help but wonder if in her subconscious Em knew this would be her last video. Of all the months of videos, it's the only one that didn't end with see you in the next one... Hindsight shows how long and hard you fought not just cancer, but the decline. Be free warrior. Your energy guides even still x
she looks tired, and I think it's her last vlog, but she gave her all and fought cancer like a lion and all with a smile!!! miss you, thank you for everything you gave us, Love you loads, rest in peace angel!!!
Rest in peace, dearest brave Emily and my sincerest condolences to Aisha and all the people who had the honor of knowing you personally. I can only imagine the pain they are going through right now. The absence of your larger than life personality, your strength, your positivity, your humour will leave a huge void in many people's lives. You are an inspiration to anyone who has adversity in their lives, sweetheart, and, like everyone here, I'm proud that I was one of your "lot". xx
Tom Ripley beautifully said....I visit her RU-vid channel every night. ..just to see her...I don't know why I do because I cry everytime I see her...it's almost as if by seeing her I know she's OK? I know it makes absolutely no sense...I just feel so sad for everything she did and went through and to fight for so long...always with a smile...she really was a beautiful person inside and out.
R.I.P Emily x My heart is broken. You were a true fighter, a warrior. Thank you for Sharing your life and loves with us and for making us laugh, cry and learn. Sending my love and Sympathy to Aisha, Cookie the cat Tom and all the friends and FamilyX
A third old bird here, she retaught me to live life everyday the best you can. Basically that's all you can do. Her strength of body, mind and heart spirit were truly remarkable. I will miss her. ❤️
I am speechless. So heartbroken. Just a week ago this video was made. It is so unreal...I have watched this video so many times now and just can't believe sweet Emily is gone. Forever she will be missed and remembered by thousands.
Em lived her life her way. She has my deepest respect. Aisha, you are strong and I hope you find peace and comfort somehow. To lose your wife is pain beyond words. Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your lives with us. I can safely say that over 52000 people fell in love with you both. What a legacy.
I think about you so often. I don't know why I've become so absorbed in your story, but I have. I'm so sorry the news was bad. If only cancer just hit bad people. If only. Aisha and Emily, I wish I could give you both a big hug (and I'm not much of a hugger!). I wish I could take all that wretched cancer away. But all I can do is tell you that you are very loved and cared about. Your fan in Seattle, Rozzella
I've been following there story for a short period but I also think about her during the day hoping there's some improvement the thing is been so helpless when there are so many bad people out there
'Power on and get better at life'...............wonderful words and a great legacy. You taught me so much in your short life. Sleep well beautiful soul. xxxxx
she was riddled with cancer, upfront about her terminal prognosis and had clearly declined in her last few vids but this somehow still feels like a punch out of nowhere. i kept thinking she'd have at least another few months, or maybe, no matter how unlikely, years. because if anyone had a chance, she did. tough as fuck, and a big inspiration to me in the last few months as i've tried to battle my demons. her last words in this vid are so poignant now, but beautifully defiant as well. RIP emily. my deepest sympathies to aisha and the rest of her family and friends.
During all that time of struggle and cancer... she was constantly living. She lived up until she died never wasting an opportunity to live her life to the fullest.
Emily O'Neal I also have cancer and when people tell me "you got this" it almost physically hurts me because I don't know if I do. But I know I can still persist. I know Emily can even more. Thank you for reminding me there are different options to staying ahead of the bastard cancer. Emily will persist.
While I appreciate the sentiment, I winced hardcore at this Hillary Clinton reference. She should be the one in Emily's place after the harm she has caused so many, while Emily is our noble courageous vivacious kind hearted young flame having to deal with this bs❤️🔥
still binge watch your videos Em when im struggling in my own life you knew how to live life and thats a great example to witness i miss your new videos
The last minute of this video is beautiful and painful and personal and final. She knew. What a gracious person. I hope I can show an ounce of that grace and bravery when it's my time.
Ugh. Can't stop thinking of Emily. I just can't believe she is gone. I never thought the day would actually come. I'm just gonna keep watching her videos, perhaps one every day so it seems like she is still here haha Honestly, no youtuber has ever had such an impact on me. Miss you, Em. And thinking of you, Aisha. Xxx
Art By Emilie I absolutely agree. Even though she had a terminal illness, it didn’t seem like she was dying. She made every day count. I am grateful that she shared her journey with us and inspired us all to “power on for life”.
Art By Emilie I feel exactly the same way. I, too, continue to watch her videos as if she is still with us. She will be missed so very much, not only by me, but by the thousands of hearts she touched while still with us.
I’m still in disbelief and continue watching her videos, which make it seem she’s still here. She never gave the impression that she was dying, really. Emily made every day count and lived her life to the fullest despite the grim prognosis. She was strong, energetic, funny, kind, wise and loving. She is greatly missed. I hope Aisha is holding strong and taking solace in the fact that Emily touched so many lives, in addition to hers.
I feel exactly like u do...she really had a hold on me..it was her attitude and things she said, it was everything about her that attracted me.. I am subscribed to loads but she was the only person that I had notifications turned on for .. cancer is merciless.
The human body may stop working, but the soul lives on forever . R.I.P. Emily. You’ll be missed by so many people, but also remembered as an amazing warrior who fought strong til the end. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Peace and love to you and Aisha. ❤️🕊❤️
Raw Truth Sorry to hear about your mom and good on you for caring for her. Not sure though what this adds to the matter here... And now im confused... didnt god by definition create all that is? So disease and suffering must go on his account then... so how exactly do you reconcile a good and almighty caring god with existence of human disease and suffering? And I would be very curious to hear your definite undeniable evidence you claim to have for god. And sorry, but your knee analogy makes zero sense. Are you trying to say that inflicting suffering is OK as long as afterwards there is a reward? And who are you to set the scale for suffering?!
I found myself touching the screen trying to help calm you when your leg was tapping I have never gotten so emotionally invested in a person on line you have touched my life in the most profound way thank you just doesn't seem enough please know that i will continue to keep you in my heart and prayers and also bless your wife AMAZING WOMEN ❤💙💚💛💜
When I get sick I am a baby and sleep until I am better. This girl got up went to the gym everyday, went out and lived her life and still made videos for us! When I am sick the last thing I want to do is make a video! She was such a amazing strong girl even after getting bad news over and over and over again. She still went on. Words can not even describe her strength right up until she passed and here I am being a big baby feeling sorry for myself over stupid little problems I want to be more like her.
I sometimes find myself watching Emily's videos if I'm down. She was going through a horrendous illness and instead of sulking or giving up, she powered on to live life to the absolute fullest. Life is so short and is a gift that should not be squandered or taken for granted. Her last words should resonate with those of us going through life's many hardships. We shouldn't give up or cave to depression/anxiety/adversity, we should "power on for life. Power on and get better at life. If that makes sense to anyone. Does to me." Does to me too. RIP Emily.
Dear Neon Mullet…thanks for writing your wonderful message. Just like Emily, who definitely made an impact on my life in 2018, your message also resonates with me now. I love Emily’s saying to power on with life, and will use this phrase for the rest of my life. As a 60 year old, I intend to life a quality life and live to be 107, which would beat my grandmother by two years. All the best to you!
Rest in Peace beautiful girl. Everyone prayed for a miracle for Emily not realizing SHE WAS the miracle changing peoples lives every time she spoke and inspired the people who knew and loved her. Be strong Aisha, She is still with you. Every time you feel the wind in your hair, know that its Emily trying to guide you through life. When you feel the warmth of sun on your back, know that it is Emily's warmth embracing you.
When she asked her wife how does she feel about the results and she said I don’t really care because she’s living like a miracle. That’s the spirit 🙌🏾Positivity ♥️
Don't worry about your speech Em. We hear you and understand you. And Aisha is right Sweet Woman, you are a walking miracle right now and every day you live you create more of a legacy of love and courage that will remain in the world long after we all who are living now are gone. I for one am so grateful that you're here today and that I was fortunate enough to have stumbled upon your blog months and months ago. You, Aisha, your relationship, and your blog continue to be a gift to my own life. And I'm only one person. Just learned today of Emily’s passing though I suspected like many who followed her as each day without a new video went by. Aisha, based simply on the little bits and pieces you and Emily shared with us, it seems more than evident that you were absolutely the perfect one for her to love and be loved by. Your loyalty, love, encouragement, strength, wisdom, and understanding were just everything to witness. You’re a brilliant human being and I hope you surround yourself with the same kind of love and support that you gave away so freely to Emily. You deserve all the best. I am so sorry for you loss. So very sorry.
Baking Sweet Hope...My own heart is very much touched by your sweet & tenderly worded message...You told Em & Aisha what just so many of us feel, but lack the ability to put the right words to our deeply felt emotions...I have a strong sense that you are a very kind, loving & gentle young woman... Bless you...
I'm not going to write "you WERE an inspiration" because that's not true, you ARE an inspiration and you will always be an inspiration. An inspiration, a legend and an idol. RIP Emily, rest in paradise.
I keep checking back on this channel just to read the comments. It helps to know others feel the same way I do. Heartbroken. Sending every once of love to Aisha and Emily's families.
I'm still going through her videos. I miss her like I knew her when of course I didn't. I followed her for 10 months. I'm also glad others feel her loss - I wondered if I was being ridiculous. Bye Emily RIP. You were fantastic. ⚘❤⚘
Jill Harrison no, you're not being ridiculous. I think a lot of people who never actually met Emily are grieving for her, and that just goes to show what a special person she is.
That was her last vlog. So sad.....i never knew how someone whom Ive never met could affect me to the point of tears. She was so Bubbly and cute, and so full of life. She should be alive. She had so much more living to do....Heartbreaking.
Rochelle Nicoletta I just realized that it was only 6 days later. Even after several months it's hard to believe. This young lady made a profound difference in many lives...mine included. peace
@@samjones6046 does it rrally matter how... Id say thats private and her business wouldn't you... They shared enough of their personal lives im sure they are allowed to keep something private smh
I wish I had an answer for you. I had stage 3 breast cancer and been in a coma for a month. After my treatment I found out my mother was hiding her breast cancer from me. She thought I'd take care her and let myself go. She was probably right. I moved in with her and took care of her for the next two years. In that time my only brother took a rare blood disease caused by agent orange and lived 8 months. He passed away a year before my mother. The a year later my 26 yr. Old daughter passed away leaving a 7 month old baby boy behind. I have him now. The reason I'm telling you this is because after being sick myself and watching my brother and mother and my daughter passed away. I told a dear friend of mine I can't cry any more! There's no more tears left. I feel the pain but the tears just don't come. I don't know why, sometimes I think it would be better if I could. I'm like you in that way, I'm numb. I've had so much nothing else phases me. I guess it seems cold to other people but I feel like I have nothing left to give. I wanted to tell you about a Dr years ago when my grandmother's sister was very I'll, the Dr said the will to live is stronger than any medicine. It's true. The drs couldn't explain why she was still alive. You have a strong will to live, I can see that! It's important, you need that, it will work wonders. Your both in my thoughts and prayers. Take care and God Bless.
How much can one really take? I feel so sad watching this happen to such a beautiful couple, but your story shows how so many people deal with the incredibly hard blows that life throws at us. Thank you so much for sharing your story; it's so sad, but you sound like an amazing person, and I know you are helping others by caring and loving despite the pain. God bless you.
What can you say about the person that was Emily...strong, determined, fighter, perfectionist, kind, loyal, steadfast, sweet. Aisha you were the best possible wife for Emily, your uplifting personality,always encouraging her to be optimistic. You two seemed so different, but blended together into a beautiful glowing 'light" that was your lives, your Union, your love. As soon as you can, when you feel you can, I hope you will talk to us. In the meantime know we all realize the loss you are facing, and I'm sure all our hearts are with you. Emily showed how to live a life and not waste the life you are given. She was one of Gods finest works and will be missed tremendously. ❤️
Emily (for Emily Hayward) I’m not far behind you. I don’t understand what cancer is, this confusion of the cells, a mutinous revolt, moving, forming balls as if we are soft lava lamps. A new tumor, quicker and quicker dividing and in the brain, so many that even a strong girl of 24 could not survive. But you were tough. For eight years you fought. You defeated some of the tumors. You did not lay on the couch. You did not wait for death, though he lurked over your shoulder, you drowned his raspy voice out with positivity and music, beautiful music. We witnessed a power that is rarely seen, an accepting but unrelenting strength. You never gave up. You just traveled early to a place we will all go. Your decline was stunning. You forced yourself to go to the gym a week earlier. One word substituted for another and your speech was slurred but your beloved knew what you meant. You meant strength and love and life. Grab life. I’m not too far behind. I’m sticking my foot out to trip death as he walks. I imagine his boneface smashing into the pavement, his form not returning, but melting like the wickedest witch, into a black, oily puddle of liquid rainbows. I’m twenty years older than you. I would have taken your pain. We all would have to spare your pure heart. I watch a sixty year old light his tenth cigarette of the day and think of you, and of the little ones with glioblastomas and leukemias, dying in their parents’ arms. I watch people injure themselves knowingly, their wrinkled lips drawing the last poisons from the Camels and I don’t understand what they mean to the earth. Here, we face tests, fail or pass them, move on to the light or face the tests again. You passed, beautiful Emily. We are not too far behind you. Where is your energy, your spirit now, for I have never seen a person with such strength, and it cannot be contained. We only sense each other’s souls, as we can only sense God, or see bits and pieces of Heaven inside love or friendship. Eternity teases like a wave. Our finite minds cannot grasp that which always was and always will be but we feel the continuing flux. Because of this, it is only a matter of never-ending time until you see your soulmate again. We believe in something beyond bones. We believe in ourselves eternal. We are evolving and continuous, no less than the stars, suns rising and falling, expanding, changing shape, enveloping each other in a cosmic dance. You were the biggest sun, the life-giving one, a brilliant mirror, reflecting the life back into our eyes. Because of you, we took off our blinders and looked around at beauty, where before apathy had cloaked it. Grab life. With tenacious pinchers. Then wake up and do it all over again. We became stronger because of you. One person gave up cigarettes. One person, drugs. Some started going to the gym. Some pushed their anxiety aside and walked out into the world for the first time in days. Some walked out on crutches, or left their houses in wheelchairs, but they all moved, because you moved them. You meant so much to so many, and to one person especially who will feel loved all the days of her life because you loved her. You will see her again Aisha.
The lack of tears is just acceptance, which is really good in my opinion. Rest. Live each moment the best you can. It is all any one can do and should do, regardless of health. None of us are guaranteed the next breath, are we? All of us are going to face the end at some point. We should all be living as much as you are in this phase of your life, especially if we do enjoy good health.
As someone who has suffered with depression seeing the way you live life to the fullest makes me feel so inspired to do the same. Thank you Emily and Aisha for really teaching me how to be a more positive person. Stay strong and show cancer who's boss!❤
