I feel you struggling hugs 🤗 I suffer from ptsd and anxiety really bad and panic attack. My dad passed away in September he got sick and was in the hospital since he passed. My dog passed away too. I’m really not okay, I feel like giving up. I don’t enjoy life anymore. My sleep schedule is awful too.I’ve never been more depressed in my life. I suffer from stomach issues too due to my nerves.I really need to talk to someone. Mental health sucks 💜
I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time 😔 I'm sorry for your losses 💜 Getting mental health help was the BEST thing I ever did. Please seek help from a mental health expert for your anxiety and depression. Taking care of yourself is so important and is detrimental to your physical and mental health.we are here as a community and you can chat with us any time- so please reach out if you need to 💜💜 But also, please seek professional help as well if you aren't already. It's going to be ok Kimberly 💜💜
So sorry you’re going through all this. It’s bad enough to be sick but to worry about the financial aspect is terrible! Take care of yourself and your family! Feel better soon. Your makeup as usual Is fantastic!
I hope they can figure everything out soon and you can get back to normal! Thanks for keeping it real! It’s refreshing to see someone not pretend like everything is okay all the time, that’s not how life works. Feel better soon!
@@MakeupwithMichelle I'm so sorry you're having such an awful time my lovely! I use makeup as a therapy too! I have Complex Regional Pain Syndrome and also struggle with my mental health, so I completely understand the toll everything is taking on you. If you ever want to talk then dm me on Instagram and I'll give you my number ❤️😘
Hi Girlie….I’m equally happy to see you, and sorry for all the turmoil you’re experiencing. 😂😢 The first step is FINALLY getting answers! After the ‘knowing’, the ‘fixing’ will seem easier in comparison. I’m overjoyed that your LOA was approved! One less roadblock to undermine your progress. I was on a LOA for a year during Covid. I couldn’t wear a mask with asthma. Not bad if was standing still, but any exertion made it impossible. Bearing in mind that I’m 73, I’ve never recovered my stamina and endurance after that year. I never realized that I was old until then. I’ve always been able to outwork and outlast anyone of any age. It’s hard to acknowledge limitations. I’ll be here, on the sidelines, cheering you on, and praying for a speedy resolution and recovery from all of this!❤️🥰❣️😘❤️
🥺 ILYSM 💜 thank you Leah. Ughh yeah those masks are really difficult when you have respiratory issues. I hate limitations lol... I'm a bit stubborn 🙃 My LOA is almost over, and I still don't have any concrete answers, but we know a little more than when we started, so I guess that counts for something 🤷♀️ I just need to keep on top of the mental health while I'm still trying to get this figured out, bc man did it really go to shit over the last couple years while dealing with everything. Thank you for being here, as always. Love uuuuuuuuu 💜
Michelle, I'm sorry life has been so ... lifelike for you. I can relate to everything you've said, and I am so proud of you for mustering the strength to continue advocating for yourself. In my experience, the minute we wave the white flag is when things can start improving. That step - saying, "I am drowning here, and I need support!" - is monumental. Thank you for sharing your story, and please know, from one stubborn but resilient woman to another, I've got you in my mind and heart.
Melissa, thank you. I don't know why it's so hard for some of us to just ask for help! I think most of it is the fear of seeming weak or succumbing to the fact that we're completely defeated- neither of which are comfortable feelings. I appreciate you leaving your thoughts and thank you for being kind 💜
@@MakeupwithMichelle That's exactly it. We take pride in our self-sufficiency. We value being dependable, brave and tough, no matter what we're dealing with. And these are good qualities - but we have to remind ourselves that fighting for our health and sanity also takes courage. We have to treat ourselves like we would a loved one in need. By prioritizing your wellness right now, you are modeling healthy behavior for your kids and employees. Big hug.
I'm a new subscriber and I found your videos a few days ago and came across this video today. I've been having health issues now for the past 6 months and had to take a leave from work. I'm a Registered Nurse and needless to say I have to be a 100% mentally and physically. I too suffer from anxiety attacks so I can totally relate. Praying for you and your health. I have gynecological issues that has affected my health in ways that you wouldn't expect, glad I found this video because now I din't feel so alone. Over the past 6 months I really learned that health is wealth and being unwell is one of the worst feelings. Thank you for sharing your journey:)
Aw Monique 😔 I'm so sorry to hear you're also struggling with your health. You are absolutely right about health being wealth... and it's sad that for some of us (like me), we don't fully appreciate good health until it's not so good anymore. I'm happy to have you here and I really appreciate you sharing your story with us. I will also be keeping you in my thoughts 🙏💜 I LOVE your makeup in your profile pic btw! That red lipstick on you 😍 👌
I have been dealing with migraines since I was 14, started getting back issues when I was 19, and early onset osteoarthritis that showed up at the ripe old age of 29, and a chest issue which I thought was heart racing a year or so later (turned out to just be a joint between my ribs and sternum that was popping regularly). On top of all that, I have a hormonal disorder (PCOS). Mentally, I have ADHD, depression, severe anxiety, and am in recovery from an eating disorder. Yep, I'm a mess, but I have mostly worked out how to live with it all without breaking down constantly. And honestly, you have to have your safe people to talk to about it, and you have to be able to laugh about it sometimes or you will cry (maybe that last one is just me). Never feel like your stuff doesn't matter! And honestly, even if your subscribers are sick of hearing about it (not me, but I don't want to speak for anyone else), I can only imagine how sick of experiencing it you are. Good for your work for being so supportive! I am really happy for you to have that time to figure your health out a little more. Here's hoping that you figure out what is going on between your physical and mental health and find comfortable and healthy ways to cope with both. Fingers crossed! That day sounds like the worst! It is so hard when it just feels like the world just keeps piling crap on top of you, isn't it? I love how the makeup turned out. You look so pretty! To be fair, you also started out pretty, so... Sorry for the novel, I just wanted to make sure I got all my thoughts out.
Thank you so much for sharing all of that with us! I think the more we talk about stuff like health issues and mental health issues, the more it will be normalized and maybe there won't be so much stigma around it. I think it's so hard for some people to talk about, because they don't want to be seen as weak or like there's something "wrong" with them. But truth is, all of us deal with things at one point or another- some of us more than others. Talking about it opens the door for more people to talk about it- at least that's why I decided to share my story. I think you're right though- having those key people to talk to and having good coping skills are so important. I'm still working on the latter 😏 And it's the not knowing, and the getting dismissed by doctors that really gets to me. Some doctors have been amazing, but I've had my fair share of the ones that brush me off and just treat me like it's all in my head. Nothing makes me angrier. Thank you for the kind words and taking the time to leave such a thoughtful comment 💜💜
Girl… I am so sorry. I’m a new subbie and I relate to you so much. I’m mom of 3, widowed 3 years ago and I struggle with finances too. I’m on the opposite spectrum as far as makeup goes. I like a more natural look and I wish I could feel more comfortable using color like you do. I too was wanting to freelance with makeup and I’ve acquired a lot of makeup that I’m now trying to sell. I haven’t filmed a video in over a year. The mental health stuff is rough and the physical health is debilitating!!! I moved in March back to where my family is to have a good support network. My girls are all in college. Between my husband dying and my kids moving off to college, I’m a mess. I’m sending you happy and healing ❤️🩹 thoughts!!! Hugs!
Firstly I am so sorry you are also dealing with so much. I hope things get a little easier for you 💜 Secondly, thank you so much for joining our lil community. We have some amazing people over here and we're happy to have you here! Also-color was very scary for me at first. It took me a lot of practice and finally realizing that I just don't care enough what other people think... so if I wanna wear blue, I'm gonna wear blue! Lol Makeup washes off and it's supposed to be fun-experiment with it, have fun with it- and whatever you don't like you can take a makeup wipe to 💜💜
I'm sorry you have been struggling with your health, I hope you find out what is going on with you and you can start on the path of healing. So glad you got your leave of absence that is a huge help for you with income, a little less to worry about. Thanks for sharing your story, sometimes when I struggle with my stomach health some people just tell me it's my anxiety when I know it's not is so frustrating. Thankfully my doctors are very helpful and medication has helped. Please take care of yourself.
Thank you 💜 and yesssss. You can't SEE digestive issues, so it's easy for people to assume it's in your head. It's VERY aggravating. I'm glad you have great doctors!!! Take care, friend!
Hi Michelle! I just came across your channel and subscribed! I'm so sorry that you're going through all this. It's very stressful dealing with the physical aspects of it all and I can relate especially when I found out I was diagnosed with Graves' disease, back in 2020 which is a thyroid condition I have. That was a bad time for me dealing with all of that, especially when the whole world was turned upside down during the pandemic and having the anxiety of it all, thinking about my health during Covid. My prayers are for you, and I hope you get to feeling better and hope everything will work out. Hang in there! I love your makeup look!
Welcome, Amy! So happy to have you here 🥰 I'm sorry to hear about your diagnosis- especially during COVID. That had to be hard. I remember I was terrified when COVID first started because I knew nothing about what was going on with me and I was so worried if I got sick, it would really be bad for me. What a crazy time to live through! Thank you for the prayers and kind words 🙏 ❤️ I am happy to have you in our lil community 🥰
❤️💖🙏 I have had digestive issues and it SUCKS. I hope you get it figured out 💖 I deal with mental health crap too. I'm glad you are able to get off work!!!! You will get thru it girl ❤️
Michelle, I’m so sorry you’re going through this crap. It’s not fair! Please know you are strong and brave and I promise the sun will shine again. I’ll keep you in my prayers. ❤ The makeup look is beautiful and you are so talented! 😊
Michelle!! I am so sorry you are going through this. Health issues are so stressful, because you not only feel bad physically, but it becomes so mentally draining. I'm sending you hugs/healing/prayers/strength/care! I hope that you have family/community to lean on for help. I know that it's hard to ask for/accept help when you are so independent (I've been there myself, I fully raised both my kids as a single mom) but having that help to lean on is so important. I truly hope you find answers!! If you even just need someone to chit chat with.. I'm here for you! As for kitties, your male cat would love the female kitten. No humping if everyone is neutered. I have the opposite, 2 older female cats and a young male, and there are no problems at all. :) I turned my dog loving husband into a total cat guy. 😁🐱🐱
Thank you 🥺💜 I really appreciate your offer and support. It just completely wire me down... I've been fighting this for years now and I think my body and mind was like NO! NO MORE! lol it made me take a step back and realize I really needed to focus my time and energy into feeling better. And I think we are going to bring in the female...Zeus, my older cat, I'm not so much worried about. He's been great with Leo when we brought him in.... but Leo... he's very, uh..territorial? Lol I hope he doesn't act like a punk. And I know what you mean! I was never a cat person until Zeus came into my life...lil shit stole my heart and I couldn't imagine NOT having cats now 😂 Happy to see you here today 🥰💜 thank you!!
@@MakeupwithMichelle always happy to be here!! I hope you post pics of your new kitty when you get her. ☺️ You never know, Leo may be a great older brother.
Girl, I love you! Lmao Some of the stuff you say litterly makes me laugh out loud. I know it's probably not funny to you....the musical credit cards, wearing a turtle neck in August, and the hot mess express. I wish I could just hug you through the screen. Keep being you girl! Your 100% someone I'd love to just hang out with.
😂😂 I'm just me lol thankfully I'm doing much better now than I was in this video. I was in a very rough place, both physically and mentally when I was filming this. I'm glad I can provide some entertainment though-I love making people laugh 😁 so glad to have you here!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
im so sorry to hear things hasnt gotten any better, but you can beat this thang, just be patience and dont give up. sending you all my love and positive vibes. ive been doing a little bad but nothing compared to you. ive recently been to the eye doc and she discovered small soars on my eye and its bc i dont blink as much as i need, i think its bc of my aspergers tick. the body can be such a mystery but try not to focus so much about the what is it and focus on trusting that your body will heal. as a doc said to me once "dont stress about every minuscule thing, something you are not surposed to understand". maybe try to watch meditation vid such as peterisms and writing gratitude lists, it has helped me. man alive you have truly been through a lot, keep your head up. i hope this comment cheers you up a little, but you are one of the ppl that truly give me joy and happiness, you are such a great person, love ya love muffin. i would stick to all male cats, dont become the crazy cat lady now haha, but im not one to joke if i could i would have a whole zoo in my apartment haha. this summer is long over here but i dont mind bc ive been picking lingon berry for the last month to sell. and that is my time with my mother. and ive been going to hockey matches a lot with my dad. you are such a good mom, the proof is that your teenagers actually want to spend time with their mom in public, when i was a teen i was not one of those. regardless of that i know you are a good mom. love ya and hope this day goes better
Hey love ❤️ It's ok! I'm trucking along... really trying to be positive and not stress so much. I just REALLY needed this time to take care of myself and not have the added stress from work- with everything I've been dealing with physically and mentally, it was too much. I should be going back to work soon, so I'm really 🤞 I can continue taking care of myself to the degree that I need to. I guess time will tell. And that's terrible about your eyes! So, what does that mean for you? Will it affect anything longterm? Can they do anything to help? I always look forward to seeing you in my comment section 💜 I miss you all terribly when I'm not uploading... y'all are like a second family to me lol Please take care of yourself and thank you for all of your kind words and thoughtfulness 😘💜
@@MakeupwithMichelle we are all here for you and i see you as fam to. ive gotten some drops to use in the morning and night and ill have to train myself to blink more. ive got a new appointment after ive used the drops and gotten the new contacts to see if it is better. it was during a eye test for contacts i found out, ive hadent had my sight checked since before rona, and im even more blind now haha. i do what i can to help you but wish i could do more. love you and keep that strong will off yours up. love you love muffin and tell the kids hi from me
Cheap red wine has always worked better for me for fruit flies than vinegar. You just have to add a drop of dish soap to break the surface tension though, because otherwise they can walk on the surface haha
I'm sorry to hear that you are going through so much right now. I hope you get your health issues figured out and solid treatment plan so that you can get back to being able to live your life for yourself and your children. We'll be here when you feel better and can get back to filming on a regular basis. Take care of yourself.
I can definitely see the shifts on camera! It looks like two totally different colors on your lid. I really hope your new gyn actually listens to your concerns. I've read so many things about doctors downplaying people's symptoms and it's terrible. Also I definitely relate to your anxiety surrounding your health. I havent had anything too terribly major happen but anything that does can send me into a tailspin. I really hope things get worked out for you, and I'm so glad your leave was approved. Also I'm so jealous of 2+ cat families. My girl HATES other cats. If she sees one out the window even she starts growling hissing and flipping out lol. And at 12 years of age I cant put her thru that stress of getting another!
The shadow is soooo pretty!!!! I can't wait to get my most recent Clionadh order (yes, I'm crazy 😜), so I can film swatch videos with them lol And my new OB Dr is wonderful! She listened to me, ordered a bunch of tests. I'm awaiting results and have 2 more ultrasounds scheduled for next month. She said I'm going to need surgery and depending on how my uterus looks, could possibly need a hysterectomy. So, we'll see ... Im just glad she listened to me the very first visit! The whole experience with medical professionals has really made me distrust them, which really sucks. You shouldn't have to fight to get them to do their job when they're paid VERY well to do it. And I'm not sure how Leo (the younger cat) will respond to having a new cat...Zeus is very go with the flow and I don't think he'll care too much. I totally get it though why you wouldn't do that when your cat is 12... that would be hard on her. 💜💜
@@MakeupwithMichelle omg I'm so happy they listened to you! It sucks we have to fight to get care when we pay out the ass for insurance premiums, co pays, deductibles and all this other bs! But I hope it's a sign that it's all gonna turn around and get better soon! 💛
I can relate. My health in the last year has gone completely to shit. I’ve got chronic pain from endometriosis, I’m having surgery in December. I have a lot of GI issues because of it it’s wrapped up in my bowels. Mentally I struggle too, adhd, anxiety, depression. I barely can do my 3 shifts a week and then I need my days off to recover. I’m bed ridden on my off days, and there are days I can’t walk 😕
I'm so sorry to hear that .I just found out I need a hysterectomy because my stuff is all jacked up, too and once she gets in there she's going to see if mine is also endometriosis. Which would make sense given the horrendous time I've had with my bowels. I'm so sorry to hear you're dealing with all of that though. I empathize with you and hope you get some relief after your surgery 💜💜
@@MakeupwithMichelle I feel for every woman who deal with this.. I hate this disease it’s absolutely awful! Hopefully the hysterectomy helps with the pain and symptoms your having, wishing you a speedy recovery!
Make certain that they have checked your ANA levels in the bloodwork, to see if there is any auto-immune issue. I have lived through years of digestive issues, mine is caused by Scleroderma. It also caused tachycardia and other issues. I was forced to retire early because of the health issues. I hope you get an answer soon!!!
That's a great idea...I never thought about that. Can a regular doctor order those? I'm sorry to hear you had to retire early due to that. Thank you for your feedback 💜💜
Cats are the best.. male cats do better with females as kittens. prayers you get answers.. I know the struggles, it took me years and many doctors to find my diagnosis, it will mentally drain you . try to keep your head up... hugs 🤗🤗
Ikr?! And we are thinking about taking in a female kitten that's only a few weeks old right now... it wouldn't be until at least 8-10 weeks, so we'll see. I don't NEED another kitten, but I WANT one baaaadddd 😂 And thank you...yesssss, it's mentally exhausting! I'm glad you have a diagnosis. Take care 💜
Oh I am so sorry it seems everyone is always going through something challenging whether it’s mental or physical health! I fully understand I need a back/neck surgery and have chronic pain as well as depression and anxiety and doctors like to treat me like a drug addict and not prescribe benzodiazepines or opiates which I really need but they don’t give a ratt’s ass!! I hope one day these doctors need pain meds and nobody will give it to them!
I'm so sorry to hear that. I know what you mean about needing meds and not being able to get any. It's unfortunate that so many people can't get the care they need because a lot of medications get abused. I truly hope you are able to find some relief🙏 💕
As cringy as it sounds you’re like a friend in my head so when u dont post i miss you lol. Get well soon, take one day at a time. P.s. are u getting the danessa m pallette?
Not cringey at all... I've missed you all so much 😭 thank you 🙏💜 And no...I really thought about it, but I'm trying soooo hard not to spend a bunch of money- besides, I have most of that palette in my indie singles and I need to get as much use out of those as possible considering how much $$ I've spent on them lol Happy to see you here today 🥰
