Cheslie Reacting to Old Photos! 

Thyroid issues also make you tired, and depression is also part of it. I had developed depression and looked normal, but I had Hashimoto’s and was tired all the time, it was difficult.

I thought the same thing!! The fatigue

@@Shayne_T how did you find out it was Hashimoto's. Can you please share any symptoms

I do not hide I say when I am deeply sad it shows on me. No Fake here.

highlights the efficacy of Surah Al-Rehman as a remedy to reduce depression. The Holy Quran intones,

Where was god when she felt the need to jump off of a fucking building?

@@twistedbliss58 Up in heaven. God won't stop you even though he will tell you it's wrong but He won't stop you if you really want to do something, you have a free will.

@@twistedbliss58 it's just like saying where was her family

Ameenn😭😭

@@twistedbliss58 making a sandwich

U heard that 2? How can people b so blind 2 everything around them (friends/family)? R.I.P. baby girl

This is normal growing up stuff. People is reading too much in this video. To me it just look like she just enjoying talking in this video. People with depression isn't always sad. We still have enjoyments. Something triggered her to get her to that point to do what she did. Only she would know that.

Hindsight is 20/20.

I still think there is more to this story.

@Zua Cole True. I'm an introvert and don't have many friends is something I could say and I don't suffer from depression, thank God. That's not to say that this is not something one who is depressed might say.

So true So amazing I admire her ...

​ She probably did, that is why she was tired and mentally exhausted.

Life is short, the hereafter is real. Turn to almighty.. the saheeh hadeeth it says: “The greatest reward comes with the greatest trial. When Allaah loves a people He tests them. Whoever accepts that wins His pleasure but whoever is discontent with that earns His wrath.” Narrated by al-Tirmidhi (2396) and Ibn Maajah (4031).

@@sabihashirin7918 Jesus is LORD. :)

A real life Wonder Woman. 🌹🌹🌹

I heard that as well...

The pressure to be perfect.Over achiever and still so unhappy. Sad just sad.

She perfected her mask.

Finally someone said it. So heartbreaking

@@simaturna9765 It's not always from the experience of trauma. Sometimes things change in us that we can't explain.

@@Unlike230 - or maybe in Cheslie's case, nothing made her truly happy as she expected it to. Read her article about turning 30. Turning 30 was a big deal to her...in her mind.

Truer words were never spoken sadly. Such a tragic loss to all who knew & loved or admired her from afar. Such a wonderful young woman.

And ask if you're ok once in awhile! 🙂

Exactly and be kind always ...

Glad u said it..

@Rhonda McKnight -- depression didn't allow Cheslie to see that things could turn around for her. I struggled with depression for years. I'm talking about the type of depression that makes it hard to get out of bed some days; so just imagine that level of emotional/mental darkness... it's heavy. If that's what she was feeling, it's completely understandable that she couldn't see that things would get better. It's a deeply heartbreaking story because if there had been one person she could have called, or one person on the 29th floor who noticed her, her perspective may have totally changed by the next day, or even later that same day.

@@Ava2969ny But she had someone to Call, Her Mother... 🤔 Her Mother has come out & said they were basically best friends, they texted, called All the time?? I don't get it... People take retreats, holidays, see Counselors, take Medication in order to get better.. What truly drives a person to such Desperation as to kill themselves??!

@@Clairsmith123 - I get what you're saying, but sometimes a person can have everything going for them, and it's just one thing that's not working. Sometimes a person can have a bad break up from a romantic relationship and the rejection is so painful that they make an impulsive decision. It's difficult to say exact why she didn't turn to her mother, but there are also chemical imbalances that can be fatal if they are not monitored and treated with meds

@@Clairsmith123 sometimes meds and therapy and support from loved ones isn’t enough.

absolutely!!

Finally someone that knows what's really going on!!

Can you explain please ? A death spirit ?

@@lagrandemarie8695 demonic possession.

Thnx for ur info👍

She mentioned towards the end that she had no energy...

@@isaac80745 omg, you're right🤦‍♀️😭

I thought the same thing 😞😞

@@isaac80745 yes!! I got that part as well😪😪🙏🏽

That was our first glimpse into her depression.

Her Mom divorced her Polish father when she was in middle school. Mom later remarried and had 2 more sons that were much younger. She was super high achiever in every arena.

@@bluesky7288 thanks for that info, perhaps that might explain the inexplicable

That part

Heartbreaking💔💔💔😢 I can't stop crying,really sadness.🙏😢

I completely agree. I don’t know her, but I find myself trying to understand how such a horrible tragedy like this has happened. I am so sorry for her loved ones…my prayers to their family and all families who’ve lost loved ones to suicide. 🙏🏽

❤

I said the very same thing about her. She was definitely a chosen one.

Sheen speaks the truth! Stay strong beautiful.

Mmm I don’t know about all that. Sounds a little narcissistic. I’m sure it was more internal for her. She was trapped in her own thoughts. DFW said: The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling. David Foster Wallace

@@chiccavaquita "sounds a little narcissistic" my sentiments exactly. We just don't understand you and it hurts. We truly have nothing but love in hearts and get great joy from making others feel like they are on top of the world. I really wish everyone in the world had these qualities... "invisible agony" and "unendurable level" is hopelessness...it's a broken spirit that cannot be repaired. You will never understand because it appears you've been blessed enough in this life to have never felt such pain which is why you are quoting some random person. Be grateful. Many of us, unfortunately understand very well and do not need to quote others because we live it through it for now.

@@sheenspeaks I’m sorry but who’s we?

Disturbed mental health is invisible. So SO sad❤️💔💔💔💔

We can't allow her to be forgotten. Cheslie was and is the greatest. We just have to love her, much like how Glee described Cory Monteith's passing as it not mattering how he passed, but how he lived, the same applies to Cheslie!

@@JenniferBrigitteOpticalVortex I won't forget her...

@@JungleYT Neither will I

😥😥

especially jump off a roof in the freezin' winter after or during a snowstorm east Nor'Easter it is called, treacherous snowstorm,, i am sad, not any 1 who is middle age 40s, fifties, should be going to HEAVEN!!! or young ladies/men under 30s, or her age, just beginning 3rd decade of life, i am really extreme sad. I am sorry for ur loss too. I can't even type anymore. good night...#CHESLIEWeLoveYou_YourFans #MissyouCheslie

omg. so sorry, last days, ur daughter too? early thirties? sad. i am sorry. rip.

@@CassieDylan-xk6jk yes. and Last Days, I am very sorry for your child. May she rip.

Sorry you also know this pain, mama

🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

No it don't. i'm not going to be here saying that, because it's not for any of us here to judge or say that. i'm going to just say, RIP #RIPCheslie

@@evaharris6450 people who suffer from severe depression experience fatigue /low energy. It is just one of many symptoms associated with depression. No disrespect.

@@evaharris6450 also there is no judgement..was just an observation

@@melodyhenderson3995 STEVE and MELODY icam. and i am still surprised about this. 7:18 a.m. during snow, i hear nyc/nj tri-state metro area over there, got alot of snow? i am just so sad knowing she did it, even if it was not snowy out, just really sad imagine her doing that. "RIP g-night.

So true..if your working constantly.. physical exhaustion can wear your mind out.. you're tired..and it wears on a person.

Es triste 😥 Eso es lo que da la vida demandando de esas personas que llegan a estar tan cansadas que no encuentran sentido de vivir 😥

@@rachelbrito7446 tal vez sufría de depresión y, de ser así, tal vez hubo algunas revelaciones recientes que parecen insoportables y terminales

Depression makes you less energetic

Depression will sap your energy. Also being an introvert can complicate a depressed mind.

I felt that deep in my soul...

Don’t most of us? We’re reminded all the time how special youth is from society.

Please see a therapist to help you through your struggle. My daughter is currently seeing one and has been much better because of it. We all should have a therapist long before a struggle begins. All the best to you. You have a powerful purpose in this world and I pray you will realize that.

@@ojsadventures8990 Thank you for your kind words. I will definitely consider your suggestion.

You are welcome!

@@ojsadventures8990 😊

She was beautiful, but I'm satisfied the way I look 🙂.

Yes she had no idea. The bar she set for herself was out of this world. I still believe a healthy intimate relationship would have change this horrific outcome. Rip Cheslie.❤️🙏🏾

She was absolutely perfectly beautiful. R.I.P

Yes, she was unhealthily fixated on aging. 30 is not old. She got that mentality from somewhere close to home, not just society.

Yeah, she thought 30 was old. Under society rules, 30 is old. Like you should have a husband and some kids by then, I guess. The number for being considered middle aged gets lower and lower. I think it's just a marketing ploy for the big elite capitalist billionaires to aim and sell their products and push their worthless goods onto the young. The world is obsessed with youth.

There's more to the story and I sure hope it does come out...

@@JungleYT she killed herself… stop with the conspiracy theories

@@Skyla_and_Adina24 No conspiracy theories... Very little PROOF she killed herself jumping has been offered, other than rumor of some note left behind in her condo... All she told her Mom is that by the time she received the message she would "no longer be alive", which means she could have had somebody assist her with it or possible foul play... I have no doubt that she was suffering from something, however, the narrative of her "jumping" just don't fit the physical evidence... And I hope and pray someday that the real truth will be revealed...

This is actually very interesting! A therapist of mine recommended doing this too!

@@Retroglamamour It really does help you to remember that you MATTER😥🙂

I am with you talking to my younger self too. She forgives me!

You know what this is gold.

Doesn't sound silly at all

I agree, as an introvert it’s best to separate from people and recharge. I think she should have quit everything that made her feel tired..,

Yea and the way her eyes got low and half opened when she said that… she was over life. I’ve def felt that way many times

@@EtalviaC so sad. Hope you are ok now too. Don’t ever give up.

I said this. She LOOKS really sad/tired. When ur depressed...u kno. R.I.P. beautiful 😢

Yes, and it could have also been hormonal, too. Many people develop depression from undiagnosed autoimmune issues, thyroid issues, etc.

Facts. When she started talking about turning 30, she almost started crying at 5:03. Getting older was terrifying to her, and lead to what she did in my opinion. So sad.

@@StephanLamar81 - turning 30 was highly significant to her. Read Cheslie's more recent article on her turning 30. She didn't understand her value and accept imperfections. So very sad. 😢

@@jaynethyson4817 the modeling industry messed her up mentally, and she gave in to trolls calling her old.

@@StephanLamar81 - Cheslie knew she had much more than modeling in her life (lawyer, TV interviewer, business owner, etc.). Depression/mental illness like hers is much more than a troll or 2 about modeling. I hate to see mental illness blamed on a relatively very few social media comments as that will only further weaken the weak-- there was much more to beautiful Cheslie than that. She struggled before she became famous. Listen to her interviews...

@@StephanLamar81 Her pageant career had certainly come to an end... Still, she had so many options. So much to look forward too...

My thoughts exactly. This is the 4th suicide I've been made aware of over the last couple weeks. Regina King's son, a 10 year old boy that was tired of being bullied (He tried to make friends with the bully and it didn't go well), A black mayor I think was in Maryland, and now this beautiful lady. This is too much😢

I am at a loss of how she chose to end her life. She just had so much going for her and seemed like a genuine beautiful person...

you hit the nail on the head. It's like people don't understand you can accomplish so much but still have emotional/internal/mental pain and struggles. Just because a person is beautiful, financially stable, has a close family, good job etc doesn't mean you can't be depressed/mentally ill

The Happiest one's hide it well 😿

Sadly you learn how to smile and joke around with friends and loved ones yet you really feel like your acting.

i know she rep East Coast, yes NC, how awful then a few several states away in NYC during a real bad snow storm(Nor'Easter took her own life.)rip so sad, about this.

I don't know you but I care ❤ I also suffer from depression and severe anxiety and migraines, it makes you tired and hopeless sometimes but you're not alone. Find purpose and love yourself

@Leslie Lelaind - So sorry to read about your long term depression. I have experienced that as well; I often thought about suicide in my 20s and 30s, but I sought therapy and I currently practice self-care and remind myself of the pain the act of suicide leaves behind. I wish I had had kids, but I was too depressed in my 20s and 30s to feel like I would be a good mother. I was also too depressed to believe that I was worthy of a great partner....it's been an uphill battle, and sometimes I still battle negative thinking, but I also read inspiring books and I focus on the hobbies that bring me a measure of peace and joy. Sending you positive energy and strength.

I understand your post...

@@Ava2969ny Thank you for responding and thank you for your openness to share some of your struggles. We as sufferers can feel alone and often too embarrassed to say anything out loud. But like you through my years of therapy I’ve been able to speak up more. I’m sure you have lots of love to give any child that crosses your path and YOU ARE WORTHY OF LOVE. This disease takes all the positive from us leaving up feeling less than but it’s simply not true. God bless you, you pray for me and I’ll pray for you🙏🏾