Club Consciousness June 2023 - Momentum  

Thank you for this video! 😄💐

I am not going to lie. I was allowing my head to get pretty fucked up for awhile. Situations can feel hopeless. And when you're starting from scratch on a lot of things, it's overwhelming for anyone, and I suspect even moreso for a humanoid. You almost want to reject everything and be an asshole, but the one you're really fucking over is yourself. I really think the only thing really driving me is knowing that I will have some money coming in soon, and I've been willing to take a few chances. One of them is potentially moving to a new city is a lot less populated and doing something very different than I've ever done before, working kids and schools and the community for a nonprofit. Also, I've thought about applying for your book creator internship. Not sure if you'd have me, but I've sort of been an aspiring writer for a long time without really having written much of anything. I did write the first chapter (about 10000 words) of a science fiction novel once, which is about 20 pages, but I wouldn't suggest reading it because it's a little dystopian (at least in the initial setup). Instead of a resume, I have worked on a piece inspired by several of your podcast episodes; however, my life's in sort of a transition period for a couple weeks so I haven't concentrated on it as much as I've had liked. To be honest, I will probably still finish it whether I submit it or not. It's interesting how much more I get from something when I write about it vs just listening or reading. I'm not a stranger to nuance, complexity, or being able to grasp how certain things are connected without expressly being told. What would it take to work with you or somebody who would appreciate those skills?

I don't know why this alert came through to me. I moved away from. AC a few years ago, after I realised it wasn't for me. I got stuff from it initially that resonated; and then.. I heard what I thought was quite a bit of bullshit. Glad for the entire experience; moreover, am happy and more peaceful and centered without it. Cheers.