My sister really loved Coil. We only met a few times, but I felt such a strong connection to her. She was twise as old as me (I'm 20) I was shocked to know she was gone, very alone, and found many days later... I'm afraid of the same fate right now. Dying alone and nobody would even care for me... When I hear Coil, my thoughts go with her.
Me too. If I had someone to be there for me in my final 30 minutes - I would take a strong barbiturate right now. Talk philosophy in the final 30 minutes before I close my eyes one last time. I'm 45 now, youthful looking still, fairly physically healthy. But my mind is diseased. It's incurable, I've had treatment resistant depression all my life, since I was 13. I want this torture to end so badly. I loved others, sometimes to the point of madness, to self-sacrifice, but I never felt loved either because I wasn't or because I was incapable of feeling it? Probably the former. Someone being there would be an act of love, an act of mercy. It's so cruel to not be able to offer a cure and yet withhold the dignity of peaceful death from someone the way our society does.
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@@telumatramenti7250 once you turn evil you dont care but i love my cats, get a female baby kitten, raise it and let it have a litter and keep them, maybe give a few away. Love them everyday. I love my babies so much!!! Dogs are awesome but more troublesome
I cried to this song so many times destroyed by its sheer power. This guy understood things that would be impossible to explain in words, yet he uses words to hold them in focus. Absolutely magical.
So much death and sorrow in the world already...and we lose John and Peter. We lost two voices,two souls who were always there for us...and even from the great beyond,they are still tending the fires and soothing us with their work. John and Peter. Thank you for the legacy you have left for us. May we aspire to be as insightful and perceptive as you were in this life. You will never fade away or be forgotten.
Sound is Wave , and through this mean , I hope to some outer skies , their music , their souls , can be transported to other worlds , perfectly received and considered as they should downhere . cheers . 👽👽👽
As a teenager living around a lot of people who don’t understand stuff such as sexuality spirituality through art and connection and philosophy of greater extremes than most people (at least around me I’m not gonna make too big assumptions) this song connects with me on such a spiritual level as an artist myself this just sinks into the deepest level of my Consciousness and I have so much love for coil and all they’ve done in their career both sleazy and John I really have no faith in this gaining more traction but anyone who knew to this and really connects with it I think you are truly an amazing person who so intact with just the world around you all love to you all in this comment section sorry about the length of this comment
Does death come alone or with eager reinforcements.... This song is devastatingly beautiful Rest in peace John and Peter Thank you for leaving us with this music
I'm not talking about music in general. I'm just talking about Coil. Where I come from most people wouldn't give it a chance. It doesn't really bother me either way, but they are missing out.
Well they are not missing out if they wouldn't like it...I think we do a bigger favor to artists we like if we think like Groose. If absolutely everyone appreciated something I did, I'd be kind of scared really. And I'd be even more scared if someone thought that way about my band only.
i still remember the first time i listened to this song and i will never live something like that again. RIP Sleazy and Balance, there will never be a band like Coil ever again
@@lukewr2465 Hey how about the world turned into a twisted reality infested monsters and creep. It's better to suffer than being burnt . a twisted reality with an clustered ending let the world shall bear it's Beauty of curse
@@hellinterface6721Three of those (I can't speak for Death In June, never listened to them) are fucking awesome, not like Coil are. They give off way different vibes.
My drug dealer turned me on to this group 20+ years ago. Still listening to their / his music. R.I.P. my friend. There are parts of my brain still processing what I listened to back then.
I CERTAINLY appreciate Coil. Used to sometimes get them mixed up with This Mortal Coil. God there were so many bands. Death in June, Nurse with Wound, all no more with John's untimely death. I've owned Horse Rotovator since it came out in 1986. the Anal Staircase was a long way Thank God, from Stairway to Heaven or I wanna hold your hand. Having grown up in the Chicago suburbs, I was exposed to ALL the early avant-garde WaxTrax! stuff. Very early Ministry, The Revolting Cocks, my life with the thrill kill kult, front line assembly, Chris and Cosey, Front 242 (can't wait to see the new Wax Trax documentary!!) The list of very interesting avant-garde bands goes on and on. Now out on the West Coast since the late 80s, some of the good stuff does make its way out here. Was VERY lucky to see an earlier incarnation of Psychic TV here in San Diego bak in the early 90s. I'll NEVER forget concert! Locals 'Crash Worship' were one of the opening bands. i got to catch several more Crash Worship shows, before they parted ways. If memory serves me correctly The Fuzztones also played. imagine asking friends "hey wanna go see a rock concert?" Who? The Fuzztones, Crash Worship and Psychic TV. I know we all got our stories. THAT show is forever seared into my brain. Talk about an Industrial and Tribal experience!! Crash Worship... wiki describes Crash worship as an Experimental industrial-noise Multi Cultural multi disciplinary performance art band formed in 1986 bred right here in Southern California. Their live shows are legendary. Someone has thankfully uploaded Crash Worship live in concert footage on RU-vid. We live a glorious age! Thanks to whomever. They were perfect band to co bill a lineup with Genesis and group. Welcome to San Diego. 😃Genesis was awesome to see live onstage. That was when Genesis was still sporting a crew cut! I was attracted to and enjoyed much of that early 80s left field avant-garde music. That was quite a time back in Chicago!! I even liked some of the early strange avant-garde stuff Boyd put out under the band name NON.. Early C. Voltaire one of MY favorite bands from that era. Red Mecca WAY ahead of its time, to say the least. Boyd Rice is from around here, I guess still lives around here, but he keeps a low profile. Just want to say, there Still are those of us out there with bizarre esoteric tastes. Only, we've grown older. Like everyone else. It' ain't 1985 anymore. Only some folks with whom I now associate know about and truly appreciate the contributions John Balance made. R.I.P. His death was a true tragedy. 🙁
many thanks , Sir , these sounds made the public responsible for his music culture , thanks to these magnificent underground and alternative artists , has been created a multitude , from hip hop to techno, classical disco to 4AD and massive new wave and industrial new sounds that will never surrender / Alan Vega and all the masters ov electro techno are going to the same place , I am quite sure to recover Jimi Hendrix for a while when I am done ... just to say that : Older or not , we are engaged by this culture to carry on
@@walmarp I suggest You to use a personal computer display to understand , but don't bother ! You 're clearly not interested by what I feel or what I say , doesn't mean I have to fill the emptiness between Your thoughts - Thanx for the comment anyway , it's been a pleasure.(r.b.)
@@walmarp Ah !!! So Nice ! So You might be "a" censor to what rights I do have or not to write as how ! Fascinating ! Well I am so pleased to decipher your funky prose excellency !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But maybe you can enjoy hollydays a bit further away from any God ?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've listened to Coils music since Love Secret Domain came out, so it's been 20 years, give or take. I've taken quite a break from listening to their stuff over the years, but I just found this tonight for the 1st time. I'm on my 2nd listening & I already think it's one of their best pieces. Absolutely beautiful. May John's voice fly through the night skies eternally.
they had a way of making you feel like you had schizophrenia. playing their music in a pitch black room is a challenging expereince!! their music was beautiful yet terrifying totaly uncompromising and innovative at the same time. the sounds they used to make totally bent my head.
I think it is beautiful and sad at times, but mostly positive even though the themes are often relating to death. Like meditating on the inevitable, a sense of spirituality that even atheists can apreciate. The intensity generated by the voice of Balance is perhaps the most beautiful and haunting I have ever hear in modern music, up with a few others.
I feel sad for John, that he died from alcohol and a broken mind. I myself live through phases like this, and I always think it´s a wonder to come through the shit of life... this song helps me.
John saw thru all the shit and suffered for it. Agreed this existence will crush you completely if you do not have something strong to cling to. You may enjoy the Tripzville track "Roundabouts" ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-RtIvWyp782Q.html
probably for me personally, the music of this band can be compared with the first viewing of a horror movie or a porn film ... you can joke about horror porn .. you understand that this is wrong. you understand that it scares you. you understand that you should not watch it, and even less enjoy it. but you get. because there is darkness in you, which you try with all your might not to let out. the darkness that scares you. darkness that terrifies. because this darkness is yourself. no tinsel, no masks of hypocrisy. at first it scares, and then you wonder why others are afraid. listening to coil is like going through the 5 stages of grief: - you deny that their work is music at all - you are angry because this is not just music, but music that you personally do not understand - you are trying to bargain, you tell yourself that you just do not like the ideas of the band and their style - you realize that after all, their ideas and style are close to you and it plunges you into depression, because you still think that it is wrong - you find this video on RU-vid of your own free will and do not interrupt it until the very end. and then you start again. whoever you are and regardless of how you became what you became - perhaps you and I are very similar, my sacred dark brother or sister
@@ГеоргД Я думаю, спустя ещё 14 лет будут понятнее, но что то останется загадкой) Месяц назад вышел офигенный разбор First five minute after death, на одном малоизвестном канале на ютубе, рекомендую,испаноязычном. Очень советую. Там хороший кавер до кучи.
one of the greatest unsung bands ever, alas no more. I'm kinds selfish and glad that they still feel like my personal secret band, soooo sad they are no more but at least I did see them live at Queen Elizabeth Hall in London in 2000....memorable and missed!
Coil will be remembered , together with Kenneth Anger and Genesis P-orridge and many others as the Initiators of Thelemic or (post) modern Magical/Pagan art!
Yes, I'm aware of that stuff. I know that he has had some involvement in Thelema in the past, I know that he still retains some interest in it, and I also know that he's described himself now as practically antithetical to Crowley, despite still maintaining an appreciation of him. He's very much devout, his is a kind of Gnostic Christianity, which has no problem with being informed by other religions.
First off it's very amusing to see religion and DT being discussed after one of his closest friend passed away plus only David knows his God. Secondly, JHONN is missed daily as the updates, emails etc have ceased as has his earthly being as well as Peters. They openly expressed love, tolerance, abuse and living which I am forever grateful. As a fan and friend I have still not made it through Ape of Naples as my conscience is holding out for that moment of clarity which only a few musicians are able to reach. May we forever remember those that brought us life with lived lives. Much love and sorrow. Gog
it takes so many guts to tell the truth what's in your most human emotions. In that way I believe your responce was a brilliant one. You showed your deepest love for the man
coil is the song name played by swedes band : OPETH..they are progressive death metal rock with mix country and jazz...their main singer is MIKAEL and NATALIE LORICHS.
