Cold - Jorge Mendez (1 Hour Mix with Subtle Rain) [Saddest Piano & Violin Ever] 

Listen to the Slowed Down + Rain + Reverb version of "Cold" here --> ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-_jGfjkTbhLM.html

“There are three deaths. The first is when the body ceases to function. The second is when the body is consigned to the grave. The third is that moment, sometime in the future, when your name is spoken for the last time.”

I have never done a "here's my story" but my insides ache to share it, so here goes: I'm a guy. I'm 24 years old, have lived a life of constant guilt and shame. This is a very long story of my life. Grab a blanket, you're in for a pretty tragic ride. When I was 5, my sister (3 years old at the time) was raped in front of me by my step brother. My family was outside having a cigarette and chatting. He wanted to play doctor, which led to, well, you know the rest. I stood there and...cried. I was scared. I didn't know what to do. It's been difficult to manage that ever since. My family of five (myself, mom, pop, two sisters) moved up to NH when I was in fifth grade. I never really had a home; we always moved at least once a year. Landlord was crazy, or my mom pissed off the landlord, always led us to have to pack our shit and find a new place. My dad was a truck driver, so I never got to see him much. Gonna skip the majority of my childhood. I get a blank thought when I try to reminisce it. Only thing I can remember was seeing my grandfather die in front of me when I was in 7th grade. Around the time I was 18 (2012), I met a girl online. Her name was Littia. We vibed pretty quickly, but something weird happened when we got closer. I would randomly get pains in my stomach, and headaches (I never had headaches as a kid), and my first thought would be Littia. I would text her "hey love you okay?" her response: "yeah I just have a headache", or "yeah my ulcers are acting up again." I would be sitting in my room depressed, and she would text me, "hey you wanna talk about it?" my response: "talk about what?" "you're depressed. I can feel it" We felt each other emotions. We felt each others pain. You likely won't believe that. I can't prove it to you, but I am a man of my word. We lived states away, her in Oregon, me in New Hampshire. I decided to enlist in the army when I was 17. We were dating at the time, but I promised her once I got through basic and school I would marry her, and finally get to meet this mysterious and incredible woman. We promised we would write letters, before I was shortly sent off to basic two weeks after high school graduation. During basic, I never received a single letter from her. About five weeks into basic, I ended up getting a hernia (inguinal). I went through the rest of the training, and 4 weeks later I arrive in a hospital ready to undergo surgery. After surgery, I was sent back home for 30 days to recover and recuperate. First thought was to contact her, ask what happened why no letters?! She responded asking the same thing (come to find out her grandmother was tossing them away, both our letters to each other). We got into a massive fight in october 2012, and shortly a few days later I receive a message from her friend saying, she killed herself. I felt...hollow ever since. About a week later I was sent back to training in basic, got another hernia, another procedure later, another 30 days of recovery. 9 months later, I finally got through basic. 2014 arrived, and I met yet another woman. This time however, she wasn't like Littia in any shape or form, but she had the mentality of an individual, and I needed someone like her in my life. We started dating, it was nice to feel...not so alone again. A year later, I receive news we're going to deploy to Afghanistan. I honestly was terrified. What if I make a mistake and get people killed? That was my biggest fucking fear. I could careless about myself at this time. My life has been a pattern of mistakes and I can't fathom comprehending something that's a life or death situation for another soul. We got deployed in 2015. First few months were calm. Nothing happened. Just doing my daily thing, checking up on each convoy and tracking their movements. I got complacent. June 2015 occurs and I'm sitting there, tracking one convoy. They wanted to change routes. Okay, do your thing bud. I put it down on paper and shortly got off shift. I didn't expect anything that day. Bout 20 minutes later, the whole compound shakes from an incredible boom. I rush over to the crowd to find out that convoy took a bad route. I didn't think to see if that was a bad route. 4 of my buddies were injured. One stabbed. Several locals were injured, some killed. ...I can't explain the amount of torture I endured over the course of three months for my mistake. It literally tore my entire mentality to the core and then some. I lost everything that was me that day. I got back from deployment, my girlfriend and I got married shortly after. Got a house with two kitties. Life seemed nice...except my mentality was gone. I was a complete, utter, underneath the rabbit hole dead on the inside shell. My now wife took this as an opportunity to make money, and had me over the course of 2 further years of our relationship give her complete and utter control of our finances. I ended up being medically discharged from the military after two suicide attempts. We moved to Colorado, hoping for a new, refreshed life. During this course my friends and family were practically begging me not to go. "Shes using you man, you have to end this now" "How can you not see she's making you feel like the monster?" I didn't care. I deserved all of it. So we proceed to move. 2018, in August, I finally popped. I snapped out of my mentality for the first time in over 3 years after the incident, 6 years after the death of the only woman I ever truly loved. I had enough. I packed some things in my Jeep and decided this is it. I'm going to end all of this now. No more pain. I've been waiting for this moment for a long time, and here is the fucking day. Once I get back to New Hampshire, I'll hug my father for the last time. Kiss my mom for the last time. Tease my two sisters for the last time. Say hi to all my friends who haven't seen me in 7 years, and end my life on the beach; my favorite place. I took off in my practically rotted jeep (she wouldn't allow me to fix it, too expensive and I can always take an uber was her response), and set sail across the country for the last time. I was excited, so...so excited. I was going to end all this pain once and for all. No more regret, no more mistakes. I cant hurt anymore people if im dead right? I ironically played this exact video as I drove away from my house, my two beautiful loveable kittens. The wife that used and controlled me for 4 years. It'll all be over soon. See the mind is life a bountiful ocean, and ships are your dreams, goals. As you walk the shore, tragedy hits, breaking down these incredibly beautiful ships, only to lay waste to what I call the place where dead ships dwell. I want to die and be set free on the beach. So I can traverse the shoreline, listening to the waves for all eternity. My plan was in motion. And over the course of a month, from August to September, I finished up my bucket list of things to do before I die. It's a rather...short bucket list. My dreams were crushed a long, long time ago by now. I finally got back to New Hampshire. My family was so happy, in tears, to see me back home. And it made it so...so fucking difficult to keep with the plan because I loved them so much. They were all I had left in this cruel world. It was my moms birthday shortly after my return. We went up to some little family spot my mom always wanted to go to. She had a blast. We got back in the car after our fun. Everyone was talking, and goddamnit it was so hard not to cry, but I couldn't hold it anymore. All the pain I can see come to an end, but why....WHY would I want to sign my pain to them? I don't want to hurt people anymore. Especially my family. My dad is my idol. He's such a hardworking, genuinely good guy. I always strived to be like him. I couldn't do that to him. I just cant. I had a mental breakdown in the car, I don't think I've ever cried so hard in my life. And...they were there for me. They saw the shit I've gone through. The stories I told them. They saw the woman I was with, and they've been patiently waiting for me to wake up and come home. It's December now. Almost Christmas time. For the first time in 7 years, I'm going to have a Christmas with my family again. A local charity group is helping me fix my Jeep. She's actually in the shop as of today. I have an incredible support system with the local VA. Therapist, medication, all that jazz. for once in my life, I'm actually pursuing my dreams, and finally taking back control of my mentality. I'm sorry for the long story. I had a lot of breakdowns writing this. Experiencing those things once more. If you actually, honestly read all of this, from the bottom of my heart thank you. You're welcome to join me on my journey towards self development; that's actually always been my dream. To grow a community of people that have had a tough life, and help them accomplish their dreams and goals. I wanna make the world a happier place. I can't do that, so I'll accept at least making a community a happier place. Thanks again

Nothing hurts more when you’re crying at night without making a noise and losing your breath with those silent screams of hurt

A few years ago I had a intestines cancer, I was feeling sick everyday thinking how much days do I still have lefted, I was crying every single night didn’t want to die and so god gave me a chance to live I did the surgery they injected me with drug and my screen goes black for a few seconds I came out can’t believe I survived the surgery I was so grateful that I pray to god everyday.

"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live"

Life asked Death, “Why do they love me, but hate you?” And Death responded saying, “Because you are the beautiful lie, and I am the painful truth.”

Im slowly dying inside but just wear a smile everyday. No one around me knows

To anyone hurting. Remember everything will pass in time. Even the worst pain & problems. Never give up. I was knocked down once and almost didn't make it thru, but I pushed thru and the most beautiful thing happened all the hurt and pain led me to a destination I could never have seen coming where all my wildest dreams were waiting for me and came true in short order. Sometimes the bumps in road are just that. Bumps as you're on your way to your destination of all your dreams coming true.

I feel pain. Mentally.. physically.. I feel it all. I've felt it all my life, and I know I'll feel it when I'm older.. It'll never go away. I listen to this song and I think.. "Where did it all go wrong?" "When did I make a mistake?" "When will it go away?" "When did I make a wrong turn?" I sit there and think.. I sit there and... cry. I'm 15... I shouldn't deserve this.. Or should I? I've made mistakes.. I've messed up every day of my life And what do I get for being human? Anxiety Trust Issues Depression Cutting Crying Myself to Sleep.. Every.. Night Lost Friends.. Lost Family.. I lost myself.. and I don't know what to do anymore... I don't know where to go.. I don't know who to trust I don't know who to talk to.. I don't know who to love.. Shit.. I don't even know anyone who loves me anymore.. Everything.. has turned me cold It's like I have no heart No soul Nothing I have nothing anymore I'm dying mentally and... It hurts. Everything inside me.. shattered like sharp glass Poking at all my emotions.. Making me lash out when I don't want to.. I put on a fake smile everyday I force a laugh I'm only ever really happy when I'm with my true friends.. in which I have 1. My mom says I abuse her.. My dad says I abuse my mom.. Mom, dad, look in a mirror and look at the child you have created.. I'm ashamed of myself.. I'm disappointed in myself.. That I couldn't live up to expectations.. I still have dreams.. I still pursue at them.. But so far.. I've gotten nowhere... I'm broken.

Something feels wrong when you cry without sad music... I had to listen to this to help me get out some tears because my dad died a few months ago

When you listen to this music you don't need to describe your sadness......

"Be careful with who you trust, salt and sugar look the same"

Let us hear your voice today, O Lord, speaking through your Word, the illumination of Scripture by your Spirit. Shed light on the Word, or rather, shed light on our hearts and minds that we might understand it aright. Let us seek you today and not delay or make excuses.

Just because you failed, doesn’t mean your a failure, don’t give up! You are loved, I love you and Jesus loves you. ❤️🙏

Hopefully today is going to be the end of my journey in life. No more fights, blame just complete calm mind and heart knows what to do to reach god again ❤ no sadness for me just complete joy for leaving this selfish world behind me. I hope this time ill succeed if i did people its not sad thing its real celebration. Its victory by itself i hope I'll not fail again ❤❤🦋

"The mirror is my best friend , becouse when i cry it never laughs" Charlie chaplin.

Right now, i feel my life will the end. I was lost my way for 6 years already, and i don't know what i want to do.. 😭 God give me your wisdom so i can choose the best way for my life..

It hurts most when no one notices that you are depressed...but they only notice your mistakes....

They always say “you are not the only one that feels like this, there are people around that is suffering too” to make me feel better and less alone. But the thing is it makes me so much sadder that there are people out there that feels that way, or that are suffering like me and I can’t help them like i need somebody to help me too.

“I gave her my heart. Didnt expect it back in pieces.”

What do i live for ? What’s friends What’s Love What’s life What’s happy ?

One day we will find peace And I shall wait for that day with tear filled eyes For the ones that are lost, I love you.

The most painful thing is that you smile, speak and laugh with people around you, and they think that you so happy, but truly in the inside, you ignite, you are so depressed, you feel a horrible pain, that the true meaning of depression. Actually if people see how much pain in this depressed people's hearts, they will think many times before they say anything to them.

If you ever feel sad. Go out side and look at nature. A flower is beautiful, but it doesn't know it. You are beautiful and you do not know it. But I do. A tree is strong, but it doesn't know it. A tree withstands winds and rains. Hots and colds. And yet it continues to stand strong. You are strong even if you don't know it. I know you are. A moth only lives for a few weeks. It doesn't know that. But still lives it life with purpose. You have purpose, even if you think you don't. I know you do. A stream will always find a way to flow. And yet it doesn't try too. Even if there is a blockage, it will find a way around it. Don't let small blockages, in your life, stop you from achieving your goals. Because I know you can. Nature tells a story. You just have to look at it, to have it tell it to you. So tell your story, if not to people, then to nature, because nature is always telling you a story.

When I listen to this music I feel released from stress because you guys feel the same pain as me and I'm not alone.

It’s truly amazing how... how a piece of music. Just a small piece of music. Can send your brain into a million places. And how it can tell a million different stories.

Once I was told a story by a wise man: There was a contest in which people were asked to paint a picture representing happiness. One of them painted what he described was exactly like this bird in the picture. Heavy rain and a little bird still, standing strong. He told us the lesson about happiness is not being happy when everything is going well but being strong and patient during difficult times. Just one of my favorite stories our karate sensei used to tell us during our breaks. Sometimes we have to be that little bird.

A man once said: Roses are dead Violets are dying Outside I’m smiling Inside I’m crying... Have a nice day if you read this.

All the pain everyone has felt, hopefully this makes them realize they can show that emotion and not be judged by everyone, not be laughed at for being a "crybaby." I've never cried at school before, since I always keep my emotions locked up. When I first heard this beautiful song I closed my eyes and cried throughout it all. I remembered all I had lost, all I wanted, and all I had. This is one of the best pieces of music on this planet- it makes those who seem as if they have no emotion, show all of it in the matter of seconds.

People don't cry because they're weak... People cry because they've been strong for to long.

"Come in' said Almighty God, "For I shall give you shelter from this mighty storm. For as they do unto you, these the least of my children, they do unto Me! And I shall not stand for it!" 🥰

When u have no dearest one in ur 29... When u cannot share anything with anyone, when u r a constant failure, when u have a family pressure... Exactly then u"ll realise the meaning of that sad bird...the inner voice of all the broken hearts....❤

Just close your eyes and think about your life u will cry really think about the good and bad.

just cry untill you feel empty in your heart... like me... 13th august 2020...

Man.. Life’s really has gone fast, it’s like yesterday was 2020 and now it’s almost 2023, 4 years ago we were happy without a care in the world next thing you know there’s lockdown, I really wish we can restart life, It could be so much better. Like if you agree 👇🏻

Buni xammasi vaqtincha. Muammo va qiyinchliklarga qaramasdan oldinga intil xechkimdan yordam kutma. Ollohdan umid qil☝ 📈

Only some people will understand this...

That was very sad of the picture of the bird with no home and friends

Everyday people except me to be a perfect person in school and always get everything right. But one thing about it that they don't know what's going on under my roof. I have a dad who barely cares about me, A mom that makes me and my sister clean the house while my younger one does nothing. I've been heartbroken for 2 months and it stills continues. I'm always supposed to be Ms.Perfect to everyone since I'm so smart but they never know that background of what's going on in my life nor my past..

As I sit in the dark I am reminded that although the light is not visible to my eye it is just a few hours away. yet If I close my eyes and think of the day all I see is light. Our thoughts are very powerful indeed. We must find the strength no matter what we are facing to always think of the day, of the light. Absolute darkness is when we give in to those feelings and let the darkness over come us. I absolutely love this piece of music.

I miss him. I hope he is finally free from the pain he carries inside. But now I am traumatized. I will never forget how it felt seeing him hanging there limp and lifeless. Knowing my soulmate is gone forever. Its been almost a year and it still feels like he cant really be gone. My brain refuses to accept that the world can exist without him in it.

Am I the only one who feels unappreciated? I'm always there for everyone, even when I'm at my worst. I put everything aside and focus on them, but what do I get back? I get pushed away, treated like shit and much worse. I'm just a young teenager who's considered suicide too many times. I get dissed by my closest friends, people think of it as a joke but I'm a person who takes everything to the heart, my friends(or whatever they are) know I'm sensitive, yet they still do it! I don't know why, but there's nothing I can do. I can't just escape & leave. There's nowhere to go to and no way to leave. I've considered changing schools but I know that it would be the same in the other schools. I wouldn't say that I have depression, but I do have a lot of negative thoughts. Every little thing affects me so much, I'd like to know I'm not alone but I really am. I'm different, I'm a girl who hates makeup, doesn't like to dress up, hates shopping. I hate anything a regular girl would do. I've been called a boy by my own family. I'm too afraid to tell my friends that. To tell them that I hate makeup, I hate sleepovers, I hate hugs. I force myself to do those things. I force myself to put mascara on, I force myself to sleep over at my friend's house, and I force myself to hug someone. It may sound stupid but I'm tired of this. the feeling of being different and left out is possibly one of the worst feelings you could have, and to top that off, you have suicidal thoughts. Like I said, I'm a young teenager, I may have thought about suicide, but that doesn't mean I would do it. You just think.... would this world be any different if I was gone? If I just... died? Would anyone care? I know that I sound stupid posting my feelings in a youtube comment, but I've got no one to tell this to. I apologize. I may be a weak girl, but that doesn't mean that any of you are, too. I was born weak, never taught to defend myself. You all are worth something. No matter how much you think otherwise. The things you hate about yourself are the things that everyone loves about you! I know I sound stupid because I think the exact opposite with myself, but just because I'm a sad person, doesn't mean you all have to be. You Only Live Once, do something with your life that you'd be proud of.

لا يوجد ألم أكثر من فقدان أناس كانو حولك في يوم من الأيام أرقدو بسلام أيها الأرواح الجميله

Recently lost my Grandma 3 months ago and whenever I listen to this song I think of her and the song makes my emotions truly show. Beautiful and lovely song.

What this person will never know is the beauty of his music has inspired me to buy a violin and begin teaching myself at home. Thank you

I lost my childhood... I lost my dreams... I lost my pureness... I lost my family... I lost my friends... I lost my hopes for everything I just want to end me

Wonderful and powerful music. I was here 4yrs ago in a very dark place and this helped me cry and sleep. I heard this the other day and that empathy of emotion poured out once again. I'm good now. God bless all of you and never give up.❤✌

Rip mother love you so much ❤ 💔 miss u everyday

We lose loved ones, but are memories keep them alive for our children

The description is so accurate. This piece almost immediately brings me to tears every time I listen to it.

My grandma passed away and this song makes me so sad so sad :( I love you grandma

" Life... is like a river. You can't see whats in front of you, Neither you can see behind you. You can't expect life to be always good. You hit rocks. Or you get stranded. And, you can't look back into your life. You can't hold on to those bad memories forever. You gotta choose forgiveness. Forgive, and forget. -Made by me

As human beings we have emotions that can't be explained

This music feels like my depression. You're in your room thinking of your friends. They do nothing to help, and do something else.. You feel empty and alone, and just sadness.. The rain pelts outside as you look out your window. They're raindrops, you think. Raindrops of Sadness. You try to break free out of the darkness to retrieve your only sanity.. Ending only to break yourself more. And your mind shatters at the end of the road.. And the train never arrives. The rain falls slowly, each one of them is your sanity. And your life.

the violin's melody is a language that speaks to the soul, translating emotions into a symphony of feelings 😍

*I suffer from depression and I have been fighting this disease for many years, it is very difficult for me, I hope that God helps me and I can someday be happy, because the pain of the mind and heart is the worst thing in the world, it seems that I am dead a long time.*

To everyone listening to this, I hope you find strength. To live. To love. You will be loved. You will be understood. You will find hope to live again

I cried because my cat died I miss him R.I.P Memphis the cat October,2,2016

You, all talk about sadness, I only hear the beauty in this music, it’s makes me weeps, because it so beautiful. This earth and everything on it is beautiful. And are you.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Господи Иисусе ✝️ спасибо 🙏🙏🙏 Тебе огромное за мои слёзы и прошедшие годы все трудности ...

when you love someone so deeply that even if you try to forget her you end up here thinking of her

I love this music it takes me to another level away from this miserable life that we live in

Take care. Music takes your hand. Artistic takes your conversation. May I take your hand. In love with humanity.

The most beautiful thing my ears will ever Hear.

As I listen to this song, it reminds me why I will always be alone in this world. As I walk in society and see so many young people with their buddies hanging out, going to movies, parties, and eventually growing up and getting married and having a family. I see myself everyday for the rest of my life being and living alone, coming home alone, eating alone, going to sleep and waking up alone, and yes dying alone. Perhaps this is the life God put me here to live in. I know God made us to not be alone, but maybe I am just meant to be alone. I hope nobody ends up being alone in this world, I pray that the next generation and the generation after and even this generation will find someone out there who they love and want to have a family. God bless you all.

The saddest thing about my death will be, there will be no one to write a poem in memory of me. No one to pen a verse, about any good I’ve ever done. Or about how I fought the darkness, so I could live in the sun. My memory will fade as days pass by, and I’ll be forgotten, lost in time. Hope ya like it:3

Reading all the comments here shit I’m in tears People are sad all over the world. Is it going to get better or we are going to get used to being sad?

"When do you think the person die? When they are shot through the heart by the bullet of a pistol? No When they are ravaged by an incurable disease? No When they drink a soup made from a poisonous mushroom? No It is... when they are forgetten" Dr. Hiriluk one piece

Everyone who's here are the chosen one The most DAMAGED PEOPLE ARE WISEST

Quebonafide - Zorza (prod. Jorge Méndez) Regards from Poland!

"when you take the time to do something nice to someone else, your also doing something to help yourself."

I feel like this bird right now. I understand what it's going through. It's difficult for me to express but I can't stop crying.

I have never related to a bird in my life more than I have right now

You are a star You are burning bright in the world But sadness is like a black hole It eats you and leaves nothing behind

What did you do to me I was perfectly okay now I'm in tears 😭 this is beautiful

You know nothing really good happens in my life. No friends, no one to cry on, why do people have to suffer while others are just living their lives in peace? Why do people suffer like people like me, bullied, lonely, and guilt. Why do I have to be here while nobody even talks to me the same why I talk to them. Nobody really talks to me than i talk to them. Loving, caring and nice people always are the victims not always but I remember the saying that, quiet people are the kindest and the saddest people smile the brightest and that's me.

Its 3 am, im crying while i listen to this and im staring at my ceiling

The saddest people are the wisest The most caring people are the careless The most unhappiest people smile the brightest

If this had been played at my mum's funeral, I'd have been a complete mess. The loss of a loved one is never easy regardless of whether it was expected or not. 😢

I know I'm just a kid. But I wear a smile Every day to make someone else happy. While inside I'm in tears,I'm hurt. I really need a major rest.😞

Thankyou Jorge,I'm very low at the moment as I suffer from ptsd ,but I am recovering,Your music is sad but in a weird way gives me hope and strength,,,,, which makes me happy,,thankyou

I don't want to live anymore coz it worthless.....I know that I won't get my love ever for whom my life changed,whom I love more than myself.......plz god be always with him........

❤ и дума да не става . Нали каза , че си моето вдъхновение!? Тогава изправяй се ,че ме отнесе цунамито!

Many of Us feel like that bird, and the rain of pain, loneliness, disappointments,unfairness keeps hitting us for a long time without anything we can do but to embrace it...

when you tell a joke, but no one laughs and you tell it again, but they ask why you say it twice

this rlly helps me let out all the tears i bottle up every day....i listen 2 this be4 i go 2 sleep & wen its over ive already let out all the tears & the horrible thoughts n the pain i feel tht i feel every damn day so this helps me bc ive already let out the tears so i dont cry myself 2 sleep

im at a point in life where i cant show real emotion to people. When im outside theres automaticly a smile on my face, i cant show my real feelings. Im myself when im locked alone im my bedroom. Then I cry the pain out of my body just to do it the next day exact the same...

When I listen to this, my brain goes through all sorts of things, remembering my past self and everything that happened… and now it will be kept in my heart as a memory…

Cold, I feel so cold. Not the cold you feel during winter. The cold feeling you get when your lonely. When someone has taken your light from you. When someone says your not good enough. Kinda cold. I feel like I'm freezing in a ice lake of hate. And I'm trying to get out. But my only life saver has abandoned me to save someone else. Saying "I'm not worth saving" but I don't think they realised that I saved them until I couldn't save them any longer. Now I'm drowning while still trying to give them my last remainder of oxygen that I still have left.

"No Matter How Hard Life Brings You Down You have to always remember to get back up otherwise life will grab the core of your soul and slowly tear you apart"

The hardest thing we can do as human is to accept that someone we love is gone and that we will never again see their face, or hear their voice, or embrace them in a hug when our life seems to be at its worst. To exist in a world that they no longer do is a waking nightmare, every step, every smell, every sight, brings a memory that exists to solidify the resounding sadness deep with our hearts and our souls. The years pass, the days go by, seasons change from hot to cold and then cold to hot and the earth makes its revolution around the sun, but the pain never stops, slowly your heart begins to scar, the open wound begins to close, but you are left with the phantom pain no matter how much or how long time passes by. You smile, smile to hide the misery that lay just beneath the veil of your oldened eyes. You laugh even when nothing seems funny, when all you want to do is scream and cry, you put on that brave face but in the end your left asking yourself why, why do I hide behind these lies? The sun shines bright but what warmth does it truly offer now? What do you do when all that's left are fading memories? What do you do when you can barely remember the sound of their voice? These thoughts, these questions, these emotions, they go through you like a hurricane crashing against the shore, destroying and ravaging and never leaving you with but a moments peace. "Everything is going to be okay." These were the last words a person I loved ever spoke to me. As hard as it may be to believe that anything can ever be okay, it was these words that brought me back from the brink of destruction. Words spoken by one who did not know their end was coming but became the words of my salvation none the less. Everything is okay now, no day is perfect, and many are spent trying to just live a life that was so long devoid of light or happiness. I am not usually prone to writing things like this for other people to see but, as I grow older, I realize more and more that there are people out there who are walking through the same waking nightmare that I once walked. Alone and scared, trying to fight a storm that is ravaging them inside, trying to heal when all they really want to do is die. This song brings back alot of sadness, I believe that is what music like this was meant to do, meant to draw people in together who have or are going through the same thing. I don't know if anyone will read this, the short epitome of just one person who walked through the fire and came out on the other side. An if someone does read it, if they would scoff or think of me too emotional or even just another person writing a long sad post to a sad song. But whoever you are, whatever your going through, whatever your pain, whatever brought you here and inspired you to read this, I have one thing to say to you. "Everything is going to be okay." But if I could amend this statement with my own words from everything I have learned it would be this: "Everything is going to be okay, you are not alone."

We are all in this together ❤

This bird is me ,alone, hopeless, poor , depressed and broken..

At least I know there’s some beauty in sadness

it sends me to the people we lost on the way

nothing can fill the void of uncertainty, sadness, restlessness, and longing that remains when you lose someone who was never yours.

Don't know if someone is reading this, but if you are: you are amazing and beautiful ❤️ stay strong! 💪 one of the most amazing song i ever heard. thanks for sharing

I just want to live back in the past….all of my old friends have moved on…and I’m now the last one in the forgotten group…I miss those days where I was truly happy…

Tonight, i choose to embrace this feeling . The sadness, the sorrow, the pain i feel about you. Yes, you . It's a beautiful feeling.. i feel serene inside me . If i can't experience Love with you, at least i know that there is another feeling that exist between me and you .. and we are still connected in that way . 🖤